Day 303: Death Becomes Me

Last night I listened to Sunette's interview called 'Death and Life'.

There were so many good points to look at about Death and how we have created a world full of it, funny, as a consequence of our fear of the responsibility of Living for real we embraced Death more willingly than we embraced Life.

As I looked back at the past week and my interactions, there were so many talks about death, almost none about Life, we have given Life up to Money without and the Mind within and Death ended up being so much more entertaining, so much more something to look forward to than living or at least, as we are clueless about how to go about living, we transit the Planet in a Haze waiting for our AfterLife, no longer making big plans like the Pharaohs for the trip and the goodies we wish to take with us, possibly due to Austerity, but still hoping to be able to plan for a peaceful Death, as if, one like the one a lady told me I would have, meant as a gift I guess, good karma to wish a peaceful death on someone, she said that being a sensitive she could see both me and my mum will 'go' in our sleep, no diseases and no traumatic Deaths to be scared about, surely something she wishes for herself but believes won't be able to get, she has by now accepted herself as already dis-eased and with a foot in the grave.

My mum one week ago said that she went to visit my grandparents for a small chat and to change the flowers on display, she meant at the cemetery, those are by far the least controversial visits she had with them, finally she is the only one talking with no rebuttals or things said in return that could trigger some wild automated response. 

We ended up having our best relationships with the Dead ones while we forgo our responsibility to fix the ones we have with those who are alive, how amazing of us.

Today on the news the story of a woman condemned to 12 months community service for unlawfully preventing the burial of a child that was born still born for having been kicked in the belly by her partner while she was expecting, we condemn the disrespect for Death, what about the disrespect of Life, how did THAT become Normal? Are we aware that we have created a world where Death has more value than life? Are we aware that there is something disturbing in making Laws to protect the right of the Dead and not the ones of the Living? Given that we only operate in Self Interest at the moment, are we Dead or Alive?

Solving the Death point, our fear of Death -and our fear of life-, changing our Investment Plans from Death to Life would be one of the ways we can reestablish a chance to live, not being so worried about something we cannot plan or orchestrate or, for once, manipulate, would not only bring us back Here but would allow us to have a chance at working out how to live and self express, because honestly I am just realizing how I don't have a clue about it and how much I will have to dig still to start to see a sliver of Life in me as I write out the kind of Life I want to be in consideration of the whole, something I have realized I am alien to, and  I work at how to build good relationship with people while they are still alive and how to change while I can do so for sure, because honestly no one knows what is waiting on the other side, Heaven above and Hell below seems a bit far fetched, living the Hope that magically by leaving behind the body we'll rid ourselves of all the crap we have participated in/with would mean that we are innocent and the body is guilty, the body is the carrier of the crappy life and experiences while we are all spiritual beings just momentarily trapped within it.

Yet what Breathes and is in fact alive is The Body, The Physical, when we'll move onto the Afterife what we'll leave behind is Life, an oxymoron to even have to say it, but as we became used to living words with other mean-ings, the original meaning of words just went lost, we guesstimated afterlife to mean 'afterthislife' where another, better one is waiting for us for the moment we'll finally will be saying our farewells to our shriveled up raisins like empty 'evil' bodies.

Do we bellieve our bodies are just our place of residence? Our flesh is who we are, if the house, The Temple where we live has become all dirty and mouldy why not consider cleaning it up, why not clean up our acts, redefine the starting points that move us to action or inaction, why not redefine this hellish existence of Death into one of Life, where we can all thrive, expand and share a dignified worthwhile existence.

Life is not what we manage to own or put our hands on, it's not our possessions, Life is Self Expression within self Responsibility, we can't have the Life cake and eat it by not taking responsibility for ourselves and everything we are connected to, we don't live on an island alone unless we live in our minds, so it is time to learn what Self Expression as Life means, and this will happen only by deleting what self Expression is NOT until we come to a blank slate and from there redesign who we decide ourselves to be vs what we were designed to be.

A process to undo what we have done so far that hasn't worked for ourselves or the Whole as One is available at Desteni.org, Death became us, we have the choice to stick to it or work to get our lives back and learn to live for the very first time as Self honest, self responsible Human beings that consider themselves as part of an organic Whole that can thrive with each one's ego-less participation.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to glorify Death as a teenager by saying and writing that 'Death is paid with Life'

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to be fascinated with death and the AfterLife vs participating in Life Here as an intrinsec piece of the puzzle that must stand in and as self responsibility for myself and all of existence as One

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear Death and dying in a violent death when I have no direct information about how the death experience is and therefore everything I think about it is just an assumption with no foundation in reality and I will have to live to see it through when the time comes, which is something I have no control over in any way and is therefore time to let go all and every worry about it

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that the AfterLife was more important than Life, because within this belief I accepted and allowed a World of Death to exist as I glorified what may come vs what is Here where I can infact learn to live and experience mySelf through this opportunity to do so and within this for accepting and allowing myself  to waste my Life in the pursuit of a worthy ticket into the AfterLife, disregarding what is Here that is not yet living in Oneness and Equality the dignity that we could grant to each other by standing as One beyond our Egos for what is Best for All and All of existence as One.

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Day 287: The Value of Life = Money?

As we exchanged opinions on Quora, it became clear we don't understand, perceive or share the principle that All Life has Equal Worth.

What is the system that we have used so far to establish the value of Life?

Is there one we are not aware of that we have just internalized and now we can't see anymore clearly and so we are not aware of what we are using as the measure for the worth of Life?

Sure there is, it's Money.

I have a vague memory of being real young and discovering that insurance companies would not pay up the same price for Life policies of different people, I don't remember this point striking me as odd, on the contrary, I remember that when my mum explained to me the WHY as in 'if the person that dies was a doctor, the insurance would pay more due to what we would call 'Loss of potential Earnings' and that would be calculated on a Life time earnings that had been missed out on due to death'.

It made perfect sense. Which means that I had already internalized the value of human life equivalent to Money or to Money earning potential. (Ogden Tables - how insurances evaluate the worth of a Life)

So back a few more years, I am in kindergarten and my mum bought a black and white TV for my school, I received public recognition and an applause, that felt damn good, so it could have been then that I made this connection - giving something to people that I can Buy will give me value as recognition of generosity and of a good character, hence I developed a liking for giving, not devoid of self interest of course, I would be cashing in the good feelings coming from the gratefulness and happiness of others.

Same time more or less, my grandparents always insisting in buying me the 'best available in any shop', watching the shop attendants scuttle around to please them, equating buying power with power and people with more buying power to MORE, desiring to have more buying power than others to be able to access this more-ness to compensate for sure my not-enough-ness.

Special events spent at my grandparents home, display of treats as special food that was not available in my mother's home, more 'joy' due to drinking and overeating, connecting joy to having more to share with others, being the bringer of treats and special foods to a table to make people happy, money as a way to induce good feelings in people, the ones with more money able to induce more good feelings in others, bringers of joy and as such more valuable than the poor that had nothing to add to the life of another in terms of things, defining the worth of life through the worth of things one is able to afford and share.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that I was not enough and I had to find ways to up my worth by subscribing to an external value/worth system, such as the Money system

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe and subscribe to the belief that some lives are worth more than others just because insurance companies have set up tables defining the value of life as 'potential missed earnings' which means according to the profession and relative remuneration of each one, vs an Equal Value of Life for All, seeing, realizing and understanding that life can't be and should not be defined by the potential to earn money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fail to notice that, if the worth of a Life was connected to the ability to earn Money, Life itself was tied into a monetary value/worth, and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that Money is what we are worth and that our capacity/ability to generate a wage is what gave meaning and value to our life, which is why I still meet with people who hold this belief as a reminder that this belief exists one and Equal within me and is in need to be corrected and realigned to Oneness and Equality returning worth and value to Life itself.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to define the value of life as more or less according to what one can BUY for another, instead of seeing and realizing that the whole point of some being able to buy something for someone who doesn't have access to the same benefit, is just a sign of unequal distribution of resources and of value tied in to money/resources and that we should work together to change the distribution of resources to Equality and not benefit from having more than others as a way to have more value/power than any other in the world

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to, when I was a kid and I was catered for by shop assistants who could assess at a glance my grandparents buying power, to feel special and more than others who did not have access to the same "Best" I had access to, and within this for desiring to keep this "Best" advantage going for myself as a way to be more than others in value/worth

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I would have to ever swap place with those who had less, I would have to feel diminished by having to accept the charity of others who were in a position of superior buying power than the one I had, because I diminished others inside of me when I could find out they did not have my same buying power as I did not recognize the value of Life as One and Equal for All but connected to what one could afford to show their value/worth

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to connect the worth of Life with what kind of table displays I could set up and share with others as a statement of my superior value/worth as I have accepted and allowed myself to connect fancy table displays of my grandparents with joy and happiness due to overeating and over drinking, and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to have more value and worth than others in being the dispenser of such happy moments that others could not offer to me due to our discrepancy in access to food choices due to Money Inequality

I commit myself to, when I come face to face with others who hold a specific Life/Money conversion table, to investigate within myself how and if I am participating in the same constructs and if I am, to correct myself to let go my acquired beliefs, opinions and ideas about what makes a Life worthy, to return to Life its own intrinsic Value that I misplaced on things and symbols in separation from myself as Life

I commit myself to investigate the points in which I still perceive I give myself a superior value using things and symbols in separation from myself and when I find any, to self correct myself to realign to Oneness and Equality and what is best for All

I commit myself to stand unconditionally for an Equal Money System to create a world of Equals where Life is the only Value we all Equally share to guarantee a dignified Life for All and the end of all abuses and crimes against Life to ensure that those born after us won't have to face such a world where Life has gone on sale for the imaginary value of a make belief Monetary System as the Key to the Vital resources we should all Equally share.

Heaven on Earth for All is possible - we  just have to decide to change and change the world with us, as us - after death we'll be dead, and so far there have been zero intervention from the other side, what if the power to change existed only within The Physical while we are Alive? Should we wait to die to find out?

Day 151: The Biggest Missing Piece - A Reply to Abraham Hicks

I followed Abraham's teachings for over 10 years, I bought all the videos, books and tapes available and brainwashed myself with them, literally.

I had to make a few changes in my life to keep up with Positive Thinking, for example I would not allow negative thinkers around me and would blame them for 'bringing the tone of the positive' down, so to speak, like in mathematics, if you have positive numbers to which you add negative numbers, the positive numbers decrease, so if I was a +10 and my friends a -7 and I ended up being a +3, it was obviously Their Fault.

I went to a few events as well, Houston & San Antonio Texas, a venue I believed I manifested in perfect synchronicity with one of my husband unplanned business trips, during which we had a terrible fight and he boarded a plane to return home a few days before Abraham's meeting.

During his flight back home he lost his luggage where his treasured toothbrush was, since he was particular about brushing his teeth I could imagine the stress with a certain pleasure, there you go dear, see what negative thinking does to you. When you are a Positive thinker it's cool to look down at the miseries of the negative thinkers 'thinking' that they are doing that to themselves, boyohboy, when will they ever learn.

It was an easy ship to board, and I can call it a ship with reason, I joined their cruise program to Mexico on this Positive Wave/The Secret craze.

Then I decided that since this was my daily bread I should take it as far as I could, go on a deserted island and manifest money out of nothing to prove that it worked and then teach others how to do it.

It actually Did Not work, I spent all my Money in 4 years and while I pushed and strived to stay positive reality took a while to sink in, I saw as well, just recently how those Teachings diminished me, as I believed basically that my hard work in the physical real world was worth nothing and that making money was the resut not of having consistently aligned myself to the system and having worked my ass off, but simply of me being good at manifesting, at positive thinking, I scuffed my physical life and my physical participation for my Mind bullshit.

The landing was not an easy one, considering that I went from positive thinking to the realization 'there is something terribly wrong with this world' first and then to Desteni, which would have been for me living on "charges' just about as polarized as one could get into a lifetime, Desteni being on the extreme 'negative' polarity of the spectrum, otherwise called 'in touch with reality' I thought that I would not survive the stretch either, that I would snap in half and that would be the end of me.

It's been over a year since I started walking with Desteni and applying their tools, two days ago I watched Abraham again, in a video called 'The Biggest Missing Piece' I used to really always get a kick out of the channelings and discount everything I saw when someone opposed the teachings as 'them, not getting it', this time this is what I noticed:

A man exposed very clearly his distress about The World and what is going on, which would equate phase 2 of my life, he is still lacking phase 3, Desteni, because he has not yet heard about us, maybe our messages will reach him this way. Basically he woke up to the shithole of this existence and was not taking any positive chit chat for an answer

Things Abraham did that I did not notice before: 

sympathized with the man, told him 'yes you are right we are not denying what you are saying, horrific things are indeed going on everywhere', the 'WE' hit me for the first time, because 'WE' means there is more of 'Us' than 'Yous' -and they always said there are more than 100 entities channeling through One voice as Abraham-, and 'We' is usually granted to Royalty that speak as 'We', for the same reason, because more of us means more than One of You, in case you didn't get the superiority point through the "Channeling Act" or 'the Royalty title" itself.

The apparent equalizing was another way to level the play field but the 'WE' staid so there could be no real leveling or equalizing for real.

The man went on exposing in a very articulate manner what he saw in the world and how disgusted he was by it all, the cameras took in the people in the background, a typical channeling bunch, of lifeless uncomfortable lot that didn't know how to respond, some sneered, because after all they were paying money for the 'good feeling' and like me with my friends they wanted no 'party pooper' around that brought in reality into the equation as the effort to float above reality takes some consistency, being reality everywhere and hard to avoid.

Through an absolute unrelated gimmick he was taken on a Death trip to Heaven, to remind him that there is death if all else fail, be patient, and then on a closing that was rushed into 'your choice my man, I have a really good story here that gives you joy but you want to insist on reality? - Let's be clear that I have not failed you, the story stands, it's YOU no longer willing to believe it hei- remember where to place the blame when you'll review our little chat."

Here some of the replies from us as a Group

The BIGGEST Missing Piece - Response to Abraham Hicks - by Bernard

The Missing Piece - a Video response to Abraham Hicks, by Andrea 

The Biggest Missing Piece -- Video Response to Abraham Hicks - by Maya

The Biggest Missing Piece - Abraham Hicks, by Marlen 

It was painful to watch, the point is, is it true that 'We can't handle The truth'? Is the fear of the Truth of this existence and ourselves that is making us seek the unbelievable ad then make us beLieve it, what if we woke up to the state of this world to do what is required to create a Life that is Best for All?

Wouldn't that be what we say we want, so what are we waiting for looking for obvious Mind games vs reality, because get this, Reality is Not going away just because we don't focus on it, Reality is Here to stay, how else could we face what went wrong with our Creation and make an existential correction that starts with Each One of us?

There is the question to ask about Why we believe the stories told by The Positive Thinking Teachers and if we can become self honest about it we can say, because we mainly deal with negative thoughts and emotions as the experience of ourselves that we cannot explain or make sense of, we spend the first years of our lives trying to find reasons and meaning to both this Creation, for which we have no clear memories telling us how the fuck did we get here and why, and the mechanics of how we experience ourselves, one of the main oppositions we find to the Desteni Message is people fearing to leave behind 'emotions and feelings' and yet we looked for so long to make sense of them, which is the point where Abraham fits in neatly, when you say, "emotions and feelings are your guidance system", everything seems to make sense, there you go, we are on a Treasure Hunt and they forgot to tell us how to move around, got it, follow the good feelings back Home. Pity it was and is all just a big fat (expensive) Lie.

Check out #EqualMoney for a solution that will change Reality for All in reality and not in our dis-eased Minds seeking for solace in a world that truly doesn't make sense.

I have done lots of Sf for my involvement with LOA, I will apply SF for/as Esther's Role in this Character Creation

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not question an entity that told me that all is well in this world when it was clear that it is not

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create an alter ego as a Sub Personality that takes over as 'Chaneling' that says things I can not take responsibility for because 'I am not there'

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not question the point of the Economics/Monetary System in this world as a source of suffering because Abraham said that we each chose our Life experience even though I would not have chosen a life of misery, war, starvation, murder or rape for myself

I forgive myself for accepting and alowing myself to let go of mine and Jerry's Common Sense about wanting to know about the Whys of the "Wrongs of the World" and for accepting and allowing an entity whose purpose we didn't question because the message 'felt good' to con-vince us that 'that was not out work' as that we didn't have to take responsibility for this world as Our Creation, as One

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that we deserved to stay at the Westin and have the best food and the best life while others did not because I justified the existence of suffering as having  made the "wrong/different choice" up in heaven before they reincarnated that resulted in a shitty life that no one could possibly wish for themselves

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not question Death and the anomaly of it in a world of Joy, not even when my lifelong partner crossed over and I was devastated by grief because I have to stick to my story that Death is Fun and we just 'don't get it'

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hide that my partner Jerry had cancer for many months because we could not come up with a good explanation about the fact that we each choose how to exit the physical and yet Jerry was sick and in pain for months having to go through Chemotherapy like everyone else that is Cancer striken in the world

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to lie about the sickness of Jerry attributing it first to a spider bite that magically turned into leukemia and for lying about seeking treatment with stem cells in South Korea, because this would have made us 'normal people' trying everything to stay alive haveing a dreadful Fear of Death, and not the Joyful Deliberate Creators that looked forward to the transition into the non -physical through the fun experience of 'croaking'

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that if I become a Beacon of Joy through having All My desires fulfilled, then this will create opportunities for the world at large to align to well being, even though I have been telling the same story consistently for over 20 years and the world has become worse and yet I did not bother to have a Reality Check because My Reality worked out just fine

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see the consequences of a message that glorifies Death in a sick and sickening world, where we made Death look so glamourous that people may believe it is a cool way out, such as Karen, the lady that suffered from grave depression and ended up committing suicide after which we deleted her from the Forums because it gives the wrong impression of the joyful croaking transition into non physical - and maybe of our responsibility in it as she took our words about Death being so cool that she could not wait to experience it-

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not really Hear what the Distressed man brought to the table which could have been my chance to question The Truth of this Mess-Age I am spreading for over 20 years, because I was too busy keeping up the act that gives me a living and without which I would no longer know Who I Am

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not Hear the Common Sense of the Words of a Man that exposed the inconsistency between reality and the Message of Law of Attraction, targeting only the Few that have already access to a world of well being, having enough to either attend the seminars and buy books and tapes, which means they have food as well and a roof over their head and an education that allows them to read or access the message in some way, vs the world at large where 2.5 billion people don't have access to sanitation and 1 billion is starving and or malnourished as we write

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to try and belittle the man who raised some much important questions regarding the state of the world, because not belittling him would mean belittling me and my message and this cannot happen

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to tell the story that the 'Secret behind The Secret' is me and my 'original Message of wellbeing and 'You can have it if you Want it' when in truth the Secret is that in an obviously finite universe where resources are limited if you take more than you need, someone will have to go without, which is what is shown to us in the increase of poverty and starvation since law of Attraction was introduced and practiced

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to insist that these are the best of Times for 'Shifts to Happen' and only rarely add that they are 'The Worse of Times too', not making the connection that it must be if everything exists within polarity and that increasing the pulling of the Positive will have to create an increase on the Negative, and that is fine, as long as the Negative happens somewhere remote where we can't find a correlation to 'that thing we do' as we participate in the positive Polarity of The Mind for our own selfish and self centered reasons

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that now that Jerry is gone and I no longer have a sounding board to confirm that everything I say is true, everything may come tumbling down if I engage in depth questions such as the gentleman's questions about The State of the world for too long, and I will be exposed as a fraud in the best case or a mental case at worst

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Fear facing the Reality of this World and the Suffering that exists because this would invalidate my whole Life's work and Myself as I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as 'Abraham's Channeler' and friend.

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Day 120: I am Awake - Not A Wake

When and as I see myself desiring to take a nap, to oversleep, to just close my eyes and not be Here, I stop, Breathe, remind myself that I can only be Awake or A Wake, waiting for My Death as The Solution instead of seeing and realizing that I am The Solution when I am Awake and Not A Wake

I commit myself to not give in to the desire to sleep when I am not in fact physically tired as I change my routine to sleep my 6 hours every night and stop indulging in sleep as a reward that only keeps me looping into the Mind as the "Wake me up when it's All Over Character”

When and as I see myself trying to stay in my zombie sleepy state going to the toilet so I can return to bed telling myself I was half asleep, I stop, Breathe, tell myself that if I am half asleep I must be half awake as well and stand as the directive principle to get going without indulging in sleep that I do not need

I commit myself to sleep six hours per night and then get up and get moving as the directive principle of me and not as a Mind System that has to wait to move until the Mind says go, I commit myself to not be dependent on my mind when sleep is involved but to check if I am physically tired or if I am just looking for a Mind Break to not be Here and face a point, a moment that needs my attention so I can see who I am within that moment and how I wrote myself to be that 'Who I am' within that moment to Self Correct to realign myself to Oneness and Equality and What is Best for All.

When and as I see myself coming up with excuses about why I 'deserve ' to rest, as if rest was not a physical moment of rest but something I have earned after doing something else that I myself judged as cumbersome, I stop, Breathe, look at what I have defined as cumbersome so I can remove that judgement through Self Forgiveness as I realize it is me defining everything in my life within polarities and I see it as an opportunity to find a point of judgment and definition to release myself from it

I commit myself to stop the judgments and definitions of my activities and the division in easy and cumbersome, fun and boring, exciting and a drag, as those definitions invite/push me within the 'Wake Me up when It's All Over' Character as I desire to reward myself for something I myself judged as cumbersome, boring, a drag, or whatever other negative charged definition I have placed on a task that I then desire to balance out with the positively charged 'napping time', and within this I forgive myself for charging the ‘napping time’ positively and remove that charge for good as I define napping time as NT necessary, not positive or negative, unless required by my body.

When and as I see myself coming up with excuses and justifications about why a nap is actually due, I stop, Breathe, see that it's another of one of my clever mindfuck with which I hope to find the right excuse to drift away, to not be Here and so stopping dreading to Be Here as the polarity of the ex positively charged napping time is rewarded and within this I forgive myself for having labeled, defined, thought of, spoken of, being Here as being Aware as something I do not like to do from which I found thousands of escaping routes, just because being Here was not providing the Energetic fix I have grown accustomed to and defined Life, instead I see and realize that I am just getting used to myself as Self expression that is not motivated or pushed around by Energy and that there is nothing More of Me and Nothing More of Here to look for, because Me Here in and as Breath is All There IS.

I commit myself to embrace myself and my self expression as being Here in and as Breath outside of Energetic movements and push overs so I can come to know myself and who I am as Self Expression as Life, for What is Best for All for myself and All of Existence, Equal and One 

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Day 108: Bury me Richly/Fear of Death, Self Commitment Statements

When and as I see myself move or about to move into a reaction regarding Death, I stop, Breathe, remind myself I am experiencing a preprogrammed Fear of no longer existing as the Mind and the Fear of still existing after Death, and having to face whatever it is that I am still accountable for that I have not addressed in Life, and remind myself that either joining the Fear of Death brigade or moving into my Mind to scare myself about the Here After, are just 2 ways to not be Here, where in fact my only power to change myself exists, within Breath as the accumulation of Breaths that I build up not as The Mind but as The Physical, for myself as Life and What is Best for All, Equal and One

I commit myself to investigate the ways of Death that I have filed under the Death File in and as my Mind, so that I can take back my investments placed upon Death and not upon Life through Breath-less Fear, to stop my existence as Fear of Death and what will happen to me as both The Physical and The Mind

I commit myself to disengage myself from the Cult of Death, not through discussions with others sharing Opinions regarding Death and Dying and what will happen to us in the HereAfter, but by stopping my emotional participation as reactions to Death as Ideas, Opinions, Concepts and Beliefs about Death and what Death is in fact, since we will only know first hand when we do die, and we can either Live until we die or die a little every day through Fear of Death, while we miss out on living Here in and as Breath

I commit myself to stand as Common Sense to stop the Cult of Death, to point out that worrying about what kind of grave we will leave behind at Death is just another Consumerist point that will follow us all the way to the Grave, but not beyond, as Death will come as the End of our Consumption of ourselves as Life and this planet and all the Life forms that we share it with

I commit myself to the Common Sense of Life as Breath to stop the Cult of Death, pointing out whenever I see a chance that we have not in fact Evolved since each one of us hopes to leave behind a grave that testifies to the Life we have been, failing to see that all Graves are the same, be them pyramids or just humble Stone tombs as they stand to testify humans that have not transcended Death, no matter their status or money that only allowed for a better display of a wasted life that was NOT used for the betterment of Life on  Earth and What is best for All, but just as a pass-time, in which time passed and then we died, no matter if some'body' will take longer to rot and return to earth or less as the corpses of rich and poor are still corpses all the same

I commit myself to no longer pass on terrifying stories of disasters and murders to Children, thinking that I can make myself interesting to their Mind as a Mind, as I bring up 'exciting/thrilling ' stories, and to remind myself that what we call exciting/thrilling is in fact an adrenalin shot, that is released by Fear, and that when I pass on exciting stories to kids I am no different than a drug dealer hoping to get them hooked on my specific drug of choice as excitement, and that the passing on of Fears to children is in fact an act of child abuse that we must remind ourselves to stop, as the excuse that it was done to us is no excuse to keep it up, damaging the new generations and crippling their chances to Live as Life and not live as Death as we have been living so far, just awoken here and there by self released chemicals that gave us the 'Illusion to be Alive'

I commit myself to stand as a point of Common Sense for Life, and not as a point that justifies death as The Only Way to get Out of Here, because there is another Way and we need to teach it to Each Other, and the Way is to get out of our Minds, to return to the Physical in Oneness and Equality with Life and All of Existence, and then Death will be no More, as Death will be transcended by our Hereness in every moment of Breath and beyond, to return One and Equal and establish Heaven on Earth for everyone

I commit myself to stop my fascination with death, skulls, bones, as I see realize and understand, they were always symbols of 'excitement/thrill' as the At Most Fear we lived in, and not symbols of Life, and that Death is not to be feared since what is going on of atrocious in the World is NOT done by the Dead, but by the Living Dead and that only through Stopping our existence as the Living Dead we can come back to Life and see, realize and understand, we could only see who we were as Death, and so Death we became, yet Life is waiting in and as the Physical and our Breaths will be the steps to close the gaps between us as Death and the Body as Life, one Breath at the time, until only Life remains.

Day 107: "Bury me Richly" - Character

Today as I walked, I passed a small Chapel with a collection of 'Skulls and Bones' and a Sign that said 

What we are Now, you will be, those whom forget Us Now, 
Forget themselves.

My Grandmother was the first I heard passing on this sentence, as the Elders tried to secure their immortality by making it clear that relationships do not end at Death (you wish), you are bound to them after they pass on, all the way to the Grave, Your Grave.

People that say that Death is 'The Great Equalizer' have not visited the Monumentale Graveyard in Milan, which took 80 years to build, an exclusive graveyard for the Rich where if you do not have a family burial chapel, that you have prepared many years ago with plenty empty spaces for the generations to come, you won't be able to get in - as a corpse-, unless you are very very rich, and then for sure someone can find a space for yours or your 'dear' ones corpses, to ensure your Status in Death as well so you would never have to mix with the Poor that during the Plague were just burnt in the squares and whose Skulls and Bones decorates some of the roofs of Churches in Milan and why not, who was going to claim them back anyway ?

My mother used to take me there on field trips, to view the amazing sculptures and Chapels, as I researched a picture I found one from Tripomatic that said
"Huge cemetery with exciting atmosphere. Wide arrange of amazing statues, tombs and graves."

What is exciting about Death really ?
The freaking FEAR we all have about it ?

Why do we pass on this Death Cult and not the Honoring of All of Life to the new generations, why do we prepare their graves to let them know they will have to fill them one day and to never forget, and we warn them, if you try to forget about Death, You forget about Yourself, the Living Dead.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Fear cemeteries

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not question why, even in Death, there was Inequality and some corpses were more valuable than others and would have to be preserved from being returned to the Earth since their remnants were too precious to be soil-ed 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to be buried among the rich, so that I could have a Better/Bigger Death and not be buried 6 feet under where I would no longer be able to Breathe and I would suffocate, since the concept of death was not so clear to me when they dragged me around the Cemeteries of the Wealthy and the ones of the Poor

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist going to the Poor people cemetery, The Maggiore one, meaning the biggest, because of the uneasiness I felt at the idea that there was where I belonged, with the Poor, having the biggest cemetery, the Major as they died younger in biggest number than the Elite, the minority, who led better lives with better living condition, better healthcare and food throughout time, making their lives easier and longer, just proving that Nothing has EVER Changed

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear being buried in a cemetery that was not even worthy of a proper Italian name but had a dialect name from Milan 'Musocco' and for fearing that when I would be buried there I would have little space between me and other corpses because the poor were not allowed to take up land space and everything about their burial was not to remember them but to forget them, rotate their bodies into the earth for 20 years and then dig up the bones to store in small boxes inside walls

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel repulsion for the idea of Death and cemeteries and for resenting my mum wanting to drag me along on the prescribed 'Worship of the Deads' calendar day, to pay our respects by washing the tombstones and changing the plastic flowers

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I was angry at my mum for insisting to bring up the point that when she died she expected me to visit the cemetery to 'see her' and bring her flowers while I was angry at myself  because I could not understand the point of the worship of corpses and could not find any common sensible reasons why we paid attention to the dead and not to the living ones

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think that all this Death business was just a business and for judging the business of Death as worse than other businesses because I believed people were taking advantage of other's sorrow and desperation, while every business is the same because Through the Current Money System we are always taking advantage of someone's sorrow or desperation

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear walking next to cemeteries at night, in fear that spirits would rise from the graves and grab me to drag me down 6 feet under with them

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to despise all the people who went regularly to the cemetery to sit for hours on the tombs of their dear 'departed' instead of realizing I never despised them but just Death and the extensive fear I suppressed of Death , what it was and the Hereafter, of which nobody was sure or had clear indications/instructions about what was awaiting us and how we were supposed to prepare for it

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear death and dying suddenly without being prepared

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear Death at all times because nobody knew how we were supposed to prepare for it and so it was one of the never ending hovering fears of my life without resolution that I suppressed

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that Death is not the end, because if it was the end then it would just be the end, but what if after death a surprise awaits us and we get so scared that we die a second time, is that even possible ? To be scared to death after death ?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to imprint myself with stories of Death and the Dead, and the After Life as distractions from Here and Life and living, so I would not have to face the Here because my focus would be constantly subconsciously on the Here After and I could cruise through life never taking responsibility for myself because the accountancy was done After Death and it was not clear what we were supposed to be accountable for

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to live the Illusion of Life as the Living Dead, fearing what I already was while I searched for Life and the Meaning of Life out there, never being Here with myself in and as Breath as The Physical, spending my waking time within the extensive fear of Death, Hoping to at least be buried richly, so if I would end up having a Poor Life I could Hope for a Rich Death, comfortable, away from humidity and Worms eating my flesh and being blinded by the soil in my eyes into eternity

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress my fear of Death, because fearing death which is inevitable is unbecoming and something nobody talks about unless they are close to death, and then the secular fears come to the surface to be shared with the young ones that are shocked and surprised to learn that the Elders too fear death, as they were the ones passing onto us their own Fears, so that Death would seem less scary to them through the eyes of the young ones that had all their Life ahead of them, until they spilled over their uncontainable Fears under the guise of the Worship/Cult of Death and the Dead and took their Life from them, to live a little longer through the imaginary fearless world of Youth, no matter if the sharing their fears and imprinting them into children with fancy names meant that the children were now contaminated by Fear as they were, but they called it Love your Dead Ones, so it was all right

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to NOT question this sickness of the worship/ cult of Death when Life was clearly never on anybody's mind and for not standing up for Life while I accepted and allowed myself to be put back in my place by Death and Fear of Death, as all the generations that went before me and will go after me, UNLESS WE STOP and return Here where Life is, in Breath as Oneness and Equality and What is best for All, until Death will be no more and we will be back to Life eternal Here in every moment of Breath, for the generations to come.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to pass on my own fear of Death to children and the Young ones under fancy stories of Disasters as I myself felt thrilled by the stories of Disasters when I was a kid, such as Titanic and asked my mum to tell it again and again, never realizing I was not thrilled, I was scared to Death by Death and confused the feeling of fear with thrill/excitement like the ones leading groups of tourists are still doing until today, when they describe our Monumental Cemetery as 'an Exciting At-Most-Fear'.


Self commitment statements on fear of Death to follow