Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Day 288: Looking at Taking Things Personally

Today I spoke to my ex h., he asked if he can stay at my place for Easter because one of his aunts died and he is coming to see the family.

I said 'of curse course, you are always welcome' - and of course I didn't mean it.

I wish I did, I wish I was that kind of woman that would really say 'you are welcome' and mean it, specifically to him because as we say 'much water has gone under the bridge' and yet obviously - not enough.

Anyway, there is a specific reason I am clear about regarding why I felt I was not happy to see him and I may work on it in private, but what I want to write about today is this trigger that still works between us.

It goes like this

he asks for my advice or an idea or what food we should eat - and I make a suggestion, and he then goes on to say 'NO' and explain why my suggestion is wrong.

I had almost forgotten about this because I wrote a lot of SF on my relationship, but today as I did not see the trigger coming s I basked in the delusion that I was done with our misunderstandings, he asked me an idea about a business, I gave one, he proceeded on our usual track to explain why it was NOT a good idea, I explained the whole sides of it, which he proceeded to debate and THEN, an the tenth 'NO' I saw the trigger but it was too late, because I was already reacting with the usual 'why the fuck ask me then - if you have an answer why not go with your answer instead of using me to bounce off how clever you are to see all the whys what I said will not work', this was just backchat, not shared, but from there I saw myself move into the Ironic Character, and I had to repeatedly stop myself and delete all the jokes I wrote because they were not humorous, they were 'gotcha' jokes - my way of evening out the ledger.

When we do "ideas" the trigger is not too strong - I was once given a key about him from a girlfriend that worked with NLP, she told me he is a "faulfinder by profession" and he doesn't mean anything PERSONALLY. So it is about taking something personally again, feeling diminished because my idea and hence myself was not good enough.

It gets worse with restaurants, because I have a belief that if you ask, you must sincerely not know what you want to eat, so why it only becomes clear that you don't want to eat Chinese, Japanese, Turkish, Indian, Italian - just after I say it, this is harder to believe, so I always interpret this point as the 'desire to pick a fight', today we treaded lightly the food point and I was vague because I had seen myself wearing my little fuchsia battle helmet for 'rejected ideas' and I was not stable enough to walk the food trigger.

As well there is a deep seated anger about relationships that is triggered when we talk but it's deep deep, like a blame I don't even want to admit to myself -that it is because of him that the idea of a relationship is now revolting to me, vs taking responsibility for how I end up feeling within a relationship that made me design this revolting point as a screen to cover up the fear that I may be the problem of relationships and that I should no longer chance one, least I have to face this point once more, and so, blaming him it's all too easy, so easy in fact that I deny doing it and then bury the whole story 6 feet under, never deep enough to not fear it may all raise its ugly head again and so the rage that boils up from all of that, the rage is the dragon I have put to guard that secret, the rage is the the lid, so when I see the rage potential I won't go and dig into what is really going on there and how to dig it all out to self correct.

Tomorrow I will look into this point to clear myself and see if for once I can enjoy this visit and the time we have to spend together.

Process Instructions @ Desteni

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Monday, March 25, 2013

Day 287: The Value of Life = Money?

As we exchanged opinions on Quora, it became clear we don't understand, perceive or share the principle that All Life has Equal Worth.

What is the system that we have used so far to establish the value of Life?
Is there one we are not aware of that we have just internalized and now we can't see anymore clearly and so we are not aware of what we are using as the measure for the worth of Life?
Sure there is, it's Money.

I have a vague memory of being real young and discovering that insurance companies would not pay up the same price for Life policies of different people, I don't remember this point striking me as odd, on the contrary, I remember that when my mum explained to me the WHY as in 'if the person that dies was a doctor, the insurance would pay more due to what we would call 'Loss of potential Earnings' and that would be calculated on a Life time earnings that had been missed out on due to death'.
It made perfect sense. Which means that I had already internalized the value of human life equivalent to Money or to Money earning potential. (Ogden Tables - how insurances evaluate the worth of a Life)

So back a few more years, I am in kindergarten and my mum bought a black and white TV for my school, I received public recognition and an applause, that felt damn good, so it could have been then that I made this connection - giving something to people that I can Buy will give me value as recognition of generosity and of a good character, hence I developed a liking for giving, not devoid of self interest of course, I would be cashing in the good feelings coming from the gratefulness and happiness of others.

Same time more or less, my grandparents always insisting in buying me the 'best available in any shop', watching the shop attendants scuttle around to please them, equating buying power with power and people with more buying power to MORE, desiring to have more buying power than others to be able to access this more-ness to compensate for sure my not-enough-ness.

Special events spent at my grandparents home, display of treats as special food that was not available in my mother's home, more 'joy' due to drinking and overeating, connecting joy to having more to share with others, being the bringer of treats and special foods to a table to make people happy, money as a way to induce good feelings in people, the ones with more money able to induce more good feelings in others, bringers of joy and as such more valuable than the poor that had nothing to add to the life of another in terms of things, defining the worth of life through the worth of things one is able to afford and share.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that I was not enough and I had to find ways to up my worth by subscribing to an external value/worth system, such as the Money system

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe and subscribe to the belief that some lives are worth more than others just because insurance companies have set up tables defining the value of life as 'potential missed earnings' which means according to the profession and relative remuneration of each one, vs an Equal Value of Life for All, seeing, realizing and understanding that life can't be and should not be defined by the potential to earn money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fail to notice that, if the worth of a Life was connected to the ability to earn Money, Life itself was tied into a monetary value/worth, and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that Money is what we are worth and that our capacity/ability to generate a wage is what gave meaning and value to our life, which is why I still meet with people who hold this belief as a reminder that this belief exists one and Equal within me and is in need to be corrected and realigned to Oneness and Equality returning worth and value to Life itself.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to define the value of life as more or less according to what one can BUY for another, instead of seeing and realizing that the whole point of some being able to buy something for someone who doesn't have access to the same benefit, is just a sign of unequal distribution of resources and of value tied in to money/resources and that we should work together to change the distribution of resources to Equality and not benefit from having more than others as a way to have more value/power than any other in the world

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to, when I was a kid and I was catered for by shop assistants who could assess at a glance my grandparents buying power, to feel special and more than others who did not have access to the same "Best" I had access to, and within this for desiring to keep this "Best" advantage going for myself as a way to be more than others in value/worth

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I would have to ever swap place with those who had less, I would have to feel diminished by having to accept the charity of others who were in a position of superior buying power than the one I had, because I diminished others inside of me when I could find out they did not have my same buying power as I did not recognize the value of Life as One and Equal for All but connected to what one could afford to show their value/worth

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to connect the worth of Life with what kind of table displays I could set up and share with others as a statement of my superior value/worth as I have accepted and allowed myself to connect fancy table displays of my grandparents with joy and happiness due to overeating and over drinking, and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to have more value and worth than others in being the dispenser of such happy moments that others could not offer to me due to our discrepancy in access to food choices due to Money Inequality

I commit myself to, when I come face to face with others who hold a specific Life/Money conversion table, to investigate within myself how and if I am participating in the same constructs and if I am, to correct myself to let go my acquired beliefs, opinions and ideas about what makes a Life worthy, to return to Life its own intrinsic Value that I misplaced on things and symbols in separation from myself as Life

I commit myself to investigate the points in which I still perceive I give myself a superior value using things and symbols in separation from myself and when I find any, to self correct myself to realign to Oneness and Equality and what is best for All

I commit myself to stand unconditionally for an Equal Money System to create a world of Equals where Life is the only Value we all Equally share to guarantee a dignified Life for All and the end of all abuses and crimes against Life to ensure that those born after us won't have to face such a world where Life has gone on sale for the imaginary value of a make belief Monetary System as the Key to the Vital resources we should all Equally share.

Heaven on Earth for All is possible - we  just have to decide to change and change the world with us, as us - after death we'll be dead, and so far there have been zero intervention from the other side, what if the power to change existed only within The Physical while we are Alive? Should we wait to die to find out?

Day 286: 'Le Havre' - The Poetry in Poverty?

Le Havre (film)
Le Havre (film) (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Last night I watched a French movie called 'Le Havre', in Italian was translated in 'The Miracle in le Havre' -because we are Catholics and Miracles sell.

For those that don't know, Le Havre is the first container port of France and the one with the best connection to the rest of Europe.

The movie depicts an African boy arriving by cargo ship in Le Havre and an aging shoe shiner that takes pity on the child and welcomes him into his home. Of course he has the mandatory sick wife that due to his good deed, is healed at the end and they return even happier to their modest home with a window looking out on a brick wall. Violins playing. Credits rolling.

The movie must have struck some chords, it's one of those 'indipendent' movies that show the Poetry in Poverty - how all the Poor are better and nicer and truly kind while the Rich are the real poor (in spirit) as a very familiar theme in our screenplays and literature, the underdogs good heart (please watch The Millionaire for a return to reality of the 'underdog world' - enough to say my mum did not want to watch it - too much Reality!!!!) and appreciation for the simple things of life, a modest home and life, true love, a dog and no desires, it ranked up 15 wins and 19 nominations.

I found the movie offensive.

Firstly because it did not depict Le Havre for what it is, which is France entrance point for poor migrants coming in from the sea, the equivalent to Italian Lampedusa, many are not aware of the boats that did not make it there, little wooden boats that tried to cross the divide into Europe and did not make it. 
At the assignment speech of our new Chamber of deputies President, Laura Boldrini, a lady who used to work for UN, she said 'Let's remember all the nameless people buried at sea that lost their life while trying to get into Europe hoping for a better, fairer life". Yes, lets.

Le Havre is in every respect France's Lampedusa.

In the movie, at the beginning, a cargo container is opened up at the arrival, the container was full of black people who were alive, with neat clean clothes and a very dignified demeanor. No one jumped back from the stench that you would certainly find in a container where people have been locked for days without a toilet, and mostly, if you found 2 alive on the whole bunch THAT would be a Miracle.

We have been hearing about cargo containers loaded with people who did not make it, they come from as far as China, which makes it a 3 weeks to a month sea trip, what a fucking surprise, does anyone know how a cargo container is transported across the sea, out in the open exposed to weather excursions, completely sealed and how many chances the people who embark on such a trip have? Are we brain damaged that we can watch such a movie without questioning how is it possible that people who must have boarded on the north African coasts and would take from 6 to 10 days to get to France in a sealed container, got off looking that good, untraumatized, all alive, smelling like roses and with space to spare - why are we led to believe that it was a cruise they boarded -just without windows and ballroom?

Because we like to see Poetry in Poverty, there is in fact, Poetry is contained within the word Poverty, this is why since I was a kid I watched 'x' number of movies with the same theme, the ones that broke the mold were called 'neorealism', Neo because it was New, it was a novel idea to depict Reality for what it was, because honestly, who doesn't have enough of it already, we pay for a distraction, I did myself when I used to only choose 'feel good movies'. 
And when neorealism came, with movies such as "Bicycle Thief", I could not watch them, as they showed the Truth of Poverty, the poor man to whom someone stole a bicycle he needed to work and then he tries to steal one himself but he is caught and beaten and shamed in front of his son.

This was the reality of poverty, shame, humiliation, hunger, homelessness - neorealism had a short life span.

The truth is that there is no Poetry in Poverty, none, zero, nil, watching people die of starvation is not poetic, watching people sell out their kids to prostitution or pedophiles for money is not romantic, there isn't more goodness in poor people when their survival is at stake, this is why crimes are rife among the Poor, they don't have time or a choice for the Poetry in Poverty, they have to find ways to survive and make it to the next day. And severely sick poor people usually die, no matter how many good deeds they do, simply because they don't have access to the best health care that costs Money and now is sold for a Profit and is not a Human Right, so why do we keep the lies up about reality, why don't we say 'reality sucks for most' and then do something together to change it?

Next time we are tempted to support the crappy poetic movies about Poverty we should just remember they are lying to us, poverty is a crime against life, there is nothing poetic in the goodness of the people of Le Havre as they depict them allowing a boy to stay while they deport all the rest, nor it's assured that anyone would hide him, host him and feed him, some could call the police, have him put in one of the internment camps where they should relegate the migrants who come in without a permit, we have some in Italy as well, things we do not talk about because we are ashamed of what we do, and yet, we do it.

Why not stopping Poverty for good vs making a poetic version of it we can live with?

Investigate Equal Money, there is Poetry in a vision that includes all living beings, because Poetry is always inclusive, excluding something or someone, leaving someone out or behind is not poetic, never. It's just Evil.

This is why Poetry lacks the V, for Victory, as when there are winners there must be losers and when there are losers we all in fact lose out on the chance to bring Heaven to Earth for All and as the poetry takes up its 'V' we become All poorer for it.

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Friday, March 22, 2013

Day 285: Anger Galore

Odd day.

It started with a phone call that made me angry, the usual lady that makes it her reason to live to try and slip her responsibility for her health on me and everyone else while we are not watching.

In the afternoon my mother, who got annoyed because I told her she was welcome to come and visit but I missed the point of "Easter' and why we had to do something special for it -when we never did. Then she said 'I thought you may be going somewhere' and I said 'how? I'm broke, where can I go?' and then she got angry because I mentioned Money when she now believe I have more than her, meaning I should accept my sacrifices happily and not mention them, because WE ALL HAVE TO MAKE THEM, It's Life.

Then I went to pick up the cable of my printer from a guy that pretended to fix it for 25 euro and turned it into a copier that no longer wants to behave like a printer.

And finally my teenager student came and she had to be dragged for 1.5 hours through her English homeworks while we negotiated every single step 'read aloud' 'I will if you don't make me do exercise 5 and 6" a point we had to negtiate because her school teacher 't forgot to ask them to complete the exercise page, we agreed she could complain about them but would have to do them anyway - she resorted to read half a page like an imbecile - just to spite me.

When she left I was tired.

I watched a day of anger go by and participated in all of the above instances a little more every time as they accumulated, I had to tie myself to the chair to not smack the book on the head of my student, that's how fare I allowed myself to accumulate in a day alone.

There was another event in the middle, I read a post on a site that does nothing but Gossip about what we do, I wrote 5 answers to it and deleted them all because I was aware I was reacting and pretending not to.

So, what can I deduce? I cannot participate in anger at all, it doesn't mater that I do not display it or engage in it outwardly, the inward movement is enough, it's plenty in fact to pile up an energetic trail to a gun powder deposit, I should know this, have had memorable anger outbursts in my life and they all started seemingly innocently, and specifically, they were never my fault :)

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to get angry at A. for trying to do what she does all the time, failing to see it was not a personal movement she had against me, but simply an impersonation of one of her main characters that I took personally and to which I reacted in anger

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that anger is real and who I really am

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to react in anger when reading the troll website commenting on what happened on Quora and for engaging my anger into writing replies meant to knock some sense into his/her head, when in fact this was an excuse to vent my anger instead of stopping myself from reacting as a self directive principle

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to, when I went to pick up my cable to give in to the irritation for not having been given back the original cable as I anticipated that my printer would not work - which it didn't, and within this for moving into disappointment as suppressed anger I did not want to look at, instead of stopping myself, breathing and bringing myself back here in and as breath, back from a day lost in emotional reactions

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to, when I spoke to my mother and I could feel the irritation mounting up regarding Easter as a point of nonsense to reply in Character instead of hearing what she was saying beyond the Easter point, which was to come down and visit and spend some time together, and to justify why I did not want to hear I told her why was she asking 'where was I going for Easter' as she knew I had nowhere else to go, playing the victimization point which I did because I was not here or I could have seen how stepping into that character would have played out to her, being the one who has halved her income to support me and within this, for looking for a reason why I had a right to be angry, such as the point of her underlining that we are all making sacrifices, to look at that point like it was her fault, that I inherited an acceptance of life as sacrifice, which is nothing else but another shift of responsibility, blaming her for the beliefs I have accepted and allowed instead of standing to no longer accept and allow Life as sacrifice for no one, not her, not myself and not anyone else, which is why I stand as One vote for an Equal Money System for All

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to, when I now feel angry, to compare how much more I used to give in to anger as a way to compliment myself that I am not that bad after all, as to say 'look, I have changed so much' failing to see that I use comparison to my worse self as a justification to why I don't have to stop and why I can't stop because My past of Anger is quite populated with outrageous acts of possession, instead of not using comparison as a justification to why it's OK for me to participate in an energetic reaction, no matter how small it seems as I forget that energy accumulates into those possessions that never came by chance but through my participation in anger one step at the time

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to, when my student arrived and I saw she was moody, to start going into a resistance to her behavior until we went into conflict and instead of stopping myself with breath, try to harm-wrestle my position of power as a teacher and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that in a situation of conflict one should always win and that should be me, instead of breathing myself back into stability from where I could look for a solution that is best for all

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to, when I move into anger, look for reasons why my anger is justified, to look for why I could later claim that 'I didn't start it' when in fact the day ended proving that I do exactly what A. tries to do with me, try to shift on others the responsibility of my behaviour instead of taking responsibility for my participation in anger, no matter how good an excuse I can find to motivate why I am in fact entitled to it.

When and as I see myself approached by people that I interpret and define as moody, angry, irritating, annoying, I stop, breathe, see, realize and understand I am looking and them through the filters of some Characters and not as myself as Life beyond judgements born out of memories and opinions and I support myself to breathe to bring myself back to stability until I can see in self honesty I am no longer participating in anger in any way shape or form

When and as I see myself looking into my anger archive to find other 'worse moments of anger' in my files to prove to myself that I am entitled to this 'little movement of anger by comparison', I stop, breathe, do not allow myself to compare my energetic participation of the moment with my previous participation as an excuse and breathe to stop my participation in anger beyond any good reason I have found up to then that proves I am entitled to it

When and as I see myself moving to play back in my mind the 'anger incident' looking for how I can explain why I was entitled to get angry and how I was not 'the one starting it', I stop, breathe and do not allow myself to participate no matter what I have told myself about 'who started and who carries the fault therefore'

When and as I see myself trying to blame another for my anger, I stop, breathe and do not allow myself to shift the blame or attempt to shift the blame on another

I commit myself to consistently stop my participation in anger and my belief that anger is real and one and equal to me and who I really am and to catch myself in the slightest beginning stages of my participation in energetic reactions to learn to effectively stop myself for good, for myself and all of existence, Equal and One.

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Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Day 284: Education - The Second Best Tool for Mind Control

This week I have faced people asking me and my friends about our Education on a Social network.
The question did not come in the form of a curiosity or an exchange like 'hei dude, where did you go to school?', no, the question was for the purpose of proving we have no right to talk about a world change, because we did not take the allegedly prescribed "World Change" course and have therefore no qualifications to address the point that we have realized that there is a systemic problem across all facets of our society, and since we are the System, it must be up to us to stand as The Solution to this problem.

Of course what is implied in such questions is that we are not 'intelligent' enough to even notice that there is a problem, because it is only through education that one has 'broadened' up enough to see a problem.

I don't see it this way, education is like filling up a hard disk and everyone knows that once a hard disk fills up, processing time slows down, not only, but the education received implies that what we look at must be decoded through that set of ideas and opinions, which could explain why for example most Economist know diddly squat about how Money is created, we went past the Tooth Fairy idea about the Money System and how we must become willing to sell everything, including body parts, for that most valuable return, just to embrace other no less outlandish economics believes: market "forces" (Jedi talk), free market economy (for those who have the freedom of a Capital), public debt (collective delusion) and then the most rationale of solutions -austerity, for the already poor.

What can we say about where we got with all our high and mighty beliefs in De-Value of Education?
That we are highly and mightily dumb? Yes, that would be a fit description of us Humans.
People of 'high' education who read 1984 and failed to notice we are living it, have nothing to brag about.

I saw another point as I looked at Education today, it's like the second best thing you can have for value in this world, the first is Money. I watched a documentary called 'Born Rich' made by one of the heirs of the Johnson and Johnson family, where some of his multi-billion dollar friends came across as 'not the cleverest cookies in the jar', we have some women who are in the spotlight just for having Money, the Hiltons, the Kardashians, I don't recall any of them lecturing about Physics or Economy but in their case, it is irrelevant. I don't recall either someone asking about their education, because Money was the guarantor that they indeed had a Value, a declared one, the Family Money they belonged to, their Worth was defined by that.

Incidentally some of the questions we were asked as a group contained both discriminants 'declare your education and/or your monetary value', this was the essence behind them.
Because in this world what we failed to see is that we are born worthless if not into Money and from there we have to build up our Worth/Value. Is it possible that those inquiring about our education were not born rich? I would say it is an almost sure thing, if they were they would not feel the need to show their second best Value/Worth credentials: Education.

But how can Education be a measure of Worth if not everyone has the same chances/choices to access it? Isn't then a discriminatory factor just the same as money, specifically when Education has been pursued to close that Value/Worth gap perceived by those who want to have 'Saber Diplomas fights' to see themselves come out as winner, as worthier, more valuable?

What is the purpose of an Education that didn't make it clear to us that we were born Unequal because the system is rotten to its core as it developed from our separation from ourselves as a Whole Indivisible Unit, instead of promoting Inequality by each and every mean possible to make sure we never get united and stand together for the common good?

I have asked a question on Quora about Galileo - relative to Education:

If Galileo had spoken with 'more educated' people would he have been able to convey the reasoning behind 'the Earth is round'? Would Education have been the key to a higher chance to be understood or not?
.1 ...."Rather, what Galileo got in trouble for was the idea that the earth moved around the sun rather than vice versa. And I doubt that more education would have helped because (i) much of what educated people thought they knew on the subject had been wrong and (ii) the case relied at many different points on recent, new observations many of which were contributed by Galileo himself. He was among the first to make and use telescopes in astronomy.  He went a long way to founding a new theory of mechanics. Etc, etc. To some extent the discoveries were ripe for the picking but to have gotten there first in so many areas is still huge."

.2 "The people Galileo spoke with were highly educated. Despite our stodgy caricatures of them, it took many of those cardinals who put him on trial years of theological study to get where they were.

The problem wasn't their education. It wasn't that they were dumb or bigoted. It was that they knew exactly what they were doing. His ideas threatened their simplistic theology, which threatened their political power.

For over a thousand years, "God did it" was the explanation for most phenomena. When someone looked up at the stars, and asked why they moved around, "God makes them" was the answer. Following from this sort of logic, that answer eventually grew into a system in which Earth was the center of the universe because it represented Man's special relationship to God - it means that God loved Man more than anything else.

You may laugh now, but that's what they thought. Volumes upon volumes were written in the Middle Ages expounding upon these sorts of theology-based theories. They basically just made it all up as they went along because it didn't require any real scientific effort, and it benefited them to have people thinking that they had all the answers because all the answers came from God, which they were experts on.

Also not well known is that most scientists agreed with Galileo at the time. Not that there were many of them to begin with, but the idea had been around since the Greeks, and the general feeling was that it was probably right, despite what the Church had to say. The Church was okay with this because no one had actually proved it, so they could keep getting away with saying the same things and maintaining their primacy in peoples' lives.

Once Galileo came along and did just that, they realized it challenged their power base. If people knew the Earth wasn't the center of the universe, what else would they think the Church was lying about?"

Another Education question I placed on Quora

If History is written by those who 'win', how can we be sure that the whole education curricula doesn't follow a specific purpose to give a certain view through which we will be forced to look at the world?

" Uhhh ... it *IS*.  If you want to learn history, the last place you will find it is in the history curricula of any school that you have ever attended.  Howard Zinn's "A people's History" is probably one of the first real history text books ever written.  Other history books like to focus on personalities like Hitler, Napoleon, etc.

Think about the US invasion of Iraq.  It was openly run and exposed as a pure vicious invasion of choice with no purpose whatsoever, except to give G.W.Bush a premise upon which to run a re-election campaign in his second term.  The truth of this matter will *never* be incorporated into any mainstream history book.  It will go down in history as some kind of liberation of Iraq that maybe was more messy than it should have been, or some sort of pablum nonsense like that.

Make no mistake, the part that Orwell got most correct in his book 1984, is the part where we rewrite history according to what is convenient to the propaganda  of people currently in power."

So, basically, here we are praising Education, that would be like in 1984 supporting Big Brother for all the wonderful opportunities given to us, meanwhile we miss out what is going to ourselves and the world. 
We ask 'what can we do about this system? What about changing it to one that would consider ALL as integral parts of it and honor all living beings just because they are Here, alive and breathing the same air we share. And someone asks 'how would you handle the microeconomics transactions -come on show us what you have got', is this a sign of common sense?

2.5 billions people don't have access to sanitation, close to 1 billion people starving every year, we are enslaved by a Fiat Money system where banks print Money and then go and lend it to Government for an hefty interest - and while we are screwed up-and-down by the system, we are being razzled dazzled by such questions of seemingly paramount importance vs how do we stop this monetary system and replace it with one that works for us and not against us?

But such is the power of Education, and as we got enslaved with it and heavily distracted from what's going on, we demand others to join in, we tell them 'I can't hear you because you don't have the System Seal of Approval (show me) that says you can talk to me about a solution, to a problem I can't even see - show me your credentials, show me your numbers - your slave numbers' then I will clear my mind to make space for what will certainly be the common knowledge we share, because you proved we belong to the same Club, and have been fed knowledge and information that, thanks god, doesn't rock the boat or in any way threatens the system we have come -through hardship and struggle- to embrace and surrender to.

So, solutions to the world we live in won't come from the system that has been set up by those who own it, that would seem pretty rational if one could give it a moment of reflection, we'll have to expand beyond the borders of the knowledge we have, hope that some who may not have been too infected by the Propaganda may come along to share what they could see as they were free-er than us to look into solutions that were never explored before, and hope, we may have the guts to stop ourselves from reacting to the perceived Mutiny we have been trained to stand against, just long enough to Hear.

Equal Money - Not Communism, Not Socialism, not a Solution considered before, like ever. 
Check it out. 

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Sunday, March 10, 2013

Day 283: The Fear of leaving behind Knowledge and Information

I had a dream.

In the dream I was spending time with one of my friends and his son.

He asked me if I could help him with his English homework and I said yes, so he came close and showed me his book, but I was dozing off and in the dream I realized I could not follow him unless I woke up, so I tried to wake up but when I did, I realized I would wake up from the dream and then the book -and the boy!- would disappear and I would NOT be able to help him, so I spent some time in the dream trying to wake up enough but not too much to have the book disappear and finally I managed a sort of balance but I was uncomfortable because I knew I was dreaming and that what I was doing was worthless, I could have woken up completely and then yes, the book would have been gone, but the boy too so there would be no loss, no one was REALLY in need of my knowledge and information and this sense of the uselessness of it all, made me choose the dream vs the reality of being awake, not caring about the point that what I believed in the dream was worthy and valuable, was not even real.

Who will I be if I let go my knowledge and information?

Do I need to let go what I know or the value I have invested in it as who I am?

If I hold on to knowledge and information as value, am I not part of this world problem that values Education as a reason why not everyone has the same worth and value?

Why do I fear facing the point of how much value I have invested in knowledge and information, what is behind this value point that I fear to lose?

Ok, so definitely a fear of loss of a definition of myself as knowledgeable, this is again a money survival point, because I accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I had MORE knowledge and information then I was worth more in terms of my access to the Money world and I would have better chances at surviving.

So the point is a Value point in relation to my market worth, which as I wrote brought up another point of Value/Worth as being good looking but fearing that I would be exploited for that if I did not back it up with enough knowledge and information to not be taken for a ride, literally, so behind the knowledge and information point there is the acceptance that this is a man's world and I have to pile up credits as vantage points to be able to measure up, I see that this point is quite big because as I reach some of those points that have become who I am, I just want to write that this is a FACT, that this is a Man's world and I better not delude myself with some Pollyanna stories that resembles the positive thinking that I can THINK myself out of this one - so there is a fear that I can't let go this point because I need the extra value to compete with men for survival, when in fact the value I hold on to has become my very own limitation in stopping the ongoing competition with men in search for value I use to measure up to them - as in ability to turn Money and the fact that my value is now linked to knowledge and information which makes me feel vulnerable because I can always meet someone with more, just like with Money and then I will expose myself to the inferiority superiority game I have set up as I went and looked for points of superiority in fear of being inferior, accepting being inferior as a woman as a fact.

Of course this point rang true yesterday again when I watched Prof Wolff whose first talk I enjoyed so much, while the second one I watched brought up the value of education and left me feeling uneasy as I saw how he justified why some professors should earn more than others and I knew I could well follow the whole speech all the way to agreement because I hold on to this belief that education has worth and value without seeing that the worth and value education has is MY worth and value that I invested in it and that if I didn't -it would be worthless and just a tool to make myself efficient in the system, not adding or subtracting anything to who I am or to anyone else is -as Life.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to value education as knowledge and information above Life, mine and of everyone else

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear that without an education I would be worth-less and I would have to fear for my life and about how I was going to support myself in a world of men

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that this point is especially alive when I am around men, as I showed to myself in my dream, where there were 2 men less knowledgeable than me and then I didn't want to wake up from the dream because I enjoyed my position of superiority in my imaginary competition in my Mind, in which I always set out to prove, to men especially, that they don't know Jack, that they are stupid, and that their position on top of the world is deceivingly gained and ill granted, when in fact I am the one granting it by holding on to my fear of being less that drives me to show them I am more at every chance I get

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not trust in my ability to reach a point of Equality with men because they only want to fuck you so you better have an arsenal of ammo in the guise of knowledge and information to prevent yourself to be taken for a ride or to believe all the crap they come up with, when in fact I don't need anything but my self trust that I can handle any situation as an Equal when and as I am faced with men who I perceive cannot be trusted

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to make men that cannot be trusted, which in my mind is pretty much all of them, the reason why I can't let go of my knowledge and information as value, without seeing realizing and understanding that they were just my excuse for hanging on to the value I have divested of myself into knowledge and information -and to hold on to my excuse I had to make men worse than they are in my mind, make the threat of their presence real so that I would be justified in WHY I must hold on to that extra value, because I really really need it, instead of seeing realizing and understanding it is not about who they are around me but who I am around them that sets the terms of engagement, and that the only correction I need to work on is on me and that requires for me to take back all the value I have invested in something outside of my Self that I made more than me as Life as Breath

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that it was me that set the rule of the game with men every single time and that as I set out exploiting my good looks as a vantage point I then had to back them up with knowledge and information so I could pretend that I was not in fact playing the Beauty game and that it was all in their Mind because look, I am knowledgeable and informed and the fact that you want to fuck me is Your Fault, when in fact I used knowledge and information as the smoke screen to keep playing the seduction game without paying the price of the unspoken promises that I put on the table at every deal, because I could

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to blame men and make them dangerous regarding how they responded to me and my seduction games through knowledge and information, building up case after case against them to prove it was their fault that they saw SEX everywhere I placed it and then magically deleted it through the use of knowledge and information to just leave them confused and wonder if they had imagined it all or if I had hinted that something may take place sometime if they would give me what I wanted, which was access to the same world they had access to, the men's world, and for accepting and allowing myself to diminish myself by accepting that this world was not made for me but for them only to then live to fight my own acceptance and allowance, I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that with knowledge and information I could aspire to more, be more, move more swiftly into the system as 'increased value' leaving behind those with less value as knowledge and information without ever considering that I should have looked for solutions on how we could equalize our value and make everyone equally valuable and worthy once and for all

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to, when I realized that good looks as a genetic advantage could take me far, fear that I would be judged for the good looks alone and be made less, be talked about, be diminished as someone who only had That to offer and as such, pile up knowledge and information as my excuse to why I was rising up in the world when in fact it was just the way I looked that took me places and for living the guilt for looking good as an undeserved point of advantage that I had to match with a point I perceived I deserved for real such as knowledge and information, I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that I feared losing the good looks advantage so much that I stockpiled on another advantage such as knowledge and information, because I wanted to be advantaged one way or another not seeing realizing and understanding that through valuing external points above my Self I was in fact diminishing myself at every turn in the hope to gain more value for myself, a long lasting value that I could hold on to, either through looks or knowledge and information because I was for sure not willing to go down the scale of value to the point of having to accept any and every job to make a living, and for not considering the point of no choice of many others either in terms of looks or knowledge and information to give themselves the same access to resources as a Right to Live, I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that as I hold on to my value as knowledge and information, the world has the same right to hold on to this point as the reason why some are more worthy than others and for my participation in devaluing some so I could be more, so I could stop the fear of being in their place I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that those with a higher education have more right to Life than those with a lower education, because as I could not believe that those with better looks had that right as that was a 'chance' point, education seemed 'earned' to me and as such the right to More was 'earned' too and unquestionable, when in fact the point that not all have access to the same possibilities for knowledge and information invalidates this point for all, and as such I forgive myself for having been part of the supporting team of value of knowledge and education vs Life, One and Equal for All, with the same Rights, choices and access to benefits that would create a world into a heavenly place for All vs a heavenly place for me alone.

When and as I see myself facing a man and move or about to move into my All Knowing Character, I stop, breathe, do not participate in the fear of being less or the desire to prove something and bring myself back Here through breathing until I am stable

When and as I see myself experiencing or about to experience a full blown point of loss just because I did not participate in showing off my knowledge as a 'missed chance' to gain value for myself, I stop, breathe, remind myself that as I seek value outside of myself I am accepting my worthlessness as who I am and not my Equality with everything that exists from the lowest to the highest point of existence and see realize and understand that I can only be All or nothing and that I have to be no one to be able to be All of Us, willing to delete myself to stand as a point of no desire and no fear and to reach that point I have to consistently Not allow myself to participate in polarity games, no matter how tempting as value-adding they may seem

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to believe that my Value lies in my knowledge and information or in my looks or in anything that I can find that is separate from me as Self and to identify where I still hold on to points of external Value to bring it All back to Self as Life as One and Equal, to stop this game of polarity and superiority and inferiority, for myself and All of existence, Equal and One

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Saturday, March 9, 2013

Day 282: Is Economics a Dangerous Cult?

There seems to be a spreading insidious disease in our society that keeps growing unchecked.

It is a Cult so widespread that we no longer recognize the symptoms of a Cult and the effects on the Minds of those that belong to it.
This Cult has deviously attempted through decades to upgrade itself to the ranks of 'Science', there were other cults that did this before, one is still fought today because the symptoms of its Cult-ish-ness are more obvious and hard to miss, that would be Scientology.

Like Economics, when L. Ron Hubbard realized he was losing ground in the Olympus of Plausible Beliefs he went for an upgrade and born was 'Dianetics' - a branch of Scientology- defined ' The Science of a Healthy Mind' - 'a set of ideas and practices regarding the metaphysical relationship between the mind and body'. 'Science' at its best?

As the world expanded and we kept piling up knowledge and information, we had a need to define this accumulation process and how to manage it and we called it "Science '"Science is the pursuit of knowledge and understanding of the natural and social world following a systematic methodology based on evidence."

It is hard to exchange views with Cult-ish people because of the nature of the knowledge and information they have erroneously accumulated, as you can be sure you will never be able to move some out of Scientology, a practice to which they devoted their Life and much Money in the most affluent cases, so it  is for the followers of the Cult of Economics. 
We must understand why the majority of Economists are unwilling participants -that was a concession- in this conglomerate of beliefs they wish to define Science, they miss out the point of 'Evidence'.
If they took a look at the "Evidence" of the systems they study and were supposed to manage and administer into consideration, as Real Consequences in the Physical real world vs the Pollyanna reality they make up in their Mind, they could not have missed the signs that something within the Theories and Systems of management they drafted and then had implemented, is inherently wrong, unless of course, is inherently done on purpose, which would make those system just plain unjustifiably Evil - not unlike ourselves - creatures who grew out of the whole and the confines of the consideration for Each Other, separated into mind bubbles, unable to reconcile with reality and the consequences of our Creation.

Economics has changed its skin through time and even through the 3 dictionaries consulted and reported at the bottom, on one, even an idiot can see how this word has been plied into a specific 'world view' and interestingly, the very essence of responsibility and accountability is gone from it - this is why Economists can stand on the footpath of the world and insist they are just observers and not in charge of anything, they are just voyeurs of a world that is self destroying, but they claim to be able to tell you WHY this is taking place, it's because the markets are not FREE enough (pfff), or it is because there is unpredictable recession, austerity and unforeseen market forces at work. Really?  
If you can't see the past of your own discipline and the purpose for its existence or its future, and not even the present, what the fuck are you doing? 
What is the purpose of such an Economics system then, unable to design functional models, or to correct them or to stand as an accountable witness to the disaster caused by the whole Money game or to foresee the Consequences - why are you wasting time on this, why not throw away all the books and resort to a psychic which in some cases (Hi Kim!) stands much more chances to work out an answer than yourselves? 
What is the use of Questions with no Answers, of models with no practical applicable solutions, I beg?

Interestingly when Cult outgrow themselves and their ability to have a common voice, like the Catholics, they will have to produce abnormal amounts of papers and 'proofs' to justify what was originally their Credo and their purpose for existence and cover all sides of their body of theories from possible investigations, we do not need to go too far to see this in action, the Catholics hang by thin threads to Miracles they unwrap every year to show their power is still ali(v)e.

They were the Church of Jesus Christ -or so they claim-, as they outgrew by magnitude the definition of a Cult (did you know that a Cult is only considered such if the group is relatively small, it was important to make this distinction or we could have called a Cult our Culture, our Religions, our Education, our Judiciary, our Defence Ministry, Ministering the Cult of War and our Economics system and then we would have broken free because the Mind control would have been too evident to be denied or go unnoticed) , they had to produce tons of papers to validate and justify how come that the simple teaching of a simple man who said to love one another and be our brother's keepers, IN FACT meant they were supposed to pile up properties, riches, get tax exemptions, lock the poor out of churches in winter because they are 'Places of Worship' and as such sacred, and why they were allowed to sanctify their mind delusions of grandeur in gold, incense and Myrrh, ermines skins and red shoes and  endless earthly privileges.

As Edgar Allan Poe said, if you want to hide something, put it in plain view', and the Catholics followed the advice, they are so INYOURFACE that we no longer notice how big this modest CULT has become and how ever reaching it is in every facet of society. Not unlike Economics at all.

A cult is defined by 'its participants having  'odd and sinister beliefs', this was recently quoted by a self defined Economist, part of a very superficial research, as many at the foundation of any Economist belief system, the first definition that pops us when you google 'definition of a cult'.

Maybe it is this inability to thoroughly investigate every point that stuck them all together in the 'odd and sinister practices' mentioned about Cults.
But a Cult is defined as well in order as
  • a spurious belief (meaning not from the claimed, pretended, or proper source; counterfeit. Of illegitimate birth - bastard.)
  • a system for the cure of disease based on dogma set forth by its promulgator <health cults>  
  • great devotion to a person, idea, object, movement, or work (as a film or book); especially : such devotion regarded as a literary or intellectual fad 
  • a system of religious veneration and devotion directed towards a particular figure or object: the cult of St Olaf
  • a relatively small group of people having religious beliefs or practices regarded by others as strange or as imposing excessive control over members: a network of Satan-worshipping cults
  • a misplaced or excessive admiration for a particular thing: the cult of the pursuit of money as an end in itself
  • a particular system of religious worship, especially with reference to its rites and ceremonies.
  • an instance of great veneration of a person, ideal, or thing, especially as manifested by a body of admirers
  • a group or sect bound together by veneration of the same thing, person, ideal, etc.

Now, if we take Economics from its Etymology as the Greek work 'Oiknomia', we were at the time talking about the management/administration of an household. Another great point of this original word was the understanding of such practice as the disposition or regulation of the parts or functions of any organic whole; an organized system or method.

So, Economy was born out of the need to create a system to benefit ALL the parts of the whole, the household, not unlike this planet that houses us all, this was prior to our dementia, when we came to believe that the Whole was in fact divisible by x billion and only some parts of the organic whole -should benefit.

Economy as such was not a science, because you did not need a science to see that if you had 3 children, 2 dogs, 1 cow and 2 chickens, all of them had to eat, all of them needed a shelter that was fit for their needs and nature and you would take what you had and cater to the needs of all. It was THAT simple.

The reason why we went and complicated such a simple subject that should have organically expanded into the same original purpose, of catering for the needs of All parts of the whole, is because we were dishonest, and saw an opportunity to sit on one side of the whole -as IF that is even possible- and starve the rest, not only we were dishonest, but we were dishonest with a mission, to come out clean of all this deed, to make it 'normal' and acceptable, hence we created layers upon layers of mathematical models and Laws to justify WHY we are not doing with Economics, what Economics was created for, manage and distribute the resources of an household as Planet Earth -housing us All, to All parts of the Whole, equally, according to the needs of each

So, as we became cocky with what we got away with, we claimed this perversion to be a Science, sealing with the word Science what we Seal with the ludicrous labels of Democracy and Freedom, a blatant delusional lie that not only we uphold but we insist on justifying on the premises that those who don't look the same, who don't eat the same food, who didn't have the benefit of the same education, who live in remote areas that we can consider legitimately NOT part of the whole, were worth Less and hence should have access to Less, and then we took the lie into schools, taught it to parents who were too busy to wonder if this was so and they passed it on to their Children and here we are, the proud 'owners' of a world broken in pieces, with the worst ever track record of intervention vs our increased ability to do so, because we grew this belief of justified Inequality to such a point that we made it Normal, and practices that would look to the sane as bizarre, odd or sinister are now part of our education text books and on we go, happy go lucky fools on our way to self destruction.

So, what makes Economics and Economists a Cult:

Their misplaced belief  and great veneration for a fictional subject with NO relation to physical reality - as David Suzuky said, "the only ones that can believe that infinite growth on a planet of finite resources is possible resources are either Insane or Economists".

Their particular system of religious worship, in which the current Economics system - or any justification written in between with the same scope to not attend Equally to all parts of the whole organic body of this household which is Planet Earth- is Sacred and unquestionable, if you question it, they will scream you are part of a Cult (?).

Their spurious belief in what Economics should be about, having relieved themselves both of common sense or any responsibility for the outcome of the policies they suggest, write, come up with in the fantasy world of their Mind - no matter what is the verifiable outcome in the physical world

Their assumption that their CULT is the Only one valid and that what they worship has no match, they gather in groups bound together by the veneration of the same thing, The Money God, because make no mistake, they get what this game is All About, they just like to confuse the masses with New names for old Tricks, they invented Collaterals, Derivatives, Assets, Bonds and Stocks - they are all names for their Money God, do not confuse Economics with a Polytheistic religion, they are as MONO-theistic as they come, One God, many names - Money.

A particular system of religious worship, especially with reference to its rites and ceremonies, yes, there would be much to say about this point alone, you can find the worshiper of the Church of the Money God in many places, Banks, Credit Institutes, Credit Ratings, Stock Exchanges, in some of those places they speak in tongues to exclude anyone who is NOT part of their Cult, where their gather to buy and sell titles that impact the world but not their conscience in any way, because they are not HERE, but lost somewhere in their Mind, where they have reduced the World to numbers on spreadsheets and human lives into collateral damage. Their rites and ceremonies are all related to movements in the 'value' of whatever they are trading which translates into Money, big celebrations -most of the time secret- are held whenever the fictional value of this fictional entity 'Money' as a 'target' is met.
As the worshiper of such Church disconnected from reality in all its aspects, they celebrate their speculations on Housing, Food -and soon on water-, on diamonds or gold, on oil or gas, uncaring of what happens on the other side of their speculation line, having been indoctrinated in the value of Profit vs Life, no, incorrect, in this they are apparently counter-intuitive, some  praised Richard Hawkins as a most valuable Human being vs your everyday Joe, a bit of a conundrum because according to geneticists, Richard Hawkins would have been an error of Nature that should not have seen the light of the day and they would have corrected it for sure if they could have put their hands on his  DNA sequencing to re engineer his life form into the best of his expression - so as you can see - not even Scientists can agree on the value of life and which Lives are valuable, which are worth keeping and which are not. Proof that Life and Science have not yet met.

If Genetics as a Science should win over Economics, and we found out that Economists DNAs are in fact a threat to society and that their mental dis-ease as the DNA of the knowledge and information they are made of, could spread and endanger the planet once again, should we get rid of those DNA sequences for good, or allow them to come up with another 'spurious' system for their benefit and service, while they lock out everyone else from what belongs Equally to All? A point to ponder.

So, yes, Economics is a Cult and it is dangerous, it is what we used to show each other that there were Good reason to our Inequality, that there were motives causing what was going on, it made us irresponsible and unaccountable, allowed us to surf through life as if what we did had no consequence just because we were not the ones paying them.

And just to be clear, no one is innocent in this Game we are playing, the very reason why we let this all go on is because we always hoped to join in the Rat Race coming out on Top and in this there is the very reason WHY we are troubled by Equality - because that will threaten forever our odd chance that we may make it, that we may get out of this mad mad race ahead of everyone else, it is our collective Greed that kept this system in place because if at one point, on any side of the game we had said STOP! what we are doing makes no sense there is enough for everybody, why are we fighting each other, why did we create a Debt System to enslave each other, I want to be free and so I make you free because I get it, I can't have ANYTHING that I don't give to others Equally - anything I seem to gain for myself is just an illusion I will have to lose, yes, it doesn't seem to have gone this way in the past, many rich people were able to hold on to the good end of the rope with little or no consequence, but that was then, and this is now and who knows, karma could suddenly start to work as it was supposed to from the beginning, as a law of Correction to allow us to see the consequences of our actions all the way to the receiving end, so we may stand and correct ourselves as The World back into Equality, as One and build together a place of dignity where Life is honored and no one is left behind.

If you are an Ex Economists, a Recovering Economist, an Enlightened Economist and would like to participate and support to redesign a system that works for All, where Life is the Only worth and value shared by All Equally, come and visit Equal Money, participate on the Forums, offer solutions you may have stumbled upon or pondered on your journey of questioning the current system. 
Equal Money is an all inclusive system, it welcomes all, from all walks of life and no matter what Economists say, it will come to be, because dementia can only last so long and the time for a Global Awakening and Life for All has come, Join us.

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oikonomia: stewardship, administration
Original Word: οἰκονομία, ας, ἡ
Transliteration: oikonomia
Short Definition: stewardship
Definition: management of household affairs, stewardship, administration.

Definition of ECONOMY

1 archaic : the management of household or private affairs and especially expenses
2 a : thrifty and efficient use of material resources : frugality in expenditures; also : an instance or a means of economizing : saving
b : efficient and concise use of nonmaterial resources (as effort, language, or motion)
3 a : the arrangement or mode of operation of something : organization
b : a system especially of interaction and exchange <an economy of information>


  • 1 the state of a country or region in terms of the production and consumption of goods and services and the supply of money: he favours tax cuts to stimulate the economy

    • a particular system or stage of an economy: a free-market economy
  • 2 careful management of available resources: fuel economy
    • offering good value for money: an economy pack of soap flakes
      . sparing or careful use of something:a technique based on economy of effort 
      . (usually economies) a financial saving: there were many economies to be made by giving up our London offices
  • 3 (also economy class) the cheapest class of air or rail travel: we flew economy
  • 1. thrifty management; frugality in the expenditure or consumption of money, materials, etc.
  • 2. an act or means of thrifty saving; a saving: He achieved a small economy by walking to work instead of taking a bus.
  • 3. the management of the resources of a community, country, etc., especially with a view to its productivity.
  • 4. the prosperity or earnings of a place: Further inflation would endanger the national economy seriously.
  • 5. the disposition or regulation of the parts or functions of any organic whole; an organized system or method.
Definition of a Cult

  • a system of religious beliefs and ritual; also : its body of adherents
  • a religion regarded as unorthodox or spurious; also : its body of adherents
  • a system for the cure of disease based on dogma set forth by its promulgator <health cults>  
  • great devotion to a person, idea, object, movement, or work (as a film or book); especially : such devotion regarded as a literary or intellectual fad
  • a system of religious veneration and devotion directed towards a particular figure or object: the cult of St Olaf
  • a relatively small group of people having religious beliefs or practices regarded by others as strange or as imposing excessive control over members: a network of Satan-worshipping cults
  • a misplaced or excessive admiration for a particular thing: the cult of the pursuit of money as an end in itself

1. a particular system of religious worship, especially with reference to its rites and ceremonies.
2. an instance of great veneration of a person, ideal, or thing, especially as manifested by a body of admirers
3. the object of such devotion.
4. a group or sect bound together by veneration of the same thing, person, ideal, etc.
5. Sociology . a group having a sacred ideology and a set of rites centering around their sacred symbols.

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