Day 327: I think, therefore I am Not Here yet.

Today I listened to the interview about 'Thought and thinking - a deliberate creation of Control', which I highly recommend because it spells out the details of how and why the mechanism of Thinking was invented and how it is just a distraction, a way to make sure we'll never Self Realize that We Are Here.

As far as devious system go, we are the Masterpiece of this Existence, imagine all the books we wrote glorifying out thinking and the Mind as Superior to the physical, discovering the Truth of ourselves is quite a Fall from the magnificence we liked to think of ourselves as The Mind, when in fact the Mind is nothing else but a constant streams of suggestions on how I can win in any given situation -against another.

Science, which is now testing 'Intelligence' in animals, interestingly enough evaluates it based on how deceptive they can be, incidentally they display these traits after spending time with humans or around them, there is nothing glorious about either The Mind or ourselves as The Mind, we just used it to always make sure we would have the best chances at surviving in this Game of Life, pity we haven't even realized that we did not design it but just submitted to it, no wonder the world is full of cowards that don't even want to consider what it would entail to stand up to the World Systems and make a change that works for All.

In a strange twist of idiocy we keep ourselves at a distance from The Only Solution that would in a swoop correct most of our relationships, for sure we wouldn't be able to leave the mind behind, nope, as our Creation -to which we gave Life and No responsibility, now we have to reign back the power invested in it so we may redirect it to What is Best for All.

Unfortunately we are still walking -and some not even yet- a process of establishing what is self responsibility for ourselves, we could not create what we did not understand, and as we come to see realize and understand our role in the absolute interconnectedness of all things, we can't walk away from it, because I am a piece of the flawed relationships of this world and that piece is a thread in the Tapestry of Existence and as such, I am Equally responsible as everyone else for the canvas we have manifested as this world and the world systems.

So, what will it take for me to realign to Oneness and Equality and What is Best for All?

For sure I have to walk back what I have done, I won't be able to change the past, nor the consequences that I have designed through my participation for myself or all the parts involved but I can stand as Change, will myself to stop my participation in and as The Mind, focus on my breathing and do not accept and allow myself to believe that I am that weasel that my mind says I am, because weasels don't change the world or themselves, nor wizards - and I have been both, it will require for me to instead land back Here, use my breath to stabilize myself because, man, what a fuck up we created, and one Breath at the time stop my existence as what I believed I am, walk away from my limitations because to change this world we have to be Alive, pretending to be Alive won't do it, engaging in emotions and feeling for the sheer 'joy' of the ride in the face of a suffering world is not becoming and won't change one iota, we are the problem and as such, we are the Solution too.

Let's live a Mindless existence so we may become Life instead.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am because I think instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that I am Not because I think and that thinking is a losing game

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that if Consciousness is a Casino, then thinking is the chips we play with to generate the energy required to participate and that I fear giving up thinking for life because I fear losing at this game, where I believe everyone else will hold on to 'the advantage of thinking everything ahead' while I won't instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that I don't have the luxury to wait for others todrop their thinking before I drop mine

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is value in thinking everything ahead as a way to work out all possible outcomes and then accordingly adjust myself to make sure I would win - or to make sure I would increase my chances of winning instead of seeing realizing and understanding that I lose every single time I think and that the idea of winning is just an illusion, no one can win in a losing game - ever

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear the nothingness and the aloneness of the absence of thought because I defined thought as my company, my space, my retreat, a place where I can go when I am overwhelmed by the experience of myself instead of seeing and realizing that is like retreating in a cave of snakes that I bred and then abandoned instead of taking responsibility for everything that I have created as my Mind to realign all the relationships I have created to what is best for all 

I commit myself to learn how to be effective with Breath and Breathing to stop my participation in and as The Mind, for myself and all of Existence Equal and One

Join Us because This Journey Takes you to Life and it’ll Cost you Everything that you have Valued which has All Just Been Thought, which has all been the Mechanism and the Reason Why you are Not in a World that is Best for All, Why you’re Not in a World that Ensures The Best for Every Child Born, Why you’re Not in a World that Ensures the Effective Living of All Creatures, Why you’re in a World where Daily Animals are Going Extinct: it is the Result of Your Thinking. You’re Not the Only One Losing: Every Living Thing on Earth is Losing because You are a Loser, because You Think. - Bernard Poolman

So Join Us because This Journey Takes you to Life and it’ll Cost you Everything that you have Valued which has All Just Been Thought, which has all been the Mechanism and the Reason Why you are Not in a World that is Best for All, Why you’re Not in a World that Ensures The Best for Every Child Born, Why you’re Not in a World that Ensures the Effective Living of All Creatures, Why you’re in a World where Daily Animals are Going Extinct: it is the Result of Your Thinking. You’re Not the Only One Losing: Every Living Thing on Earth is Losing because You are a Loser, because You Think. - See more at: http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2013/05/day-401-thinking-is-for-losers.html#sthash.xlXQfezd.dpuf

So Join Us because This Journey Takes you to Life and it’ll Cost you Everything that you have Valued which has All Just Been Thought, which has all been the Mechanism and the Reason Why you are Not in a World that is Best for All, Why you’re Not in a World that Ensures The Best for Every Child Born, Why you’re Not in a World that Ensures the Effective Living of All Creatures, Why you’re in a World where Daily Animals are Going Extinct: it is the Result of Your Thinking. You’re Not the Only One Losing: Every Living Thing on Earth is Losing because You are a Loser, because You Think. - See more at: http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2013/05/day-401-thinking-is-for-losers.html#sthash.xlXQfezd.dpuf

So Join Us because This Journey Takes you to Life and it’ll Cost you Everything that you have Valued which has All Just Been Thought, which has all been the Mechanism and the Reason Why you are Not in a World that is Best for All, Why you’re Not in a World that Ensures The Best for Every Child Born, Why you’re Not in a World that Ensures the Effective Living of All Creatures, Why you’re in a World where Daily Animals are Going Extinct: it is the Result of Your Thinking. You’re Not the Only One Losing: Every Living Thing on Earth is Losing because You are a Loser, because You Think. - See more at: http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2013/05/day-401-thinking-is-for-losers.html#sthash.xlXQfezd.dpuf

So Join Us because This Journey Takes you to Life and it’ll Cost you Everything that you have Valued which has All Just Been Thought, which has all been the Mechanism and the Reason Why you are Not in a World that is Best for All, Why you’re Not in a World that Ensures The Best for Every Child Born, Why you’re Not in a World that Ensures the Effective Living of All Creatures, Why you’re in a World where Daily Animals are Going Extinct: it is the Result of Your Thinking. You’re Not the Only One Losing: Every Living Thing on Earth is Losing because You are a Loser, because You Think. - See more at: http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2013/05/day-401-thinking-is-for-losers.html#sthash.xlXQfezd.dpuf

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Day 324: Desteni Witness - The 'Scam' and Secret of Self Forgiveness

I have been involved with Desteni for over 2 years and I have had the privilege to visit their farm in South Africa, where I am currently staying and will be for some more time.

When I bumped into Desteni I had reached the end of my search for the Truth, had looked into everything that exists -and was aware of- searching for the reason for our existence, had practiced positive thinking and joined the Love and Light brigade, just to find there was not any less Evil within those claiming to be enlightened, or on their way there, than anywhere else and so quite disheartened, just before Desteni, I moved into Conspiracy Theories, honestly they seemed way more plausible than Love and Light given the state of the world, plus they matched my underlining eternal dance with depression, a state of being I believed I had to have inherited from my mother because this is what each one is given in coming to this world, a legacy of faults to make sure we end up believing that there is something fundamentally wrong with us at our very core, so we roll over and just wait to die without bothering to even try to change ourselves or the system as ourselves.

For 2 years I have practiced the tools of Desteni and become more stable, my life as an Italian was by design emotion and feelings driven, because we believe in Passion as the ultimate possible' intensity' that life can grant us and therefore we deliberately overlook the word 'Passion' as in 'The Passion of Christ', as in fact Life turns into an emotional roller-coaster  where we nail ourselves to, until an -nail-elation or annihilation and where we believe we have no choice but to fasten the seat-belt -or not, the rest is out of our hands - in fact conveniently so.

As a Ex Catholic, not by choice but by birth, it was predictable that my understanding of Self Forgiveness would be tainted by the context of my previous understanding of the world Forgiveness, which was deliberate because no one should know about this Secret or they would just go ahead and rewrite themselves and so -while I wrote about rewriting myself I never really got what that meant or even why the Self Commitment statements were key as a follow up to self forgiveness, because of course I can only interpret what I can conceive through my limited mind and the information available there, through which I can come to CON-clusions about what everything is and is not, so Self Forgiveness became my Eraser, a tool that I could use to delete my perceived wrongdoings and I have successfully used it that way to the point of being able to disassociate from some of my beliefs and energetics reactions, what I missed out about Self Forgiveness and why I had so much resistance to explain it to others, was that I was unwilling to share a tool that I had limited within its purpose, even though at the time I was unable to define its scope in its totality because I was unable to see that the reason why Self Forgiveness worked for me as an Energetic Eraser was because I defined it so and in fact confined it and limited it to be just that.

Today as I was listening to B. taking about it I suddenly realized what Self Forgiveness really is and why the constraints into which I had defined it had me at the point of irritation occasionally, when I would just refuse to use it or share it because I couldn't see myself blubbering away self forgiveness every time I perceive myself making a miss-take because then I would be doing nothing else, I wouldn't even have the time to live my corrective statements as I was aware that I had not yet changed what was fundamentally flawed within me, I have just started to create a void, a blank slate on which to rewrite myself and that's about it.

So, now I will share the Real Secret of Existence and what Self Forgiveness really is and WHY we can't change this world without grasping what we are required to do, each one of us to move forward for REAL and not just be passing time within the illusion that we are moving AND changing just because we babble away our self forgiveness regularly -while others don't... .I'm so ahead of the game :) - and so we are done.

Meanwhile we keep repeating the same crap and justifying WHY using our Words, that we believe are not yet alive because again, we mistook the point of words becoming alive only after WE become Life, when in fact Words are alive now, they are just either embedded with Life or Fear but all have the same power to create, because Words belong to the physical that is Alive, while we belong to the Mind that is A-Lie, missing out on that point that we are already creating and recreating our reality as every justification we use to explain why we are not changing is another lie/line in the code we keep writing about ourselves - in our total dumb unawareness that could only be born out of our consistent separation from ourselves as our Words, as the Physical, unable to direct the content of what we say and therefore are to the point that what we say 'is in fact so' because I live my words as a Commitment to myself as my Words, as the Physical, as All Life, as One and Equal.

So, speaking the words of Self For-giveness is the Gift of Life, imagine that, we hold in each one of us the power to create Life, we are not Life yet just because we have not yet granted it to ourselves, we have not yet given to ourselves everything we accepted and allowed ourselves to believe we lack, this is where Dis-h-One-sty exists, the One missing in this world is Me, because I  don't yet exist, because I have not yet created Myself, I have not yet substantiated myself by removing what I have invested outside of me into everything that seems separate from me to bring it back to me, the Physical, where the substance of Life is and where I still exist in separation because I have not given to myself the same right to exist as Life, because I am apparently Faulty and in need to be fixed and so I am busy with the fixing but not with the giving, I am For-Fixing and not For-Giving as I have believed in the Scam of the Mind instead of just stopping it to stand in and as The Physical as Life.

So you see, there are 2 ways to use Self Forgiveness, one is entertaining the Mind, and that is a Scam and a process that couldn't end in one lifetime (is this why we keep coming back, duh?), the Real Process is just to STOP participating, as par-'icipating means to be apart, to keep being separate, as everything we allow from the Mind and believe it's just another thing to be For-given and this is how we make our process longer, so we either live the Scam of Self Forgiveness and keep forgiving our sins, as we go and replace the Confession Sacrament and the Catholic Priest in our Minds, or we really get what this is all about, including the word SIN (The Greek word hamartia (ἁμαρτία) is usually translated as sin in the New Testament. In Classical Greek, it means "to miss the mark" or "to miss the target" which was also used in Old English archery) which would give a whole new contest to everything we understood so far, so what, we inherited the 'missed marks' of our parents, everyone kept missing the point, should we now GET THE FUCKING POINT right or keep following the yellow brick road of the Mind into other new, more elaborate 'mark missing' sessions vs just STOPPING The Illusion of the Mind in its tracks, no longer allowing ourselves to believe in the Characters we played, instead Breathe and start the Gifting, start getting the Mark!

If we don't do that, we are participating in the Illusion not only of the Mind but the delusion that we may bring about a world that is Best for All through forgiving our sins (hello??), if each one individually is not able to do what is best for All, which would be to bring LIFE into ME, as ME/Self as part of the Equation of Life vs the Equation of  the Mind, to do that, each one has to stop their delusions and Self realize that Life cannot be given to anyone and it is not the Prize/Price at the end of our Atonement, it is instead an act of Self Giving, of Self For-Give-ness and in granting Life to ourselves we open up the Gates of Life to All, as One as Equal, we won't be able to Grant to them their Life because guess what, it is to be For-Given to Themselves by Themselves, each one that claims to be the Creator of this reality is living in the Illusion of the Mind, as they are just default Creators, energy providers for a much bigger engine in automated motion and not Deliberate Creators, and how do we know that?

Well, they could not Create themselves, they could not For-Give themselves or others the Gift of Life, how can they claim to be Creators of Anything, as the Ability to Create Life is measured in the Capacity to Create Oneself first as Life, as a Creature that can coexist in Harmony with all existence having given to All the same Equal Value as Self and thus having created themselves as unable to do harm in any form, because Life is not Harm-Full and can be trusted to always do What is Best for All, because Life is not subjective, subjected to the whims of the Mind but One and Equal to everything that exists in and as Breath.

Now, see the Beauty of this, we all exist with the same power to create Life, Equal to Life itself, Life only asks one thing, can you give Life to yourself, no matter what, without conditions -and then, can you give Life to All, no matter what, without conditions, because you are Here, you Breathe, you were given it -no matter what, you just have to Self realize You as Life by For-Giving Life to YourSelf now and as you do, extend this Giving to All, Equally.

So far this Creation is our responsibility just by what we accepted and allowed, but not by our directive principle, this existence was created in agreement to the blueprints of others that by the way, were not Life either because Life could never have conceived such a creation of Control and Abuse, because Life is For-Giving and not For-Getting -ever- that All Life is One and Equal and as I grant myself the Right to Life I Grant it to All, One and Equal, and only then Existence will be LIFE For-Giving to All and no longer For-Getting just for Some.

So, to all those that have walked the tool of Self Forgiveness and Self Honesty so far robotically, just like me, perceiving the value of the tool while not grasping The Gift, mistaking Self (H)Onesty with Honesty, spilling the beans on their sins and only milking the benefits of no longer being trumpled by emotions and feelings, reassess your Self For-Giveness, take the plunge into this Equal Standing to become a Creator and when you do, understand what it means to Give As You Would Like To Receive and see that such principle must start with you, give YourSelf what you would like to receive first, use your words as living words now, so that you can become One with them and no longer wait for them to 'come Alive' while you live the Lie that they are NOT -just because You are Not Alive Yet, and when you go about Creating Yourself, just make sure that you Create Yourself as Life and not as Fear, because Life is Fear-Less as For-Giving to All and giving to All what we would want to live is the place where Fear will end to exist forever more, and keep checking what you stand as, and when you are Life you will know because you will no longer be for-getting your role in and as an Equal Creator of Existence as you will be too busy For-Giving Life to YourSelf until you will be Life that stands Equal and One to the Life that is yet to come for All of Existence, Equal and One.

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Day 303: Death Becomes Me

Last night I listened to Sunette's interview called 'Death and Life'.

There were so many good points to look at about Death and how we have created a world full of it, funny, as a consequence of our fear of the responsibility of Living for real we embraced Death more willingly than we embraced Life.

As I looked back at the past week and my interactions, there were so many talks about death, almost none about Life, we have given Life up to Money without and the Mind within and Death ended up being so much more entertaining, so much more something to look forward to than living or at least, as we are clueless about how to go about living, we transit the Planet in a Haze waiting for our AfterLife, no longer making big plans like the Pharaohs for the trip and the goodies we wish to take with us, possibly due to Austerity, but still hoping to be able to plan for a peaceful Death, as if, one like the one a lady told me I would have, meant as a gift I guess, good karma to wish a peaceful death on someone, she said that being a sensitive she could see both me and my mum will 'go' in our sleep, no diseases and no traumatic Deaths to be scared about, surely something she wishes for herself but believes won't be able to get, she has by now accepted herself as already dis-eased and with a foot in the grave.

My mum one week ago said that she went to visit my grandparents for a small chat and to change the flowers on display, she meant at the cemetery, those are by far the least controversial visits she had with them, finally she is the only one talking with no rebuttals or things said in return that could trigger some wild automated response. 

We ended up having our best relationships with the Dead ones while we forgo our responsibility to fix the ones we have with those who are alive, how amazing of us.

Today on the news the story of a woman condemned to 12 months community service for unlawfully preventing the burial of a child that was born still born for having been kicked in the belly by her partner while she was expecting, we condemn the disrespect for Death, what about the disrespect of Life, how did THAT become Normal? Are we aware that we have created a world where Death has more value than life? Are we aware that there is something disturbing in making Laws to protect the right of the Dead and not the ones of the Living? Given that we only operate in Self Interest at the moment, are we Dead or Alive?

Solving the Death point, our fear of Death -and our fear of life-, changing our Investment Plans from Death to Life would be one of the ways we can reestablish a chance to live, not being so worried about something we cannot plan or orchestrate or, for once, manipulate, would not only bring us back Here but would allow us to have a chance at working out how to live and self express, because honestly I am just realizing how I don't have a clue about it and how much I will have to dig still to start to see a sliver of Life in me as I write out the kind of Life I want to be in consideration of the whole, something I have realized I am alien to, and  I work at how to build good relationship with people while they are still alive and how to change while I can do so for sure, because honestly no one knows what is waiting on the other side, Heaven above and Hell below seems a bit far fetched, living the Hope that magically by leaving behind the body we'll rid ourselves of all the crap we have participated in/with would mean that we are innocent and the body is guilty, the body is the carrier of the crappy life and experiences while we are all spiritual beings just momentarily trapped within it.

Yet what Breathes and is in fact alive is The Body, The Physical, when we'll move onto the Afterife what we'll leave behind is Life, an oxymoron to even have to say it, but as we became used to living words with other mean-ings, the original meaning of words just went lost, we guesstimated afterlife to mean 'afterthislife' where another, better one is waiting for us for the moment we'll finally will be saying our farewells to our shriveled up raisins like empty 'evil' bodies.

Do we bellieve our bodies are just our place of residence? Our flesh is who we are, if the house, The Temple where we live has become all dirty and mouldy why not consider cleaning it up, why not clean up our acts, redefine the starting points that move us to action or inaction, why not redefine this hellish existence of Death into one of Life, where we can all thrive, expand and share a dignified worthwhile existence.

Life is not what we manage to own or put our hands on, it's not our possessions, Life is Self Expression within self Responsibility, we can't have the Life cake and eat it by not taking responsibility for ourselves and everything we are connected to, we don't live on an island alone unless we live in our minds, so it is time to learn what Self Expression as Life means, and this will happen only by deleting what self Expression is NOT until we come to a blank slate and from there redesign who we decide ourselves to be vs what we were designed to be.

A process to undo what we have done so far that hasn't worked for ourselves or the Whole as One is available at Desteni.org, Death became us, we have the choice to stick to it or work to get our lives back and learn to live for the very first time as Self honest, self responsible Human beings that consider themselves as part of an organic Whole that can thrive with each one's ego-less participation.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to glorify Death as a teenager by saying and writing that 'Death is paid with Life'

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to be fascinated with death and the AfterLife vs participating in Life Here as an intrinsec piece of the puzzle that must stand in and as self responsibility for myself and all of existence as One

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear Death and dying in a violent death when I have no direct information about how the death experience is and therefore everything I think about it is just an assumption with no foundation in reality and I will have to live to see it through when the time comes, which is something I have no control over in any way and is therefore time to let go all and every worry about it

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that the AfterLife was more important than Life, because within this belief I accepted and allowed a World of Death to exist as I glorified what may come vs what is Here where I can infact learn to live and experience mySelf through this opportunity to do so and within this for accepting and allowing myself  to waste my Life in the pursuit of a worthy ticket into the AfterLife, disregarding what is Here that is not yet living in Oneness and Equality the dignity that we could grant to each other by standing as One beyond our Egos for what is Best for All and All of existence as One.

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Day 298: There is Too-Much Love in this World

I have been an advocate for Love as a force for Change, a staunch advocate at that.

It was convenient, did not cost me a penny or my time, it did not require for me to change because I could claim to be loving and that was enough and when any doubt would come up I would get together with some other loving people, so we could support each other lies and pretense and do nothing about the state of the world together and then go home feeling all good about ourselves, we were the loving ones not the evil ones of this world - thangodforthat.

Funny claim considering it didn't even change me, I watched myself get more entrenched with time going by in my belief systems, habits, behaviors, personalities so I cal testify for sure that Love didn't even change me, but at the time I insisted, in fact I vowed it could change the world.

My favorite replies to anything practical like Famine, wars, violence, child abuse were these:

Love is the Solution

Love is all we need

Love is what will change the world

Love is who we really are

There is a long list of those oxy-morons we use to define why we would not in fact stand for a solution that is real, where the lives of all would be improved, where the planet would be cared for, the animals would be respected and we would stop doing everything in the name of Greed, Profit and Money.

Some of us 'lovers' and ex'lovers' are or were supporters of a book like the Bible which contains more tragedies and hatred than all Greek mythology put together and the parts in which some cool messages slipped in -by mistake, like to love our neighbour or give to each other what we would like for ourselves- those parts we pulverized out of our consciousness and then brushed off any remote resonance to them.

No wonder the world is what it is, we are living the Bible script minus the few and far in between good bits.

So, to go back to 'there is too much Love in this world', I would like to say that if we did not have this socially accepted excuse, this feel good prompting to shove up each other's ...... to activate the 'yes, that's true' 'yes you are right' compulsory response, we may have looked for real practical solutions by now.

What about facing the WHY we are busy keeping the Love lie up, what is the Con-venience of such belief system if not clearly as the best answer to give when not wanting to walk the required physical steps to change this world to make it work for everyone?

How can we in the same sentence deny the right to Equality as Equal Worth and Value to All and profess Love? What is the Love we are talking about then if not just an Idea, a fairy tale not different from those pathetic ones we imprint our children with to make them 'wanters' of things, experiences, good feelings in which we include Love as the delusion we live and pass on to future generations.

Let's consider that wanting Love to be real, wanting Love as the Solution means we must get to the Solution first, because Love is not changing anything by itself, it's not a magic wand, it doesn't change the individual and hence it doesn't change the world, the inner doesn't change just by claiming Love, we don't become loving by saying we are just like we don't become wise, clever, practical, stable just by saying it, nor does the outer, so we need to redefine Love to something we can do to make it real.

Where exactly does our cognitive dissonance come in about Love and what Love is, where did this misunderstanding started, our misinterpretation of Love as the label we can put on an action before it is undertaken, on a solution before it is accomplished or even agreed on.

At Desteni, as a group, we are not bashing Love for the fun of it, we do it to burst the Love bubble, as a form of support, to take off the Emperor clothes that were never there to start with, the nice make up we wear to pretend to be good so we can expose our unwillingness to work together for real, to grant to each other the lives we wished to live because we need to see the problem before we can change it, and Love is a smoke screen that must come down for the house of cards to fall once and for all and allow us to face the consequences of having been anything BUT loving.

If Love was real, we would not allow a child to go hungry, a parent to not have enough to get to the end of the month, a father to be homeless after a divorce, a single human being in slavery, violence, rape, wars, so the next time we feel the nagging temptation to use Love as the reason why we are not joining the most loving solution of the Planet, we should stop and face the image we are trying to keep up of ourselves to face the underlining fears we have of Equality and what it would mean to suddenly have to give up our privileged position in the World to create a world that would work for All, Equally, considering all its parts as living pieces of the equation that make life on Earth possible, and not some just as spare parts or human waste that we can dispense with and dispose of just because we are not related to them by 'emotions and feelings' - which are not even real.

If we like the idea of Love and loving each other, we have to take the necessary steps to make it real, practical, tangible, turning the matter we manifested into a horror show into a place where a dignified Life for All is not only possible, it's a given, a gift that we give to each other to Real-ize Love and rescue it from the deception it has become in our attempt to deny the need for Change, our individual Inner Change as parts of the Whole to allow the Outer reflection to change with and as us.

Join EqualMoney, it's not a For-taking system, it's a For-Giving System to make Love Real for All, Equally.

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Day 287: The Value of Life = Money?

As we exchanged opinions on Quora, it became clear we don't understand, perceive or share the principle that All Life has Equal Worth.

What is the system that we have used so far to establish the value of Life?

Is there one we are not aware of that we have just internalized and now we can't see anymore clearly and so we are not aware of what we are using as the measure for the worth of Life?

Sure there is, it's Money.

I have a vague memory of being real young and discovering that insurance companies would not pay up the same price for Life policies of different people, I don't remember this point striking me as odd, on the contrary, I remember that when my mum explained to me the WHY as in 'if the person that dies was a doctor, the insurance would pay more due to what we would call 'Loss of potential Earnings' and that would be calculated on a Life time earnings that had been missed out on due to death'.

It made perfect sense. Which means that I had already internalized the value of human life equivalent to Money or to Money earning potential. (Ogden Tables - how insurances evaluate the worth of a Life)

So back a few more years, I am in kindergarten and my mum bought a black and white TV for my school, I received public recognition and an applause, that felt damn good, so it could have been then that I made this connection - giving something to people that I can Buy will give me value as recognition of generosity and of a good character, hence I developed a liking for giving, not devoid of self interest of course, I would be cashing in the good feelings coming from the gratefulness and happiness of others.

Same time more or less, my grandparents always insisting in buying me the 'best available in any shop', watching the shop attendants scuttle around to please them, equating buying power with power and people with more buying power to MORE, desiring to have more buying power than others to be able to access this more-ness to compensate for sure my not-enough-ness.

Special events spent at my grandparents home, display of treats as special food that was not available in my mother's home, more 'joy' due to drinking and overeating, connecting joy to having more to share with others, being the bringer of treats and special foods to a table to make people happy, money as a way to induce good feelings in people, the ones with more money able to induce more good feelings in others, bringers of joy and as such more valuable than the poor that had nothing to add to the life of another in terms of things, defining the worth of life through the worth of things one is able to afford and share.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that I was not enough and I had to find ways to up my worth by subscribing to an external value/worth system, such as the Money system

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe and subscribe to the belief that some lives are worth more than others just because insurance companies have set up tables defining the value of life as 'potential missed earnings' which means according to the profession and relative remuneration of each one, vs an Equal Value of Life for All, seeing, realizing and understanding that life can't be and should not be defined by the potential to earn money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fail to notice that, if the worth of a Life was connected to the ability to earn Money, Life itself was tied into a monetary value/worth, and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that Money is what we are worth and that our capacity/ability to generate a wage is what gave meaning and value to our life, which is why I still meet with people who hold this belief as a reminder that this belief exists one and Equal within me and is in need to be corrected and realigned to Oneness and Equality returning worth and value to Life itself.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to define the value of life as more or less according to what one can BUY for another, instead of seeing and realizing that the whole point of some being able to buy something for someone who doesn't have access to the same benefit, is just a sign of unequal distribution of resources and of value tied in to money/resources and that we should work together to change the distribution of resources to Equality and not benefit from having more than others as a way to have more value/power than any other in the world

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to, when I was a kid and I was catered for by shop assistants who could assess at a glance my grandparents buying power, to feel special and more than others who did not have access to the same "Best" I had access to, and within this for desiring to keep this "Best" advantage going for myself as a way to be more than others in value/worth

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I would have to ever swap place with those who had less, I would have to feel diminished by having to accept the charity of others who were in a position of superior buying power than the one I had, because I diminished others inside of me when I could find out they did not have my same buying power as I did not recognize the value of Life as One and Equal for All but connected to what one could afford to show their value/worth

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to connect the worth of Life with what kind of table displays I could set up and share with others as a statement of my superior value/worth as I have accepted and allowed myself to connect fancy table displays of my grandparents with joy and happiness due to overeating and over drinking, and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to have more value and worth than others in being the dispenser of such happy moments that others could not offer to me due to our discrepancy in access to food choices due to Money Inequality

I commit myself to, when I come face to face with others who hold a specific Life/Money conversion table, to investigate within myself how and if I am participating in the same constructs and if I am, to correct myself to let go my acquired beliefs, opinions and ideas about what makes a Life worthy, to return to Life its own intrinsic Value that I misplaced on things and symbols in separation from myself as Life

I commit myself to investigate the points in which I still perceive I give myself a superior value using things and symbols in separation from myself and when I find any, to self correct myself to realign to Oneness and Equality and what is best for All

I commit myself to stand unconditionally for an Equal Money System to create a world of Equals where Life is the only Value we all Equally share to guarantee a dignified Life for All and the end of all abuses and crimes against Life to ensure that those born after us won't have to face such a world where Life has gone on sale for the imaginary value of a make belief Monetary System as the Key to the Vital resources we should all Equally share.

Heaven on Earth for All is possible - we  just have to decide to change and change the world with us, as us - after death we'll be dead, and so far there have been zero intervention from the other side, what if the power to change existed only within The Physical while we are Alive? Should we wait to die to find out?

Day 283: The Fear of leaving behind Knowledge and Information

I had a dream.

In the dream I was spending time with one of my friends and his son.

He asked me if I could help him with his English homework and I said yes, so he came close and showed me his book, but I was dozing off and in the dream I realized I could not follow him unless I woke up, so I tried to wake up but when I did, I realized I would wake up from the dream and then the book -and the boy!- would disappear and I would NOT be able to help him, so I spent some time in the dream trying to wake up enough but not too much to have the book disappear and finally I managed a sort of balance but I was uncomfortable because I knew I was dreaming and that what I was doing was worthless, I could have woken up completely and then yes, the book would have been gone, but the boy too so there would be no loss, no one was REALLY in need of my knowledge and information and this sense of the uselessness of it all, made me choose the dream vs the reality of being awake, not caring about the point that what I believed in the dream was worthy and valuable, was not even real.

Who will I be if I let go my knowledge and information?

Do I need to let go what I know or the value I have invested in it as who I am?

If I hold on to knowledge and information as value, am I not part of this world problem that values Education as a reason why not everyone has the same worth and value?

Why do I fear facing the point of how much value I have invested in knowledge and information, what is behind this value point that I fear to lose?



Ok, so definitely a fear of loss of a definition of myself as knowledgeable, this is again a money survival point, because I accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I had MORE knowledge and information then I was worth more in terms of my access to the Money world and I would have better chances at surviving.

So the point is a Value point in relation to my market worth, which as I wrote brought up another point of Value/Worth as being good looking but fearing that I would be exploited for that if I did not back it up with enough knowledge and information to not be taken for a ride, literally, so behind the knowledge and information point there is the acceptance that this is a man's world and I have to pile up credits as vantage points to be able to measure up, I see that this point is quite big because as I reach some of those points that have become who I am, I just want to write that this is a FACT, that this is a Man's world and I better not delude myself with some Pollyanna stories that resembles the positive thinking that I can THINK myself out of this one - so there is a fear that I can't let go this point because I need the extra value to compete with men for survival, when in fact the value I hold on to has become my very own limitation in stopping the ongoing competition with men in search for value I use to measure up to them - as in ability to turn Money and the fact that my value is now linked to knowledge and information which makes me feel vulnerable because I can always meet someone with more, just like with Money and then I will expose myself to the inferiority superiority game I have set up as I went and looked for points of superiority in fear of being inferior, accepting being inferior as a woman as a fact.



Of course this point rang true yesterday again when I watched Prof Wolff whose first talk I enjoyed so much, while the second one I watched brought up the value of education and left me feeling uneasy as I saw how he justified why some professors should earn more than others and I knew I could well follow the whole speech all the way to agreement because I hold on to this belief that education has worth and value without seeing that the worth and value education has is MY worth and value that I invested in it and that if I didn't -it would be worthless and just a tool to make myself efficient in the system, not adding or subtracting anything to who I am or to anyone else is -as Life.



I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to value education as knowledge and information above Life, mine and of everyone else


I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear that without an education I would be worth-less and I would have to fear for my life and about how I was going to support myself in a world of men


I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that this point is especially alive when I am around men, as I showed to myself in my dream, where there were 2 men less knowledgeable than me and then I didn't want to wake up from the dream because I enjoyed my position of superiority in my imaginary competition in my Mind, in which I always set out to prove, to men especially, that they don't know Jack, that they are stupid, and that their position on top of the world is deceivingly gained and ill granted, when in fact I am the one granting it by holding on to my fear of being less that drives me to show them I am more at every chance I get


I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not trust in my ability to reach a point of Equality with men because they only want to fuck you so you better have an arsenal of ammo in the guise of knowledge and information to prevent yourself to be taken for a ride or to believe all the crap they come up with, when in fact I don't need anything but my self trust that I can handle any situation as an Equal when and as I am faced with men who I perceive cannot be trusted


I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to make men that cannot be trusted, which in my mind is pretty much all of them, the reason why I can't let go of my knowledge and information as value, without seeing realizing and understanding that they were just my excuse for hanging on to the value I have divested of myself into knowledge and information -and to hold on to my excuse I had to make men worse than they are in my mind, make the threat of their presence real so that I would be justified in WHY I must hold on to that extra value, because I really really need it, instead of seeing realizing and understanding it is not about who they are around me but who I am around them that sets the terms of engagement, and that the only correction I need to work on is on me and that requires for me to take back all the value I have invested in something outside of my Self that I made more than me as Life as Breath

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that it was me that set the rule of the game with men every single time and that as I set out exploiting my good looks as a vantage point I then had to back them up with knowledge and information so I could pretend that I was not in fact playing the Beauty game and that it was all in their Mind because look, I am knowledgeable and informed and the fact that you want to fuck me is Your Fault, when in fact I used knowledge and information as the smoke screen to keep playing the seduction game without paying the price of the unspoken promises that I put on the table at every deal, because I could

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to blame men and make them dangerous regarding how they responded to me and my seduction games through knowledge and information, building up case after case against them to prove it was their fault that they saw SEX everywhere I placed it and then magically deleted it through the use of knowledge and information to just leave them confused and wonder if they had imagined it all or if I had hinted that something may take place sometime if they would give me what I wanted, which was access to the same world they had access to, the men's world, and for accepting and allowing myself to diminish myself by accepting that this world was not made for me but for them only to then live to fight my own acceptance and allowance, I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that with knowledge and information I could aspire to more, be more, move more swiftly into the system as 'increased value' leaving behind those with less value as knowledge and information without ever considering that I should have looked for solutions on how we could equalize our value and make everyone equally valuable and worthy once and for all

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to, when I realized that good looks as a genetic advantage could take me far, fear that I would be judged for the good looks alone and be made less, be talked about, be diminished as someone who only had That to offer and as such, pile up knowledge and information as my excuse to why I was rising up in the world when in fact it was just the way I looked that took me places and for living the guilt for looking good as an undeserved point of advantage that I had to match with a point I perceived I deserved for real such as knowledge and information, I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that I feared losing the good looks advantage so much that I stockpiled on another advantage such as knowledge and information, because I wanted to be advantaged one way or another not seeing realizing and understanding that through valuing external points above my Self I was in fact diminishing myself at every turn in the hope to gain more value for myself, a long lasting value that I could hold on to, either through looks or knowledge and information because I was for sure not willing to go down the scale of value to the point of having to accept any and every job to make a living, and for not considering the point of no choice of many others either in terms of looks or knowledge and information to give themselves the same access to resources as a Right to Live, I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that as I hold on to my value as knowledge and information, the world has the same right to hold on to this point as the reason why some are more worthy than others and for my participation in devaluing some so I could be more, so I could stop the fear of being in their place I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that those with a higher education have more right to Life than those with a lower education, because as I could not believe that those with better looks had that right as that was a 'chance' point, education seemed 'earned' to me and as such the right to More was 'earned' too and unquestionable, when in fact the point that not all have access to the same possibilities for knowledge and information invalidates this point for all, and as such I forgive myself for having been part of the supporting team of value of knowledge and education vs Life, One and Equal for All, with the same Rights, choices and access to benefits that would create a world into a heavenly place for All vs a heavenly place for me alone.

When and as I see myself facing a man and move or about to move into my All Knowing Character, I stop, breathe, do not participate in the fear of being less or the desire to prove something and bring myself back Here through breathing until I am stable

When and as I see myself experiencing or about to experience a full blown point of loss just because I did not participate in showing off my knowledge as a 'missed chance' to gain value for myself, I stop, breathe, remind myself that as I seek value outside of myself I am accepting my worthlessness as who I am and not my Equality with everything that exists from the lowest to the highest point of existence and see realize and understand that I can only be All or nothing and that I have to be no one to be able to be All of Us, willing to delete myself to stand as a point of no desire and no fear and to reach that point I have to consistently Not allow myself to participate in polarity games, no matter how tempting as value-adding they may seem

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to believe that my Value lies in my knowledge and information or in my looks or in anything that I can find that is separate from me as Self and to identify where I still hold on to points of external Value to bring it All back to Self as Life as One and Equal, to stop this game of polarity and superiority and inferiority, for myself and All of existence, Equal and One

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Day 258: We Can't Boycott the System - We are the System

We have created a world where we have finally Pushed ourselves against a wall, well done on us.

Today I had this realization that there is NOTHING we can do to stop this world, but Change It.

We write about Inequality and the System not working, the Banks who are greedy grabbers holding the interest life line of many people everywhere in the world, evicting them from their homes, driving whole families into poverty, closing down businesses or about the Corporate leeches who are sucking the blood off everyone and we come up with apparently clever ideas to 'fight' the system that are never considering the absolute unsolvable interconnectedness of all things.

So, however good we are at spotting the source of our system problems, we can't attack it, wrestle it to the floor, kill it, not even boycott will work which would seem the most peaceful solution, because wherever we withdraw our support, something dies, people lose jobs, homes, their ability to support themselves.

Today I saw a shop selling shoes for 10 euro, shoes and boots -for 10 euro, some labels said made in India, that means they have even traveled, so to calculate their 'value' you'll have to deduct the profit of the Italian seller, their operation costs, the wage for the people working in the shop, the rent, electricity, cleaning lady, repairs etc, then we move onto the product costs, there you have transport costs, import taxes costs, packaging costs, we could safely say that those shoes were paid within 2 Euro at the factory -unless they were stolen , which would open another problem for those they were stolen from as loss of capital, loss of revenue etc-, 2 euro at the Indian factory means that the worker can't get more than 1 euro per day, that would be a handsome pay based on the cost/worth of the shoes, and would come up to about 30 USD per month if they pay overtime at the factory and have them work 29 days a month, like they do in China.

Now, imagine that since we see the abuse we decide to boycott this shop, we'll be the righteous ones, the boycotters of the one point of a Chain of Abuse. Now, let's look at the consequences of the added up action of boycotting purchases: the lady who was selling shoes in the shop, Romanian or Albanian she was, would lose her job, the staff is always the first that gets cut out because they are the easiest cost to cut, the shop would strive to stay open and ultimately close like it's happening to many small businesses in Italy -1600 a day for the record at June 2012-, they would no longer be a buyer for the Indian factory who would have to lay off staff that would go from their meagre 30 USD salary/month to starving. 

If they have a family they can't let their family starve, or should they so as to not upset the ones among us who actually do have food and a home and every comfort? Ultimately they will resort to crime, crime is NOT a choice, it's the choice for the ones who have No Choice.

Let's take another example Apple and Foxconn, we know Foxconn had a surge of suicides at one of their plants and ended up installing suicide prevention nets. We in the western world from our remote control as our keyboards were the ones asking to better the conditions of the workers in China, we did this because we wanted to take action from our comfortable homes so we could score another well spent day into addressing the problems of the system. We raised virtual signatures for a virtual petition -another utter mind f**k-, and due to popular demand -we like to believe, MY demand to be precise- Apple was forced to renegotiate the terms of the supply agreement with Foxconn.

The most logical way would have been for Apple to agree to pay MORE for the products AND ask for management changes to gruesome and inhumane labour conditions at the other end of the production wire. But they would not offer more money, meaning quantifiable more money, they instead used their purchase leverage to push the change, threatening to change supplier; with revenues of $40bn annually making everything from iPads to desktop computers and televisions, there should have been plenty of space for Foxconn to reduce the Profit at the top and improve the working conditions at the bottom, please see this link to Real-ize WHAT are the working conditions in China.

Foxconn, forced to take action against its will, moved to "dramatically" increase the workers pay, this happened in 2010, the wages were doubled in a very short time but the suicides didn't stop, proving that Money can't buy Life, a lessons we have to learn from the Poor and Destitutes of Society.  

Then came the suicide prevention scheme one of the cheap solutions born out of one such a situation: Apple said "we no longer want to hear about suicides at the factory" - "Okey-Dokey"- thought the Chinese, 'honestly' there was no more room for improving the workers conditions and keeping the hands of the top layers firmly on the loot at the same time, so they came up with the plan to catch the attempting offenders, as those looking forward to jump to their death {that speaks volume about the alternative they lived..}, into mid air- THIS is how they will surely prevent suicides, they'll stop them in their attempted foolish act and then 're-form' them into model workers, ain't that clever? And all without costing more than a few rolls of nets, this is Cost Control at its best.

The point I am trying to make is that there is NO solution to this system because the system is squeezed in between 2 profit motives, not just one, and it's always going to be the ones at the lowest places of the pecking order who are going to pay, so when we stand for boycotting anything, we should stop and see how whatever we do has in fact consequences that will be paid by someone else, and that if we do want to change this system and stop the atrocious lives some are living without choice, we have to implement an overall system change, we must become the nets that catch All those that would otherwise be falling to their death or into a life of misery, and until then we can't stop participating in the system, which in a very distorted way is Great, because NO ONE can ever claim to be an innocent bystander, not even through ignorance, shoes costing 10 euros can only be the result of a crime, either one against Life or against the Law, there is no other way to manufacture shoes and boots that are that dirt cheap, not even if the cows would cut and sew their own skin while they were still alive.

Boycotting the system at this stage is an act of cowardice and irresponsibility, we have to see the System as Us and all the points in the system as us and as we move away from our pointless greedy consumption and shift some of our revenues into supporting One Worthy Cause, and that is Change for All to establish Equality and Oneness on Earth, we have to support the system at the same time, we created it, it's our Brain (Damaged) Child, it needs reforming into something that considers the Life of All Living Beings as Equally Worthy and Valuable, it is because we have not looked after the System as Ourselves that it has gotten out of hand to this point of Absolute Unimaginable Abuse, we have to get back into the driving seat and not turn our back on our Creation, no matter which judgement or opinions we have taken on board that further separate us from each other on what's right and what's wrong. In fact it is despite the opinions and ideas that separate each other that we have to stand as One for What is best for All. This is how we'll measure if we are worthy of the Breath as Life we all Equally have or if we rather embrace our individual Pettiness and Petty Causes to perpetuate our Egos as Warriors of Light, Greenpeacers, Whale Protectors, Gay Marriage spokespeople, Vegan, Christian, Buddhist, Manchester United Fans, Anti-this, Pro-that, while the problems keep piling up, just because we can't let all that crap go already and unite in One Vision, where All Life is given Only the Best of everything, from education to healthcare, to nutrition, to shelter, clothing as we stand to share Equally this Planet and everything it provides for the Good of All.

If you understand what I am saying in any way, or if you are starting to see the magnitude of the problem we face, consider stopping your participation in the irrelevant fringe movements that are causing more harm than good, some people have real good intentions, if you are one of these -inform yourself on how we can design a system that works for all and once we have it in place, we can pull the rug under the feet of the old one and watch it crumble but we can't do it before we move into place into our own individual and collective positions of responsibility.

Life is suffering Big Time and it doesn't have to be this way, we are the system as the sum of all its parts, the only things that needs to change is the bricks that hold the system in place and we'll have the World we say we want, a world where we return to Life it's Capital Value and everyone as Life will be Equally supported from Birth to Death. Join us @#EqualMoney. Life is waiting.

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