Day 389: Me as the World Systems - The Debt System

Two days ago my partner asked me to give him a lift to the central station.
It was 4 am but I was not asleep yet. so it was not a big deal considering that at that time the city is empty and it would have taken me just a little more than half an hour to come and go and it would have made his life much easier.

What happened afterward was very interesting, because I saw myself looking at the opportunity to make a fuss due to the unconventionality of the request, meaning this is not your everyday request and so, being a 'rare' request we could say, it had more value on the trading floor, I could get 'credits' if I did go - of course it was of paramount importance to keep up the illusion that he shouldn't even have asked me, that it was an inconsiderate act on his side and to pump this simple action full of value that I could milk for myself.

Isn't this what the banking system does on another level? We make illusory bank notes scarce, meaningful, keep up the storyline that they are becoming 'rare' and then charge an interest on them, so in this post I will walk the correction of myself as the debt system to no longer perceive the separation between myself and this specific world system but realize that there is equality in behavior and I can realign to what works for all within my micro world to become a piece in the macro world that moves out of the misalignment of make-belief stories, meant to vex and burden others unnecessarily and return myself to a piece of support of others and as the system as a whole.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to, when asked for a favour that I could have done without making a fuss about it, to instead evaluate how much 'credit' I would get out of it if I did make a fuss and made sure to create a debt on the other side that I could call back anytime I wanted

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to drive to Central Station disgruntled as part of the plot about making a mountain out of a molehill, to make sure to add value to what I did for another and not let them get away debt free

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to, when I realized what I was doing, to move into self judgement due to the nature of what I saw within and as myself instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that, if we live in a debt loaded world what I do is shared by all on a mind level and I am not unique or special in my abusive behavior and that it is not a matter to feel guilty as a way to break even but a matter of standing, stabilizing myself in and as breath so that I can correct myself to not allow this to happen again

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to feel burdened and indebted to others who made it clear that what they did for me was special and out of the ordinary in order to create my imaginary debt and within this for subscribing to this idea of credit and debt that move quietly and secretly among us in a huge cover up that is then reflected by the nature of the world system we have created outward

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to develop a skill when talking to my mother about identifying immediately what she is offering as an indenture and for making sure that I take on the burden of debt so that I am aware I have to repay her for something, least she makes me pay (the interests) for it

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I copied this system and the credit and debt ledger by those that went before me, which doesn't mean it was the 'proper thing to do' but just that I internalized this behavior that I understood unconsciously, to make sure I would understand how to play it out in my favour and within this for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the indenture of myself and humanity one and equal

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to, as I researched these days about the crimes of our world, to ponder how and what would be enough to even out the score looking for ways in which this debt can be settled, without seeing, realizing and understanding that there will never be enough to repay this specific debt in which we sunk ourselves as humanity, debts that started at home and became the very force that drives our interactions with each other at all levels of our society and within this for thinking that there are some more evil than me out there, when in fact it was never based on the degree of evilness but on the capacity in which they found themselves to affect large portion of humanity by applying this same principle of debt and indenture

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that the creation of debt and indenture is a way to diminish others and make them 'inferior'  as in living at a lower level compared to myself, making sure I stay on top while they 'suffer at the bottom' and that this is the nature of our system, in which we push those that are weaker at the bottom so we may feel better about ourselves and feel safer, instead of working to create a world where there is no lowest for some to live out while we take the grandest route

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to, when having a fall out with someone to move into my ledger to establish the degree of their debt and accordingly to decide if I can let it go or not, proving to myself that my participation in this world has never been debt free so far and that I need to change how I participate to bring about the change I want to see in this world, as myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'some debts can't be forgiven' because as I desire to hold on to my credits toward others and myself I have not yet made that change required by me as the world to guarantee that ALL DEBT CAN BE FORGIVEN and within this I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to hold myself captive by my own debts, by my past miss-demeanours instead of releasing myself and the world with me from all debts once and for all

When and as I see myself attempting or about to attempt to seize an opportunity for 'debt creation', I stop, breathe, see realize and understand that in that moment I am equal to a world banker and make the decision to not create a relationship of indenture for someone else toward me in any way shape or form

When and as I see myself desiring to 'add value' to create an asset for myself to an action I am about to undertake for another, I stop, breathe, see, realize and understand that the only value I can build for myself is within who I am and that any other value I desire to create would only serve as the creation of debt for another and this is no way I wish to behave anymore

When and as I see myself holding on to a behavior of debt creation for the purpose of making sure another is clear about 'owing me something', I stop, breathe, remind myself that as I reap so I sow and that if I want to live a debt free life, I have to give a debt free life to others - without exceptions

When and as I see myself moving into my ledger or about to move into a ledger of debts and credits toward another, I stop, seize this opportunity to delete the ledger by applying self forgiveness to what I have done as an 'investment' and 'credit facility' and make sure I stand clear with everyone in my life regarding this specific debt/credit point

I commit myself to no longer participate in the creation of debts for people within my life or within myself

I commit myself to delete all debts and forgive myself and others what I perceived existed out of balances in a 'credit facility' scenario to move beyond giving within conditions to learn giving unconditionally

I commit myself to never bring up a debt in words or deeds but use the opportunity of 'debt surfacing' as a moment in which I can correct my stance and realign myself to a debt free life and world inside and out

I commit myself to put an end to the debt system within and without and align to what is best for all for myself and all of existence, Equal and One

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Day 258: We Can't Boycott the System - We are the System

We have created a world where we have finally Pushed ourselves against a wall, well done on us.

Today I had this realization that there is NOTHING we can do to stop this world, but Change It.

We write about Inequality and the System not working, the Banks who are greedy grabbers holding the interest life line of many people everywhere in the world, evicting them from their homes, driving whole families into poverty, closing down businesses or about the Corporate leeches who are sucking the blood off everyone and we come up with apparently clever ideas to 'fight' the system that are never considering the absolute unsolvable interconnectedness of all things.

So, however good we are at spotting the source of our system problems, we can't attack it, wrestle it to the floor, kill it, not even boycott will work which would seem the most peaceful solution, because wherever we withdraw our support, something dies, people lose jobs, homes, their ability to support themselves.

Today I saw a shop selling shoes for 10 euro, shoes and boots -for 10 euro, some labels said made in India, that means they have even traveled, so to calculate their 'value' you'll have to deduct the profit of the Italian seller, their operation costs, the wage for the people working in the shop, the rent, electricity, cleaning lady, repairs etc, then we move onto the product costs, there you have transport costs, import taxes costs, packaging costs, we could safely say that those shoes were paid within 2 Euro at the factory -unless they were stolen , which would open another problem for those they were stolen from as loss of capital, loss of revenue etc-, 2 euro at the Indian factory means that the worker can't get more than 1 euro per day, that would be a handsome pay based on the cost/worth of the shoes, and would come up to about 30 USD per month if they pay overtime at the factory and have them work 29 days a month, like they do in China.

Now, imagine that since we see the abuse we decide to boycott this shop, we'll be the righteous ones, the boycotters of the one point of a Chain of Abuse. Now, let's look at the consequences of the added up action of boycotting purchases: the lady who was selling shoes in the shop, Romanian or Albanian she was, would lose her job, the staff is always the first that gets cut out because they are the easiest cost to cut, the shop would strive to stay open and ultimately close like it's happening to many small businesses in Italy -1600 a day for the record at June 2012-, they would no longer be a buyer for the Indian factory who would have to lay off staff that would go from their meagre 30 USD salary/month to starving. 

If they have a family they can't let their family starve, or should they so as to not upset the ones among us who actually do have food and a home and every comfort? Ultimately they will resort to crime, crime is NOT a choice, it's the choice for the ones who have No Choice.

Let's take another example Apple and Foxconn, we know Foxconn had a surge of suicides at one of their plants and ended up installing suicide prevention nets. We in the western world from our remote control as our keyboards were the ones asking to better the conditions of the workers in China, we did this because we wanted to take action from our comfortable homes so we could score another well spent day into addressing the problems of the system. We raised virtual signatures for a virtual petition -another utter mind f**k-, and due to popular demand -we like to believe, MY demand to be precise- Apple was forced to renegotiate the terms of the supply agreement with Foxconn.

The most logical way would have been for Apple to agree to pay MORE for the products AND ask for management changes to gruesome and inhumane labour conditions at the other end of the production wire. But they would not offer more money, meaning quantifiable more money, they instead used their purchase leverage to push the change, threatening to change supplier; with revenues of $40bn annually making everything from iPads to desktop computers and televisions, there should have been plenty of space for Foxconn to reduce the Profit at the top and improve the working conditions at the bottom, please see this link to Real-ize WHAT are the working conditions in China.

Foxconn, forced to take action against its will, moved to "dramatically" increase the workers pay, this happened in 2010, the wages were doubled in a very short time but the suicides didn't stop, proving that Money can't buy Life, a lessons we have to learn from the Poor and Destitutes of Society.  

Then came the suicide prevention scheme one of the cheap solutions born out of one such a situation: Apple said "we no longer want to hear about suicides at the factory" - "Okey-Dokey"- thought the Chinese, 'honestly' there was no more room for improving the workers conditions and keeping the hands of the top layers firmly on the loot at the same time, so they came up with the plan to catch the attempting offenders, as those looking forward to jump to their death {that speaks volume about the alternative they lived..}, into mid air- THIS is how they will surely prevent suicides, they'll stop them in their attempted foolish act and then 're-form' them into model workers, ain't that clever? And all without costing more than a few rolls of nets, this is Cost Control at its best.

The point I am trying to make is that there is NO solution to this system because the system is squeezed in between 2 profit motives, not just one, and it's always going to be the ones at the lowest places of the pecking order who are going to pay, so when we stand for boycotting anything, we should stop and see how whatever we do has in fact consequences that will be paid by someone else, and that if we do want to change this system and stop the atrocious lives some are living without choice, we have to implement an overall system change, we must become the nets that catch All those that would otherwise be falling to their death or into a life of misery, and until then we can't stop participating in the system, which in a very distorted way is Great, because NO ONE can ever claim to be an innocent bystander, not even through ignorance, shoes costing 10 euros can only be the result of a crime, either one against Life or against the Law, there is no other way to manufacture shoes and boots that are that dirt cheap, not even if the cows would cut and sew their own skin while they were still alive.

Boycotting the system at this stage is an act of cowardice and irresponsibility, we have to see the System as Us and all the points in the system as us and as we move away from our pointless greedy consumption and shift some of our revenues into supporting One Worthy Cause, and that is Change for All to establish Equality and Oneness on Earth, we have to support the system at the same time, we created it, it's our Brain (Damaged) Child, it needs reforming into something that considers the Life of All Living Beings as Equally Worthy and Valuable, it is because we have not looked after the System as Ourselves that it has gotten out of hand to this point of Absolute Unimaginable Abuse, we have to get back into the driving seat and not turn our back on our Creation, no matter which judgement or opinions we have taken on board that further separate us from each other on what's right and what's wrong. In fact it is despite the opinions and ideas that separate each other that we have to stand as One for What is best for All. This is how we'll measure if we are worthy of the Breath as Life we all Equally have or if we rather embrace our individual Pettiness and Petty Causes to perpetuate our Egos as Warriors of Light, Greenpeacers, Whale Protectors, Gay Marriage spokespeople, Vegan, Christian, Buddhist, Manchester United Fans, Anti-this, Pro-that, while the problems keep piling up, just because we can't let all that crap go already and unite in One Vision, where All Life is given Only the Best of everything, from education to healthcare, to nutrition, to shelter, clothing as we stand to share Equally this Planet and everything it provides for the Good of All.

If you understand what I am saying in any way, or if you are starting to see the magnitude of the problem we face, consider stopping your participation in the irrelevant fringe movements that are causing more harm than good, some people have real good intentions, if you are one of these -inform yourself on how we can design a system that works for all and once we have it in place, we can pull the rug under the feet of the old one and watch it crumble but we can't do it before we move into place into our own individual and collective positions of responsibility.

Life is suffering Big Time and it doesn't have to be this way, we are the system as the sum of all its parts, the only things that needs to change is the bricks that hold the system in place and we'll have the World we say we want, a world where we return to Life it's Capital Value and everyone as Life will be Equally supported from Birth to Death. Join us @#EqualMoney. Life is waiting.

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Day 170: The (De)Grading of Children - Teacher Character

Yesterday I have seen my English student again, in less than 2 months she forgot almost everything we did together for the exam, plus she refused to take on some homework to build her vocabulary because 'that is not what the new English teacher asks her to do and grades her for', I have tried the common sense approach of explaining that a language is for communication and the vocabulary is a fundamental part of it, failed, she stuck to the grades point, asked her to put in 20 minutes a day extra curricula to keep her English up, she said no because she had too much to do, asked her to fill in 'at least' the part of the present continuous her teacher is explaining now, she said no because those homework were not given to her in class and she will not be graded for them.

At the height of my exasperation I told her ' I will tell your mum', way to go Ele, I justified 'scaring her' for her own good, because 'how can she not see they are fucking with her and in a country like Italy where soon everyone will have to migrate again she better get her English skills together, so I projected on her my own fears of the future that is waiting for all of us.

This was the result of a mounting irritation that took place during lesson yesterday, she could not focus and she made 2 jokes to which I reacted, one was about 'don't go to the park because is full of junkies' , the second was 'I am sorry for the little China Children but I will never give up my Nike shoes', basically I was one inch from desiring to slap her.

I tried to engage her on the 'poor children of China' conversation but we got to the point when she said, "Nike has cleaned up its act since they were caught abusing Child labor, so now it's all 'fine' again", that was not the point I tried to make but I wasn't even clear on the point I was trying to make myself so I let that go as I perceived the internal reaction and I knew I would have said something useless and sstupid just to make My Point.

SO what are the common sense words to speak to a kid to help them through this world, to explain that we, the Adults, are sorry for TheGrading them, that we wish we didn't build or accepted and allowed such a system in which children are deGraded and marked and then sold ideas that Life is about a pair of Nike shoes no matter at what cost they come to the market, that we are not separate, that we are One Life, and that saying 'fuck you' is basically 'fuck me', even if it doesn't seem so.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react with irritation when my student said she won't do extra homework from the ones assigned, because she cannot see a value in education, instead of realizing I was irritated with myself because at her age I was all about grades and I couldn't give a shit about what I was learning or the fact that it would impact my ability to become effective in the system

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not sort out my reaction through breathing but for tightening up in the 'teacher role' and 'how come you don't get it, you silly fuckup' because I felt self righteous as I saw myself 'knowing better' and 'what do you understand about the world, you sheep'

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to lose myself into a backchat about my student instead of bringing myself back here in breath to take responsibility and direct that moment in common sense

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react to 'schooling stories' and the 'horrors of the schooling system' because I wish to blame the schooling system for what I did not learn at school, such as geography, that led me to think I am geography Dumb because I cannot remember where countries are located on the map, in some cases not even after I visited them or lived there for a while

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that as I moved into the Teacher Role she moved into the Dumb Student Role and then reacted thinking I was the cause of her reaction as I believed my teachers were the cause of my reactions when I was her age

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe I am stupid for not fairing equally well in all subjects I was taught and for then when faced with a student, pass on my perception that unless you study what the teacher tells you and how the teacher tells you, you are stupid because you don't get that one day in your life you will need this skill such as speaking English, which was what my teachers told me/hinted to me when I did not study what I was not interested into

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not direct the point that arose yesterday when my student reacted to the idea of extra homework, because I was myself reacting to what I myself have done, as having moved into the 'Teacher Role' and having difficulties getting off that pedestal and then wishing to put her down, because as my authority was not recognized I felt diminished and then moved to diminish her, and isn't this what the wonderful world of teaching is all about? Teaching how we can abuse each other in our pursuit of power and value, and for this, I forgive myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to choose deliberately words that would highlight her lack in the subject of English instead of encouraging her to do better by breathing and putting myself in her shoes, having a truckload of mainly useless homework to do and feeling crushed by the uselessness of the system she lives in and as

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to, when faced with the schooling system, desire to wreck havoc, go to the school and point out that what they are doing to the kids is WRONG, instead of seeing I seek my own self righteousness of the awakened one vs the sleeping sheep which is NOT going to bring a change to this world, because only an overall system change will change the fuckup we have become, from education to everything else

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see that Education is one of the fields in which we can see the trickle down effect at his best, where our own fuck ups of being TheGraded at School resulted in now wanting to DeGrade the new children, so they get some of what we have got, justifying the value of an education that is designed to assess the worthiness of the next slave and how to fit them proficiently into their role as cogs of the machine

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resent having been graded at school, based on the moods of a teacher and on her preferences for some vs others, when in fact yesterday I was the teacher grading a student based on my mood while I was reacting and trying to just suppress my reaction because 'I don't want to be THAT kind of teacher'

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel diminished in my teacher Authority because, since I am not the one DeGrading her officially and since we no longer have the FEAR of the exam as a Motivator, I felt powerless to enforce something that would have 'been good for her' and having failed at imposing my common sense I moved into looking for another FEAR that could motivate her to do what is best for her, such as 'I will tell your mother', which of course created the opposite effect of moving her into solid resistance

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel powerless in the face of the fact that unless a kid is motivated by FEAR or REWARD there is NO WAY they will be interested to find in themselves the will to do what is best for them, which is what I do most of my time, seek for a motivation to move that can range from Money to Fear but is not yet self directed

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use the threat of FEAR on a kid that is already struggling with the FEAR of being DeGraded and cannot hear anymore what is best for her as in becoming an effective student and NOT giving in to the belief in Grades

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate and support a world in which kids are TheGraded so we can pass on to them our own limitations as the degraded ones, upgrading the system to now include debts and credits, showing them that life is a big banking system and their education just a trade tool on the market of flesh they will soon join to make a living

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see that when we tell children about the shit world ahead and how they have to accumulate tools to compete and show them how much they need to fear everything out there in case they won't be able to make a living, we are pushing them further into this shithole that we created and endorse everyday until we stand for a system change for ALL

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think 'what a little fuckup' when she spoke about 'who cares about the little Children in China' instead of seeing Children are the product of this world and they don't give a shit because we don' give a shit about how goods are brought onto the market as long as 'I' have access to them to be able to present myself as the 'Image' of someone that fits some sort of 'Personality' failing to see, personalities are sold and bought, and there is nothing original in buying the most original shoes, because they have been originally designed for people who feel cloned and seek to 'become originals' like kids, which can't make sense of this world and seek outside of themselves'Who they Are' while we Prey for them to lure them into the traps of Consumerism because we need Young Blood to keep all of this going and we'll make sure we'll get them as young as we can

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel defeated by this system as in desiring to think and say 'nothing can change' instead of taking responsibility for my own Change so that I can prove to myself, The system Can Change, because I can Change.

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