A Director's Journey to Life: Desteni Tools

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Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Day 335: The Joy and Freedom of Hating Desteni

I have been with Desteni for over 2 years now.

I used to be a heavy duty, unrepentant, Pot Smoker, Life didn't make any sense to me and I felt too inadequate to take on the world as myself and stand for what could be a world that works for all.

Before I met Desteni I wasn't even interested, come on, who would even think to try and change this world, aligning to the distortion of what we created is so much easier and, in many cases, even financially rewarding.

The people at Desteni helped me a lot when I joined the Forums, not because they are Self Perfected beings(...), but because they are working to become the kind of beings that care about others and all Life, this is why they spend much time working on themselves to uproot the Evil we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become, selfish little egotistical shits, that have no other interest but to have the upper hand on others, at any cost, even just by using our words to try and diminish what we perceive is a call to Self Responsibility for a Self responsible World, as our Creation.

It was only with the use of Desteni Tools that I was able to leave behind for good an addiction I could not sort out in over 25 years, and I have tried anything, from therapy, to Spirituality, positive thinking, Abraham Hicks, Matrix Energetics, Family Constellation, Detox, Hypnotherapy, Cranial Sacral Therapy, sacred geometry, anything that exists I have personally investigated and positively failed to help me sort myself out, sure they must be bullshitters with a lucky strike to manage to provide just the right tools that did the trick, or could they be up to something?

I am currently at the Desteni Farm, where I have been hosted for free, simply because I did not have the money to contribute, but these weird people Here insist that every human is NOT to be seen as 'money making' potential but as a Life potential and must be supported to find it in them to stand for themselves and every other living being, as Equals. Crazy, mind-blowing shit. By the way I reserve my right to write a full Witness blog at the end of my stay - anyone who talks about anything should have done their leg work and put in the effort to go and find out if there is substance to people's claim, are we not otherwise brainwashed if as Truth Seekers we look only for 'The Truth we Like?', how convenient is that?

I even get to sit with the Inter-dimensional Portal every day, a little girl that speaks anything from biology to physics, able to explain in detail any paranormal phenomena that has ever existed, from Demons to Angels to Ghosts, any freaking thing -without a script, of course that should make us question this Reality, we could do that OR take up our little pens and keyboards and try and diminish what we can't even understand yet, THAT will save us from feeling belittled in all our Knowledgeable Minds by someone who is not fitting our ideas and opinions of what communication with the other side should look and be like - and then we insist on us being the intelligent species - compared to what? Forks? Which other species has shown the same disregard for life that we have shown just because we think and speak, yeah, the real high achievers of this existence, you just need to look around at what we created, something we must all be proud of.

Wouldn't you like a better world? If you do, you have to start to consider how can you be a part of it, a better world will not come by while some sit watching it unfold and then join in, no, this time we are required to stand together for a change; is this going to be easy?

Surely not, we'll have to wait for everyone to align to their Self Responsibility, plus we'll have to wait for some bigheads that do nothing but spread lies and misinformation about Desteni, just because they know they should be standing too, but they rather cash in on the controversial energy that surrounds us as a group, so they can get some views and publish some ads on their website (think we didn't notice?), some would do anything for money hei, even compromise their own chances to get the message about how to stop being Dick-s so we could be Life instead.

It 'feels good' to Hate Desteni, considering that the alternative is so much scarier, the idea that You are in fact as responsible for this world as anyone else and that it is time for You to stand as the Change You Want to See in This World and that we are accountable, each one of us, for everything we have ever participated in, inside and out, and there goes a real frightening thought, obviously Hating is just so much easier, though ammunition must be getting scarce if some have to write 'overall blogs' vs the specific libelous ones, careful though, the hatred shows, there aren't enough clever words to line up to disguise it effectively, specifically when young girls are called 'cock teasers' just because they share their views on sexuality.

So, there is a Journey to Nothingness to walk, the tools are provided for free to return to yourself your Authority so you can Author and Authorize a different world from the one we live in, use your words wisely - we are already doing time on this planet, because it's time we get it that we have to find ways to coexist, and one day you will open your eyes to realize the world we live in is a world you are contributing to with your words and godforbid the day you will, you better find a place to go for support because the fall will be painful, I can testify to this from personal experience.

For those that claim to be intelligent, please consider that being in the business of hating Desteni is a luxury no one can really afford, because this time Money won't buy anyone their way out of here, we'll have to walk together a new path for a new world and there is never going to be Your Way out of this.

Desteni has written and is writing a Destiny for All Humankind, a Way Out, together we can stop all suffering and return Dignity to this world, you have the Choice to join and walk your change or not, but no Choice is Free, not even to those with plenty of Money, We are all Doing Time here, and will do all the Time required to Self Realize that either this World works for All or soon it won't work for anyone, because we can only be and live what we are willing to give and let others be, Jesus said that -and instead of living his words -we crucified him.

There is Only One Choice that ends All Consequences, and that is what is Best for All, which is not an opinion or an idea, it's a point each one can find within themselves if they care to look for it, the Cross is the Choice, you get off if you For-Give Life to yourself and All Equally or you can Not Be for-Give-ness and nail yourself to the Cross until you make the Right Choice, there was always Only One Choice - Dumb Human - we just kept missing it.

You can get it now or after some Time on The Cross, You Choose. Happy CrossOvers ahead.

Saturday, July 13, 2013

Day 324: Desteni Witness - The 'Scam' and Secret of Self Forgiveness

I have been involved with Desteni for over 2 years and I have had the privilege to visit their farm in South Africa, where I am currently staying and will be for some more time.

When I bumped into Desteni I had reached the end of my search for the Truth, had looked into everything that exists -and was aware of- searching for the reason for our existence, had practiced positive thinking and joined the Love and Light brigade, just to find there was not any less Evil within those claiming to be enlightened, or on their way there, than anywhere else and so quite disheartened, just before Desteni, I moved into Conspiracy Theories, honestly they seemed way more plausible than Love and Light given the state of the world, plus they matched my underlining eternal dance with depression, a state of being I believed I had to have inherited from my mother because this is what each one is given in coming to this world, a legacy of faults to make sure we end up believing that there is something fundamentally wrong with us at our very core, so we roll over and just wait to die without bothering to even try to change ourselves or the system as ourselves.

For 2 years I have practiced the tools of Desteni and become more stable, my life as an Italian was by design emotion and feelings driven, because we believe in Passion as the ultimate possible' intensity' that life can grant us and therefore we deliberately overlook the word 'Passion' as in 'The Passion of Christ', as in fact Life turns into an emotional roller-coaster where we nail ourselves to, until an -nail-elation or annihilation and where we believe we have no choice but to fasten the seat-belt -or not, the rest is out of our hands - in fact conveniently so.

As a Ex Catholic, not by choice but by birth, it was predictable that my understanding of Self Forgiveness would be tainted by the context of my previous understanding of the world Forgiveness, which was deliberate because no one should know about this Secret or they would just go ahead and rewrite themselves and so -while I wrote about rewriting myself I never really got what that meant or even why the Self Commitment statements were key as a follow up to self forgiveness, because of course I can only interpret what I can conceive through my limited mind and the information available there, through which I can come to CON-clusions about what everything is and is not, so Self Forgiveness became my Eraser, a tool that I could use to delete my perceived wrongdoings and I have successfully used it that way to the point of being able to disassociate from some of my beliefs and energetics reactions, what I missed out about Self Forgiveness and why I had so much resistance to explain it to others, was that I was unwilling to share a tool that I had limited within its purpose, even though at the time I was unable to define its scope in its totality because I was unable to see that the reason why Self Forgiveness worked for me as an Energetic Eraser was because I defined it so and in fact confined it and limited it to be just that.

Today as I was listening to B. taking about it I suddenly realized what Self Forgiveness really is and why the constraints into which I had defined it had me at the point of irritation occasionally, when I would just refuse to use it or share it because I couldn't see myself blubbering away self forgiveness every time I perceive myself making a miss-take because then I would be doing nothing else, I wouldn't even have the time to live my corrective statements as I was aware that I had not yet changed what was fundamentally flawed within me, I have just started to create a void, a blank slate on which to rewrite myself and that's about it.

So, now I will share the Real Secret of Existence and what Self Forgiveness really is and WHY we can't change this world without grasping what we are required to do, each one of us to move forward for REAL and not just be passing time within the illusion that we are moving AND changing just because we babble away our self forgiveness regularly -while others don't... .I'm so ahead of the game :) - and so we are done.

Meanwhile we keep repeating the same crap and justifying WHY using our Words, that we believe are not yet alive because again, we mistook the point of words becoming alive only after WE become Life, when in fact Words are alive now, they are just either embedded with Life or Fear but all have the same power to create, because Words belong to the physical that is Alive, while we belong to the Mind that is A-Lie, missing out on that point that we are already creating and recreating our reality as every justification we use to explain why we are not changing is another lie/line in the code we keep writing about ourselves - in our total dumb unawareness that could only be born out of our consistent separation from ourselves as our Words, as the Physical, unable to direct the content of what we say and therefore are to the point that what we say 'is in fact so' because I live my words as a Commitment to myself as my Words, as the Physical, as All Life, as One and Equal.

So, speaking the words of Self For-giveness is the Gift of Life, imagine that, we hold in each one of us the power to create Life, we are not Life yet just because we have not yet granted it to ourselves, we have not yet given to ourselves everything we accepted and allowed ourselves to believe we lack, this is where Dis-h-One-sty exists, the One missing in this world is Me, because I don't yet exist, because I have not yet created Myself, I have not yet substantiated myself by removing what I have invested outside of me into everything that seems separate from me to bring it back to me, the Physical, where the substance of Life is and where I still exist in separation because I have not given to myself the same right to exist as Life, because I am apparently Faulty and in need to be fixed and so I am busy with the fixing but not with the giving, I am For-Fixing and not For-Giving as I have believed in the Scam of the Mind instead of just stopping it to stand in and as The Physical as Life.

So you see, there are 2 ways to use Self Forgiveness, one is entertaining the Mind, and that is a Scam and a process that couldn't end in one lifetime (is this why we keep coming back, duh?), the Real Process is just to STOP participating, as par-'icipating means to be apart, to keep being separate, as everything we allow from the Mind and believe it's just another thing to be For-given and this is how we make our process longer, so we either live the Scam of Self Forgiveness and keep forgiving our sins, as we go and replace the Confession Sacrament and the Catholic Priest in our Minds, or we really get what this is all about, including the word SIN (The Greek word hamartia (ἁμαρτία) is usually translated as sin in the New Testament. In Classical Greek, it means "to miss the mark" or "to miss the target" which was also used in Old English archery) which would give a whole new contest to everything we understood so far, so what, we inherited the 'missed marks' of our parents, everyone kept missing the point, should we now GET THE FUCKING POINT right or keep following the yellow brick road of the Mind into other new, more elaborate 'mark missing' sessions vs just STOPPING The Illusion of the Mind in its tracks, no longer allowing ourselves to believe in the Characters we played, instead Breathe and start the Gifting, start getting the Mark!

If we don't do that, we are participating in the Illusion not only of the Mind but the delusion that we may bring about a world that is Best for All through forgiving our sins (hello??), if each one individually is not able to do what is best for All, which would be to bring LIFE into ME, as ME/Self as part of the Equation of Life vs the Equation of the Mind, to do that, each one has to stop their delusions and Self realize that Life cannot be given to anyone and it is not the Prize/Price at the end of our Atonement, it is instead an act of Self Giving, of Self For-Give-ness and in granting Life to ourselves we open up the Gates of Life to All, as One as Equal, we won't be able to Grant to them their Life because guess what, it is to be For-Given to Themselves by Themselves, each one that claims to be the Creator of this reality is living in the Illusion of the Mind, as they are just default Creators, energy providers for a much bigger engine in automated motion and not Deliberate Creators, and how do we know that?

Well, they could not Create themselves, they could not For-Give themselves or others the Gift of Life, how can they claim to be Creators of Anything, as the Ability to Create Life is measured in the Capacity to Create Oneself first as Life, as a Creature that can coexist in Harmony with all existence having given to All the same Equal Value as Self and thus having created themselves as unable to do harm in any form, because Life is not Harm-Full and can be trusted to always do What is Best for All, because Life is not subjective, subjected to the whims of the Mind but One and Equal to everything that exists in and as Breath.

Now, see the Beauty of this, we all exist with the same power to create Life, Equal to Life itself, Life only asks one thing, can you give Life to yourself, no matter what, without conditions -and then, can you give Life to All, no matter what, without conditions, because you are Here, you Breathe, you were given it -no matter what, you just have to Self realize You as Life by For-Giving Life to YourSelf now and as you do, extend this Giving to All, Equally.

So far this Creation is our responsibility just by what we accepted and allowed, but not by our directive principle, this existence was created in agreement to the blueprints of others that by the way, were not Life either because Life could never have conceived such a creation of Control and Abuse, because Life is For-Giving and not For-Getting -ever- that All Life is One and Equal and as I grant myself the Right to Life I Grant it to All, One and Equal, and only then Existence will be LIFE For-Giving to All and no longer For-Getting just for Some.

So, to all those that have walked the tool of Self Forgiveness and Self Honesty so far robotically, just like me, perceiving the value of the tool while not grasping The Gift, mistaking Self (H)Onesty with Honesty, spilling the beans on their sins and only milking the benefits of no longer being trumpled by emotions and feelings, reassess your Self For-Giveness, take the plunge into this Equal Standing to become a Creator and when you do, understand what it means to Give As You Would Like To Receive and see that such principle must start with you, give YourSelf what you would like to receive first, use your words as living words now, so that you can become One with them and no longer wait for them to 'come Alive' while you live the Lie that they are NOT -just because You are Not Alive Yet, and when you go about Creating Yourself, just make sure that you Create Yourself as Life and not as Fear, because Life is Fear-Less as For-Giving to All and giving to All what we would want to live is the place where Fear will end to exist forever more, and keep checking what you stand as, and when you are Life you will know because you will no longer be for-getting your role in and as an Equal Creator of Existence as you will be too busy For-Giving Life to YourSelf until you will be Life that stands Equal and One to the Life that is yet to come for All of Existence, Equal and One.

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Day 248: Moving Beyond Duality - Imagination vs Reality - Fear vs Desteni

I can talk from real life experience here.

My very first post on the Desteni website was 'are you aware guys of how much fear are you spreading?'. It's odd to look back now because I almost can't relate to that post anymore, I remember writing it, I remember even where I was when I did, sitting on my couch on a tropical island high on pot, still trying to imagine how Positive I was and how My Positivity and staying focused on the Positive was going to change the World.

The Positive Movement is Not a Proof of Our Intelligence in any way whatsoever, many of us followers or ex followers of such Movements did not even have the excuse that we did not understand the intrinsic Dualistic Nature of Reality, and yet, we I'm-Agined that we could focus/create the positive alone and overcome the negative, not that we would be creating both and then desperately try and stick to the Positive only while pushing the Negative under the carpet, disowning it, turning the other Cheek and pointing fingers at the Negative that would pop up in the World to show us what we were doing, Nope, THAT was Not Our Creation, we were the ones creating the Positive, sure thing, then Someone Else out there was sitting down in meditation just Like Us, and thinking up negative stuff, yes, that was it, Creation 101. Thanks God for ME!

On this point I had an encounter on my last trip to one of Matrix Energetics classes, one gentleman was distressed about a whole bunch of people playing with 'the Field', his concern was that if the Field was Finite and we were taking out all the goodies from it, what would happen to those who couldn't do so, and basically, what right did we have to take out all the goodies for ourselves and leave the bad, the shit, the nasty karma for others to live out, who said we were more entitled to the "good" of this world than others?

At the time being the Positive Cheerleader I was, I told him his worries were just imaginary, this was a good benevolent existence and everyone would get their share of goods, they would just have to 'focus on it', imagine it and not let negativity run their lives -obviously I was not considering the sick, the starving, the ones born on the outskirts of this Money system, but when anything else failed there was always Abraham's teaching -coming out a bit short on this one in the face of Existential Questions by the way-, we all chose the lives we live, don't worry, we are just having a ride, it's all cool.

In a way it's even true -bar the it's all cool part-, but how come we can't see how we are held captive to contracts that were signed through con-sciousness, if this was a ride, why can't we remember How We got Here and Why? Would that make the starving, the violence, the abuse and conflict any way more FUN?

I want to underline that at the time I was the kind of person who would run the tap water unnecessarily without closing it while doing other things in the kitchen, always eliciting irritation in my ex husband, to which I responded 'I don't believe in scarcity, I support abundance', this didn't help my passing on my 'positive opinions and MindSet' within my Reality based family as something Sane, as not believing in the scarcity of Finite Resources is a sign of a Mental health issues resulting from Imagining Life and the Universe vs Landing into it and checking against reality if what I make up/Imagine has any foundation in the Real Physical One Reality we all share beyond Opinions -unless we superimpose them on it, just like I showed I used to do- or if it's just my own Disney Movie in the Hollywood production of my Mind.

When I met Desteni I was already in the process of questioning the True Nature of Creation and of ourselves. As much as I would have liked to blame it all on God/ the Universe/ or the randomness of what brought us here, Here WE were, a pitiful example of what Humanity is vs what we Imagined it to be, insisted in fact on wanting to Imagine it to be, kind -as in HumanKind- good hearted, wanting each other's best, and basically being inherently Good.

I had mental problem as well, we could call them mental dis-orders if we wouldn't be so scared to call things what they are, I had started to have flashes of images in my Mind, to explain it in computer terms, I had a full loaded Memory of which I was no longer in charge, imagine a computer virus that while you are working will just shut down the programs you are using and run its own, to say the least I was scared shitless.

What especially scared me was that even though I had been an avid reader all my life, I never came across Mind-disorders described as mine, these image flashing of which I was not in control, repetitive Thought Patterns as images and obviously each Image had a story attached to it, so I would spend my days running from one story in my Mind to the next, all based on my Imagination, not that I imagined pigs flying, no, I just imagined past stories and experienced them in strings that seemed sequentially meaningless, like randomly burping up reel thoughts, having a movie in my head that I could no longer stop that was made of bits and pieces of my life, mostly the shitty ones, the ones where I saw I could have done better, be different, act differently, speak differently and yet I had not and now I was condemned to the Playback of my Life while I only had the power to sit and watch in dismay.

Of course my Pot use increased as the images in my mind became more random to try and push them back wherever they came from, and as I increased my Pot use the images gained power and finally I felt beaten, I resigned to this excuse of a life in which nothing was new anymore, where when walking anywhere, even to my bathroom everything had a meaning and a story attached to it already, for example my toothbrush, no longer a toothbrush but the memory of when my ex husband would squeeze the toothpaste on it for me as he did for himself, and this happened for every object in my life, the most meaningless menial object had a story and then a commentary to show me what I had lost, what I had missed out on, what I failed, my life had a whole new MEANing and it was not cool at all.

It took me 1 year to go back to Desteni, I could never dismiss their message in self honesty, it was so clear, consistent, and yes, absolutely totally frightening.

The Demons part was the center piece of my Fears, that too was based in my Imagination of what the demonic was and how I better run from it with all my power, interestingly once I overcame my fears it was one of my favorite parts, one of the most straightforward about Human Nature and why Demons ended up losing respect for us, the wimps of existence, not a pretty picture of ourselves but very informative, not to discount that if Demons could walk out of this duality crap, so can we, so it had an inspiring unexpected twist to it too.

Before taking the plunge and trying out the Desteni Tools, who were given to me for Free and that I chose to use and was in no way coerced or convinced or prompted or brainwashed to do so, I wandered for 1 year trying to Not go back to it, I wished I could find something else to sort myself out, a miracle, a Holy Water, someone that agreed with me that they were loonies -found them too!- and yet they became my backchat, the point of no return that I feared getting close to and above all I feared what I would lose and miss out on, it took having nothing left to miss out on for me to move and approach them again.

"Do you know how much fear are you spreading around guys?", what I meant was 'do you know how much you scare me, do you know how much I would like you to say you were joking, that I don't have to give it all up -the delusion of me- that I can keep some bits and pieces, the ones I like -hard to pick by then-, do you know I scared I am that I will be laughed at, ridiculed for being part of a Cult, do you know they are telling damning stories about you and why on earth they didn't manage to con-vince me so I could dismiss You and Your message, that I have lived a life of Self Interest and in this I have separated myself from the whole and now I am left with a Hole as my existence that I can't fill with anything, food or pot, sex or mushrooms, nothing works anymore' and yet I hate that I came to Desteni at the end of the rope, I wish I had the common sense to Self Direct myself there but I didn't, because the Fear was too great and only when the Fear of my Life became greater than the Fear of Desteni, they became a viable choice, the only choice left for me in fact.

It's been more than 1 year now since I started this process, many things have changed for me, I am building myself up into a stronger core, into trusting myself more, at least I trust that if not immediately I will be self honest about what is going on with me eventually and through self honesty I will be able to start to work out how I can correct myself, my Self, as each Self is called to Self correct to change this world that is nothing else but the sum of all the Selves for which we have refused so far to take responsibility for.

What I discovered by pushing through my fears is that Fear is my creation, it is through I'm-agining Life vs living Life that we build ourselves into Fear and then from Fear we built this world, as we fear who we are and then have internal conflicts between all our Imaginary Parts -talk about Mental dis-eases- we express into the world this very essence of ourselves, Conflicts and Fear, you don't have to look too far to see this, we have embraced a culture of War, a Gun culture, a conflict culture and then we disguise it all with diplomacy or with Liberal speeches like President Obama shows us, all talk about how good we are and how well we are doing and that is Our Imagination at work, we are Imagining to be those people we would like to be, the Warriors of Evil, Freedom Fighters, Democracy Bringers, in truth we are what the world is showing us, Conflict and Fear plagued creatures, seeking the Positive because we were born into the Negative experience of ourselves (how else would we seek the positive and find it even appealing if we were Positively charged when coming into this World? Think electricity and opposing charges attracting each other...) too scared to say that this is what we are and look for solutions to change ourselves.

If you are seeking for a way out of your I'm-agination of yourself because you have realized who you would like to be and beLieve yourself to be is not even close to who you really are and are ready to start to walk in and as Self Correction to realign yourself to Oneness and Equality of the Physical Here, join Desteni Lite, it's free, someone will assist to lay out the foundation for you to write yourself to freedom, out of your Mind, into the Reality that is One and we all share Equally, it's Here where we'll find the Solutions to ourselves and this World as Us and not up there in Imagination-Land as we try every trick of the trade to not Land and face who we accepted and allowed ourselves to become just to find out that Nothing Works, until we become Self Honest and admit that we have screwed up and set out to make right what we know it's not right and that is each and every Self on this planet until we'll go back beyond the Imaginary Separation we created to Oneness and Equality as the Truth of Ourselves and All of Existence as Life, One and Equal.