Day 269: Humanity - The Living Money System

A few months ago I had the privilege to start translating the Equal Money book - I did only the first chapter.

Apart from the point of how much I struggled to deliver the same concept in my own mother tongue, the reading hit me like a rock in the face.

Suddenly many words that we use currently that I had never noticed took on a life of their own, it was like for a while everything around me was just about Money, and I mean every-single-thing.

It took me a while to land back in a sort of functioning reality, in a space where I could hold the realization and still live, it was not just humbling, it was sad and depressive and quite hopeless to realize that in fact, no matter how well we have disguised it, there is pretty much nothing else in our self created worlds at the moment, but Money.

If we look at our relationships, they are ALL money based, we give ourselves all sort of clues, we use Money words to tell ourselves that we are locked into a fictional nightmare, but then we have managed to dismiss the annoying question of 'there is something wrong here', manly because if we did admit to the 'there is something wrong here, hell for sure' we would have to seek solutions that we mainly don't know where to get, we don't know how to change, we fear facing the uselessness and un-realness of our lives, because THAT would be really upsetting, all this stress and anguish and we are not even alive, fuck.

So, today I want to write a relationship vocabulary that is Money based, maybe others will have my same realization that we are in fact the Very Money System that we wish to change 'out there' and that it's us through our accepted beliefs, opinions and our very words -that WE are the ones monetizing everything that is here, it is not the system doing that, we AS the System breathe Life into the monetary words we speak, and in separation from them, an alternate reality that is ONLY about Money took Life, took our Life, the lives of everyone and made a life for itself, from which we have been excluded, mirroring what we are doing to our words, use them to mold an existence in place for which we take no responsibility - and so, equally- the system born out of it takes no responsibility for us, we were the Master Creators and equal to us, we created a Master Creator System, the Money System and as we separated from it, it separated from us and applied all the same allowances and acceptances of its Creators, selfishness, ruthlessness, "mememe", now the System exists independently, we have lost access to it, we created it in such way that we never had access to it, and now it plays out what we play out, preferences, inequality and privileges, just for some.

This is but a short list of words we use everyday in apparently non-money related situations

dear, treasure, precious, value, valuable, appreciation, appreciate, worth, worthy, wealth, wealthy, privilege, classy, cheap, cheaply, invest, investment, trust ..etc.

Another thing we can see in self honest examination, is how We regulate our relationships based on our internal Value System, which is nothing else but having 'appreciated' people on a ladder that specifies who can do what for me, having 'preferential' treatments for some vs others -based on the previous point-, having someone 'dearer' than others, seeing someone 'cheaply', holding someone 'indebted' claiming 'credits' for something said or done in their favor, 'loving' those in a closed circle of trust as a trust-fund and the rest of the time spending it assessing what are our choices/options, all this based on what we have access to according to the 'value' in numbers we have available, granting ourselves the right to receive something from others only if we have the collaterals to guarantee we'll be able to pay back. 

We are the Living Money System, time to face the Money Point not as something separate from us, but as Us, then as we change who we are in relation to Money and we remove the monetary value from everything we have bestowed it upon, the system must change, because we change as The System, the living, breathing Money system itself.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that there isn't a Monetary System out there, but the reflection of a system of Value I participate in as I separated myself from my words and allowed myself to create a system to manage my 'relationships of Value and worth' outside of myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to, when I first realized that everything I did in my Life carried a monetary value, and that all my relationships had been carefully measured and designed for me to maximize my chances to win at the Money game, to feel ashamed, and instead of clearing that shame and standing up within myself, to dismiss the point as too big to even be conceived, as more and more words showed to me the inherent nature of myself and Humanity and the game we are playing, and for believing I am one and equal to that moment of Shame in which I realized myself as One of the bricks of the Money system, I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I dug into this Money point and who I am within Money, that there would be nothing that had not been contaminated by my desire to get the upper hand and to guarantee my own survival in the face of many who did not have enough to live, and for making up the belief that I could not be different or change so I would not have to change and move out from my own value system that gave me a sense that I knew what I was doing and that I was going to make it, I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to, when a word that is Money related comes into my awareness, to refuse to follow the timeline of this word to be able to clear it once and for all, in fear that I will lose the value as credit that I have accumulated upon that word that I know I can use on the "Word market", and for desiring to hold on to my own word definitions and their market value, I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to create within each of my personality some money managing traits that I could use to gain an advantage on others because I could, once the shame would hit home, switch into another one of my personalities and keep myself Character Hopping to not catch up with the shame of not standing for a world that was best for all but only seeking what was best for me and for this, I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to desire that the Money System would change Out There, because to Change the Money System within I would have to let go all my definitions and word-credits that I have accumulated in a lifetime of playing the Money game, and for fearing to let go and experiencing a sense of loss due to my own investment that did not bring home the promised results as self-interests, I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I leave behind what I know and who I have been and my ability to make money no matter what, that I would be in fact jumping into nothingness, because the system we are redesigning is not ready yet to catch us all in a supportive net that can guarantee a life of dignity for all, and for wanting a sure reward before I move for a system that is best for all just because I have accepted and allowed myself to embrace life as a system of rewards and punishments, I forgive myself

I commit myself to stand for a system that works for all and to keep walking to stop my separation between the money system outside and the money system as Who I am, so as I stand One and equal to it, I can direct it as myself for what is best for me as best for all, for myself and All of Existence, Equal and One.

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Day 258: We Can't Boycott the System - We are the System

We have created a world where we have finally Pushed ourselves against a wall, well done on us.

Today I had this realization that there is NOTHING we can do to stop this world, but Change It.

We write about Inequality and the System not working, the Banks who are greedy grabbers holding the interest life line of many people everywhere in the world, evicting them from their homes, driving whole families into poverty, closing down businesses or about the Corporate leeches who are sucking the blood off everyone and we come up with apparently clever ideas to 'fight' the system that are never considering the absolute unsolvable interconnectedness of all things.

So, however good we are at spotting the source of our system problems, we can't attack it, wrestle it to the floor, kill it, not even boycott will work which would seem the most peaceful solution, because wherever we withdraw our support, something dies, people lose jobs, homes, their ability to support themselves.

Today I saw a shop selling shoes for 10 euro, shoes and boots -for 10 euro, some labels said made in India, that means they have even traveled, so to calculate their 'value' you'll have to deduct the profit of the Italian seller, their operation costs, the wage for the people working in the shop, the rent, electricity, cleaning lady, repairs etc, then we move onto the product costs, there you have transport costs, import taxes costs, packaging costs, we could safely say that those shoes were paid within 2 Euro at the factory -unless they were stolen , which would open another problem for those they were stolen from as loss of capital, loss of revenue etc-, 2 euro at the Indian factory means that the worker can't get more than 1 euro per day, that would be a handsome pay based on the cost/worth of the shoes, and would come up to about 30 USD per month if they pay overtime at the factory and have them work 29 days a month, like they do in China.

Now, imagine that since we see the abuse we decide to boycott this shop, we'll be the righteous ones, the boycotters of the one point of a Chain of Abuse. Now, let's look at the consequences of the added up action of boycotting purchases: the lady who was selling shoes in the shop, Romanian or Albanian she was, would lose her job, the staff is always the first that gets cut out because they are the easiest cost to cut, the shop would strive to stay open and ultimately close like it's happening to many small businesses in Italy -1600 a day for the record at June 2012-, they would no longer be a buyer for the Indian factory who would have to lay off staff that would go from their meagre 30 USD salary/month to starving. 

If they have a family they can't let their family starve, or should they so as to not upset the ones among us who actually do have food and a home and every comfort? Ultimately they will resort to crime, crime is NOT a choice, it's the choice for the ones who have No Choice.

Let's take another example Apple and Foxconn, we know Foxconn had a surge of suicides at one of their plants and ended up installing suicide prevention nets. We in the western world from our remote control as our keyboards were the ones asking to better the conditions of the workers in China, we did this because we wanted to take action from our comfortable homes so we could score another well spent day into addressing the problems of the system. We raised virtual signatures for a virtual petition -another utter mind f**k-, and due to popular demand -we like to believe, MY demand to be precise- Apple was forced to renegotiate the terms of the supply agreement with Foxconn.

The most logical way would have been for Apple to agree to pay MORE for the products AND ask for management changes to gruesome and inhumane labour conditions at the other end of the production wire. But they would not offer more money, meaning quantifiable more money, they instead used their purchase leverage to push the change, threatening to change supplier; with revenues of $40bn annually making everything from iPads to desktop computers and televisions, there should have been plenty of space for Foxconn to reduce the Profit at the top and improve the working conditions at the bottom, please see this link to Real-ize WHAT are the working conditions in China.

Foxconn, forced to take action against its will, moved to "dramatically" increase the workers pay, this happened in 2010, the wages were doubled in a very short time but the suicides didn't stop, proving that Money can't buy Life, a lessons we have to learn from the Poor and Destitutes of Society.  

Then came the suicide prevention scheme one of the cheap solutions born out of one such a situation: Apple said "we no longer want to hear about suicides at the factory" - "Okey-Dokey"- thought the Chinese, 'honestly' there was no more room for improving the workers conditions and keeping the hands of the top layers firmly on the loot at the same time, so they came up with the plan to catch the attempting offenders, as those looking forward to jump to their death {that speaks volume about the alternative they lived..}, into mid air- THIS is how they will surely prevent suicides, they'll stop them in their attempted foolish act and then 're-form' them into model workers, ain't that clever? And all without costing more than a few rolls of nets, this is Cost Control at its best.

The point I am trying to make is that there is NO solution to this system because the system is squeezed in between 2 profit motives, not just one, and it's always going to be the ones at the lowest places of the pecking order who are going to pay, so when we stand for boycotting anything, we should stop and see how whatever we do has in fact consequences that will be paid by someone else, and that if we do want to change this system and stop the atrocious lives some are living without choice, we have to implement an overall system change, we must become the nets that catch All those that would otherwise be falling to their death or into a life of misery, and until then we can't stop participating in the system, which in a very distorted way is Great, because NO ONE can ever claim to be an innocent bystander, not even through ignorance, shoes costing 10 euros can only be the result of a crime, either one against Life or against the Law, there is no other way to manufacture shoes and boots that are that dirt cheap, not even if the cows would cut and sew their own skin while they were still alive.

Boycotting the system at this stage is an act of cowardice and irresponsibility, we have to see the System as Us and all the points in the system as us and as we move away from our pointless greedy consumption and shift some of our revenues into supporting One Worthy Cause, and that is Change for All to establish Equality and Oneness on Earth, we have to support the system at the same time, we created it, it's our Brain (Damaged) Child, it needs reforming into something that considers the Life of All Living Beings as Equally Worthy and Valuable, it is because we have not looked after the System as Ourselves that it has gotten out of hand to this point of Absolute Unimaginable Abuse, we have to get back into the driving seat and not turn our back on our Creation, no matter which judgement or opinions we have taken on board that further separate us from each other on what's right and what's wrong. In fact it is despite the opinions and ideas that separate each other that we have to stand as One for What is best for All. This is how we'll measure if we are worthy of the Breath as Life we all Equally have or if we rather embrace our individual Pettiness and Petty Causes to perpetuate our Egos as Warriors of Light, Greenpeacers, Whale Protectors, Gay Marriage spokespeople, Vegan, Christian, Buddhist, Manchester United Fans, Anti-this, Pro-that, while the problems keep piling up, just because we can't let all that crap go already and unite in One Vision, where All Life is given Only the Best of everything, from education to healthcare, to nutrition, to shelter, clothing as we stand to share Equally this Planet and everything it provides for the Good of All.

If you understand what I am saying in any way, or if you are starting to see the magnitude of the problem we face, consider stopping your participation in the irrelevant fringe movements that are causing more harm than good, some people have real good intentions, if you are one of these -inform yourself on how we can design a system that works for all and once we have it in place, we can pull the rug under the feet of the old one and watch it crumble but we can't do it before we move into place into our own individual and collective positions of responsibility.

Life is suffering Big Time and it doesn't have to be this way, we are the system as the sum of all its parts, the only things that needs to change is the bricks that hold the system in place and we'll have the World we say we want, a world where we return to Life it's Capital Value and everyone as Life will be Equally supported from Birth to Death. Join us @#EqualMoney. Life is waiting.

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Day 243: Stopping the Fami-Lies Inside

This is a follow up to my post 'Have you kowtowed to Your Family today?'

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am indebted to my mother because of all the Money she spent raising me

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to live like a Debtor within the Family system as my family claimed credits on my Life for what they did for me as I was growing up

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty about the feelings of hatred I felt for my family that I believed to be me as who I am for this Debt that I felt was put on my shoulders since I was born without my permission, instead of seeing and realizing I was angry at myself for accepting to live as a Debt/Credit system as a result of buying into the Lie of Money and the Money System

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to have a memory of my mother saying 'with all I have done for you, you ungrateful asshole' and for feeling guilty and ashamed for being ungrateful especially because I did not understand how to 'properly' show gratefulness and get out of the 'ungrateful' cycle and for feeling inadequate for my inability to express 'proper gratefulness' I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to blame my family for how I experienced myself in relation to being indebted to them as I made them guilty and responsible for 'my state of mind' instead of taking self responsibility for accepting the Lie of Life being indebted and subjected to Money

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that FamiLie were more important than anyone else because they could save my ass with Money in case anything went wrong in my life and for this role I gave them resent their very existence as the Money Lenders of the World, and for resenting the existence of FamiLies and desiring to be an orphan so I would not be indebted to anyone, instead of seeing I was the source and origin of the Debt system within me, I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to live as a Debtor to my FamiLie because I accepted and allowed myself to react to the prompting of 'everything they did for me' as the reason and origin of my Debt, instead of seeing and realizing it was through my acceptance and allowance of myself as indebted that I stood as a 'subject' within the Family system, and for not standing on my own two feet no matter the triggers or the prompting to subject myself to the FamiLie -I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to, when I realized that my FamiLie was Not loving or supportive, to feel entitled to participate in creating credits for myself by giving them expensive presents in the hope to buy back my Freedom from the Debt Slavery, without seeing realizing and understanding the point that as they themselves were Slaves and Slave Owners it was not up to them to let me go but up to me to no longer accept the servitude of the FamiLie system in the name of Money

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to react to my mother when she made a joke about this house being HER house and the Money deriving from it being subject to her approval of how I will spend it, because I accepted and allowed myself in one moment to move back into a position of Dependency and "being owned" while backchatting in secret that this will last only until I can get my hands on this Money and then our paths will part once and for all, instead of seeing and realizing that this is wishful thinking because I have been before in position of Economic Independence and yet this point of FamiLie ownership and Debt was not resolved inside of me - and for feeling guilty and disloyal for backchatting within myself about 'the day I will finally be free' while blaming my mother for my slavery -I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to feel diminished as my mum attempts to pull strings, consciously or unconsciously instead of seeing, realizing and understanding she is just doing what she is accustomed to and it's up to me to not accept to be puppeteered around in the name of Money as I build myself into stability and consistency in and as Breath

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear my mother and the power I perceived she has over me regarding this house and the Money I can get from it, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding she can only have the power I give her through my own abdication of Self responsibility for how I experience myself and for giving away my power hoping to diminish my fears of survival as I made myself part of an imaginary support system such as the FamiLie, I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to, when my mother made the nth joke about Money and the House She Owns, to wish away the anger that I felt instead of addressing it and seeing how could I resolve this 'debtor anger' once and for All, and for blaming my mother for her Money jokes and her desire to keep me hooked on the Money line and judging her as a bitch I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, when my mum brought up the point of the Money she lent me to buy my first apartment that I have not given back to move into a reaction followed by a backchat about how I couldn't fucking believe she was bringing up this point AGAIN, instead of seeing realizing and understanding that when she automatically moves to make claims on my Life as a debtor, she is coming from a point of Fear, such as the Fear she told me that she might have to help me AGAIN in her old age and then her own survival would be jeopardized and for missing out on this point that drove the whole discussion which was fear of survival and for accepting and allowing myself to automatically react instead of breathing before I went into automated subjected inferior position for my perceived debts, I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that I always sought harmony within my famiLie instead of seeing realizing and understanding, I sought their support to diminish my fears of survival and of being alone in the world and for living as fear of survival and fear of being alone in the world to the point of allowing those fears to drive my life and the decisions I made, I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to pass on this Money dynamics onto others over which I sought the power of Life and death, such as my staff or my employees, and for using Money to own people and to create debt inside of them toward me so I could balance the imaginary ledgers that I was juggling in secret within myself as the Mind, I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe I love my mum very much because when I think about when she will day I am overwhelmed by a sadness so great that it chokes me, instead of seeing and realizing that I am in fact overwhelmed by a fear so great that it chokes me as then I will be alone in this world with no one in my 'bloodline' surviving with me and being the imaginary support I have accepted and allowed myself to believe family is, and for living in and as the fear of being alone in the world with no support or anyone in my bloodline surviving with me, I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think about when my mum won't be around anymore and I will finally have access to some money that I won't have to justify to anyone how I spend, and for feeling guilty and ashamed about these thoughts of what will I do with everything that will fall in my lap at my mother's death, I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to support a world in which we all lie to each other about the real role of FamiLies as the teachers and supporters of the acceptance and allowance of this system of abuse, and for becoming an abuser within the FamiLie as the FamiLie system in support of the system as it is, I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that FamiLies come above all and within this for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I am separated from this World and everyone in it and that some are more important than others which is reflected in the Money System where some get more right to Life than others, and for supporting a system of Inequality and Separation as myself instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that this World is Self and that we are all Equally Important with the same Right to Life and that we should give to one another what we would like for ourselves, I forgive myself

When and as I see myself moving or about to move into a position of inferiority to my mother due to Money issues, I stop, breathe, assess what is it I am reacting to that I have not yet cleared and as soon as I can write myself out into stability in and as Breath

When and as I see myself seeking to pick up the hidden meanings of my mother's jokes about Money so that I can move into automatic behavior using her jokes or remarks as triggers to not take responsibility for my experience of myself, I stop, breathe and do not allow myself to respond automatically but hold myself here stable in and as breath

When and as I see myself moving into defense mode as soon as my mother starts the sentence 'I wanted to talk to you about something' as I have come to associate this sentence to a Money talk, I stop, breathe, see realize and understand that whatever comes up I can handle it in the moment in and as breath and I don't need to allow memories or thoughts to run wild to show me what is coming and if I see memories as thoughts or backchat coming up, I stop, breathe and do not allow myself to participate in and as it

I commit myself to no longer participate in feelings of being indebted or of inferiority to my mum just because of Money or Imaginary credits derived by 'everything she did for me' as I see realize and understand this is how we are keeping the debt system alive for everyone and I commit myself to release my debts and credits one by one until I no longer exist as the Debt and Credit system of this world

I commit myself to unconditionally support an Equal Money System so that no child coming into the World will be indebted to their parents or anyone else any longer as each Life will be supported from Birth to Death and the Life of All will be a given Credit and never again a Debt to be repaid.

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Day 54: For the Love of Money

The point of Money exists in and as each one of us. Money is not something 'happening out there', Money is happening in here, it's What and Who We have Become.

When I was growing up I slowly bought into the ideas and beliefs that everything has a price, if you keep going on that slippery slope of thoughts soon or later you'll reach the Terminal, the place where all Money and Price Tags converge = Life and from there Life too goes on Sale.

My Family was Money schizophrenic, half of it, my grandparents, had it and pretended to not care about it, which is quite easy to do when you Have It, the other half, my mother, never had enough and did not make a mystery of fearing lacking Money.

Funny to see now that I appreciated more my grandparents because they Seemed not attached to Money, something that is vulgar and preached against, only now I can see that all those that preach against Money attachments and talking about it as a "vulgar thing", have it and pile it up in truckloads.

Yet the reason why I preferred my grandparents fake approach to The Money Truth was because I did not like The Fear of Lack of Money, which is something that my mum had and that I have absorbed in absolution, absolving myself for having imprinted myself with the fear of Lack of Money of my Mother and the poorly disguised Love of Money of my grandparents.

Yet, fear of the Lack of Money will manifest lack of Money as all fears do manifest soon or later, which is why and how we busy ourselves into The Money Making machine, as The System, so as to never be overcome by this fear, because no matter how much we like to deny it, WE ALL KNOW THAT WITHOUT MONEY WE DIE, so Money is no longer a treat, it is a threat to our very own survival.

Since I have built up an elegant personality for myself in the footsteps of my grandmother, wishing to inherit her fake disinterest about Money and everything related to it, while spending her life accumulating and judging others who were doing just that, not for doing it, but for not having the decency to Hide it, I have embodied the Money carelessness that allowed me to throw away quite a substantial amount in my sabbatical 4 years during which I believed I would have been able to just manifest it, if I had followed through with Abrahams Hicks teaching on the Law Of Attraction, which I can say from having lived the positive thinker polarity to a T, it's just pure Crap.

First because the teachings are addressed to people who are more or less already positioned within the world system in places where they can in fact Make Money, and not manifest it out of thin air, second because if the teachings were true, they would not need to charge for seminars but would instead just have money pile up in the drawer as a result of their positive focus and desire, yet they charge, because like the Catholics, They Teach Us that Money is Not Important and it will ultimately flow and to just accept where we are, while they do everything they can to actively pile it up, through property ownership and investments that exclude nothing, even the porn business because let's face it, it's lucrative, and the more sinful and hidden sex is made through their teachings the more distorted and perverted forms of sexuality will be born out of it that they can capitalize on, the perfect investment in fact being in charge of the creation of the need and of the satisfaction of the same, under one big corporation.

So, Money, who am I within Money ?

I am a pawn, moved around by Money in fear for my Life, fearing that if I do not have enough I won't make it, always scheming and seeing where and how I can charge for my own survival, is this world the place we want to see, or don't we want to see the extent of the ugliness we have reached in and as the Money System of this world, where "Mors Tua Vita Mea", as the Romans said, "Your Death is My Life", and how can we be surprised if we take this inward reality and project it into our world, where the Death of Whole Nations signify the Life of some and we can't even look in Self Honesty at the length we would be willing to go to make our survival sure and safe, no Matter how many Have to Die for One to Live.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be imprinted with ideas and beliefs about Money and the worth of everything on the Planet in Monetary/Currency terms

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become the copy of my mother's fear of Lack of Money and My Grandmother's hidden Love of Money, just into a combination of the best of the two world to turn myself into The Hidden Fear of Lack of Money and the Hidden Love of Money

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to, for many years, not want to face the Money point of this world and the fact that if Money was everything to everyone in my world, Money was everything to me as well, One and Equal

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear Death due to lack of Money

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear being Homeless and Hungry due to Lack of Money

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear sickness and accidents within a frame of Lacking the Money to take care of myself and for hiding this to the point that I refused to have a health insurance that would force me to look at the point that even Health and Living is subject to Money or I would have had to stand and no longer accept such a world

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think and say that what I had was mine and the ones that did not have they must have deserved it through some debts that they were paying from another Life or their own unwillingness of becoming slaves to the system like myself and for believing They should not be supported or we would be breeding laziness, spewing out judgements and sentences that I have taken on from this system that educated me into the perfect proud slave that pulled her weight through working and paying taxes

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel more valuable when I had Money than when I had none proving to myself that my real Worth was measured by and through the Money System in separation from Self as self value and Self worth, that I would have to recognize to everyone Equally

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become addicted to the highs that I felt when I held Money or Credit Cards in my hands, under-standing the Power of Money as something Greater than Myself in separation from myself as Life as everything that exists, Money included

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel value when spending Money because I accepted and allowed myself to be imprinted with desires against which I could measure my worth/value within the Money System, believing and accepting that my value and worth were measured in and as me as the consumer of this consumeristic system

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel sad because in my deprogramming I no longer feel the high of purchasing as my value of and as a consumer and I fear no longer having points of value outside of myself I can reach for, instead of seeing it was due to my original mis-placement of value and worth of myself that I sought value outside of me within the belief I was worthless unless I could buy my worth and Life through and within the Monetary/Currency System

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become the perfect consumer of myself and Life, One and Equal, in my search for Value and Worth outside of myself, having abdicated my self to the Money System so absolutely that my life was lived as a Money Seeker within the need and addiction of accumulating value and worth for myself from which I accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from believing that Money is the value and Worth of Life and not that Life doesn't need any Value because Life Is The Value/Worth

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify this Monetary system that is consuming Life and the World, just because it worked for me

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear having to face how much Money has become a part of who I am and what I have lived for, in fear that I will never be able to disentangle myself absolutely from my 'Money Investments' in which I exchanged myself as Life, as substance, for the illusory Power of Money as Worth

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place a Price Tag/Money Tag on everything in this existence and according to the Price/Value Tag give it more or less value, instead of seeing that it was my own existence in and as separation from Life and everything that exists and my acceptances and allowances of the belief that Money/Price Tags can define the value of things that led me to believe that Life is Worthless and that Money has more Value and Worth than Life

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to support a world in which Life is on Sale and can be bought in One Piece or in pieces as body parts that People are now selling to but themselves the Right to Life

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from people who were obviously attached to Money as I feared being associated with them and having to face my own Fear of Survival that was the underlining current/currency that kept the Money System alive in and as Me

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that one must make 'a living' accepting a system in which Life is not the only and absolute Worth and Value and The capital of existence, but where One's Right to Life must be bought, because I have not stood up to state that this is simply unacceptable until it worked for me

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe I am the Shame that I felt and lived One and Equal to when I saw that if this system was still supporting me I would possibly continue to abuse, uncaring about the conditions of others as long as it worked for me and that I had to lose everything before I would consider that nothing infact has value but Life and that I could only see this from my position of no longer fearing losing something of who I have been and what I believed I had, because I was too self centered to consider others and what living as Equals would mean until the system worked for me

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to live in an alternate reality of the Mind in which I could pretend that I was not part of the problem because I was never one of the Elite, instead of seeing that this world system is built on each one of us as bricks that keep it in place and that it is essential that each brick plays its part in no longer supporting a system of abuse and inequalities that commits atrocities and crimes against Life in the Consumerist Ride we have taken with no fail safes to show us when enough was enough

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that my friends may say 'you are taking this position just because the system is no longer working for you', instead of seeing I feared myself saying this about myself because I had not yet for-given myself my previous stance as a Slave and a system cog so I could stand up shame-less for and as this Change inward and outward

When and as I see myself moving or about to move into one of my Money personalities, through which I have always believed I could assure my survival in Life, I stop, Breathe, bring myself back Here, remind myself I am disengaging from the Money System as a Slave to reengage the Money System as Me, One and Equal, so I may change the Money System to Oneness and Equality as and while I realign myself to Oneness and Equality

When and as I see myself backchatting myself or about to backchat myself regarding what I did and who I have been in the past regarding Money, I Stop, Breathe, remind myself that I cannot be defined by my Past unless I accept it and allow it and that I am in fact redefining myself Here, in every moment of Breath to realign and walk my Self as self correction into Oneness and Equality and What is Best for All

I commit myself to stop my self judgements about Money and how I have related to it in the past and instead redefine myself and my relationship in and as Money to align myself and the Money System, Equal and One, to What is Best for All as Life as One and Equal to everything that exists.

I commit myself to stop my judgements of others about Money and how they relate to it because that is both a cause of separation and a lack of self responsibility in accepting that I would be no different in a position of privilege as I have been no different in a position of privilege, instead I stand in and as The Solution for a World that is Best for All, as Life as One and Equal