Day 204: Powerlessness as Abdication of Responsibility

Everything that is going on in the News and Italian talks show these days is about ILVA, the Infamous Steel Manufacturer.

Here my previous post for context.

One of the workers interviewed today, after the Plant closed down again due to the Never-seen-before-Tornado, was that 'unless we stop delegating and allow others to decide for our future things won't change'.

We can take this statement to the bigger and see that while there has been a lot of advantage in this unfair race for Money and Profit by those that were the holders of Money as Power, the responsibility cannot be only on the hands of the perpetrators of Abuse. What about the Abused?

If we had stood together for what is Best for ALL, Abuse would have Never Been Possible.

Instead we are fragmented, first within our Minds and then without, resulting in this World of separation, where My interests must come before Yours, where I live and you die.

So, the truth about admitting to be powerless, fearing to be powerless hides the desire to not take responsibility and to blame others for where we find ourselves today, making the consequences of our participation the testimony of the one way responsibility that we abdicated in blame, instead of stopping and reassessing where is our Response-Ability in the face of Abuse and how can we find solutions for All of Us, stopping this world, changing what we ask just for ourselves into designing a Change for everyone as ourselves and then we as the system, change to a system of Self responsibility, where each is responsible for self as the whole and within our self Response-Ability we can find again the Power we have abdicated happy to be abused as long as we wouldn't have to face the point that this World would have never be possible without our acceptance and allowance and as such, as we Change our acceptance and allowance into a Self Directive decision to Stand for Life and All Living beings, so does the World as our Mirror, change with us.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from power as mySelf as Self responsibility

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear standing up because I feared having to face the truth that at this moment I have no power to change the world or any impact on the system and I won't either until I hold myself in separation from the system as myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear becoming responsible, fearing the LOAD of the responsibility that I perceive is not possible to be faced by just one, instead of seeing the solution that 1 + 1 means I am not alone, even though I walk alone the process of stopping the separation of myself from the system as me

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that the Rich and Powerful will always win because I wished to not have to stand up as part of the Solution and I could if I gave up before I even started by blaming the Rich and Powerful for where we are today

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to live as friction and Conflict against this system within my Mind for so long that I came to the 'I give up' point, feeling that it's hopeless to even believe we can change something that has become so big and has taken over control, instead of seeing and realizing that as each one takes over control of themselves as One of the Whole, the system must change, because the system is nothing more than the sum of its parts

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand, that this world is a collective creation and as such, collectively, united, we can change what we created in separation to reflect our change as realignment to Oneness and Equality

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that stopping to vote is taking a stand, when stopping to vote is what is one of the points that is manifesting the problems we are facing, as we don't stand up to Vote as Self responsible Human beings for something else, such as a system that works for All and considers All Living Beings as Equals

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear Equality because I yearned to be special and more than others, not wanting to be common as I defined 'common' as the flattening of all self expression, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding, that only when we will be truly Equals we will have the freedom to self express, beyond fears and judgements

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to see the rich and powerful as 'the ones at fault' because they have more 'numbers' that could in a swift move make this change happen if they only wanted, instead of accepting the fact that they don't want, for now, just as much as I didn't want to give up my 'status' for equality and as such others like me who are still stuck in the brainwashing of finding value in their position and possessions are not in a position to make this move and that furthermore the desire for 'them' to make such move is yet again another abdication of responsibility in which I wonder and keep myself pre-occupied with questions such as 'why does this change have to start with me and not with 'them', why aren't THEY asked to change, why aren't They giving the example?", failing to see that I ask myself such questions looking for ways to keep abdicating my responsibility, seeking for Good reasons why I can still postpone because the ones who are creating the most damage -apparently- are still busy doing it, when in fact we are all equally participating collectively in the Creation of this world and as such we have to collectively disengage this support that we are giving through the abdication of our responsibility for this world as ourselves

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to be moved by the anger of the people manifesting against this system, as being 'moved' means I am not Here, stable in and as Breath, instead of seeing and realizing the anger as real and valid without participating in it as I see, realize and understand that the anger we are using to moan about the system is misdirected, we are all angry at ourselves for what we have accepted and allowed, then, best stop diversions, own the anger and on the wings of this self honest Anger, stand for a Change, as the Change that we want to see in this world, for ourselves and all of Existence, Equal and One.

When and as I see fears coming up in me about how pointless it is to stand up given the extent of the problem we are facing, I stop, breathe, make a point of getting back Here through breathing as my 'thoughts' are not the solution to this world problem as they only exist of polarity that I use to find ways to be against the system as that gives me the momentary relief of the belief 'that I am doing something about it, I am opposing it!", when in fact I am just perpetuating the friction and conflict I exist as which is what is manifesting the friction and conflict that stand in the way of One Solution for the World that will benefit All Equally

When and as I see myself desiring to blame the Rich and Powerful for how we live, I stop and breathe, as I see realize and understand the Rich and Powerful are nothing else than manifestations of my own desire for moreness in fear of being less and that when I equalize myself to be stable within who I am I will be one less point of support for the Inequality of this world

When and as I see myself fearing that nothing will change, I look into the specific point I am facing to see why and what I am not willing to change about myself and why I accept the limitations of myself which reflect in the limited version of the world we live in and stand to address that point and change it

I commit myself to not give in to thoughts of assessment of the gravity of the system situation as that is already clear to me but instead to become more consistent in breathing myself back into the physical and Not participate within and as the Mind of thoughts, feelings and emotions as an excuse to tap into Powerlessness so I can abdicate my responsibility for standing for change as the change

I commit myself to, whenever I perceive myself toying with thoughts and feelings of powerlessness to STOP, breathe and bring muself back to Breath while I look at what I am trying to Not take responsibility for, so I can address it in writing and self corrective application until I stand Self responsible and no longer Powerlessness as a victim of my self created Mind.

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Day 56: Self Blame vs Self Responsibility

So this interesting point that I fear Self responsibility came up trough investigating why I had resistances to the Atlanteans' series , The Money series and Heaven's Blogs and the thread was common, it was the Fear of Self Blame, I feared that if I learned about our origins and how we came about I would Blame myself to such an extent that I would end up crushed and unable to recover.

But what is there to crush if I have not existed yet, just my ideas and beliefs about myself and humanity as a whole, the ideas that there was a Higher Purpose to being Here, that we were on our way to Higher Frequencies, Higher Dimensions, we were on the verge to shifting it all around, just through our wishful thinking, visualizing, being positive, focus on the good, all the while missing out the Polarity point, that whatever I embed in my body and then create it will have to be balanced out, somewhere out there, remotely away from me as I got the prizes of my positive 'Alignments' and someone got the shit of My own Polarity Play to play out, is this how we are creating Famine and Poverty ? By keeping pulling on the Polarity blanket in the 'Me Me Me' game, not considering that 'something is got to give' and since we have NOT been the ones for-giving someone somewhere is just not getting even enough to Live. 

We have manifested the consequences of our Greed into the Physical World so we will be forced to face what it is that really happens when we create from the starting point of separation and self interest and not from the starting point of What is Best for All, as One Organism, One Life, connected in all ways at levels we have not yet seen or understood on our Energy Merry Go Rounds.

Yet the point is that I con-fuse Blame and Self responsibility, because no matter how many times people have used the word responsibility in my Life toward me or something I did as a kid, or when I then started to use it 'against' others, what I really meant was Blame/ Fault, Responsibility was the nice cover up, the socially accepted way to say and see whose Fault was it ? Whose to Blame ?

Within the Blame game we learn fast that who is Faulty and Blameful, is losing, we don't get what is it exactly that we are losing and so we seek for answers to why, once we believe we are invested by Blame, we feel diminished, we don't see early in Life that it is an Energy Game we are all participating in and as, it is The game of Superiority and Inferiority that we engage i and as, and we have agreed that the ones who get to be Blamed are worth Less than the ones who are Blame Free.

So soon in Life we walk into the Blame Game trying to learn the skills to Blame another, so we can walk away feeling less damaged, less violated, missing the point that there is only One of us Here, and whatever we do within and as Energy, someone will be diminished and violated and that is Self.

I had support from One of the Money Interviews on this point, funny because this were the interviews I resisted the most, still struggling to accept what we have reduced ourselves to as Humanity I was 'put off' by the first interview, I felt diminished and wanted to Blame it on The Interviews, instead of seeing that is the point of Blame and Self Judgement that I roll myself in that diminishes me, because I have yet not cleared to myself and defined what is the difference between Blame/Self Blame and Self Responsibility.

I found this nice picture and it helped me to see things for what they are, we The People, All Together, have flooded the world with Energy Games, diminishing each other in fear of not being worthy, stealing our 'perceived' value from each other in separation from each other as existence as a whole, covering up our suffering while We Lied Our Way Through Life and within this we built a mockery of a World, where Life as Us All, suffers and is neglected, yet there is No Blame, as Blame is just another Energy Game, there is only the Call of Life to Self Responsibility to Stand Up and Stop all insanities, accepting that we are all Equally responsible, as the drops of a flood, for Having Manifested this world as the Outflow and Consequence of our Abdication of Responsibility to Energy vs Life, hoping to be More, while failing to see we were All of It already, All There Is, and it was only our Belief that we were Not Enough that led to the Manifested Consequences we are now walking.

We are not the Creators of this World, not yet, for now we are just the Abdicators, having abdicated our Right to Life for the Madness of Energy while we diminished ourselves into Nothingness and Uselessness, separating ourselves from this existence and everything in it, and from this hole we have to come back, to equalize ourselves with what was created while we were missing in action, getting back to our point of Power and from there sit at the steering wheel of this world, together, to make a drastic U turn, a return to Oneness and Equality and What is Best for All, and stop this senseless existence to birth ourselves as Life into the Physical, leaving behind forever our Desires and Delusions that we could be more than another, in the Mirror World of Self.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear being Blamed and being found/judged as Faulty, perceiving myself diminishing when someone said 'you are wrong, it's your fault, face your responsibility as in Blame'

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that when someone blamed me it was them making me feel diminished instead of seeing and realizing that it was me blaming myself that made me feel diminished through my participation in the energy game of inferiority and superiority where the blame-less are more valuable than the blame-full

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the world responsibility having associated the word responsibility to Blame and the diminishment of myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear becoming self responsible in fear that I am the one to blame/faulty and thus diminishing myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame others so I would not have to feel diminished in the game that I myself alone played within and as The Mind, in the allocation of Blame as a tool to take energy/value from another

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that 'there is always someone to blame and it's always someone's fault/responsibility' because by holding on to this belief I have accepted and allowed myself to seek for the faults in another so I could blame them and not face my own self blame

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame myself throughout my life when I did not meet a standard that was set by others first and then by myself about what I should have said, who I should have been and what I should have done, instead of living Here in Breath as self honesty and self responsibility, correcting myself if I made a miss-take instead of looking for someone else to Blame

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear self responsibility after a miss-take because that meant that I should stand as self correction while I had embraced the blaming game as a way to avoid facing self responsibility and having to change myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the responsibility of this creation, instead of seeing and realizing that it's only within taking responsibility as in response-ability that I can equalize myself to what has been, until I can walk Here aware of every movement of myself and it's outflows and consequences on Creation that must always be for Life as What is Best for All

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel irritated when I read other's blog where responsibility for things we know nothing about is taken and within this move into judgements that it's an overkill , a way to show off the willingness of being responsible for the unknown, instead of seeing we are all here and there is no other way out but to equalize ourselves to everything as the manifested outflows and consequences of our abdication of life for energy, before we can change something as Equals to it, or we won't have access to it and to change it

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from reality to a point where I cannot yet remember or see my direct participation in the manifested consequences and outflows of this existence and that I won't be able to see clearly until I accept and allow myself to equalize to everything that I have created first as My Mind and then walk out of my mind into nothingness ad into the Physical to rewrite myself as a CoCreator of this existence in Equality and Oneness

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to support and endorse for years the teachings of LOA and Abraham Hicks, that teach that I Create my Own reality, yet even within this knowledge I failed to take responsibility for the whole I created, deluding myself that I was the one creating the positive and the good and someone else was creating the ugly and the evil, denying what I existed in and as, as both the Darkness and the Light, dismissing the Darkness as something that belonged to someone else, refusing to accept my participation in this creation of polarity as both the Light and Darkness of it

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel Shameful and Guilty in connection with the sentence 'you must face your responsibility' and for using the same sentence on others with the purpose of generating the same feelings of shame and guilt that I experienced when I heard this phrase

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress the feelings of guilt and shame in connection with the word responsibility, hoping that the longer I walked my Process the more used I would become to it, instead of seeing and realizing that not having cleared my starting point on the word "responsibility", I just kept compounding the guilt and the shame until I reached a point in which I was no longer willing to even hear the word 'responsibility' and reacted in automatic every time someone raised this word with a sense of irritation, justifying myself that it was about them, all of them that kept pushing this word on me, it was their fault and that they were not seeing that they should approach me in a different way, instead of taking responsibility for the feelings that were going on inside of me and clear them up so I could stand clear in and as self responsibility and no longer in self blame/fault

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see that the people around me that were using this word were supporting me in letting go of my own self limitations of self judgement and emotions and feelings and that it was nothing personal and that it was NOT used as a way to make me faulty, guilty and shameful as I have used this word against others and myself but just to support me to see that there is no freedom but in self responsibility, where I accept that every movement inside of me is showing me a point of judgement through which I have separated myself from Self as Life and everything that exists

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see that I have not created this existence as I originally believed, meaning I planned it and designed it and manifested it and that this was one of the delusions of grandeur of the LOA and my belief that I was a Creator, instead of seeing I cannot have created this existence and have no clue how it all came about, I have created this existence participating with everyone else in the abdication of Life for Energy and within this point of abdication of my responsibility for this Creation I have abdicated my ability to design and manifest what is best for all in separation of myself from Life and that now I am walking backward from Energy into Awareness, so I can start to stand with others equally self willed and start from nothingness to realign to What is Best for All as Life One and Equal

I forgive myself for failing to see that I feared responsibility because I feared seeing that there is no one Greater than me that will come and save the day, but it is me as Self, as Self responsibility that will have to correct what was created out of my abdication of Life and it will have to be done Breath by Breath until All is Equal and One and there will be Heaven on Earth for All Equally

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fail to see that it is only in Self responsibility for One as All as Equal and a World that is Best for All that the power to change exists as this creation is the manifested outflow and consequence of our separation and collective lack of responsibility to stand in Oneness and Equality and What is Best for ALL to manifest the Change of ourself and the World as a Mirror, that is required

I commit myself to embrace my Self responsibility for myself and existence Equal and One and to walk my correction into manifestation, standing for myself as Life and What is Best for All until we stand together as the New Directive principle for this World and What is Best for All One and Equal to Us and everything that exists.

Day 49: Earthquake Update - Choosing Suffering as The Ultimate Teacher ?

We had 2 earthquakes of magnitude 5.8 in the past 2 weeks, the main building taken down seem to be Churches, up to 5, all of them, in one small village in the Emilia Romagna region.

Never before we have had a Church-less village in Italy.

Churches, whatever the propaganda says, are NOT uniting people, they are a symbol of separation and of an abdication of responsibility to a God that is either amnesic about  His creation or he plainly does not exist and has become the embodiment of our desire to not stand as Self responsible Human Beings for Life, One and Equal.

Funny but since churches have been taken down by the earthquake and more than 7000 people found themselves in tents, having to rely on sharing confined spaces, limited food and comfort, we started to get along better.

Yesterday on TV they showed Arabs, Blacks, Asians and Italians all sitting and eating as brothers and sisters at the special tent canteen that has been set up by the Civil protection, not one ounce of tension was flying, the earthquake has shaken down the worthless, leaving the Worth, Life, One and Equal intoand as all of Us.

When we have a chance to share a confined space and  see first hand that we are Equals, as in we all need to eat, drink water, wash ourselves, have a shelter, a lot of the bullshit we use as a weapon against each other is just no longer there, no money, no things to buy and flaunt, no private toilets to care for our 'Image', no churches where we can go to worship the Only God, the Biggest and More Powerful One, separating ourselves into our own Minds against The Children of Lesser Gods, we become, Equal in Need.

So, is this the way we have to go to understand Equality, through suffering ?

What is it with Humanity and Suffering ?

Why do we hold the Belief that we can only learn through Suffering ?

Why isn't Common Sense enough to see that if we all share One Planet and we just have to recognize each other Equal Right to be Here as Life, if we did, in One Breath, we could stop all the suffering and stand together as One Life, supporting each other, bringing Heaven to Earth for everybody.

Are all our Mind conflicts really worth the separation that will lead to more suffering, to more loss of lives so that we can insist on our right to self interest and greed and the right to the Free Choice to Damn and Condemn ourselves to Hell on Earth.

"When we say the Physical is the Way to Life, we mean that the physical will force us to become self aware, force us to understand creation, force us to stand up for what is best for all life, force us to love our neighbors, force us to truly become custodians of life in very way. The physical will not save us, it will serve hell till we become Life." Bernard Poolman

If suffering is what we are voting for, let's get on with it, let's suffer and struggle, let's get shaken by the Earth back to our Common Sense, where we seem unwilling to go on our own, forgetting that we only had One Choice from the Start, Life Equal and One for All, or Death and Destruction, what shall it be ? Our choice.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that we can learn from 'Suffering'

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that we never learn from Joy but from suffering, making suffering the Teacher of Humanity

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to value suffering, because I suffered and tried to make sense of it by stating that real Lessons come from Suffering

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to embrace the model of Suffering of the Catholics, that stated there is Value in Suffering as Saints and Martyrs who now live in heaven prove to us

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make Saints and Martyrs and the ones who suffered physically through tortures and physical pain for an 'Idea'l more than me, because I was not willing to suffer for 'something' Higher than me

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that suffering is 'The Only Way We Seem to Learn' and for saying this out loud

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear suffering failing to realize that what I fear manifests for myself and existence, One and Equal

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react to the suffering of others because I fear my own suffering

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe I hated the catholics and their teachings of suffering for Humanity, while they kept the good Lives for themselves, instead of realizing I hated myself for my own acceptance and allowance of suffering as a Teacher and my own suffering in and as The Mind

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hate myself for suffering and for believing this hate to be real and who I really am

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wish suffering on others when angry as a way to learn their lesson, like Karma, instead of seeing everything I wish done onto others I do onto myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to never see that we suffer as a choice of having embraced suffering as The Ultimate Teacher and having placed suffering above ourselves as a mean to learn, instead of seeing suffering is just plain Mean and I can stop the abuse and suffering of myself and others by stepping out of me as The Mind into the Physical as Life One and Equal

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look back at my life and state 'yes I have learnt from my suffering' as a way to make sense and validate suffering for myself and others, Equal and One

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify the suffering of humanity and myself as 'lessons' we have to learn instead of seeing there was enough suffering in this world for us to be all well learnt and beyond and that suffering was our own creation through our own acceptances and allowances of suffering as a viable option for learning

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that there was something wrong in this creation if our lives had to be filled with so much suffering and for not realizing/seeing that Ourselves and our acceptances and allowances were the something 'wrong' with this creation and that it was time to STOP what we were no longer willing to live

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that some deserve to suffer, due to my judgements of what they did to others, instead of seeing I was stating "I deserve to suffer for what I believe I have done to others'

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abuse myself and my physical body through the suffering of the friction of me as The Mind, accepting and allowing my own existence of suffering while I was not willing to let go of my own self inflicted suffering of and as the Mind, while I resisted letting go my life of self interest to return Here in Breath realigned to Oneness and Equality

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abuse myself and to make myself suffer, for-getting that what I do to myself I do to existence, Equal and One, instead of stopping and standing in and as The Change I want to see in this world

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When and as I see myself supporting or about to support any form of suffering of myself and others for 'a higher purpose', I stop, breathe, look at which specific higher purpose I am deluding myself with and release it through self forgiveness and self corrective application

When and as I see myself valuing suffering as 'the only way we seem to learn' I stop, breathe, remind myself that I have to investigate all patterns of suffering of myself and others, reflecting back to me my accepted and allowed acceptances of suffering as value so I may eradicate suffering as value from my own life and the world, Equal and One, to bring about a World that is Best for All

I commit myself to stop all the suffering in and as me and all my acceptances and allowances of suffering,  to stop the suffering in the world as a mirror, Equal and One