Day 302: Why Is Life not a Human Right?

Today on TV the President of the Chamber of Parliament almost cried as she spoke about the man who tried to shoot the politicians 3 days ago. He said it didn't even matter which one, anyone of them would do, they are all equally responsible for what is going on.

In her speech she said that desperate people resort to desperate acts against themselves and others and that we are the ones pushing this world in that direction, the direction of Despair.

This admission of our collective responsibility caused an outrage as people who are struggling and NOT shooting politicians or attempting to, stood enraged against her words, we go back to the enforced belief of the dignity of honesty, meaning we see Beauty, Dignity and Honour in starving to death vs committing 'a crime'.

Isn't this ironic? Is there a small chance we may instead see that such belief must have been driven into us by some fake morality, the same morality that stands Pro Life in the womb and allows starvation out of it or as Napoleon said 'Without Religion (or Hope or the Law written to protect those that were always in power and wrote it, or Positive Thinking etc) the Poor would have already killed the Rich'. There is much truth in this, we are not killing them just because we have better, higher, post mortem plans.

 

Desperation leads to tragedies, we can see the consequences of desperation more clearly than desperation as a consequence in itself.

We are able to understand that desperate people are forced to desperate measures, the best choice they have to feed themselves and their family would be a neat crime, we have an increase of those as well, robberies, thefts, those are the middle desperate choices, if we may say so, it's the Entrepreneurship of the Poor since if you don't have Capital in a Capitalistic system, you first have to get your hands on the Capital, so robberies are just the Poor's way to withdraw the Capital they don't have access to and that they need to play the game.

Obviously banks don't lend money to the Poor, there is nothing they can be stolen from the Poor with a bit of patience because the Poor own nothing, hence not only lending to the Poor is a bad investment, it's plain stupid.

All this makes sense of course only if we embrace the belief that what is worthy, valuable the 'Capital' that we have to protect and defend is 'Money' and not Life.

And how clever is that, let's pile up Money to buy back our lives when we have a foot in the grave.

Can't do that, so where is the real value and worth of Life if not in Life itself considering that when one's Life is in peril we say 'we would give anything' for a chance to not in fact die.

There is no reason why we can't correct our miss-placement of Value and Worth, it happened one step at the time, either through agreement or while we were sleeping, now we just need to agree on something else, like the point that if Life and supporting Life is not the 1st of the Human Rights we embrace and agree on, all the others we fight for just don't make sense, it's like fighting to not allow rabbits to have their nails clipped in the face of an animal holocaust, or have demonstrations about forbidding people from carving hearts on tree trunks while we take down the amazon forest, we are kind of heavily, insanely out of perspective.

We can restore sanity to this world by standing and voting for a system that embraces Life above Money and Profit, the system is being designed, it's made of the Matter of each one that stand for it stating what Matters for Real, so if you don't Stand, what is The Matter with You? What is it going to be, Money or Life?

Stand up, Life is waiting.

#EqualMoney, where Life is the Capital and Money the temporary tool we will use to equalize the Value and Worth of Each one to Equality and Oneness.  Join us.

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Day 104: Cheap/Worthy Self Forgiveness and Self Commitment

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Divide the world in Cheap and Worthy based on Money

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give more value to the Worthy than to the Cheap, according to my own perception and judgement of what is worthy and what is cheap, and to not see that my own self judgement of myself as both worthy as the rich granddaughter and cheap as the poor daughter were The filters through which I saw and divided the world

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the label 'cheap' since when I used it it was to diminish the other to my own diminishment of myself as my own perception of Cheap as the Poor Daughter, due to where we lived and the lives we led that to me were poor and cheap in comparison to my grandparents who in my perception lived rich and fulfilling lives

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to associate money/rich with 'fulfilling life' failing to see that through this association I defined my life fulfilling ONLY when money was present, and unfulfilling when Money was not present, reducing myself to a Money Slave for my own fulfilment in separation from myself here as Breath as Life where nothing is needed for Self Expression as Self Worth 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see that my own embodiment of two Characters in polarity ensured maximum friction within me that I perceived as aliveness as much energy was generated through my own Characterization within polarities of opposing Characters, which is what Bipolarism is when we take this point to its max

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge my mum as bipolar, failing to see that I was the bipolar one living within polarity personalities as Characters for which I did not want to take responsibility and instead suppressed, trying to play just One Character at the time to keep myself from going mad

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear going mad as I felt the friction of existing within polarities that I did not know how to address and let go through self forgiveness and self corrective application

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to be Worthy in fear of being Cheap, without seeing and realizing I was fearing my own self judgement as Cheap in relation to my acceptance and allowance of the World System of Money as the ultimate Value/Worth assessment tool

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fail to see that unless I let go of Money as the Worth and Value Tool of existence I not only keep/kept myself enslaved but all others as well, while I insisted on seeking my own worth/value outside of myself to confirm I am worthy and valuable through the Money System, in separation from myself as Self Worth and Self Value

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see and realize that when I moved onto Spirituality I did so within the belief that I did not have the access I wanted into the Money System and so an alternative point of Value and Worth had to be sought to replace the Money System, so I could grow inside the Spirituality/Consciousness Movement and make myself More than others having failed at making myself MORE through the Money System and within this I forgive myself for desiring to make myself MORE than other while seeking for value through Comparison Games

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to accept and allow Money to judge myself and others as Worthy/Cheap, through giving up my own self responsibility of myself as self directive principle that decides that All have the same Worth and Value as Life and that Money MUST become a Tool to support the Equal Life we All Share

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that since Money is too big a topic, I cannot take the Money system on but I have to lie down and accept that the only way to get my Value/Worth is through Money as the Ultimate Judge of Us All, failing to see I gave up my self responsibility so I would not have to stand up in and as The Money System and face my own self judgements and judgements of Money as the bestower of Value but I could blame Money for having taken this role while I just obeyed

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from Creation to the point that I am still unable to see how it is that I have originally manifested Money as the Tool that decides over and above Life and that I now see that I will have to walk myself backward into my own acceptances and allowances of Money as the Worth/Cheapening Tool of existence to undo what was done through first equalizing myself to Money and no longer have Money be more than me/others, One and Equal, and then walk as Money as the Correction to Equality for All, where Life returns to be the Only real Value and Capital of this World

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress the points that came up in my life to show me how deep the Money entanglement went within me, moving through all my relationships within one form or another, deciding which jobs I should do or go for, and who I should be to get those jobs who were designed for specific Characters, and not seeing or realizing that each Character Impersonation was a trade off on the Money Stock Exchange, where the stock is live stock as Us as the Flesh we all Share Equally and have given up to the Money System for Survival

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that Money is the ultimate goal that we must all shoot for to prove who we are and who we have been and what we have done with our lives of Value/Worth, failing to see that believing that Worth and Value lies in the Money we have piled up is one of the silent acceptances of this Money System as the Worth/Value bestower on Life that has ended up putting Money above Life

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that if one has Money, then everything is fine, accepting and allowing myself to believe that Money can buy my way out of trouble, out of my responsibilities, out of my humanity that I sell out so I can build the fake safety net of Money, that anyway lets me down at death since Money or No Money we all DIE the same

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to imprint myself with the beliefs of this Consumerist/Capitalistic system, that teaches that we are just NOT born all the same and that some are more valuable by Birth and their lives are MORE precious, which we should be able to see by the fact that we allow almost 1 bil people to starve every day, accepting and allowing the opinion that their lives are LESS important than ours or we would be taking to the streets screaming murder, while instead we make sure to toe the line because the starvers stand as the example of what could happen to us if we were in fact cut out of the Money making world and it would then be our turn to become the invisible worthless lives that the rest won't mind to waste

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to pacify myself with the point that 'The poor have always existed and always will', failing to see that this reply is not in any way common sensical, because if they have always existed for sure, we would at one point in time addressed the issue of WHY they always existed and what and where was the problem of this system of Inequality, and not just pass on the knowledge and information about their existence as 'the way things are' and that failing to look for a solution for the common good of humanity spells out clearly WHO WE ARE, and what we have always been as the de-humanized humanity that went Spiritual because going Physical in addressing the Physical points that need resolution always seemed harder than flying off in our heads, where we could pretend to be busy building solutions based on Love to cover up our FEAR of this existence and what we accepted and allowed ourselves to become

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see that if I felt diminished by the word 'CHEAP' without living a cheap life in the sense that I always had a roof over my head and food in my plate, what would others who in fact are living the CHEAP life as in homeless and starving be going through, and still make my experience of a word and what I charged it with, in terms of energy and fears, be more important than looking for a solution to erase the cheapness of this world as in suffering and starvation returning to each Life the dignity of Equality as in Equal Worth and Equal Value

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress my own self hatred for 'turning the other cheek', for looking for ways to justify why it is OK to accept such a world just because everyone is and no one seems bothered about solutions but just about studying and measuring the problem, such as Economists, while people die and live in suffering in and as The Physical and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I hated myself for not standing up for Life as Life

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to charge the word cheap with a negative charge and the word worthy/valuable/value with a positive charge, borrowing this imaginary charge from the Money System, that defines worth and value as good and unworthy and cheap as BAD, so we will keep striving to get MORE to finally access our value as positive, as GOOD, and keep participating in this senseless game called Capitalism, failing to see we have fucked each other Royally just so we could believe to be more as some were kept in and as 'the less' within an Imaginary Value/Worth system

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own judgement day, which is everyday, as I hold myself hostage of beliefs, ideas and Opinions about Money and the Money System, so as to not have to Change as I see Change implies some parts of me will have to die, infact all of me has to go, as my perception of 'ME' in separation from everything and everyone in my search for 'Happiness'/Money as value/worth

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that this Money point has to change externally before Humanity can change, instead of seeing realizing and understanding that I am One of the Money Points Holder and that when I let go the Hold there is One point less holding the Money system in place and that the More of us let go of Money as the Money Holders the less points Money as the entity it has become will have to suck energy from us as Life for its own sustainance as a system with a life of its own, because it never in fact had a life of its own, it had OUR lives tied in and entangled around its fingers through our own choice that we have not been aware of how we made, having taken it on from knowledge and information passed on from generation to generation as the ONLY choice without seeing and realizing it was NOT the only choice, but the accepted and allowed choice to keep this system running as it is and never challenge it's soundness or common sense

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear what will happen if we all let go of the Money point as clearly that means we will have to become self responsible for this world and that we will no longer be able to give up our self responsibility to Money for what goes on, which is one of the reasons WHY we let Money take the driving seat in the first place as our excuse to abdicate our self responsibility to each other and The World as Us in the first place

I commit myself to stop my existence as one of the Money Holder as in One that Keeps the Money system in place, by investigating ALL my Money related reactions, fears and attachments until no words that are Money related as Value/Valuable Cheap/Cheapened Worth/Worthy Price/Prize have holds on me through my own assigned energetic charges within a polarity system

I commit myself to stop investing value as positive charges in words that are resonantly positively Money related and to stop investing of a negative charge words that are negatively Money related, within the polarity of lack, as I see realize and understand it was always me deciding and assigning charges to words and that words carry the burdens of my investments until I stop and take all investments back to myself ,stopping the separation from myself and words and from myself as words

I commit myself to stop dividing the world in Money/Not Money whatever name I give to define these 2 polarity points, as it is in the giving the Have MONEY polarity more value then the Have NOT  MONEY polarity that I give and cast my vote to have some Lives be more important than others Within the Characters that we play, and this is how we end up with some Characters living the MORE life, through our own individual votes within the Mind Consciousness System as More and Worthier than Other Lives, that become LESS, in relation to Money and the voted in place Money-God

I commit myself to stop my fears of lack of Money as this is at the root of any Money desire, the fear of worth-less-ness within an internally accepted and allowed Money System of Worth and Value and to disengage myself consistently from Money as Worth/Value until I no longer stand as the self surrendered captive to the Money World but I can stand as what is best for me a What is Best for All for myself and all of Existence Equal and One.

Day 103: 'Don't Call me Cheap' Character

Back to the 'apparently menial'.

My mum spent two days here, she has predictably moved into the 'You are about to go away again ' Character, 'Let's spend more time together' Character and I moved into the ''OK' Character, as a way to just go with the flow while she is here.

So tonight I was not going to write, I am tired, yet after reading the Giving Up Character Chat, I saw the whole movement, nice inviting picture presentation of an alternative to writing, desire to comply and then putting my foot down for writing because I am the One that decides.

In these 2 days an event took place twice, the same event, menial, about me feeling embarrassed when my mum checks the bill at the supermarket, it's cheap, I used to never check the bill, I was above checking the bill, but yesterday within my 'OK ' Character when she found out a mistake I went and told the lady at the cashier that there was in fact a 1 euro mistake, it felt embarrassing, I kinda hated it, just for 1 euro, the losing face point.

Today I went to buy water alone at the little Chinese supermarket, when she gave me the bill there was 2 euros discrepancy (:) better stop the exponentiality of the pattern at 2 euro, considering I am evaluating going back to business and this pattern will fuck with me royally), she made a mistake, it was clear to me without looking at the bill and so I told her, walked through the embarrassment and she corrected the bill.

The point is menial both about 1 euro and then 2 euro, it is not about the money I saved, it is about how I perceived this experience and myself within it and why I hate to speak up about a bill being wrong when it's just not been added right, it is because I fear coming out as cheap, 'all this trouble for 1/2 euros', I get my 'life read for 1/2 euros', so I went back in time within my mind and I saw that this fear is one of the product of my schizophrenia as the 'poor daughter' and the 'rich granddaughter's' Characters, as I wanted and desired to be the rich granddaughter and not the poor daughter, I wanted to copy and be like grandma who would not have checked the bills because 'she was not cheap', while in truth she just feared to be called cheap as she herself was NOT born rich, where cheapness can be shamelessly displayed because there is Money to back up someone's value/Character, only the poor, the ones that have made money just enough to get out of the survival game, no longer want to be associated with 'cheap', as in 'cheap' lie less chances to survive, to be able to care for oneself, and because 'cheap' means less valuable, someone cheap is less valuable that someone who is not.

So I fear to be cheap, to be judged as cheap, to judge myself as cheap, because if I am Cheap, if I do care about the 1/2 euro here and there it means I don't have enough money to play in the big league, that I am restrained and contained in my movements by my 'Money/Worth' and it shows the extent to which We have not only abdicated our power to Money, but Our Worth, Each Other's Worth, while we look for signs of who is Worthy within the world through the Money/Worth display of Wealth/Worth and discard every one else that can not and won't be a good investment for ourselves as the potential for Money lending, for an access to Money, for a slice of that worth that I/we covet through Money and that I would not, could not give up until I give up my Money/Value/worth perception.

Money is what we have become, we must get it, because when we do, when we see the extent in which everything we do and involve ourselves with is Money tied, than the point of Giving to everyone Equally will be the consequential step, as no one should be defined by Money as Value/Worth, and no one should live in fear of being Worthless because they are Cheap out of the condition they find themselves in.

I judged my mum as cheap when she did what I did not dare to do, coming out in the open to say that I see and realize that Money moves the world, and I will look after that 1/2 euro because it is my responsibility to take care of me and not others' responsibility to take care of me, and that I am not defined by the fact that I check a bill to see if it was added right or because I speak up to say 'you are overcharging me' as I see this world keeps running this way because when we the poor are afraid to look poor, to say I am poor, I don't have access to the Money Game, because if we do we are 'Cheap' and less valuable than others and so we fall for the fear of our own self judgement of our worthlessness instead of disengaging from the Money System as a System of Worth/Value once and for all.

None of us should ever be defined by Money, we made a mistake, took about a million wrong turns, let's out the fear to stand up and speak up, No Life is Cheap, Money makes it cheap when we accept and allow Money to become the Value Tool of existence in the name of Profit and Self Interest, yet we can return Money to its place, as a Tool for Equal Support and make Life the Value of the Earth that we abdicated when we believed that some Lives are worthier than others and some are cheaper, in fact so cheap, that we can trash them on our way out of the perceived Cheapness of Ourselves.

Will follow up tomorrow with Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective Statements.

Day 76: Duped by my Desire to be Good

Last night I was reading One of the Journey to Life Blogs, and in the specific one titled "Fooled by morals - A Case of Religion", and saw and realized how much that Blog applied to me and my 'moralistic approach to Life'.

My Life has never been based on doing What is Best for All, I just found ways that were acceptable to me according to my own judgements of What is Good and What is Bad, to get what I wanted for myself in absolute Self Interest.

Even wanting 'World Peace' which is universally considered Good can be an act of Self Interest, in which I desire World Peace so I can stop feeling BAD about not having World Peace, but in truth I could not care less that people were at each other's throaths exept that it's bad for my Mood having to watch it happening.

So I want to see in writing Who I am within this Desire to Be Good and how I defined being Good and doing Good, while I accepted and allowed a World of Utter Abuse, in which my Being Good was just another Self Serving Tool, serving me the Right to Abuse in ways that were acceptable and not threathening to my IMage of Goodness among those I knew and inside myself.

Being Good:
- definitions from childhood that I accepted and allowed-

Do not throw tantrums or be moody

Do not masturbate

Give donations to the Poor

Do not gossip, if you do deny it, if you are caught make up stories about it to justify it

Do not lie

When I go through this list I see nothing of value in terms of doing What is Really Best for All but just a list of dos and don't that are actually beneficial to the system and the people who have taught me these things, as they would keep me in line with the belief that I was good and there was nothing more I could do about it, I was just asked to comply to these simple requests and get on with Life, so let's deconstruct my 'Idea of being Good' through Self Forgiveness

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that it made sense to teach kids what is good/right from what is bad/wrong' because kids know nothing and they would not be able to tell the difference between abusing themselves and another and not abusing themselves and another

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that throwing tantrums and being moody is bad and that I have to suppress my tantrums and moodiness to be acceptable, instead of investigating why I have moved into an energetic build up and address it

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that parents know best, when I lived the evidence that one thing my mum did not know was what was good for her and what it was not, including the relationship with my grandparents, yet I accepted and believed she could teach me what she herself did not know and could not see and realize in her own life

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that morality made sense as a guidance system, accepting and allowing within this the belief that we as humans need guidance or 'God knows what we would do', and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that the nature of humans is naturally evil and cannot be changed

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to be good/right to please my mother and family and show them that I got the teachings and was living by them, even though I mostly made up stories about me tooeing the line while in secret I lived the life I wanted feeling bad and wrong for it

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that to be good means to not masturbate, because then everytime I did masturbate I felt bad/wrong and had to keep it hidden and suppressed in and within me

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that what made my parents/family uncomfortable was bad/wrong instead of seeing they were superimposing on me their own limitations of right and wrong until I made them mine

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that giving donations to the Poor was something Good and within this accepting the existence of Poor as the Way Things are and my inability to change the world and the system as me because within the Belief of 'having to give to the Poor', I made the Poor a reality to satisfy my need and desire to give to feel good about myself and Be Good

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be satisfied with the answer 'there have always been Poor people and always there will be' even though it made no sense that we would throw away food and skim the ham from its fat while someone went with nothing and hungry

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in a world where there are Poor as The Way Things Are and in which noone asks, but why are Things the Way they Are' because no one has an answer to this specific question

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel good about giving to the Poor my change that would make no difference to me if I had it in my pocket or not, while accepting and allowng myself to believe that I had satisifed what was required of me by complying to the Program "give to the Poor/less Fortunate' to Be Good

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe in the existence of a benevolent God who was obviously a gambler that placed people in more or less fortunate positions within the World System, without asking myself how could there be benevolence in a world where some were Less Fortunate than others and satisfying myself with bullshit like 'God moves in mysterious ways or God has a plan'

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fail to realize that if God's plan did not include the well being of All Equally it was NOT a good plan, whatever his reasons and that I should have questioned the nature of this creation and how we had come to live in such a world of violence and abuse within an imaginary benevolence of God and of myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that just because there was a large number of people believing in God and his plan, then it must be true, failing to see that it did not mater how many people did believe and accept the existence of a God with a Plan, the fact that the 'Plan' was here for everyone to see and it was NOT a Good Plan that included the Equal Well being of All did not make the belief of the Many more real or valid

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that Gossip is bad unless you deny doing it or make up stories about why you are doing it as I saw everyone behave around me in my family and then it's acceptable, so instead of seeing Gossip for the detrimental point that it is because the Other is me and I cannot have what I don't give such as Respect and Consideration for another being, I just became skilled in the cover up and the story tellings

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Gossip about others with the purpose of making myself more when I entered the construct of Inferiority and Superiority instead of seeing and realizing that I was the one moving into the need and desire to belittle others to make myself feel better and not that there was something worthy 'to gossip about'

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that to lie is bad when in fact I was lied all the time by the people that raised me starting from Santa Claus and the Tooth Fairy all the way to how they felt about their lives and what was really going on with them

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define to lie  as BAD, because they told me not to, just because they wanted as parents and educator that advantage of knowing what I was up to while they did not need to tell me or let me know what they were up to

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify my lying as in everybody is doing it, instead of seeing that there is no moral compass but my own and that I could have seen by myself the starting point of my reasons for lying and what they were about and I can see now that some lies can be told with the starting point of What is best for All unless I have a morality point standing in the way of using whatever is Here to get to where I need to get to become effective in the system

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself and my actions according to an imaginary morality compass that I myself defined and that only commanded that if I did not stick to it I should feel bad about myself and when I stuck to it I could feel good about myself, failing to see I have even used morality as a point of self interest with which I could reward myself while I could keep on not caring about the world as me that was rotting away under my very eyes

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself and others using a make belief morality compass, failing to see that there is no morality in a world where there is no equality and we better become as ruthless as the system that we judged as ruthless and from which we separated from in fear of being eaten and swallowed up, if we have to become effective in becoming this change that the world needs, as we won't get there by being ''good and nice' applying morality in a world of abuse

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to petrify myself into a position in which I perceive myself I cannot move, because I have been ruthless for self interest and then judged myself harshly for it when I met Desteni and I have not yet seen how to apply my ruthlessness to What is Best for All and so I have frozen myself into a CAN'T Do position, waiting and hoping for inspiration to come to me to show me the way, failing to realize that I am still stuck in the Savious construct, hoping that someone will take this responsibility from my hands and tell me what to do, instead of seeing that becoming self responsible means to assess all situations, look for the Equality Equation in which I consider everyone Equally as much as I can at this stage of my process and then move myself without regrets or fear, having seen and realized that my involvement as a Money making machine is required to contribute to this project and that I no longer wish to postpone my participation to make money for myself and What is Best for All

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to imprint myself with the words 'Father take away from me this chalice' as in the Hope that when I find myself in a dire situation, by my own definition, a rescue team will magically appear and sort me out, instead of seeing it is required of me to stand, sort myself out and get moving

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own make belief Morality Code and the Judgement of myself if I should step out of the line of what I myself have considered Good and Bad, instead of seeing any point that comes up within the Good and Bad construct as an opportunity for me to redefine and expand beyond Good and Bad into Equality and Oneness and What is best for All

..just read today's Creation's Blog, does the Desire to Be Good belong to a Character ?
To be continued

Day 62: Reacting to the System in Separation from Self

My computer crashed, it has been painful to face having to reconnect to everything because I had to reinstall the operating system, so had to crawl up from the point of I can't face starting from scratch, because in fact I can, that was just another idea/opinion and the fear of myself projected into everything that I have to do to become as efficient as I was.

Last week I had lunch with a girlfriend and the point of me finding difficulty in finding a job came up, she is retired, during our walk she stated all the reasons why finding a job is just impossible at the moment, which clashed with my desire to 'keep a positive outlook on the situation', plus the point that I started to feel angry, because if this is the world you SEE, why aren't YOU standing up for a system change ?

Is it just because you are retired and so have nothing to worry about, until the pension money will be there, or because you think you have earned your right to be supported because you did enslave yourself to the system and so you deserve having 'peace of mind' now ?

And then the obvious Desteni question came up, which can be reduced to ' WHAT ARE YOU DOING' for a system change ?

Yes, good point, what am I doing ?

And so I felt the need to justify what I am doing with what I am doing practically, meaning I am involved on social networks and exposing reality and connecting to like willed people for a system change. To which she replied so what are We supposed to do, take to the streets, start a revolution, set the Parliament on Fire? Which are all system questions, as in our separation from We The System and We The People we see everything as something that is happening outward and not an inward change that is required and that will ultimately manifest outward.

I could not bring myself to explain that I am changing myself from a system of abuse to a system that is Best for All as simply I just lack the vocabulary to deliver process in Italian to someone else, especially someone that I have already defined within my mind as a socialist that has always been busy with social causes, so I see her as someone who in fact has done way more than me in practical application, yet the point is that she did everything she did in support of this system believing that the system cannot change, just like me, while in my belief that the system cannot change I embraced Law of Attraction and Positive Thinking and basically said to the world "Fuck You", as long as I am Fine.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react when I perceived my friend just accepting the system as it is, because now that I woke up I assume everyone should and if they don't, I have a right to blame them

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel defeated by this system because I cannot yet see how change will come in a country that is going more and more down the drain while people don't care

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be angry at myself for not having cared before about the World as Me, and for not having cared about myself as The World

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel embarrassed when someone asks me 'and WHAT ARE YOU DOING?' because I feel I have nothing to show in the physical, like having an Army or  planning a revolution, all things I have accepted and allowed myself to associate with 'system change' while I projected the system needing to change outward and failed to see the system is inward as me as existence, One and Equal and that is the one required to be changed by each one of us individually

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get lost in my backchat while my friend was still talking trying to assess if I was the most angry and suppressed or if she was, distracting myself with the point that I no longer get angry as I used to and wondered where did all that energy go that I could not summon up

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look for a point within my friend in which I could belittle her, as in "she is angrier than me", so I could see myself as being more than her and get out of the feeling of being less due to my own self judgement of me as having done fuck all for the world in the past, like social causes and standing up for the needy ones

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself  for not having participated actively in social endeavours like setting up shelters for battered women, or working for the Foreign Missionaries like my friend did, instead of seeing that it's just another point of acceptance of the system as it is and that such endeavours were always meant to make US feel better about ourselves in a world of atrocities and inequality and not tackling The Root Problem which is the system and myself as the system

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that 'the Poor have always existed and they will exist even after I die' and within this belief accepting that there is nothing I can do about it but accept that the system is too big to be taken on

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that Life is about Joy when it was clear that some people who were born in extreme conditions would never have access to the joy the LOA talked about because they were striving to survive another day

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be ashamed of myself for not paying attention to the world because when I did I felt bad and I wanted to feel good and have a good life experience for myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react to my friend, projecting on her the blame that I feel for myself for not having stood up before for a system change inward and outward

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge my friend because 'she does that because she has no money problem', because I have not yet forgiven myself for having done that when I did not have money problems and within this I forgive myself for not standing up anyway when my life was 'working' and for believing that 'I am just doing this because my life is NOT working' or I would not care at all, just like before

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself for something that I don't know, as in who I would have been if my life did work out and I had not met Desteni as I hold myself accountable for something that did not happen as my life did not work out and I met Desteni and saw the common sense of the message of Oneness and Equality, which was way easier to see from bottom up than top down.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear this system and what it is willing to do in the search for the ultimate gain and profit, instead of seeing I fear myself and what I am willing to do in search for my own energy and profit gains

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be angry at myself as the system and for using this anger to not focus on what I need to do which is to get a job so I can re enter the system as an Equal, stopping all judgements about it and how far we took it and be the process of change within the system as the system

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the re entering the system will compromise me and my stance for Life, instead of seeing I can only be compromised when I exist in and as the Mind, where everything I do is just for myself and not considering What is Best for All

I commit myself to stop all judgements about this system and what has now manifested as the outflow of our participation in an existence of competition, in which only the most clever and strongest survive, instead of creating a system that supports What is Best for All as Life One and Equal

I commit myself to see where I exist in separation with the system through judgements and opinions of blame that I project outside to correct myself as the system into What is best for All as Life One and Equal