Day 398: Relationship Paranoia - Ending the Spite

Continuing to dissect the Spiteful Character following my previous posts on the topic

The Normalization of Spite and Malice

Developing a Spiteful Character - The Beginning - links at the bottom

For what concerns how I lived Spite within my intimate relationship I can see that it started with the education I received from my grandmother on the topic of 'Men' and specifically about how, since men are dumb and basically dick-driven, women should always have the upper hand either through manipulation or spite.

Spite was the 'when all else failed' tool that women should apply to basically manoeuvre men back to their place, which was next to them in a sort of submissive fear driven way.

Of course such education came with the specific points a woman should exert her spite through, such as jealousy, I definitely see jealousy was the number 1 tool my grandmother and her generation of apparently submissive women would use to square the books, it is quite sad to see how we developed beliefs about each others, gender wise and relationship in general and easy to see why and how for many years in my life I never felt honest within a relationship and ended up blaming that perceived dishonesty on my partners and then how I would feel entitled to spite them to prove they were in fact the dishonest ones from the start.

Of course we can call all of the above a form of paranoia, it all starts with recurring thoughts about something I blame on another for which I seek a sort of revenge or pay back so I can apparently 'stop feeling the way I feel or stop experiencing myself in a specific way' for which -apparently- another is responsible - hence how the delusion of 'getting even' is just in fact very odd, it never worked and never will, those layers infact just keep accumulating in other imaginary credits for which the paranoia and then blame and then spite build up, some silly games we have been playing out there, time to stop.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not question my grandmother teachings about life, men and relationship because they came from someone who would start the indoctrination session with the sentence 'you Know that I love you so much' and within this for failing to see that this is the passcode parents and relatives use to inhibit our firewalls and offload their crappy beliefs in a safe, unchecked and unprotected environment

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to connect the words 'I love you so much' to a way to enter the mind of another in a devious way where I could then try and have them believe that what I was about to say or do made sense because 'I loved them so much'

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to use the word 'love' as a pass into someone's mind where my real motives and drives would possibly go unnoticed, without seeing realizing and understanding that I was in the process of manipulating them for my own benefit and my own desired outcomes

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that when I did not get what I wanted, that I never asked for but tried to have through manipulation, to move into spite to get even at another for not delivering to me what I had originally set out to achieve without asking as to not create an open 'credit' if the other would concede to me what I really wanted and had asked for

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe I hated my ex husband because he could see through all my mind games but instead of approaching me with the pass code 'you know I love you so much' to set my mind at ease, he would spell it out clearly to me that he was seeing what I was up to and then once I felt caught I would deny and move into the spiteful character to prove that I was not at all plotting and planning behind his back and that was why I was now entitled to my little payback having been off-ended unjustly

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to, instead of seeking solutions for my behavior, create stories and excuses about the other being wrong in the first place which would justify why I had a right to my spiteful stance and within this I forgive myself for not liking myself and separating myself into internal wars and conflicts about my behaviour that I wished to deny instead of taking responsibility for it and changing myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to blame myself for my behavior because I could not find effective tools to change without seeing realizing and understanding that I had missed out on the point that we play out the faulty character-istics we take on from our family and environment without questioning their validity and for not seeing realizing and understanding that we are copycatting each other in endless cycles of abusive behaviors because we have not found ways to correct ourselves yet

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to, when a spiteful comment or moment comes up in my mind within my current relationship, to brush it off and tell myself I have changed because I don't act on it, mostly, anymore, instead of seeing realizing and understanding that the popping up of those spiteful moments underlines that I have lived spite as who I am and I have to take back those moments and correct them to sort out the origin point of spite so that I can stand one and equal inside and out and no longer participate in spite as who I am

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use spiteful words and stances in my intimate relationships with the aim of diminishing another in my mind to prove that I was right from the get go and I had nothing to do with the devious behavior that some of them might suggest I was busy with and for using spite as the ultimate proof that I was in fact innocent -or I would not become spiteful as a consequence of what someone falsely said to me about me

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to justify spite as 'so they would know what they put me through' instead of seeing realizing and understanding that no one has ever put me through anything because no one can make me feel or think something without my active participation or acceptance and allowance and that the lame excuse of having others 'feel what I felt' was never valid nor real but just an excuse to move into spite and feel righteous about it

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe my parents and relatives when they were spiteful to me and their excuse of why they were being spiteful as in a lesson they were trying to teach me instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that there is no way anyone can learn anything through spite and that the 'teaching a lesson' is just another name for spite once it's charged with a spiteful stance and hence spite was always a tool that we have used to abuse ourselves and others no matter what label to justify it we placed on it

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that through spite I have diminished myself and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to invest my substance in spite as an attempt to not take responsibility for what was going on within me for which nobody was ever responsible but myself and for which I alone held the keys to change once I could take responsibility for it

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to use jealousy to spite a man within a relationship, trying to make them feel jealous because my grandmother had said that if a man really loves you he will become jealous instead of seeing realizing and understanding that women in my society used jealousy to spite their men having understood that jealousy is a mind construct they could play to make another fearful and unsafe and within this for having desired to make a man fearful and unbalanced in spite of the fact that,once a man was fearful and unbalanced I would no longer see him as a man and would desire to trash him for good for his apparent weakness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that by playing the spiteful character within my intimate relationships I have always and only spited myself and that if I want all abuse to end in this world, the point of spite and self spite must be corrected within me for good until I can stand stable and see clearly that I no longer participate in spite, no matter how small or big my spiteful stance might seem or how I try to downplay it by comparison to what I have been as in the full blown spiteful character

When and as I see myself moving or about to move into spite within my personal relationship, I stop, breathe, see, realize and understand that I am about to walk a construct of the mind unless I stop and make another choice and so I breathe, keep myself stable until the enticing moment of spite wears out without my participation in anyway shape or form

When and as I see myself that I have already walked into the construct because some spiteful comment or stance is coming up within me that I see I desire to brush off, I stop, breathe, see realize and understand that the mind is like an auction house putting an item up for me to buy it and participate in an energy construct that will turn me into a reactive being vs a self directed being and that I can say NO, breathe myself back to stability and will myself to choose to not participate

When and as I see myself I have fallen into the spiteful character because I had my guard down or because I feel entitled to that one tiny moment of secret spite, I stop, breathe, remind myself how I have walked in writing why I no longer want to participate and stick to my decision by forgiving myself immediately and correcting myself to not participate

When and as I see myself wanting to play the jealousy card because 'it's fun' apparently, I stop, breathe, see realize and understand that I am just attempting to label spite with another name, remind myself that whatever the label I am attempting to move into a spiteful stance and will myself not to by directing myself to breathe instead until I can stand stable and see the desire to make someone jealous fade as I do not allow myself to participate within it

I commit myself to stop being spiteful in my personal relationships

I commit myself to investigate when and why I am triggered into a moment of desire to be spiteful to see what I need to correct for which I am still blaming another

I commit myself to not repeat the patterns of behavior of those that came before me and created this world that I see needs to change and for which I want to stand as one piece that changes back into alignment to what is best for all, for myself and all of existence, Equal and One

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Day 391: Me as the World Systems - The Judicial System

I have had an interesting conversation recently about how Islam views Jail as an inhumane solution.

Apparently giving a man 'Life' in jail is unthinkable within Islamic paradigm, that would mean that the man has no chance for redemption plus, given that jail is not a redemption centre and in no ways support anyone to correct themselves - why are we jailing people at all?

In some systems Jail is a Business, so the answer there is quite easy, we jail people for profit, we profit on the miss-takes of others and for that we hold them nailed to their history for Life and call them criminals.
We have created judicial systems that are so inhumane that we make nailing Jesus to the cross look lame.

According to Islamic understanding, under Sharia Law, no one can punish a man that steals for hunger or to feed his family or because he has no way to make a living because he stands as the proof that the system failed, in the Islamic scenario, the system that asks people to give back 10% of their earnings to the less fortunate. as something compulsory.

As I was listening to this person sharing I realized how many ideas I hold in my mind that are screwed about almost everything, I am not an advocate for any religion, far from it, but I don't mind someone having spelt out right that Inequality is Wrong, that not taking care of the less fortunate is inhumane, that holding anyone forever guilty for what they did that was not in alignment to what would have been best for themselves and everybody, is unacceptable.

In our group we remind each other to look at everything, keep what is good and discard the rest. Well then, I want to keep this with me, the understanding that we can have our chance for redemption only if we give it to others unconditionally and no one in this world is beyond the need for redemption, look at what we participated in, what a shame.

On a personal level, the prelude to this exchange was me sharing something that happened in the past between me and my mum, which as I went about telling, it made me cry, showing there is still a point of charge, a point in which I invested blame and judgement (isn't that what 'charging' someone is all about?) but as I talked this person replied to me that 'we were both the result of the faulty lives we lived' and on the word 'faulty' I felt no blame, no judgement but the quiet understanding that we live in a faulty world, playing out the faulty characters that we have become to the detriment of ourselves and others.

It is essential to remove all 'charges' from our lives, our memories are stored ad-hoc through our personalities eyes, emotional highs and lows and are generally manipulated to make up the story we want to paint, to make sure everyone gets it that, in My Imaginary Court of Law, I was right, that I am right even now as I keep holding the other wrong in my mind and turn him/her into a criminal, someone who committed the crime to step over one of my fail safe mechanism, making them pay for life for a crime they, either did not even commit, or committed in unawareness within circumstances I could never fully understand and making sure they are branded as a danger to me because I was unwilling to see my part in the whole play and share the responsibility and, within that, become the solution to end all judgements and release all from this hellish existence.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe I would have been better than my mother if the same circumstances were given to me to live out - without seeing, realizing and understanding that if I had been in the same circumstances, with the same past and the same programs running in my mind, I would have been her -and I would have very possibly behaved in the same way

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is such thing as Justice in a world where we don't mind to let 2.5 billions of us go hungry because we have invented reasons called Economics or Politics that make it legal and explain why it should be so

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to regard the Law as a system where there is Equality such as in The Law is Equal for everyone, when in fact the Law is NOT Equal for everyone at all, it is more Equal for those with More Money and I don't need to look at the world systems to know that because I can see within myself that my Law doesn't apply to everyone Equally but according to gender, money, what I can profit from and the story I want to paint, making it an absolute unreliable tool to solve disputes that each one of us should start solving within ourselves instead

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that we have a Justice system when in fact we have barely been able to create a retaliation System because we have never managed to overcome our spiteful nature and we took it all the way into our Judicial system as who we are

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that Justice equals Retribution, without seeing, realizing and understanding that through this very word we have put a $price$ as a compensation to our abnormal behaviors instead of working to correct our ab-normality in realignment to a system that works for ourselves and everyone else

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to judge things I know nothing about, like the Islamic religion, just because I have come to a final verdict about Islam that I have absorbed through the media and my own catholic culture that fought to place itself firmly into our minds and hearts, discarding everything else without consideration - without seeing, realizing and understanding that one reason why the Islamic religion is damned, doomed and demonized is because it firmly affirms the principle of Equality and of Equal Rights of all living being and that I should never make assumptions that then turn into judgements based on my limited understanding of a topic, place or person

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to express my nasty, hateful comments and judgements about this religion out loud to spite another without seeing realizing and understanding that within judgement I am Judgemental, no matter how many good reasons I believe I have for my stand and how rightful I can picture myself out to be about something

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to use a judgement I made on something about my mum's past to make myself look like the victim of the situation and to explain why sometimes I behave the way I do, without seeing, realizing and understanding that while what she did may explain how I developed a specific trait or habit of behavior, judging and blaming her for me not changing what I realized doesn't work for me and everyone around me -is not acceptable

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to feel ashamed when my partner did not take the bait of my judgement of my mother as the reason for my behavior and instead replied that 'we were both the result of faulty lives', not letting me get away with my own responsibility for me having to change my behavior no matter how good I have become in telling 'that storyì and refine that judgement and make it look like, at the final verdict, I am right and she is wrong because what she did is every bit culturally unacceptable and therefore the perfect excuse for me not having to change

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to hold on to this specific memory of my mum asking me to move out of her house in my teenage years, believing that she preferred to hold on to a man that was a molester than working out things with me, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that this is my very limited interpretation of the events that unfolded in that circumstance and that if I wanted I could always have broadened my understanding of that particular moment in mine and my mother's life but I did not do it because I saw the chance for retribution and I did not want to miss out on it

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that jailing people for life for 'terrible crimes' is the right thing to do, when in fact yesterday as I listened to my partner in a state of withhold judgement of any sort, I could see the amazing common sense of what he shared and how small our system of justice suddenly looked that doesn't take into account the well being of the one that has committed the crime because he has been judged guilty and as such - deserving to suffer instead of being helped and supported to see where his actions harmed himself and others and helped to correct himself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that all judgement is Self Judgement as we exist as One, made of the same substance, lost in separation, and everything I do to another I am doing to MySelf  and within this for having judged myself as unredemable because of what I lived and participated in and as

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to  not see, realize and understand the pettiness of our 'justice system' that has written useless laws to make sure to protect our imaginary 'private properties' that go as far as our 'images' and avatars, pictures without any substance, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding, we have created the Justice system one and equal to who we are, creatures born in an unsupportive system, hell bent to survive at any cost, creating copies of ourselves in our image and likeness out in the world systems to reflect back to us the real substance of everything we are participating in and to show us how much we need to correct ourselves to correct the system outside, one and equal

When and as I see myself wanting to, tempted to, desiring to share or replay the history between myself and my mother to make sure I get the upper hand in the PR number I am about to lay out, I stop, breathe, see realize and understand that I am about to play out the role of the plaintiff in my imaginary court of justice according to how I have learnt justice should be applied, as in crucifying people to their mistakes for life, instead I do not allow myself to participate in this pattern, watch the thoughts, emotions and feelings reactions I get when I prevent myself from stepping into the pattern and commit myself to write out the final deletion of all of them until I can stand stable whenever I rethink about my past

When and as I see myself perceiving that my mum has no right to say, do or participate with me in a way that I find challenging because she has a pending Life sentence to live out, I stop, breathe, look at what made me feel challenged to the point of desiring to hold her accountable for life and use this avenue of disclosure to work on defusing whatever it is that came up for me that needs to be redirected to a solution

When and as I see myself making a judgement or wanting to make a judgement about someone without having taken into consideration all points within their life, I stop, breathe, see realize and understand that there is no way for me yet to be able to see the sum of what this person has learnt, lived and walked to make any sort of assessment about their life, instead I work on learning to listen without judgement to anyone I share my life with, momentarily or in a more steady way

When and as I see myself judging myself or about to judge myself, I stop, breathe, see, realize and understand that self judgement is my way to in fact NOT change, which is how we created a system where people are judged and do not change, instead I suspend all judgement, I do not allow myself to move into any judgement constructs while I assess in Breath a particular point or situation and look for a solution to correct myself and the possible outcome of what I believe I have Miss-taken-ly done

I commit myself to see, realize and understand that true Justice would be to not accept anything less than what we could be and of what we could give to each other to create a world that works for all and to extend this understanding in all areas of my life until I no longer exist in and as judgement but as a point of support for myself and all of existence, Equal and One

Day 389: Me as The World System - The Debt System

Day 389: Me as the World Systems - The Debt System

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Day 305: Life - A Title on the Stock Market

It is hard to imagine Lives getting better for All.

We resist the idea of a system that would support everyone Equally, regardless of their gender, culture, education or starting personal wealth. It is unheard of in fact.

This is why my mum perceived herself somehow as unwillingly dragged into the idea of Equal Money, not because she would not like everyone's lives getting better, she just fears hers getting worse. 

It is the logical consequence of having accepted a system of winners and losers, we hears the sayings 'some win some lose', we know that 'you can't always win', that 'winner takes all', we under-stand the idea that not everyone can have it good, we have become this idea in the flesh.

So, the winners, those who somehow managed to get access to a dignified life, including those who barely made it there, fear that having everyone's life improve would mean that something 'has got to give', that We might have to give something up of what we managed to store away through a life of sacrifices within a model of  Mutually Agreed Abuse.

In a way, as sad as it is to bcome aware of it, we don't want others out of the Rat Race, we want to stay Equally Rats or Slaves, even when a chance to buy back our freedom by granting to all others a dignified life presents itself, we have to battle with our internal psycopath that states that 'since I had it hard to earn what I have, now I am worth More than those who didn't', we fail to see that what we are actually doing is to glorify the abuse we had to endure to justify why we accepted and allowed it to just then pass it on.

One interesting discussion took place with my mum, as she stood for her right to a dignified life, she found logical to insist that those who did not endure what she had to endure to earn her same dignified life and, for example, wasted their wealth at the beach -that would be me on my Law of Attraction delusional trips by the way- should not be granted her same rights, it was interesting to see how we go about manipulating the words we use to make them sound right(eous), common sensical, because it's OBVIOUS that those that have not slaved should not be granted a Life, as not have access to Money, which has become the entrance key to the Pantry of the Earth resources such as food and water, electricity as heating, healthcare as being able to take care of one's body -is in fact a condemnation to Death, a real Death Sentence, we have Mind Dichotomies in which some can't imagine Abortion or Death Penalty but we can gingerly go about saying that not everyone has the same right to Live, to Life because granting that to all would diminish Me, my efforts, my precious accepted Slavery and this is not conceivable or computable and therefore we will not take a chance to see the possibilities of a New World, we won't allow ourselves to consider being diminished or belittled in this Casino of an Existence, we are treating Life like a Title on the Stock market, the more Titles are put on the market, the less value MY 'dignified life' has and as such, I rather have some starve and die than give up my exclusivity, not forgetting that 'I earned what I have', meaning I did accept my Economic Slavery and By God, you'll accept Yours, you won't get away with it!

SO, let's ask each other this simple question 'do we think that there is anyone in the world that doesn't deserve the right to live?', then a blip of 'cannot compute' goes off, because no one in their right mind would want to be the kind of person that says such a thing and in that moment we become aware at some level that we are holding conflicting beliefs about what is The Right to Life in a world that can't guarantee a job for all and refuses to give a basic income to live to all, just because we don't want to push beyond our imaginary Mind limitations and expand ourselves and, with that, all others to a new way to live together in Harmony and Peace.

Maybe something that can help us walk through this point is the recognition of our Slavery, yes it sucks to see how we have fooled ourselves about being Free, if we could see for real how we are all indebted to ourselves, to each other and then to this system, we would consider solutions to break free, we would consider that those that are not in a position to access the money system have not all been on the beach like me for some time, some have slaved without a pay, some don't even know that there could be another way to live and so this task falls on those who have the ability to see that there is no reason to chain others to the same chains we endured, we can All Break Free Together, redesign a system that works for all, that considers that nothing can be excluded from Life as that would exclude us from it and push ourselves to learn what it would mean to give to others what we would like for ourselves vs forcing others within the same slave system we endured and sacrificed for.

A lot of for-giveness is thus required, to for-give to everyone, including ourselves, to for-give back to ourselves our sorry lives and as we forgive what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to live, others won't have to live it too and yes, some who find themselves at the end of their Life cycle might resist the idea because there may be no chance that we will see this new system through, but if we want change just so we can benefit from it, it's not the Change that is required. The required Change is to will in place a Global change for all regardless of how 'I' may benefit from it and that will be the key to Life, as we grant to others Life, so we shall be Life too and our pasts will be for-given and on their ruins we will build a New World to be done with Slavery forever to never, ever, look back.

EqualMoney: the Life we said we dreamed about, available to All, no one excluded.

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Day 267: Abundance for All - No Faith Required

Do you have Faith? Do we need Faith?

Instead of seeing this world as our Creation an as such something that we can correct and make it work in a fair way for All by getting down to fixing the few things that have gone really wrong -starting with  Famine and Poverty in a world of plenty-, we go to church and Pray for a change, or for some $Change$ to take care of the Changes we pray for. It takes Faith and the results are in no way guaranteed. This is if we are religious.

If we are new Agers or Love and Lighters we go and meditate, we visualize, we design mantras, imagine positive outcomes, chant, do not allow the 'negative' in our lives (we manage that is by shutting out half of the world, including family and friends - this requires discipline - to be disciples of a Faith in Positivity and Love and Light and things that have not proven effective in guaranteeing a Life of wellbeing for All)

If we are Economists, we preach the 'trickle down' theory, this too takes Faith, possibly even more than the other 2, God and Love and Light belong to the Invisible Realm, we can twist and turn outcomes in any way we want to prove that God/the Universe didn't give us what we wanted because he knew better-had other, bigger plans regarding what we really needed, the loops to justify the Non -outcomes here are quite creative.

But as Economists, the support of the trickle down theory is pretty absurd, when has anything ever trickled down so far? Anyone has a memory of such an event?

Or about Rich People investing in the wealth of All and uplifting Humanity with their Philanthropy? 

Anyone home?? When have the Rich willingly done something that didn't pay back an hefty profit -see philanthropy-, so how is the Faith in this one point even sustainable, what do we feed this faith to keep it Alive, images of Saint Rothschild, Saint Rockefeller holding Baby Jesus?

And yet we busy ourselves with those trappings, not just that, we wear the Crusader Uniforms, the 'Proud to be' Knights of Mall-to and Consumerism, why can't we see that since We are The World, as The World, we can take a U Turn and just redesign it for the Good of All vs going to Church, Temples, Retreats or futile Economics classes to reinforce myths and dangerous departures from Reality.

We propose a system of Abundance, for All, yes, that is the hard part to come to terms with, we proved that we value having more than others above having more in general, 

The Fed study is just one study in a body of research pointing to a link between happiness and how we measure ourselves to our peers. If the findings are true, then wealth is nothing more than feeling like you have more money than everyone else.

because we have invested ourselves and our lives in a make belief Tool that establishes in monetary terms the value of everything that exists, Life has a price too, and it follows market trends, cheaper in the Third World, more expensive in the First, in poor countries everyone knows the price of a life, it's cheap, dirt cheap.

Today a guy on the Italian National TV said he has contacted Romania to sell a kidney because he can't make it to the end of the month and can't live with this sense of oppression as Lack of Money - as Support as the LifeLine of this existence. Isn't this weird to say the least? 

Is it enough that we made selling body parts illegal or should we make withholding Vital resources from 1/3 of the World ILLEGAL and a Crime against Life?

We are redesigning Capitalism into a system that guarantees the Right to Life for All, yes, it's very revolutionary apparently, since most oppose it on some principle, no one is clear about what principle is it that we have to hold dear about NOT giving to All an Equal Right to Life -specifically the Spiritual one and the one on their way to Enlightenment, seems we are too busy, hoping, praying and chanting for Life to get better, or waiting for the trickle down that will finally change our lives.

If we could take a good look at the design of why we are not even willing to consider a Change in support of the Whole, we would be unable to come up with any good answer, even as we speak our excuses, they sound funny even to ourselves - WHO is holding these views then, having thoughts you don't agree with??- , simply because there are no good reasons for our standing, we just insist on wanting this change to happen without our intervention, we post notes on social networks to scream about how everything sucks, how corruption has taken a turn for the worse, how the lives of everyone are chained into an economic system of slavery and then...yes, this is the point, there isn't a THEN, there is FAITH instead in the way of letting things happen, faith that one day we may all have enough Money which is what all those doctrines are all about and promoting at their core, wealth as MONEY, not that we like to talk about Money, it's vulgar, demeaning, what if others thought I care about Money? 

I rather be Holy, Spiritual, an Economist, anything that will give me access to Money without having to mention it, like ever.

Within Equal Money Capitalism, we have accepted the truth that Money so far has become the key to access Vital resources and services for everybody, and we are not scared to call a spade a spade, hence the system is called Equal Money, not Equal Wealth, or Equal Abundance, or Richness of Spirit, or Enlightenment, because we want to return the focus on Money as what it has become as the God of this world, the giver of life and death, and as such everyone must have access to it, because Life is the only real Capital we All Equally share and we must return Life to its place of sovereignty and make sure we will never again abuse Life for Profit.

And so we start with bending Money as a system of abuse into a system of equal support, a tool to redefine LIFE as the value that we must honor above anything else, and when this point will have hit home for everyone, we will be able to transition to a Money free world, because Money was our Creation, we allowed it to become our Master, we return it to the service of Life and then we move on, into a world that works as it always should have done, in the mutual respect of each other, of Earth and all other living beings within the understanding that nothing material is of any worth when Life, as Breath, is no More.

Join us at Equal Money, no Faith required.

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• Day 261: You Can't understand Equal Money? You are So Predictable
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• Day 300: The Encryption of Systems (Part One)
• Day 301: The Encryption of Systems (Part Two)
• Day 245: Immortality of the Soul and God - ADC - Part 92
• Day 267: Copies and Clones, dear Clowns

Day 261: You Can't understand Equal Money? You are So Predictable

When I first found Desteni I could understand less than half of what they were talking about.

This in itself intrigued me.

I could always work out pretty much everything that was explained to me in a logical predictable way because I had accumulated plenty parameters to walk from point A to B or C along predictable lines, so my inability to work out 100% of what they were talking about puzzled me, why would that be?

This was just about the 'normal' things they were trying to explain about the Mind, forget about Equal Money, of that I understood only that it would have been great at some level for the rest I was about 95% away from even getting how that would be possible.

I remember posting this on the Forums together with 'I don't know what is best for All', not that I would not have liked to know, I just couldn't compute how to see, realize and understand what was "best for all".

I was the product of a predictable education that would form -by in-forming me- into a specific person that would just get to live the niche reality that was carved out for me, I would take on my parents programming, then my school and my environment programming, my social programming just to end in one of those 2 predictable places, either to accept it all or to rebel to it all, if I look at this point today, given all the points that were programmed into and as me, predictably, I should have gone for rebellion. And I did.

I just took rebellion within the limited restricted space of movement allowed by my predictable programming, I went into the counterculture of drugs first, my drug of choice was marijuana, then into the predictable self destruct programs of my own family, then the predictable shame fuelled isolation and then the predictable "join the system" programming 'and make something out of yourself' - nothing was unpredictable or original about me no matter how I believed that I had a truly, remarkable unusual life, it was just 'unusual' enough to fulfill my idea of rebellion and then my idea of what a 'succesful life' is all about, basically make money and get a good life for yourself.

Predictably, when I embraced this part of my Life I would have to find supporters for my choices and equally predictably the support was there! The New Age movement and Law of Attraction afterward supported all my ego-tistical choices, because Life was just about ME and the rest was an illusion, everyone had chosen how to experience themselves on this earth and we had just to worry about ourselves, everything was good, All was Well within the Universe.

Predictably a lot of those movements were born and flourished in the past 20 years, it is no accident that this was the time when the gap between poor and rich widened to the max, at the time I had plenty of money to live a 5 star life, go to the best hotels, eat the best foods, buy the best things. I created this for myself, I remember sitting one day in a hotel in Bangkok and reading they were among the best 10 hotels in the world when a memory of myself as a kid in Venice popped up, I used to go door to door to the 5 star hotels to collect their brochures and dream about a day when I would be part of that world and not be part of the world of my mother, a world of hard work to save money that never allowed her to experience 'the best' of this world, that was her chosen reality - I believed and then confirmed through Law of Attraction-, I would choose another one for myself.

I sat in Bangkok in the hotel lobby waiting for my friend with a sense of both awe for my achievement and dismay at the same time. Now What?

From there I had another few years of jet setting life, predictably I was always after standards that would prove to me that I made it and that I no longer had to worry about money, because get this, the Money Worry was always there, it was just buried and suppressed, it had to be, predictably one that came from "Money Worries" could never let them go and it may even be the fuel that runs the super rich, the ones that try to shut up this Money Voice -specifically in the rag to riches stories- because even though they believe they outdid their 'Poverty' programming they are still Poor at heart. We All Are.

There is no amount of Money that can change that, our Poverty is the poverty of our Separation, we were One once, and now we are 1/7 billions %, PER CENT, it is for the cents that we are now predictably stuck in separation.

The Problem with Equal Money

Well, there is NO problem with Equal Money at all, the problem is how do we come to see, realize and understand that our programming is not set in stone, we just believe it to be, this should be in fact a point of CLEAR understanding for the New Agers since we believed that we can change Beliefs to Change the World, what we missed out is that it's not the beliefs abut the World we need to change, it is WHO we BeLieve to be, imagine this, each one believes to be someone specific, this came as the predictable programming of our lives, this is no news, nor should it come as a surprise, even in the Court of Law we take this argument to be true, we bring up the Past and Childhood experiences of people who committed terrible crimes to Prove that they Had No Other Choice, it was predictable.

Strangely enough we only reverse predict the life of crimes, it's like we are stuck on a timeline that can only see the Past, never the Future, if we were not, just taking the Middle East as an example, it would have been predictable that people who are abused for years through legitimized foreign policies one day would rebel and come up with some sort of resistance, it was even predictable that we would call them terrorist, because we are lame in taking responsibility for how the world is operating as we have separated in 7 billions plus the world, considering the world as an external event and not the direct consequence of our Collective Actions and as such, our Collective Responsibility

We can take another historic event, Germany after the first World War, the sanctions imposed by the Winners on Germany were so bad and restrictive that the Germans had nowhere to turn but to rebel, the ground was in fact prepared for someone like Hitler who could push the buttons of National Pride all the way into an imaginary Imperialist potential take over of the world, what would we have done in the same conditions?

Yet, when that happened in Europe nobody saw it coming -apparently- nor could they 'predict' that it would lead to another war.

Unless we want to consider the Private Interests of the bunch of People that do own the World at the moment that can make Money out of anything, War being a big part of the World Money Making Machine within our System of Abuse for Profit.

So, basically, the problem with Equal Money it's US, we are the problem that has no solution yet, we are the ones that cannot see that ONLY through Equality will we be able to mend the pieces of what we did to the whole as the One as ourselves and that Equality cannot be established through abuse and as such ALL ABUSES AGAINST EACH OTHER MUST END.

The Solution

I want to share my own experience of how I came to understand Equal Money. Many may not find a correlation between these two events, this is predictable, the parameters to take You from point A to point B of this are not yet in place.

This was My problem too, so I am aware that for those seeking a solution, they will have to do what we do when we go to watch movies, you have to Breathe to enter the 'Suspension of Belief', of the beliefs You Yourself hold about How to get from A to B, because unless you do that you will miss out on the Solution I am about to share.

So, when I went on the Forums and I said " I Can't understand Equal Money or "What is Best for All"' many supported me at the best of their ability for what they themselves had walked. 

One important point for those that see us as a Cult is to consider that we all hold our individual expression,  which is very Un-Cult like, so much so that I know where and from whom among us at the moment I can get words I can work with, this doesn't make any of us more or less valuable, we are all just walking a common path through our own timelines and prior experiences, hence the words of someone of my group may not reach me, not for any fault of any of us, it's just the way things are for now, but the words of someone else will, they'll push the penny to drop, so to speak. At that stage I could understand almost nothing from the people who had themselves walked some of this path back to Oneness and Equality, not even Bernard's words, whom I feared as well because his voice would shake me in places I didn't even know I had, so I cannot exactly recall where I saw this written out on our Forums but I know it was from Bernard "You can't understand Equal Money unless you have done Self Forgiveness'.

This was another huge point for me to overcome, the Self Forgiveness, because I have a Catholic imprinting that although I disowned still held me as some words into an emotional hijack-ment such as 'Forgiveness' , this word would successfully reverberate into me Guilt and Shame, I know it is cultural because I tested it in Italy and always got the same response from everyone, including my mother who has not given up God, but Forgiveness reeks of wrongdoings and faults and sins, things we want to have nothing to do with, even though our lives were sin-full in the sense that everything that was born out of the sin-chronic programming of separation of those that came before us -using "Chronos" from his Greek origin as 'Time", meaning built overtime and Sin, always from Greek as 'Missing the Mark', which would just mean we kept 'missing the mark again and again about Separation Not working as What is Best for All,  "please return to the highlighted route of Oneness and Equality', but we couldn't -or so believed- as we cemented the Programming of those that came before us and solidified the problems into layers that resulted into the physical Experience.

We must have believed we 'couldn't miss the mark' if we saw the Physical Undeniable Consequences of Our separation, but we Could, look at our World now, there isn't much farther to go and yet we still live in the Sin-Chron-I-City - Missing the Point of it All.

This was one thing I learnt at Desteni that I could almost immediately understand, The Charge of Words, how Words are loaded with The Past and are either positively or negatively charged as the Sum of how I have lived them and experienced myself through them, so Self Forgiveness in itself was a process -and still is- I have to push myself through, if you are hoping it will come natural you are in for a disappointment as your Mind, our separation Control HeadQuarter, knows that Giving Self Back to Self will be its undoing and you will resist it, and that is how it shall be, there will be no shortcut to Heaven this time, we'll have to want it so much to be willing to push through uncomfortability until Giving Self Back to Self as Self Forgiveness becomes part of Who we Are, so I can for sure say this process has become easier for me as I kept walking it and pushing through it.

Anyway, I started to write out Self Forgiveness statements, I had already applied some in speaking at the height of my attempt of crawling out of the pit of despair I had weaved myself into, and I had found a sense of 'relief' that was not 'mental' it was physical, like a burden was being undone.

So I kept going, I started to write about the World and what I saw that I could translate into Money and low and behold the surprise was staggering, anything I have ever done in my life has been Money driven, not only that, the whole world is a Big Money Driven Machine and this includes everything, check out Family relationships, friends relationships, Love, and don't see only the Money part, see the whole lot of it and Marvel at our Internal Debt and Credit system, see our Internal Value System and how we make some more valuable than others in our eyes, see our Internal Credit Rating, where we rate those that can give us more than others in terms of experiences or feelings and emotions and have not yet Failed Us and check the Rating drop when they do.

We exist AS The Monetary Banking System, there is no Way it's going to change Out There unless it Changes In Here first, so We are Both the Problem and The Solution - to see this point Self Forgiveness will be the key to unlock in Self Honesty how we have existed so far, from there as we delete our predictable programmed existence, we rewrite the Code of Conduct we are going to live by, then the Solution of Equal Money will unfold and What is Best for All won't be a Mystery anymore, as I can only NOT know what is best for You when I am separated from you, when I am no longer separated I can step in your shoes and see, realize and understand what is best for you as what would be best for me if I were living your life as me, as One.

The Reward

It is predictable that we seek a reward for our Change. 

This is what the New Age movements have capitalized on so far, these were the promised rewards 'live your best life, have everything you want, best relationships, more money, better living conditions for yourself and your family'.

Obviously not everyone can have All of these in a system where the economy doesn't support Equality, some must Not Have for some to Have, so the Hidden Secret of all those philosophies and its damn-ing downfall was 'just for me', because as this 'just for me' multiplied, we came to see even more greed as everyone embraced with a passion the 'Just for Me', focus on Me -as if we needed any more of THAT.

Ironically, all the things promised by All these movements that are making Money on Our Selfish Greed of the ME(an)ness of the Religion of Self, would be achievable within an Equal Money System.

Only in a system where the Value of ALL would be Equally recognized we will ever be able to Live our Best Life, and Everything We Want is Not What We Were Told We Want through advertising and Media, That is What Some Wanted US To Want so They Could Have Everything They Wanted, everything we really Want is to stop our Separation, to stop Wars and Violence, to live in a Safe, Trustworthy World, to end Famine and Poverty for All, to guarantee that All a the Whole can have a dignified, fulfilling life, all things that will be achieved by taking the Profit Motive out of Our Economic System and returning Economics to a system for the Management of the Earth Resources, it should have always been just that, and not an exercise in Futility and Mind Games some defend just because they spent Money and Time (=Money) on it.

The Best relationships? You can't imagine them, you must know this if you tried and failed, you have to Physically Create them, you have to put in the work to correct what it is in You that is not allowing a relationship to become what it could be at its Best, anyone telling you otherwise is offering you a False Reward based on your Desires, but within an Equal Money System, you will have the Peace of Mind that comes from being supported from Birth to Death for yourself and your Family, and making all your relationship into their Best Potential will be possible, you'll have the Time to put into them what you can learn from people who have been studying how we function and how we can correct what is not aligned to the best outcome for All.

And Money, you'll have that too, you won't have to chant, to pray, to visualize yourself rich, to speak a mantra 100 times a day, no offerings to God, MONEY as a Life resource will be just given to You and to everyone else, Equally, there will be no envy, no winner and losers, no cutthroat living to have more when everyone will have More than Enough and this is how we will bring Heaven to Earth for everyone forevermore.

Predictably, you may resist this information, we were programmed into Inequality and then self perpetuated this Programming into Who We have Become, yet you may start to see that in Common Sense there is No Reason to do so because nothing outlined here is to Fear, hence any reason you have AGAINST a system that would work for All, which includes You, is part of your Programming which you have to let go, give yourself back to yourself so you may see You as the Solution to this World, this is why we Self For Give, we are not a crazy fanatic movement of people who believe they will go to Hell if they don't Self Forgive, NO, We have been to Hell, we are still in Hell All Together, we are getting ourselves out of it through Self Forgiveness, no one deserves this World unless we insist on it for others and then we have to Equally share what we decide to give (Remember the Give and you shall receive -works both ways...), but we'll either get out of it All Together or we'll stay in Hell together hoping and dreaming to make it out on Our Own and that is Real Hell, no one can make it out of here alone, and even if some BeLieve they 'made it' through the Money they own, they are still in Hell in our Separation, we are the 1/7billion per cent of ourselves, of what We Could Be, what a loss, when we could have been Whole as All-One and not the Hole that can never be filled that we designed ourselves into. 

Walk yourself back to Life, for YourSelf and All of Existence Equal and One.

Life is waiting for All to catch on, you have Life's vote till your Last Breath, make it Count.

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