Day 271: Facing sharing the Tool of Self Forgiveness

I have not been able to share Self Forgiveness in Italian comfortably so far. I imagine people laughing and then gossiping about me as someone who belongs in the nut house.

Self forgiveness is linked to Forgiveness for me in Italian, a religious tool, Images of nuns and priests come up, of hell and crucifixion, of wrongdoings and fanatic stances of the religious people like Savonarola.

Religion never seemed sane, preaching one thing and doing another, so fear of inconsistency, of myself not being an example 'good enough' to even talk about it.

And it brings up a fear, like it is something not to be shared, even though I benefited a lot from using it to release my energetic ties, it's best left 'unspoken' so I will unfold this point both in English and in Italian in this post.



I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to resist sharing self forgiveness out of the fear of being judged as a nutcase


I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that self forgiveness could be preached only by Holy People and since I am unholy I can't talk about it


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to link self forgiveness and preaching into one word

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that self forgiveness should be taught by those who live a life of renunciation like St. Francis of Assisi and not by common humans who have no business in 'religious practices'

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to link 'self forgiveness' to religion because forgiveness is a religious practice and only religious people do it and I am not religious

I forgive myself that accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that the contamination of the word -for-giveness was deliberate to make sure we would not be able to find the way out of the energetic loops we weaved for ourselves and for not pushing myself to break this conditioning and release myself from this religious baggage relative to the word 'forgiveness' -I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to, when faced today with a point where clearly a lady needed to learn this tool to stop herself from running wild within her mind, to react, and blame her for repeating the same old same old patterns that lead her to depression, instead of breathing and realizing she has no tool to stop herself, unless I share what I myself realized about how to stop a pattern of behavior/energy


I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to scare this lady today about what kind of future is waiting for her if she doesn't stop 'that thing she does' which brings hell to herself and those around her, instead of breathing and seeing that there is never a good reason to scare someone into doing/not doing something, whatever points I can find to defend, I am in fact adding up to their own fears which constitute the building blocks of their mind loops and not supporting in any way



I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to be part of the problem by projecting fears of possible future events vs being part of the solution by sharing self forgiveness and supporting another as myself to stop energetic patterns as their imprisonment and the hellish life they are currently experiencing

Mi perdono per avere accettato e consentito a me stessa di avere paura di condividere 'il perdono di se stessi' perche' ho accettato e consentito a me stessa di credere che solo le persone religiose possono parlare di perdono e che non e' una cosa da condividere con altri

Mi perdono di avere accettato e consentito a me stessa di reagire con A. e di dirle tutto quello che ho detto partendo da una reazione, invece di respirare, rendere me stessa stabile e presente e poi scegliere le parole che avrei potuto dire che lei avrebbe potuto sentire, senza spaventarla

Mi perdono di avere accettato e consentito a me stessa di credere che ci sono buone ragioni per spaventare qualcuno per farlo uscire da un pattern, quando infatti e' la somma delle sue paure che la/lo tiene bloccata/o all'interno di un cerchio che continua a ripetersi senza uscita

Mi perdono per avere accettato e consentito a me stessa di resistere la condivisione del 'perdono di se' stessi' con la scusa che non avrebbe sentito/capito quello che volevo dire e che avrebbe potuto pensare che sono matta invece di realizzare che avevo paura di condividere questo strumento perche' ho permesso e consentito a me stessa di legare la parola 'perdono' alla religione, agli errori, all'inferno, alla crocefissione, a Suor Chiarina in piedi sulla cattedra che spiegava come hanno crocefisso Gesu', invece di realizzare che la parola perdono e' stata deliberatamente imbastardita dalla religione che l'ha strumentalizzata per se' e i propri scopi

Mi perdono per avere accettato e consentito a me stessa di non realizzare che la parola 'perdono' e' stata deliberatemente investita di un bagaglio religioso per allontanarla dall'uso della persona comune, per creare un senso di disagio che assicurasse che nessuno trovasse la strada fuori da questa esistenza delirante di pensieri, emozioni e sentimenti = energia

Mi perdono per avere accettato e consentito a me stessa di, quando ho condiviso questo strumento a supporto di qualcuno che non e' parte della mia famiglia, di sentire una gran paura e di credere che questa paura fosse giustificata perche' proietto sugli altri dei buoni motivi quale causa delle mie paure, invece di realizzare che le mie paure sono una mia creazione e che gli altri non hanno nulla a che vedere con come io percepisco me stessa

Mi perdono di avere accettato e consentito a me stessa di credere che la parola perdono non possa esistere fuori da club/associazioni religiosi, e che usare una parola come perdono mi rende uguale ai gruppi come CL, ai boy scout, al catechismo, a gruppi che in passato ho giudicato come noiosi e non interessanti e che ora temo possano essere associati a me insieme al giudizio che ho espresso su di loro, per il quale mi perdono

Desteni - Learn about Self Forgiveness here - Impara a perdonare te Stesso Qui.

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Day 234: Who is Screwing with my Memories?

I have been on this planet for almost half a century.

But I have only about 1 month worth of memories under my belt, meaning, if I had to sit down and bring up my whole life in as many details as possible, it would take me 1 month, IF I could stretch it that far.

Would that be a Life Not worth remembering?

This point of my faulty memory bank always bothered me, where did my memories go, why can't I recall the totality of my Life in detail, my interactions with others in detail, was there something valuable in that iper-giga-byte package that I dumped somewhere that I should be able to recall, what if there was and if there was why would I let it go. How can I learn from a past I can't recall in detail?

I guess those questions just bothered me up to a certain point in my life, together with others like 'where do I come from' and 'why am I here', my culture didn't offer much support in answering those question, we had God and he had a plan, not that he cared to share it, it was like being employed for a job for which no one received instructions weird to say the least, but everyone seemed to think it was normal and as it was designed, kids soon or later cave in. I did.

I moved easily onto the 'we live multiple lives' vs the one life offered by the Catholics, come on, if I were to live just 1 life I would have great memories to treasure of this 1 unique experience, plus it must take multiple lives to learn a lesson that you don't know what it is, it wold be like going to school and always waiting to be tested on something that everyone was careful to not talk about.

As I picked and chose beliefs to align with, I went with the 'we are here to learn lessons' theory, I read somewhere that the world is divided in just so many types of beliefs to explain our Earthly experience:

The Lesson Theory - this includes reincarnation

The Love of God Theory - this was pretty unbelievable

The 3d Playground- this came later as I embraced the New age beliefs of Love and Light

There was a great list I read and can no longer find, as I asked Google 'Why are we here' I saw that there are 669.000.000 results, do we have as many opinions about 'Why are we here' or has the question been asked so many times, like 10% of the world population or almost everyone who has access to Internet asked this question, I don't know. This number surpasses everything else I have ever searched for, it must be something that bothers us deeply.

For myself, I chose the first theory, the lesson theory and when I used to try and push it on my ex -very scientifical minded- husband, he would argue that noone could be here to learn a lesson from a previous life they could not remember. hard to argue with that, not that I wouldn't try and then conclude with 'you just always look for evidence, why can't you just believe we are all part of a bigger plan?' he would not answer but the reply that always lingered between us was 'because this fucking alleged plan makes no sense at all'.

Today I listened to Anu's Interview no 119 "Memory and the Soul as The Creator Intended", which basically answered all of the above questions -the one of the Why has been explained in many other of his interviews- and 2 main points came up, a first point just plain old fashioned visceral Anger, because it seemed unfair to come here without an Instruction Manual, living on a Planet where everyone was separated from their Mind and the extensive lack of responsibility for it, just to learn from those that went before, making it the perfect closet in which one ass-umed could go and rant and rave and store there all kind of shit, understanding that the line between Good and Evil was just to Not do the things one thought about, looking at the world, wasn't  that fucking good enough?

This was a big point, the point of wanting to just get to some desolated lanes and kick the walls and scream and shake my fists up to Heaven, and it did not go away and I will deal with it through Self Forgiveness here below, but the next point that came up as I suppressed this anger -because it was just not appropriate to display it on public transport and no desolated isolated lanes were in sight-, a second point emerged and was just disheartening and overwhelming and triggered a lot of Shame, the point was that we don't remember because we just can't handle what we have done and how we have, deliberately or by default, impacted each other lives and the consequences we created through the way we lived.

Anu said as well that he thought about allowing humans to see the future to see the consequences of their behaviour so they could change and that humans would respond in 3 ways, one of which was My Way, which was to isolate myself and reduce to a minimum my interactions with others, not because I saw the future, I just saw the looping of my behaviors and simply because didn't know how to stop creating consequences and by a certain point in time forward  I became clear about the point that I was only living consequences and the consequences my interactions with others had, and I feared that I was only able to do that, to move like an elephant in a porcelain shop, damaging everything I came in touch with, even when not intending it, a movement of my tail would do and something would be broken irreparably forever.

In an attempt to release myself from the responsibility of the words I have carelessly spoken or even worse, intentionally, deliberately spoken, to harm, to damage, to hurt, I tried to disown and take a distance from the power, from the substance of my words, I denied that words had any meaning at all, I said and argued that words were just empty vessels that everyone filled with Their Own Crap, and in this I tried to remove any MEAN-ing from the words I spoke, to make them in-substantial hoping that since I could not stop shooting, at least I would, by my own choice, force myself to just shoot blanks and limit the damages that I seemed devoted to pursue.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to store an image of myself trying to remember a specific point, moment, dialogue, interaction and when failing being puzzled and confused about it until I accepted that this happens to all, we just don't remember the details of our lives because it's MEANt to be this way

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to store an image of myself being asked by my mother, my grandparents, my friends, my partners 'don't you remember?' and for feeling ashamed and bad about not remembering in full what I had said or done, I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that there was a reason and a bigger plan about why we were here and were supposed to learn lessons suppressing the questions about why if I was supposed to learn a lesson I could not remember which points I was supposed to correct about myself and wasn't that weird

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that this was a 3d playground, denying the physical and embracing ideas and beliefs and opinions about it, so I could stop asking myself why there was so much suffering in the world and embrace the idea that we chose our lives, even when this point was clearly not sustainable because I wouldn't choose some of the lives the 'less fortunate' are living on this planet EVER

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to desire to believe in the benevolence of this creation because I believed I could not live with the truth that a world such as this cannot be benevolent and that if I existed in the image and likeness of God I should be as non benevolent as he was and I feared seeing myself as Evil

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to imagine that there must be a reason for our life on earth and that the reason must be benevolent, even in the face of the majority having a negative experience, just because I could not face the point that there is nothing benevolent either in this creation or in ourselves and that we were living the consequences of something that had gone terribly wrong and that I could not remember and I feared this point of not being able to either remember or work out 'why am I here'

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to, when hearing Anu's interview about memory and how it was used and how we were used just like stupid dumb puppets, to feel an extensive all consuming visceral existential anger and then look for reasons to validate it because what was done was unfair and NOT the best way to support us to change at all and for believing I had a RIGHT to my anger I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to, when hearing Anu's explanation of the hows and why and then feel the existential all encompassing visceral anger, to desire to dwell in it because it was a rightful anger regardless of the fact that I am aware that emotions and feelings as reactions mean that I am in fact the very prisoner of the Mind for the creation of which I would still like to blame Anu as I fear I won't be able to face myself as this creation and for this fear I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to blame Anu for this Creation because I rather blame than take self responsibility, draw a line on everything that happened and forgive myself and all involved equally and start from here to rebuild a world that I am proud to live in and for having chosen once again blame over self responsibility I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that some anger is just too rightful to not participate in, that if I did not participate in such a righful anger I would be abnormal, subnormal, because anger is the normal response pattern to something that I myself judge as outrageous and unforgivable instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that this is one of the moments where I choose who do I want to be, a rightfully angry person, which means I am not real as I participate in mind construct which have no relation to the physical world if not for sucking out the life of myself and everyone else, or stop and decide I will not give into this anger because it's just a disempowering failsafe to prevent myself from moving consistently out of the Mind

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to set triggers for anger for myself such as my own judgements of something as 'outrageous and unforgivable' and for judging what Anu did as outrageous and unforgivable so I could move into my 'rightful anger' I forgive myself 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to blame Anu for this creation, when in fact The Mind is nothing but a filing cabinet in which everything about my Being-ness has been neatly organized and that I can only stop fighting with my Mind and align with it as we together as a partnership walk out of this mess we created while living life in separation from each other and everything that exists

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to, when I felt the moment of visceral anger take over my body instead of breathing and stopping immediately, go with it, because it was a chance to ride an energy rocket of too much of a magnitude to just be discarded for Breath, and for making my visceral anger more importand and de-light-full than Breath, I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that when I felt the moment of visceral anger coming up, instead of taking responsibility for it and realizing this existed in and as me, to look for an external point I could rightfully project it on, because I could, and within this perpetrating this behaviour of rightful blame because I could I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to, as I listened to the following interview about how we all have to give up what we treasure for this 1 life, to still stand as a point of conflict in my Mind with Anu seeking WHAT did He give up that was important to see if we were giving up things of Same Value, and for -upon hearing he had accepted to do these interviews and walk this process, to think 'NOT ENOUGH' and for thinking 'Do you even realize what fuck up you created down on earth, it is your Duty to fix it' and for not wanting to equally take the same responsibiity and thinking he should give up more than me, I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to, when I saw that I was lost into a pattern of anger and rightfulness and retaliation, instead of stopping and breathing myself out of it, to keep going because All those emotions combined felt better than the shame that I felt when I realized the point of memory and why I can't remember the whole details of my life, and for feeling an existential visceral shame that I tried to cover up and blur with all the crap I participated in today and for believing all these emotions to be real, I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to, when I realized I was creating a life of consequences for myself and all the ones that came in touch with me, to move into guilt, shame and self blame and to attempt to remove myself from existence by embracing isolation, hoping that if I didn't interact with others I could limit the damages that I saw I was doing through My reckless irresponsible participation in and as The Mind in separation from existence and everything that is Here

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to dwell into the guilt and shame of the life of consequences I created for myself and others, instead of, when I found the tools to correct myself, get on with the self correction letting go of the past that I lived when I did not have the tools to take responsibility for myself and even less for mySelf as the whole, and for believing that I have not suffered enough for what I have done I forgive myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to embrace a life of suffering in the hope to even out the books, even now that I see that I can correct myself and for believing that this is not enough and that suffering should be the way to go, and for imposing this suffering on myself and others Equal and One, I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to, when I heard the reason why most of our memories are not available to us, to feel a surge of shame and for realizing that it was true and that even though I had no access to the memories, I accessed the shame of my own behaviour and held on to it in fear that if I let go of the shame, nothing of me as what I have done and what I have existed as would remain, and for fearing to lose myself even in the face of a life unworthy to be lived I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that if I had access to all the minute details of my interactions with others I would be in such state of dismay that I wouldn't have been able to function and that there was a point of mercy in not making our memories available to us, within the malevolent plan of this creation, but that the point of not remembering the details doesn't exempt me from the responsibility to change, because I don't need the gory details of what I have done so far, I have a pretty clear picture of the overall ad that is good enough to walk my change consistently out of the Mind to stop this separation of mySelf from Self as All of existence, Equal and One

When and as I see myself seeking to retrieve a specific memory, I stop, breathe, see realize and understand that what I need to walk my process is Here as me  and that I have clear access to my reactions as thoughts emotions and feelings and in self honesty I can address them one by one until I stand stable in and as Breath

When and as I see myself moving or about to move into existential anger I stop and Breathe, see realize and understand that when I access anger I have blamed or I am about to blame someone else for where I find myself now and that if I do, I abdicate my ability to respond Here not as a product of my Past but as the Directive Principle of Myself in and as Breath

When and as I see myself desiring to suffer as a way to even out the books, through thoughts, memories, emotions and feelings, one way or another, I stop and breathe, see realize ad understand this is a Character I made up so I could feel good about myself for imposing on me the same suffering I believed I had been responsible for and that a Character has no power to change because it's  just one of my Powerless Creations to distract myself from the consistency required to walk myself into stability and an honorable life that works for mySelf as Self as a whole, once and for All

I commit myself to let go of the past and to stop looking for my missing memories as the reason why I can't change, I see realize and understand that what I need to walk as change is Here as me and that memories are not the support I need to change nor are they the key to change, I Am the Key to Self change and I can walk this change one breath at the time back into realignment to Oneness and Equality for myself and all of existence, Equal and One.

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WHO is a Spiritual Person?
What does 'Spiritual' means?

Spiritual is an adjective, it means of Spirit, then what is "Spirit"

From the Merriam Webster online dictionary - there were many more definitions, I kept the most relevant for a few considerations-

 

 Spirit - noun 

Definition of SPIRIT

• an animating or vital principle held to give life to physical organisms
• a supernatural being or essence: as a capitalized : holy spirit
• an often malevolent being that is bodiless but can become visible; specifically : ghost 2 
• a malevolent being that enters and possesses a human being
• an alcoholic solution of a volatile substance <spirit of camphor>

 The first consideration would be on the first definition:

 an animating or vital principle held to give life to physical organisms 

Interestingly this is the 1st definition in a very long sequence, "animating or vital principle", which could be then considered as 'Life' or what gives Life.
Everyone has Life, we are alive -apparently- until we breathe and we are ALL breathing, even plants and animals, that would make all of us Spiritual, so that can't be it, because apparently SOME are Spiritual but some Are NOT, how do we decide? Let's investigate.

The second definition should not be in the dictionary, supernatural beings seems to be beings Above Natural, we have No Proof of their existence, so this definition should indicate fictional to distinguish it form reality, from what is here, so far Supernatural beings exist only in Fairy Tales books or in books designed to Mold the Minds of Humanity and confine the Human into a Sub-normal state that requires Salvation, such as religious texts, where stories are told about Masters, Prophets, Saints and 'Ascended Masters', who, reportedly, could 'do' more amazing things than human can do, things we called Miracles in some cases and in the case of Saints and Martyrs just things other humans could not do or would not do-, for example Die in the name of a religious Order and Marthyrs -the Italian Women EG- women who said no to forced sex and were killed 'in the name of God' to preserve their "Purity". Yes, we can agree many would no longer die for religion or women die to not be raped, nowadays some are raped and then die but the 2 things are no longer enough for Martyrhood, mainly because many women who are raped do not see God as the closest presence to call out in that moment, plus they may harbor some resentment for not being helped out without a shoutout and a pledge, can't God see everything, isn't he everywhere, so do I have TO ASK TO NOT BE RAPED? Yeap, that one is not working in God's favor so much anymore.

Two definitions in the list for Spirit I found were interesting because they highlighted a 'malevolent-ness' of the principle of 'Spirit', when in my mind, by cultural upbringing, Spirit is always GOOD and Holy, so if Spirit can be Evil, what says Spiritual people are Good?

When I was a Spiritual person -yes I know, it's funny when it's written down-, Spirituality came in Degrees, like Martial Arts belt colours; one of the first thing that pushed me away from Spirituality was the uncanny sensation that it was Religion in Sheep's clothes, because the principles were almost the same BAR the shame and guilt, in short we had upgraded our belief system to leave behind what bothered us about how we lived, interestingly too we did not make the choice to correct 'how we lived' we just built a new Belief System careful to leave out the bothering parts of the previous ones.

We have other examples of coercion of Moral Codes, for example the Army people, let's take the US that profess on the Money Note that in "God they Trust", and God said clearly "thou shall not kill" - and that is OK except if it's your enemy, if you are told, if you feel in danger, scared, threatened, or just in the mood to release some steam etc etc-.

Being Spiritual, was therefore equal to being religious with a liberating twist, let's see the "apparent" differences:

 
There is One Creator Principle
Old belief: It's God -
New belief - it's the Universe
both believe "for sure it's not Me"

Not everyone is created Equal
Old belief: It's God's will
New Belief: It's their Karma, they are paying for what they have done
Both believe: I am fine with it as long as I am above the Less Equal Ones

Moral Code:
Old belief: People who behave well go to Heaven, the others go to Hell
New belief: People who think positive thoughts Ascend, the others stay in Hell
Both believe in a Reward System and that they are the ones that must be rewarded

What to do for the Less Fortunate
Old belief: Charity to Feed the Poor
New belief: Thinking positive thoughts about Love and Light
Both believe what they do is good enough and is The Solution to World Problems

What to do when I make a mistake:
Old belief: Confess to God and have your sins washed
New belief: Don't focus on the negative, the universe knows your inherent goodness, back to Love and Light
Both believe a mistake doesn't need to be corrected, first case God will see to it, second case forgetaboutit

 
When Ascension came on the scene, it was easy to see the Heaven principle mirrored in, the twist made it nastier than Heaven, because heaven came in 2 degrees of separation only, Purgatory and Heaven, while Ascension came in a staggering number of 'levels' and/or Dimensions.

This of course was the 'as below so above' principle, in which we translated everything earthly into our groundless fantasies, so on earth we have the school system, with different degrees of achievement up to MBA and PhD (Heaven), we have the sport system with different degrees of achievement all the way to the Olympic Gold (Heaven), we have the Martial arts system up to Black belt (Heaven), the working environment, all the way up to CEO or Managing Director (Heaven), the Army and the Navy with Generals and Admirals (Heaven) and then, hear hear, we have Spirituality.

To achieve all of the above Heavens, you need Money, you can go 'up there' only through an Education that costs a lot of Money, the right Money connection, the right Sports Sponsorships (Money), none of the Earthly Heavens come for FREE, EXCEPT Spirituality with its Heavenly/Dimensional Ascension.
To define oneself as Spiritual you don't need Money, nor a degree that costs Money, everyone can define themselves as Spiritual, it's the chic way to say "I'm Poor.. but I don't care for Earthly Possessions, I am Above them'.

Now we have contaminated Spirituality, yes, because those that were looking for a corner in the world where they could 'Achieve' something without being faced with their perceived Human Failure as Non Wealthy Beings were now pushed on the fringe of the Movement, the new "spiritual Gurus' preached that if You were REALLY Spiritual, you would be able to manifest Money, come on, it just needs you to focus on the Good, on Light and Love, how hard is that, why don't you do your homework, we made it so easy, The Secret is out, The Secret beyond the Secret as Law of Attraction is out, if you can't make it ... you are a Dope. Dope-hood took the fun out of being "Spiritual", now even the Spiritual ones were ostracized and pushed aside for being Poor, you must 'have negative thoughts, be negative' if you are poor, I rather stay with my enlightened (rich) friends, sorry, come back when you made it, bring the Money to prove you realigned with the Good Vortex of the Universe.

So, what is left now, for free- is ONLY Ascension. I can ascend, damn, I belong to the 5th, the 7th, the 22nd, I am not like you all, I never wanted Money (LIAR LIAR) just want to be Spiritual, close to God, I don't care for material possessions (especially since I couldn't for the life of me put my hands on them).
Because they didn't make it on Earth they are hoping for a greater Dimensional Reward, you dream of floating up where nobody ever floated before and look down at those that did make it on Earth because they cared -to make it- and you cared too, but you didn't, and so you are making Ascension your personal vengeance, the place where You'll show others what You Are Really Worth, and they will know they should have helped you more, given more, cared more, because now the table turned and ooops , who is to worship NOW?

This Ascension Dream is just like any other dream, just insubstantial, it's not made of matter but it doesn't matter, we will pursue it and make sure that Ascension stays FREE for All, no, not because we are thinking about the Poor and Starving because they should go first -don't you think-, just because we FEAR if a price is put on Ascension we may not be able to meet it, Imagine ascension becoming like Space Flights, that will fuck with us, we never meant Ascension for All, just Ascension Free for me, look I have done so much positive thinking I have qualified, thought about Love and Light, isn't that Good Enough?? Fuck, I am Soo Loving, can't you see that, you negative shit !!
 
And then the last definition of Spirit, amusing, a volatile sub-stance -how appropriate- or an alchoolic solution, this too is appropriate, many of my Spiritual friends like their booze, maybe it's that after All: Spiritual = Boozy, cos we must be full of Spirit to believe the crap we come up with!

Investigate Equal Money, there are No Dimensions to go to, there is One Substantial, non Volatile dimension here, Earth, where we all belong, until we don't, what if this Planet existed in Free Choice so we could "choose" Life for All, what if there was never any other choice but this, either Life for me alone or Life for All and as I create I create myself, as I choose, I will live my Choices, Life for All or Not, because I am ALL or I am NOT, there is no Middle way, I am the One That Decides.

Equal Money System =Life for All - Make your "Free Choice" a choice for Life!

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