Day 220: Armageddon for Sale - Last 6 days

We have 6 days to go to Doomsday.

We managed to turn Armageddon into a Business, we should be proud to never miss a chance to make Money on people's Fears and Delusions. That's what this system is built around and who would want to miss out on making Money on the day the world Ends? One never has enough and having MORE would make for a safer crossing into the Afterlife, sure One can find a Money Changer in the Dimensions.

What happens to those who invest in the End of the World if the World doesn't have the decency to end?

Will there be Refunds?

How are the Doomsday Contracts Stipulated, is anyone assuring the End of the World, like taking a daily trip to see Pink Dolphins, some tour operator promise to refund you if you don't manage to see a dolphin during the trip, that's 'honest'.

Given that the unpredicability factor for Dooms Day is Higher, would the refund be full if nothing happens, partial if someone dies or a few houses fall down, how can one come up with a comprehensive contract to cover the 'X' factor of Doomsday?

Silly me, there is no need of course, because to sell Dommsday, someone must believe in it to buy it, noone can sell the unselleable.

Remember 'The Prestige' and how a Magic trick is held up:

The Prestige opens with the following lines;

Every great magic trick consists of three parts or acts. The first part is called “The Pledge”. The magician shows you something ordinary: a deck of cards, a bird or a man. He shows you this object. Perhaps he asks you to inspect it to see if it is indeed real, unaltered, normal. But of course… it probably isn’t. The second act is called “The Turn”. The magician takes the ordinary something and makes it do something extraordinary. Now you’re looking for the secret… but you won’t find it, because of course you’re not really looking. You don’t really want to know. You want to be fooled. But you wouldn’t clap yet. Because making something disappear isn’t enough; you have to bring it back. That’s why every magic trick has a third act, the hardest part, the part we call “The Prestige”.”

 Let's see if we can find The Pledge, The Turn and The Prestige in Doomsday Prophecies.

So The Pledge, showing something ordinary: The Mayan calendar should do the trick, it's ordinary, but it's not, because it ends on December 21, 2012. This is how we understand this Calendar

Can you see the Calendar there? it's pretty clear, looks like any Calendar you have ever seen, can't fool anyone right?

So le't move to the second part of the trick, The Turn

"The magician takes the ordinary something and makes it do something extraordinary. Now you’re looking for the secret… but you won’t find it, because of course you’re not really looking. You don’t really want to know. You want to be fooled. But you wouldn’t clap yet. Because making something disappear isn’t enough"

• The Magician (Doomsday promoter), takes the ordinary rock we see above and makes it do something extraordinary, like tell a DATE, a specific date, December 21, 2012. That's pretty extraordinary.

"Now you’re looking for the secret… but you won’t find it, because of course you’re not really looking. You don’t really want to know. You want to be fooled."

• Yes, this is how you miss out on the fact that we are talking about a Rock, whose reading would be subject to an individual interpretation which after the first, would just stand to prove the exactdeness of the original reading, this is how we "investigate" everything in this World so far, we look for clues to prove the theories and opinions We Already Hold, so if you are already looking for the date 21st dec 2012, you'll find it.

 

"But you wouldn’t clap yet. Because making something disappear isn’t enough; you have to bring it back. That’s why every magic trick has a third act, the hardest part, the part we call “The Prestige”

• OkDokey, then we have to now assign a Meaning to this Date and must be a Prestigious one, we set out originally just to sell the Mayan Story, but it was not enough, you would not Clap. What do you say if on that date The World Ends?

Seems pretty cool to me, so as the Magicians of this World set up their Prestigious Acts, some buy it and Clap for it. Obviously having gone through such lenghts of self deception, noone could EVER admit to themselves that they were lying about the end of the World, that they knew at some level the world was NOT going to end and now, after years of bullshitting family and friends, we have to go the whole way. Here is where the Doomsday Sales People step in, the scene is set, they have to now sell somwthing we already bought and self promoted. Eazzy..

Now imagine a different scenario, you actualy wake up on december the 22nd, poorer, maybe jobless, maybe alone as you told everyone to fuck off cos you believed you were on your way OUT of here, and yu are NOT.

Please consider this possibility first before leaving your jb, kicking your friends and abandoning your cat in the street because you WILL wake up on the 22nd, the world will still be Here, and so will be ALl of Us, the troublemakers of Existence, then the last choice we will have will be to consider DOING SOMETHING ABOUT THIS WORLD! 

There is nowhere o go, yes, disheartening news, but only if we leave things as they are, instead we could stand to change the current Systems into Systems of Support for All.

The world has become a shitty place because we let it run unchecked, we let ourselves run unchecked, building up Monsters as our Minds and then refusing to correct our own creation to the point of wishing the physical annhilation of the planet and all iving beings, just to get the Hell out of Here.

But we must remember that wherever we go, there we are, there is nowhere to run and we shouldn't run, but stand, look at this world, see what we need to change, CALM DOWN, Breathe, and then step by step move to create heaven on Earth for Every Living Being.

To sort out your Monster Mind: Desteni

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Day 207: Drunvalo Melchizedek, Help! I missed the 4th Dimensional Shift!!

"Drunvalo ended the lecture by saying, "It appears right now that the shift will take place, according to how everything is going, around the fall of 1998." Barbara Hand Clow who wrote the Pleadian Agenda thought it will happen byJune 21, 1998..."

Yesterday as I researched Spiritual Information to debunk I stumbled upon an article telling about Drunvalo Melchizedek detailed explanation about the shift about to occur.

Of course having been out of the Spiritual Movement for some time now, I assumed it was this coming shift, the one everyone has been talking about, the shift coming at the end of December 2012, according to the interpretation of Mayan Calendar and the end of Time.

It took me the whole article to understand this was a past prediction, this was "the other shift" we have had -apparently- on June 21, 1998, according to Barbara Hand Clow or in the fall of 1998 according to Drunvalo.

The details were staggering, and bold I should say, this man is fearless in his line of work.

When I was working I would feel anxiety just to promise a customer a delivery by a certain date, what if something went wrong, MAJOR loss of Face, if I could Not deliver my reputation would be ruined, I would be held accountable for what I said that did not take place, so the point was always to 'predict' a delivery with ample space for 'unless something unforeseen happens'.

This is NOT the case for the New Age Gurus, they go to amazing lenghts to detail not only when it will happen, but how, they give lists of events that will certainly take place for which we must prepare.

The point is not really about them, that is the business they are in, they are predictions machine, the point is about us, are we brain damaged ?

Since I was born I have seen a staggering amount of predictions that did NOT take place:

The first I remember were by Jehovah witnesses - an end of the world was expected by 1975 (I discovered many others were predicted before that date) until in 2007, having reached the level of Loss of Face one cannot push any further, it was announced that the end of the World was Unknown, see all the failed prediction dates in this Article

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End of the World Predictions

This list is embarassing to say the least, especially if you notice that many dates are very close, meaning one should have remember the previous failed date and wondered if ANY date could be believed at all after the previous one failed. Instead most of those preachers thrived before AND AFTER their failed predictions.

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Vibrations/ Frequency Shifts

As the title said, the 4th has already taken place, it must have, people are now talking about the 5th Dimensional shift as if the 4th DID happen. I find this extraordinary as an aproach to Failure, beyond DENIAL, pretend that what you said it would happen, did happen, and blame the ones with lower frequency for not having ralized it, 'you did not see it', this is what I missed out according to Melchizedek

21st June 1998 - Fall 1998

"About five to six hours before the dimensional shift in consciousness, the process (which is usually tied to an axis shift) begins. Axis shifts and shifts in consciousness are usually tied together. In this case, the consciousness shift may happen before or after the axis shift. Usually they are simultaneous, and usually what happens in this period five or six hours before a dimensional shift is a visual phenomenon. This almost for certain will happen as 3rd and 4th dimension begin to interface, and our consciousness begins to move into 4th dimensional consciousness and 3rd dimensional consciousness begins to recede away. When that happens, synthetic manufactured objects which consist of materials which do not occur naturally on the Earth, begin to disappear over a wide gradient, depending what the materials are. They do not disappear all at once." but over a "five or six hour period.

The fact that objects start to disappear really starts to make people who do not understand what is happening go crazy.

There is another phenomenon that will probably happen. As the dimensional interface occurs, 4th dimensional objects may appear in th 3rd dimensional world. They will be objects that will not seem to fit in anywhere with colors that will boggle your mind. These objects will impact your mind in ways you cannot understand. Since gradual movement through the interface is desired, do not touch any of these objects (to touch one would pull you instantly and fully into the 4th dimension) or look at them. They are mesmerizing, and looking at them will pull you more rapidly into the 4th."

Now, since this piece says that we would experience both the disapperance of objects and the apperance of 4th dimensional objects, I wonder if it is in any way possible that I missed that out.

I am sure many of the clothes we wear today are partly sinthetic, even just in the stitches, that would have made for a lot of people having their clothes fall off, bras, home decorations, plastic bags and containers, toothbrushes, toilet brushes, everything that is synthetic, meaning unnatural, such as plastic, would have disappeared, those would be events hard to miss, don't you think?

And the appearence of brightly coloured objects from the 4th dimension, I would like to believe I would have noticed that, it's not your everyday event, yes, I am almost positive I would have.

the article goes on

"If you are calm and centered, you will be able to watch all of this for a time, but not for long. As soon as the magnetic field collapses, your field of view and vision will disappear and you will find yourself in a black void. The 3rd dimensional Earth, for all intents and purposes, will be gone for you. What happens to most people during this time is that they will fall asleep and start dreaming during this period, which lasts about three to four days."

I have checked the date on the calendar, 21st June 1998 , it was a Sunday, I was married to a Gnostic, who would have for sure NOT ascended according to my then judgement of his 'lower vibrational' state, he was very scientifically oriented and he would have been most interested in the apparition of objects from another dimension ..and would have quesioned the origin and try to work out the Hows of it. That did not happen, possibly he was not enlightened enough, but I was, I did not either fall asleep for 3 or 4 days, if I did my ex husband would have told me and if the theory that those less enlightened we leave behind, I should have woken up OUT of my marriage, which did not happen, I was there for a few more years infact, in this 3rd dimension.

Another point from the article

The Other Side

"As the 4th dimensional world comes into perception, light comes back again. You will find yourself in a world the likes of which you have never seen (although you have, but you will not remember it because your memory has been erased so many times before). It will feel like a brand new place. All the colors and shapes and the feel of everything will be new. You will be perceptively just like you were when you came into 3rd dimensional conscious- ness, except that you will be the same size you are now. There are a lot of things that are very similar from world to world - one of them is the idea of the holy trinity (mother-father-child). As you enter into this brand new place, although you won't understand anything, you are going to see two beings standing there - mom and dad; they are going to be very big compared to you. They are going to be about ten to sixteen feet tall. One will be male and one will be female. These beings have a bond with you and will guide and protect you during your early formative period in this world. These beings do not have the kind of attachment to you that parents on Earth might have had. From the very beginning, they know that you are part of the Creator and recognize your divine nature. You will appear just like you are now, though more than likely naked, since any synthetic clothing will not have made it through the shift."

 "They are going to be about ten to sixteen feet tall. One will be male and one will be female. "

Let's assume I have missed out on the disappearing objects and the appearing ones, and on my falling asleep for 3 to 4 days, about NOT having met my mother and father from the 4th Dimension I am positive, beings 10 to 16 feet tall you notice, and you remember as well, it's not like a disappearing toothbrush that you may be left wondering where you put it, so this seals the deal, I have not ascended to the 4th dimension, I was left behind.

But guess what, so was Melchizedek, here is a video from him in 2012 , and since I am NOT in the 4th Dimension, we have to assume he is not either, you have got to give it to him, this guy has balls!!  Unfortunately nothing he says is true, when he went underground for a few years he did so to erase from his followers the memory of his failed propecies and to come up with a Hell of an excuse, I would have, and given the boasting it may have taken him some years to fabricate one that could stand. 

Is he in bad faith? I don't know, he may believe his own lies as far as I know, that doesn't make the predictions any more real. Watch him fail the 2012 one,

The next question is, how are these people getting away with all of this? Why isn't anyone demanding accountability for what they say or why are they not left behind and forgotten, no longer taken seriously?

If I went to my baker everyday and he told me a few times that the bread would be there tomorrow, and it wouldn't be again and again, I would stop believing him and would no longer go to his shop.

When it comes to these guys instead, not only we don't drop them for good, we look for them, to hear the latest news AS IF they held any truth at all.

Why are we so easily duped into believing people who keep predicting things that do not take place in the physical and then justify them due to unforeseeable events that must have taken place?

If that is so, if they can't 'foresee' how can they predict anything? 

Why are we so keen to believe what they say even after they FAIL?

My perspective is that we  are just as responsible, come on, we want to believe the stories they tell, those stories are in fact our own hopes and dreams, the hope that we can vibrate the hell out of here, that we' are just required to stay focused on positivity and Love and that's all there is to it, the hopeful reunion with our real Parents, leaving behind the Pests of relatives and the bad relationships we have on earth. What a Dream!

Hear this, it's NOT going to happen, noone is going anywhere, we are stuck Here, together, until we sort this mess out.

And as far as predictions go, the only ones that have come true so far are Desteni's, pity they are not good, they said the world will become crazier, check, we'll have an increase in diseases and natural disasters at a level never seen before, check,  and that we are on our Way to World War III. That's right, you heard that well. You know why? because a war is required when all else fails to move the economy, and Wars work, there was always "a better time" after a War by comparison to before a War -and for some there was a Great time during the War as well, the ones that profit from it-, yes, because once you destroy everything, there is the need to rebuild, jobs are created and the world population is reduced, all Plus points of the Capitalist demented system.

Can that be changed? Only if we change the rules of the Economis game, that means we change how we handle resources and their distribution and we take the Profit motive out of the Equation. 

So, do as you please, move now or wait for the December failure, but remember, no one is going anywhere, we Created it, we have to fix it, it's gonna be up to All of us to stand for Change, and since it's a 1+1 process, the sooner you take Your Place of responsibiity within it all, the faster we'll move.

Enlightenment will be when we come back to Earth to take care of the Whole as Self, we come from Separation, we buit this world in separation, hence any idea that some will go and some will stay is just ridicolous per se, you didn't really believe 'thinking loving thoughts' would get you out of here, did you?

We are the Change that is required to be manifested, as we change, the Mirror will change with us as us, let's get on with it.

Related articles - first 6, human delusions and predictions to be debunked soon, not that it matters, another date and another story will be set soon, gotta make a living....

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Day 132 - For-Giving the Desteni Character

Fear

Thought

Imagination

Backchat

Reactions

Physical

Consequences

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Fear the Desteni Message, because this message implies Self responsibility and I fear having to become Self responsible for myself and the World, Equal and One

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to superimpose my previous knowledge and information about Doomsday, Reward and Punishment, onto the Desteni information within an attempt to decode what the message was about, in fear that I would not be able to understand it, unless I interpreted it through everything I knew and believed to be The Truth prior to joining Desteni

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear dropping my knowledge and information and stand in and as Breath to HERE/HEAR the Desteni message because I believed that unless I decoded it through prior knowledge and information, I could not understand it

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear death and the Afterlife and for believing that since there has been a change in the Hierarchy of Heaven, I better side up with the ones who hold the key to the New AfterLife System so I would, as Marlen said, get VIP tickets for the AfterLife

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to walk this process for one year in utter Fear and Petrification because that was preferable to having to deal with this fear that I have of still existing after death and having to spend time with myself through eternity as a stranger that I fear

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that, if I would stop and get rid of this Fear, I would just say goodbye to Process because it's fear that has kept me moving and I have not yet established myself to move as a self directive principle in any way

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that I can't get off Process because I have nowhere to go but Here, which is a place I am not yet experiencing in and as Breath but in and as Fear and thus, unpleasant

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own definition of Process as a boring place where people are doing nothing else but forgiving themselves for their imaginary faults, as I still relate forgiveness to wrongdoings because I was born a Catholic and I have allowed and accepted myself to carry the shame and guilt loaded point of forgiveness as I under-stood it as a kid

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that I am still missing the forgiving point as I don't stand Equal to my Forgiveness yet but under-stand my Forgiveness and while I have experienced energetic release I still have to drag myself everyday through this process due to my own definition of Forgiveness and 'Process'

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not stand One and Equal to For-Giveness as Me giving back to me, as in Earthing the energies that I invested into Characters that I played throughout my Life, to give back, to for-give, the resources that I have taken in this journey of Lies in Self Interest for the purpose of experiencing myself as energy instead of being Life Here in and as Breath

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that Breath is not enough, that there should be something more, better, more exciting, failing to see that I have just bought into 'ideas' that were sold to us about Life and what Life should be vs what Life is

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Fear that if I did not join Process something terrible would happen to me, proving that I have joined this Process in and as Fear and for this I forgive myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that I don't even know what I am doing or attempting to do with and through this process because I have taken process to be a Task, and as a Task is lacking 'directions', instead than a Change that I have to become to reflect my Self Correction as Oneness and Equality for What is Best for All

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that if I skip one day of writing something bad will happen to me, instead of seeing Writing as the Self Support that I give to myself every day to not accumulate backchat that then holds me into an ever tighter grip the day after

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that I won't make it because I have too many years of Fake Life under my belt and that I may not have the stamina to walk backward to undo all my participation in this Lifetime in and as Energy, instead of seeing and realizing this is just another Character because once I am clear that there is nowhere to go but ahead this can only be the Self Sabotage Character that I try to play so I can justify why I don't want to walk to give up all of myself and for this I forgive myself

Thoughts

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think about process and to tell myself that this is alright 'because I'm just thinking about process' even though I am clear on the point that I won't be able to get out of this mess Inward and Outward through Thinking, no matter how worthy of being thought my thoughts are

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think that I am not a robot, because I dislike the idea of being a Robot as I feel diminished every time I associate myself with the word 'Robot', as I have associated Robots with Non Life while I believed to be alive and I do not want to face the point that I am not alive yet and I won't be until I am the willing Prey of the Mind/Consciousness

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think that the word 'destonian' is stupid, as it is so obvious there should have been an 'e' there as Destenian, just because I dislike 'O's in the middle of name, having my name 2 'O's which I have associated with Masculine as all Italian masculine singular words end in 'O' and so I resented for many years my name with 2 masculine vowels when I am a woman and should have been given the 'a' and 'e' and then for creating this disliking for 'O's in the centre of names which is one of the reason why I think that I dislike this name

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself, due to my own definition of the word Destonian as separation since not everyone is a Destonian while I am just starting to grasp that we are equal and then I have to deal with a new label and I think this is irritating and Elitist and I don't want to be a part of that, maybe if they were Destenians who knows, I wouldn't have had such a mind tantrum but for now I think I don't want to be a part of it

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think that when I get on the Forum and see the thread Ask a Destonian, that they are asking someone else, and not me, as that label doesn't identify me and so when I read the Forum I read it to see the answers of Destonians, never to reply as I think I am not one of 'these' and so it doesn't apply to me

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think up a new definition of myself and other Destonians as Desteni People, as I think and believe I don't like this name to use even for other Destonians, as it looks silly and sounds silly with the 'O', which seems to be a big deal only when I think about it as I see now that I write that it is not important how others see me as a Destonian with an 'O' or with an 'e' since it is about the message and not about Desteni at all

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think that I fear what others think of me

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think 'this name looks silly, sounds silly' when I read the name Destonian for the first time and forever after and within this I forgive myself for judging words and names as silly just because of my personal preference and likes/dislikes of a vowel over another in this particular example as I see realize and understand that it has nothing to do with this name but everything to do with me and how I experienced myself stuck with 2 'O's in my name being born a woman in a gender sensitive country, perceiving myself as diminished as a woman and pushed through the thin line of maledom just by 2 simple meaningless circles

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think 'enough already with this depressing Consciousness talk', let's talk about something else, instead of seeing realizing and understanding that we cannot talk about something else until Consciousness is All We Are

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think there must be some shortcuts out of this, what the fuck, 7 years to nothingness, plus 7 years to rewrite ourselves as Oneness and Equality plus another 7 years for the Equal Money System to become manifested, while I am in a rush to get to Life, even though I don't even know what that means, I just want this to be over as all Tasks have a dead line and this seems way too long

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think about this process in terms of Time, as that there is a specific Time that must go by and that it takes Time which then leads me to feel impatient, because I don't have Time, Time is Money, I want to use my Time doing something else, instead of realizing I am doing Time as I write, because Earth is The Correction Facility of the Universe for those that abused Life for Self Interest

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think 'come on people, can we spend 28 years doing THIS', as in Process, as in Self forgiving our very Life as we live it, instead of seeing and realizing we are keeping forgiving ourselves because we are not stopping the abuse yet and we'll have to do that until we in fact STOP

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think 'isn't this a bit far fetched that we should be doing this and tell others we are changing the world, where no evidence of this change is manifested outward in fact?" instead of seeing and realizing that this is the Question to ask myself as we won't see any change until We Change, which means, I/We have Not Changed yet At All

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think that there is No way that I can explain Self Forgiveness in Italian bypassing the Atonement, Shame and Guilt that results from speaking and hearing this word, instead of seeing and realizing that it is me still reacting to this word in Italian as something that is connected to guilt and shame and atonement, and that for-giving ourselves will be loaded with shame and guilt until we do not have a Secret Agenda for-giving, such as Atonement for 'feeling good' purposes, but we will unconditionally For-give ourselves as the New System that we are Creating and manifesting One and Equal to Us to For-Give everyone One and Equal, which will manifest a system of For-Giveness such as the Equal Money System

Imagination

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Imagine how shameful it would be if we won't make it and I will have to stand facing my delusion of Our Ability to Change the System, instead of realizing that this shows me that I still fear and see the System as something separate from me and because I cannot see how such a small group of people can impact the external system as a separate system I move into the paranoid state that I may be delusional and that I may have boarded just about another train to Nothingness, where the group may be disbanded in a few years and just say 'sorry we were too ambitious and did not see clearly our limitations' and I will be left with nowhere to go

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to imagine the worst, as a habit that I took on when I decided that imagining the best leads always to disappointments, and so in fear of being disappointed I imagine the worst and fill my Time with 'what ifs'' that show me that I'm just undertaking an impossible task and I have moved from the Love and Light delusion to the Desteni delusion

Backchat

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in backchats regarding process and the interviews I listen to, in which I try to make up opinions about what is being said that I can turn into my advantage as knowledge and information, instead of just stopping consistently my participation in backchat as part of My Commitment to Life and to Changing Myself to realign to Oneness and Equality and what is best for All

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in my backchat about how I will never stick to anything for 7 years and why am I even trying, because the longest thing I stuck to was my marriage and that was a lot of grief and I can't see myself going through so much grief again for 7 long years

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in my backchat about what can I expect out of this process, as the milder version of 'What's in it for me' in which I look for something, anything that could motivate me for such a length of time as the carrot to dangle in front of myself and within this accepting and allowing myself to believe that I am not and will not be able to be the directive principle of me motivating myself without the need or desire for Energetic feedback, and for this I forgive myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the backchat that asks what can we do to make money as a group, without seeing and realizing that I am still backchatting myself with the purpose to self sabotage myself, because I know I cannot see solutions for money making as a group as I approach this point as a business and look then for business ventures that I have not been able to find yet, as every business venture related to this group would mean our self compromise while we are standing not in judgement of self compromise, as we are all compromised by our daily acceptance and allowance of this Economics system of Inequality, but as a point of no compromise for the lure of Money as Energy, which means it will take time to build a solid money base that is not Energy generated but labor generated

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that some backchats are in fact coming as 'ideas' to provide solutions, while in fact I have not yet had any solutions from any backchat but just troubles that I then had to live out and walk as consequences of dis-connected and dis-eased Mind's backchat designs

Reactions

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react in fear when I have to explain the process of Self Forgiveness as I fear that do not have the right words to say what I want to say about it and then I end up saying something I did not mean to say just because I have not yet taken the time to look into all aspects of this Self Forgiveness for myself so I can align my words to me as process and not fear having to talk about it

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react as anxiety every time a new tasks comes up to do in the mailing list or in the LF, as I immediately project myself into a Time Frame and how much Time it will take to get something done and then I feel anxiety and the desire to just walk away

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react with impatience when faced with something new to be done because I see that I don't even have enough Time to do what I have on my plate and how can I possibly take on anything else, instead of seeing noone is asked to do more than they can in self honesty, considering their life and what they have to attend to as well as a priority to build a stable life

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react in guilt if and when I do not do everything that I have decided I must do everyday to be effective within process and then when I do not I react feeling like a failure because I could/should have done more but I did not

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react in guilt if and when I judge myself for not having done enough because I have associated process with Schindler's List and US as The Saving the World A-Team, and so every minute wasted is another Life that could have been saved from the Holocaust of the Mind, instead of seeing and realizing that I am creating such pressure for myself that I have turned this process into Agony and my walk into the Passion of Christ, where if possible I experience myself worse than before starting Process which could be a sign that I am doing something wrong, such as Not Stopping my participation in and as the Mind for One

Physical

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel a physical tightening in the solar plexus every time something about process comes up, as I have built so much bullshit about it that I dread even the word as the trial I put myself through every day, which is so far away from Self Forgiveness I should have got the hint and corrected myself and my approach to process, as just a system that has been written to support us with guidelines about How to Walk effectively Out of The Mind and into the Physical

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the Physical to such an extent that I seldom get what my body is going through as I lose myself into the Mind "Thinking" about what my body is going through, instead of being Here with and as my Body so I can get the straight no bullshit feedback as I walk my process as me

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I can think about the physical and become aware through my mind about what the physical is trying to tell me, instead of moving myself back into the Physical in and as Breath and as One and Equal check what is going on as helpful Substantial feedback

Consequences

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to live one year with a knot into my stomach as the consequence of how and why I started this process, failing to see that it is the physical that has already been paying the consequences so far, and that stopping myself as The Mind must mean that The Physical no longer suffers and that if and when I have a physical discomfort as a consequence of something I myself have set in motion, I must Stop, Breathe, Breathe, Breathe, until I, as One with the Physical, can assess which con-sequence I am walking, so I can stop creating it as this is what this process is about, it is the stopping of Consequences, as we stop the past to stop creating the future and ourselves into a Time Loop of Consequences that we can instead STOP creating as we see and investigate the origin and starting point and stand in and as The Correction that will stop the creation of Consequences we have existed in and as so far

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to overlook the Consequences that I am walking as I believe that if I look away they will go away, as I see realize and understand they are not going away because I am not stopping my participation in those things that are in fact creating those consequences as a result of my fears and separation and that I have to commit myself to stand consistently, slowing myself down to stop, to make sure I don't miss out on the point of what it is that we are doing, as stopping our existence in and as The Mind of Polarity/Duality as only the stepping out of our Polarity and Duality Worlds will allow us to find ourselves at the same starting point, Here, in and as The Physical, where Oneness and Equality already exists, in and as Breath, waiting for us to catch up.

Self Commitments to Follow tomorrow 

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