Day 344: Is the Freedom We Seek Someone Else's Enslavement?

When I was a kid my mum told me that 'My Freedom ends where others freedom begins'.

It is very difficult to put the 'idea' of Freedom in writing unless I look at it from the perspective of what Is Not Freedom.

A particular point of my perception of lack of freedom rose up in the past few days, it went all the way into physical manifestation of discomfort, of constriction.

For a few days I resisted looking at this point because I could find good reasons why I was in fact really constricted and why really my freedom was under attack by unwelcome schedules and repetitions.

Of course complaining about it felt petty, since people who have in their belt 24 years of jail like Nelson Mandela told of how he managed to feel like a free man, proving that our perceived enslavement when we are not physically restricted in any way, and even when we are, is just a fabrication of our Mind.

Although one may note that there is a form on enslavement going on on our planet that goes way beyond the economic enslavement we have manifested, we are Prisoners of Our Own Minds, we are jailed within Ideas and Beliefs and Opinions about Others and the World, we are jailed by our own definitions of words such as 'Freedom' and what that meant to me until someone pushed for me the point of constriction until the bubble burst into memories as the blueprint of my feelings of constriction/encagement aka engagement to my own Mind.

I am a kid, forced into summer camp, usually an only, lonely child suddenly thrown into group dynamics, into kids as results of all sorts of households, little bullies who couldn't care less about Jesus and being good because they had already learnt that while good people go to heaven, the bad ones go everywhere, get everything and they were molding themselves to become successful world abusers.

So I withdrew into myself and waited for the time to go home.

Another memory, I am a kid, my mum left me with my cousins, they were all friends bar me, I was the last arrival, their mother always taking their side -my mother always taking other kids side, when is my fucking turn-, spent days sitting on the stairway to the road gate wishing my mother to walk through it, uplifting myself from the whole experience, creating a sort of waiting room inside myself where I am queuing up to go home, I know I will go home, it's just a matter of time, so I go through the motion, polite but to myself, mingle but never to the point of possible conflict, I am just doing time, until I will be Free again.

Another memory, rolling over in the big bed with my mum, I am about 13, she asks what's wrong and I say 'I want to be free', she asks me to define freedom - I realize I have no clue, I know I can't miss the chance to get My Freedom, she is willing to show me that I am Free and I am willing to show her I am not. I say 'I want to go for a walk', she said 'go', it was 10 in the evening, summertime, I get dressed and walk downstairs to the courtyard and then out of the gate, I'm out, but not free, because now I am worried about the limits of this Freedom, my mum didn't give me a curfew but it was in the air, there was an expectation that my walk should happen within a 'Reasonable' amount of time, so now I have 2 words undefined 'Freedom' and 'Reasonable', I walk fast, Not Feeling Free at all, feeling in fact tormented about how long can I stay out, what is the limit I am not supposed to cross because the limit was there, unspoken. I meet a friend of a friend and we start talking and walking together, by the time I return home my mother is in her pajamas out of the gate looking for me, my heart races, this is the end of my Freedom, the poor guy doesn't understand he says -'why are you so worried, I will explain everything' yeah, right, we get to the gate, he has a silly smile on his face and says 'don't worry ma'am, she was with me :)'...'and who the fuck are you??? Better move along boy' he stopped smiling and left, I instead crossed all the courtyard kicked in my ass by my mother, so long for Freedom...

So, there you go, enslaved to memories about perceived Lack of Freedom, a Slave of My Mind, so logically my best definition of Freedom is isolation, it's where nothing hijacks my mind, where I am in control and there aren't people pressing triggers here and there uninvited, like they were welcome to do so when they are Not, has been a hassle this life to keep it all together, I could have ended up crazy like my mother and if I didn't is because I didn't allow people to walk all over the minefield that I have become, their Freedom to do so end with my Freedom to not be done so and yet I missed the simplicity of sorting out my triggers as The Road to Freedom, because no one has power over us unless we accept it and allow it by NOT sorting ourselves out, which make us Enslaved and not Free, we are Never Free if we take thing personally or if we can be 'moved' by emotions and feelings to do or not do something.

We walk our lives not seeing this point and so others who have realized our big 'Freedom' chip-on-our-shoulders go to any length to Sell it to us, we have Freedom and Democracy, we have Freedom from Pain, Freedom Fighters, Freedom clothes, lifestyles, the Freedom of Choice, All those Freedoms are Lies because they are costing someone else their Freedom, their Lives and so it should have become obvious that That is not the Freedom we seek when we look for breakthroughs -from what?- or evasion -from where?-, it's ironic that we are willing to buy what we could give to ourselves for Free - but we don't.

Then How do we believe that the Freedom we are not willing to Grant to Ourselves for FREE, can be given to Us by those who Own the World and are not into the predicament to give it away for Free anytime soon, since it's a sellout product, and use ever imaginative ways to prove to us that we are Free and that we Can Buy More Freedom if we just Invest in It, or else that we are at risk to lose our Freedom, the one we fear to lose but that we know We Never Had, just to have someone go to jail for 24 years come out  and tell you that he was the Freest man he met, because he freed himself from his own fears, hatred, pettiness, spitefulness and stood up for a World that Would Work for All - but it didn't come True because the Freedom he hoped to teach others and give to All, can't be given, can't be bought, it's a Free Gift, you just must be willing for-giving it to Yourself and All Equally.
And that is the Only Enslavement-Free Freedom that Really Exists.

Day 323: IMAGINE a World that Works for All....

There are so many things that are not working in this world that can go back to one single point: our unwillingness to give to Each Other what we would like for ourselves.

Today I am writing about this point so I can see for myself the WHY, because apparently there is no common sensically WHY to not doing the One Thing that would bring to the world everything we say we want: Peace, Harmony, Brotherhood, the possibility to trust each other unconditionally, love as a living expression of who we are, we could be living in Heaven for real if we gave to all living beings, the Earth included, the same consideration we want and desire for ourselves.

In a way it seems too easy to beat the drum of greed and self interest, honestly, where is the self interest in creating a world such as this, even the rich don't have it good because as they cleverly go about to pass Laws that allow them to pollute and destroy, Here they are, sharing the same broken planet, they just have more money to move from one apparent consequence-free-space to another but that's about it, I don't believe anyone is truly happy on this Earth at the moment, this is why we created Positivity, Love and Light and Positive Thinking, isn't it?

What was the big selling point of Positivity if we were not living crappy realities inside ourselves at all times, who would go and buy the energetic experience of 'feeling better' if they were not feeling BAD before?

So why don't we talk about HOW BAD we feel most of the time for this Creation we have manifested and brought about, that leaves out of the game 1/3 of the population that can't raise their head above the poverty line to take a breath, to have one moment in their Life where this exercise in futility, that we call existence, could make sense beyond having to survive just another day.

So, today I want to look at one point that I see connected to this and that I know many may unconsciously or subconsciously share, which hit home once when I saw a video called 'God Loves Self Abuse' and that was brought home again when, during my explanation of Equal Money as a different way to conceive the world and ourselves to a friend, he told me 'we'll have to see if we can believe that we deserve it'.

So, there goes the Truth, we believe we don't deserve anything better than what we have got, maybe this is why we indulge in Self Abuse, that's a path we can walk to infinity (although I am under the impression we can't go much further), the point of Self Abuse is everywhere, we have a whole world where people fight for their right to Self Abuse, be that through alcohol, drugs or porn, none of these things are supportive in any way to either the Human Body or Mind, but we fight nail and tooth to prevent someone regulating our self abuse (and not for a world that works for all), obviously we have not yet got enough or we have come to believe that we will never be able to move beyond our weaknesses and addictions  and therefore, we want the world to stand as the pusher, as the provider of the tools that we choose with which we can abuse ourselves, believing that this is as good as it gets and since we are wasted as Humanity, we can waste away without regrets.

So as this point that this could be as good as it gets, resonates through me, that we may NOT be deserving of a better world, it may be possible that millions out there share the same inability to let go of what they have done and who they have been and stand within the resignation that we the Creator of such a world, should endure it all the way to its destruction.

Maybe then, one point that we need to dig out, each one for ourselves, specifically those claiming Spirituality and their desire for a better world, would be 'can we move past our self hatred for what is best for All?' Can we stop the righteousness of seeking the punishment we believe we deserve for what we have done, can we forgive ourselves and our Creation at large, so that we can re-create ourselves and the kind of world which would give us everything we say we seek, including the respect for our participation no longer in a Game of (Self) Destruction and Death but in the Business of Life, where we all become shareholders of an Idea that has not yet come to be, just because we could not overcome the self disgust for what we have done when we sold out Life for Money and in our denial come back again and again to pretend to be alive and live on as memories of those that came before us.

So, let's redefine Earth as this planet we created as a Correctional Facility, we are all InMates, we are Here to experience on our skin what happens when we DO NOT apply the principle of considering Everything that exists as Equally valuable as ourselves, it's a huge responsibility to consider all parts of the system to work in harmony and have everything they need to thrive, this is why the call is for all of us, if each one stands as one point of Absolute Consideration for the Whole, then we'll have Heaven on Earth, so then the ultimate question is, is Self Responsibility really worse than Hell?

What about trying it out, we did Hell, look how it turned out, we could do Heaven for a change and see how we like it and if we don't, no worries, we have the blueprints for Hell, Hell is where 'I' do only what is best for me in separation from the Whole as One, the Micro and the Macro are showing us the workings of self interest in separation, look at the Corporations, Governments, check out all the systems that have abandoned the principle of What is Best for All and see what came out of it, then let's bring this back to each one of us, where am I behaving like a ruthless Corporation so that I can Profit from others and see how can I correct myself, where are my secret agendas, secret governments, secret desires and how can I let them go, how can I integrate the principle of 'Give as you would like to receive' in everything I do, how can I make this principle practical, liveable, something I can apply in every area of my Life?

Do I need the 10 commandments to tell me what not to do, do I need Ramadan to remind myself what I should be doing or not doing, do I need my mother, the Law, the traffic warden or can I stand and see by myself in every moment what needs to be done because I can include all points involved into consideration and then walk the solution that includes me as All/The Whole?

This is for us to decide, if we can stand and we can prove that we stand as a Principle and not as a Prop, the jail gates will unlock and we may share the bounty of this creation beyond anything we have ever imagined, Life is wasting while we wait, so let's not waste our Breaths and Time with Self Hatred, yes we fucked up royally, this is undeniable, can we stop, can we correct it, can we fix it?

Then let's do so, because self hatred is the most insidious of all self interest as we bask in the idea of being punished has having 'done enough', look I was wrong AND Punished, have done my part thankyouverymuch, when in fact Standing Punished is Just Another Game to avoid our responsibility, what if we stood Corrected instead?

Find support to walk your self correction and stop the Self Hatred and Self Punishment Here

A better world starts with a Basic Income Guaranteed, because no one should go hungry, thirsty, homeless, desperate, without support, it is our response-ability to take care of each other and All Living Beings, because I can only get what I am willing to give and Love will begin with the practical giving of Love to All as the upliftment of All Existence from Misery, at last.

Imagine there's no heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today...

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace...

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one