Day 306: Capitalism is NOT the Best System We Have

Anyone familiar with system or systematization understands that when engineering a system that is meant to manage something, the system MUST take into account all its parts.

If I design an engine and I only care about fuel management I may have a reduction in performance, if I only care about performance I may have an unreasonable increase in fuel consumption, if I only care about design I may overlook the best functionality I could access if I did not and on it goes.

The only place where we have blatantly failed is the system we have 'chosen' to manage our Lives, the Earth resources, the Planet, our relationship to each others and to all living beings sharing this planet with us.

This has gotten worse over time, maybe we can understand this problem better if we look at the Medical Field, when I was a kid I had a family doctor, she understood everything, when in doubt she would first give me something to purge, no heavy duty medicines, no special exams, she knew what kids get and do and how to deal with it, if I overate she told me to stop doing that, she would not give me tablets to digest, she was too holistic to be fooled and not specialized enough to be mislead.

Now that I have grown up I hear more and more often of people going on pilgrimages to doctors, they are bounced from one specialist to another, a simple bump on a hand is transformed into a national issue for which special costly exams must be done at the cost of taxpayers who end up footing the bill for our split skills and abilities to see the whole picture, basically, as we have become accustomed to, those at the bottom keep paying for the mistakes of those at the top.

Becoming overspecialized is just another form of separation,, we have lost the ability to see the big picture, to see all the parts of a picture, now we have Economists, Financiers, Wall Streeters, Bankers, Big Corporations, each piece is just playing their own music, as if it didn't affect anyone else, the prompt word is PROFIT at all Costs, and as such we fail to see that those Costs are Real, that someone is paying for them even though it may not be us.

When we use Food as a Commodity, as a mean to move Money at the Top, we overlook those at the bottom that will pay the price to go without, when we privatize water implying that those who don't have money can''t drink or have sanitation, we overlook our humanity, we miss out on the potential of considering that if Water is Vital, no one can own it because it belongs to All.

This problem started with the ownership of Land,  stating to be opposed to this will most certainly cause an uproar and yet there has been a time when the land belonged to all and so did the water, when we understood what could be own-ed and what could not, there was a chance to live for all. With time we created better and better ways to restrict those rights, basic living rights, the process has been so consistent and overall reaching that we came to believe that the abnormality of how we handle the world, its resources and the living right of all, is the new Normality.

Insane is the new normal.

We prove this for example every time we say something like 'Capitalism is The Best System we have got', oh yeah? For whom?

Amazingly, to this we should answer just a bunch of people and yet we all live the delusion that we would crash without it, terrible things would befall us if we attempted to change, like what? The sky would open up and swallow us? All hell would break loose? Incidentally for the latter it's way too late, All Hell has already broken loose, we have just not noticed yet.

We have polluted the air we breathe, our water resources, our food, our medical system, we breed crazy sciences like Psychology to manage the outflows of our accepted new crazy, or Economics, a spastic field that is unable to consider the effective management of a system of distribution that would benefit all.

But even though we insist that there is No Choice, we have a choice in fact, we can make a slow return to sanity by acknowledging we made a mistake, no one can manage a whole system within broken and conflicting ideologies, we are attempting the impossible.

We need to return to an whole-istic view of ourselves and the Planet, to consider that no system is perfect unless it consider all of its parts and what would be best for each one, we are not accustomed to think this way or see the world this way, this doesn't make it impossible. Who thought we could go on the moon before we did it?

We could start with getting to the root problem of how and why do we justify the idea that some must die so this system may live on, this is not negative propaganda, the dying people are real, desperation is a fact unlike the make belief props we use to exchange Life for Money and from there see if we can cross the divide that exists in our mind between our reasoning that excuse My Life as Worthier than another and re-think the whole system, We Can include all its parts, it will take us some time to redefine a worthy existence for all but it will be worth the effort to get over our limiting belief that 'this is the best we have' in the face of close to 3 billion living below the poverty line, because THAT is truly mad and not even close to the best we can do when we step up to acknowledge the Same Equal Value to All Living Beings.

A new wystem is being redesigned for this purpose, get involved, cast your vote, spread the news, we don't have to live this way, we are making a choice, albeit manipulated, we can make another One to realign to Life and what is Best for All.

Equal Money, to return Value to Life on Earth for All Living Beings.

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Day 303: Death Becomes Me

Last night I listened to Sunette's interview called 'Death and Life'.

There were so many good points to look at about Death and how we have created a world full of it, funny, as a consequence of our fear of the responsibility of Living for real we embraced Death more willingly than we embraced Life.

As I looked back at the past week and my interactions, there were so many talks about death, almost none about Life, we have given Life up to Money without and the Mind within and Death ended up being so much more entertaining, so much more something to look forward to than living or at least, as we are clueless about how to go about living, we transit the Planet in a Haze waiting for our AfterLife, no longer making big plans like the Pharaohs for the trip and the goodies we wish to take with us, possibly due to Austerity, but still hoping to be able to plan for a peaceful Death, as if, one like the one a lady told me I would have, meant as a gift I guess, good karma to wish a peaceful death on someone, she said that being a sensitive she could see both me and my mum will 'go' in our sleep, no diseases and no traumatic Deaths to be scared about, surely something she wishes for herself but believes won't be able to get, she has by now accepted herself as already dis-eased and with a foot in the grave.

My mum one week ago said that she went to visit my grandparents for a small chat and to change the flowers on display, she meant at the cemetery, those are by far the least controversial visits she had with them, finally she is the only one talking with no rebuttals or things said in return that could trigger some wild automated response. 

We ended up having our best relationships with the Dead ones while we forgo our responsibility to fix the ones we have with those who are alive, how amazing of us.

Today on the news the story of a woman condemned to 12 months community service for unlawfully preventing the burial of a child that was born still born for having been kicked in the belly by her partner while she was expecting, we condemn the disrespect for Death, what about the disrespect of Life, how did THAT become Normal? Are we aware that we have created a world where Death has more value than life? Are we aware that there is something disturbing in making Laws to protect the right of the Dead and not the ones of the Living? Given that we only operate in Self Interest at the moment, are we Dead or Alive?

Solving the Death point, our fear of Death -and our fear of life-, changing our Investment Plans from Death to Life would be one of the ways we can reestablish a chance to live, not being so worried about something we cannot plan or orchestrate or, for once, manipulate, would not only bring us back Here but would allow us to have a chance at working out how to live and self express, because honestly I am just realizing how I don't have a clue about it and how much I will have to dig still to start to see a sliver of Life in me as I write out the kind of Life I want to be in consideration of the whole, something I have realized I am alien to, and  I work at how to build good relationship with people while they are still alive and how to change while I can do so for sure, because honestly no one knows what is waiting on the other side, Heaven above and Hell below seems a bit far fetched, living the Hope that magically by leaving behind the body we'll rid ourselves of all the crap we have participated in/with would mean that we are innocent and the body is guilty, the body is the carrier of the crappy life and experiences while we are all spiritual beings just momentarily trapped within it.

Yet what Breathes and is in fact alive is The Body, The Physical, when we'll move onto the Afterife what we'll leave behind is Life, an oxymoron to even have to say it, but as we became used to living words with other mean-ings, the original meaning of words just went lost, we guesstimated afterlife to mean 'afterthislife' where another, better one is waiting for us for the moment we'll finally will be saying our farewells to our shriveled up raisins like empty 'evil' bodies.

Do we bellieve our bodies are just our place of residence? Our flesh is who we are, if the house, The Temple where we live has become all dirty and mouldy why not consider cleaning it up, why not clean up our acts, redefine the starting points that move us to action or inaction, why not redefine this hellish existence of Death into one of Life, where we can all thrive, expand and share a dignified worthwhile existence.

Life is not what we manage to own or put our hands on, it's not our possessions, Life is Self Expression within self Responsibility, we can't have the Life cake and eat it by not taking responsibility for ourselves and everything we are connected to, we don't live on an island alone unless we live in our minds, so it is time to learn what Self Expression as Life means, and this will happen only by deleting what self Expression is NOT until we come to a blank slate and from there redesign who we decide ourselves to be vs what we were designed to be.

A process to undo what we have done so far that hasn't worked for ourselves or the Whole as One is available at Desteni.org, Death became us, we have the choice to stick to it or work to get our lives back and learn to live for the very first time as Self honest, self responsible Human beings that consider themselves as part of an organic Whole that can thrive with each one's ego-less participation.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to glorify Death as a teenager by saying and writing that 'Death is paid with Life'

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to be fascinated with death and the AfterLife vs participating in Life Here as an intrinsec piece of the puzzle that must stand in and as self responsibility for myself and all of existence as One

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear Death and dying in a violent death when I have no direct information about how the death experience is and therefore everything I think about it is just an assumption with no foundation in reality and I will have to live to see it through when the time comes, which is something I have no control over in any way and is therefore time to let go all and every worry about it

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that the AfterLife was more important than Life, because within this belief I accepted and allowed a World of Death to exist as I glorified what may come vs what is Here where I can infact learn to live and experience mySelf through this opportunity to do so and within this for accepting and allowing myself  to waste my Life in the pursuit of a worthy ticket into the AfterLife, disregarding what is Here that is not yet living in Oneness and Equality the dignity that we could grant to each other by standing as One beyond our Egos for what is Best for All and All of existence as One.

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Day 220: Armageddon for Sale - Last 6 days

We have 6 days to go to Doomsday.

We managed to turn Armageddon into a Business, we should be proud to never miss a chance to make Money on people's Fears and Delusions. That's what this system is built around and who would want to miss out on making Money on the day the world Ends? One never has enough and having MORE would make for a safer crossing into the Afterlife, sure One can find a Money Changer in the Dimensions.

What happens to those who invest in the End of the World if the World doesn't have the decency to end?

Will there be Refunds?

How are the Doomsday Contracts Stipulated, is anyone assuring the End of the World, like taking a daily trip to see Pink Dolphins, some tour operator promise to refund you if you don't manage to see a dolphin during the trip, that's 'honest'.

Given that the unpredicability factor for Dooms Day is Higher, would the refund be full if nothing happens, partial if someone dies or a few houses fall down, how can one come up with a comprehensive contract to cover the 'X' factor of Doomsday?

Silly me, there is no need of course, because to sell Dommsday, someone must believe in it to buy it, noone can sell the unselleable.

Remember 'The Prestige' and how a Magic trick is held up:

The Prestige opens with the following lines;

Every great magic trick consists of three parts or acts. The first part is called “The Pledge”. The magician shows you something ordinary: a deck of cards, a bird or a man. He shows you this object. Perhaps he asks you to inspect it to see if it is indeed real, unaltered, normal. But of course… it probably isn’t. The second act is called “The Turn”. The magician takes the ordinary something and makes it do something extraordinary. Now you’re looking for the secret… but you won’t find it, because of course you’re not really looking. You don’t really want to know. You want to be fooled. But you wouldn’t clap yet. Because making something disappear isn’t enough; you have to bring it back. That’s why every magic trick has a third act, the hardest part, the part we call “The Prestige”.”

 Let's see if we can find The Pledge, The Turn and The Prestige in Doomsday Prophecies.

So The Pledge, showing something ordinary: The Mayan calendar should do the trick, it's ordinary, but it's not, because it ends on December 21, 2012. This is how we understand this Calendar

Can you see the Calendar there? it's pretty clear, looks like any Calendar you have ever seen, can't fool anyone right?

So le't move to the second part of the trick, The Turn

"The magician takes the ordinary something and makes it do something extraordinary. Now you’re looking for the secret… but you won’t find it, because of course you’re not really looking. You don’t really want to know. You want to be fooled. But you wouldn’t clap yet. Because making something disappear isn’t enough"

• The Magician (Doomsday promoter), takes the ordinary rock we see above and makes it do something extraordinary, like tell a DATE, a specific date, December 21, 2012. That's pretty extraordinary.

"Now you’re looking for the secret… but you won’t find it, because of course you’re not really looking. You don’t really want to know. You want to be fooled."

• Yes, this is how you miss out on the fact that we are talking about a Rock, whose reading would be subject to an individual interpretation which after the first, would just stand to prove the exactdeness of the original reading, this is how we "investigate" everything in this World so far, we look for clues to prove the theories and opinions We Already Hold, so if you are already looking for the date 21st dec 2012, you'll find it.

 

"But you wouldn’t clap yet. Because making something disappear isn’t enough; you have to bring it back. That’s why every magic trick has a third act, the hardest part, the part we call “The Prestige”

• OkDokey, then we have to now assign a Meaning to this Date and must be a Prestigious one, we set out originally just to sell the Mayan Story, but it was not enough, you would not Clap. What do you say if on that date The World Ends?

Seems pretty cool to me, so as the Magicians of this World set up their Prestigious Acts, some buy it and Clap for it. Obviously having gone through such lenghts of self deception, noone could EVER admit to themselves that they were lying about the end of the World, that they knew at some level the world was NOT going to end and now, after years of bullshitting family and friends, we have to go the whole way. Here is where the Doomsday Sales People step in, the scene is set, they have to now sell somwthing we already bought and self promoted. Eazzy..

Now imagine a different scenario, you actualy wake up on december the 22nd, poorer, maybe jobless, maybe alone as you told everyone to fuck off cos you believed you were on your way OUT of here, and yu are NOT.

Please consider this possibility first before leaving your jb, kicking your friends and abandoning your cat in the street because you WILL wake up on the 22nd, the world will still be Here, and so will be ALl of Us, the troublemakers of Existence, then the last choice we will have will be to consider DOING SOMETHING ABOUT THIS WORLD! 

There is nowhere o go, yes, disheartening news, but only if we leave things as they are, instead we could stand to change the current Systems into Systems of Support for All.

The world has become a shitty place because we let it run unchecked, we let ourselves run unchecked, building up Monsters as our Minds and then refusing to correct our own creation to the point of wishing the physical annhilation of the planet and all iving beings, just to get the Hell out of Here.

But we must remember that wherever we go, there we are, there is nowhere to run and we shouldn't run, but stand, look at this world, see what we need to change, CALM DOWN, Breathe, and then step by step move to create heaven on Earth for Every Living Being.

To sort out your Monster Mind: Desteni

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Day 210: Ascension 101 - "As Above So Below' - Who said Above is Better?

I have heard this sentence many times in my life "As Above So Below', it is 'common knowledge among all those that have spent time in the Spiritual World.

Writing about the Spiritual World is taking all the Glam out of it, it makes me wonder how I could skip and hop through all the parts that might have resonated with any common sense, to get to what I wanted, 'a feel good' belief about the AfterLife.

I did not like the 'Here' at all, I have memories of being a kid and finding this all existence weird to say the least, no one knew why we were here, what we were supposed to do, bar go to school, get a job, get married, have kids, grow old and die. No matter how the 'adults' tried to sell this reality as something that 'made sense', honestly, it didn't.

Embracing Spirituality was a breeze, as I said in my previous post, I was NOT born in the category of those who had access to everything one may desire and so, like many, one of the available 'choices' I could walk into that would give me the specialness I could not BUY for myself with Money, was Spirituality.

The PLUS of Spirituality were

it had a good name

people who were Spiritual and Poor were considered more than those just Poor

it seemed 'Noble'

it put some of this senseless existence into a workable framework, we were just passing through, the goodies were in the HereAfter, hang in there

And yet at the same time we spoke and shared the 'As Above So Below' theory, why didn't That Point Alone, make me wonder about the soundness of it All?

Well, I did not want to wonder, I came from wondering about the reason for existence, so anything that even meagerly could hold together -with a few pleats here and there,- as an explanation I would jump on it, I would take it and make it mine, "I am just passing through, I can endure 1 life here, I am not a Sissy, oh and byt the way, take notes, I am NOT coming back".

Looking into 'As Above So below' critically, it would have meant what it said, NO?

AS ABOVE, SO BELOW, it's pretty self explanatory.

So, let's consider Ascension, as a movement upward from the Below to the Above critically.

Who says we are not moving into the same ShitHole BUT Bigger?

How did we Imagine that Above were the goodies and below was the Shit and if we did manage to push ourselves to beLieve that, what would then be the qualifiers for the goodies if not accept our limited nature as a consequence of this reality, endure it to then then magically 'escape' from it vibrationally.

And if Below was the shit and Above the Goodies, wouldn't the below make for HELL and the Above for Heaven? Incidentally in Italian the word Hell is 'Inferno', which is rooted in 'INFER' from latin, which means, that stays BELOW. In English it means to 'come to a CON-clusion', such as INFERiority for example. Amazing the revealing coincidences in our language.

Is this familiar somehow? Oh yes right, that's what we believed through Religion, but Religions had too many holes to hold it together, so we dropped the Religious Holes, gave the BeLiefs an overall makeover and kept Heaven as the Above. We imagined it could have worked as long as we didn't become too fussy and digged into it as that would mean remembering we are in Hell and if we are in Hell we must have fallen from Above already, who guarantees we can get back up? What are the requirements to enter Heaven again? Is Heaven even Here and not just another Frequency Band with the same CONTENT? 

Are we HERE supposed to be doing something?

Is it possible that we are asked just to vibrate out of Here, is this a feasible, common sensicle approach to Reality? How many things have you witnessed 'vibrating' out of the Physical? Not One, right?

As a qualifier for Heaven, would it be a plus to have our Akashick Records take note of  the part that we vibrated out of here, leaving everyone behind, including the ones who don't even have access to Ascension information due to not being born in the right place at the right time?

Possibly NOT.

Many 'Teachers' of Ascension and Spirituality are piling up the Money with All these stories, they are Ascending All Right, from the Below as the No Money State they were born into, into the Above as Wealth, that would be the Only Proof of Ascension we have so far.  Which proves by the way that this Movement is anything but Abusive and taking advantage of the existing desire to get away with murder. Literally.

See the many idiosyncrasies within Spirituality, we profess to be ONE, and yet we get ready to leave The One as Self behind and not in fact stay and from our privileged position address what is going on Here, where we as The One seem to be stuck into some Mind delusion that we came to believe to be real, what would be an act of Godly behaviour that would bring Heaven Here for All Living beings?

For my current understanding, that would be taking responsibility for Creation, isn't that what a God/Creator would do, wouldn't the Creator make sure every living being is fine and cared for Equally as Himself/Herself, why do we have the guts to call ourselves Gods and Goddesses when our behaviour is anything but, when we would happily dump the 'less worthy' behind, isn't a Creator always One and Equal to his/her creation?

So when we decide who is not worthy of Life, are we worthy of Life? When we don't give Life to All, can we have Life for ourselves? When we stand in judgement of something that we created so much so that we want to leave the mess behind and move on, are we beyond judgement then?

Investigate this reality, we hold many absurd beliefs and we keep them in place within our desire to NOT become self responsible for the Whole as Self, and yet, the joke is that the power of God as Creator exists only in Self responsibility, as it should, would you like a bunch of psychopaths designing an existence where only some have it good and many suffer and struggle? 

My oh my, we did that already, didn't we, not as Creators but as Mind diseased Creatures whose apparent rights to self interest have taken over existence, and now we live in the Hell we created, stuck here, together, until we sort it out.

Educate yourself on how this world came about, on what are we doing here, get tools for self correction at Desteni, where knowledge is NOT held as a Power Tool against each other, NO, it is shared, so we may come to terms with what we have done and once we get over the shock, move to take our position as the Change we want to see in this World. 

Join us, walk your Journey to Life, it's free, you can start anytime.

Give to All the Life you want for yourself, will you be a Creator or a Slave? You decide.

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Day 149: I Don't Want To Go to Heaven

As we write our Journey to Life Blogs, Creation, Earth and Heaven are writing their as well.

How do I experience myself within reading those Blogs?

When I read Earth's Journey to Life blogs, I just see common sense, sometimes I react, mainly when I want to say things like 'come on, this is not important, with the kind of mess we are in, this is menial' but I can work those feelings and emotion out and go back to the Blog consistently as I have seen how supportive it has been to open up Characters for myself.

When I read Creation's Journey to Life, I have ups and downs, basically like when I read Earth's but more accentuated, and I experience myself as on a continuous ride as what I believed I had grasped the day before I have to question again today in relation to another point, so I would say destabilizing but again, like when I get a painful massage, that kind of sour pain that I know 'it's good for me'

Then comes Heaven, I definitely don't want to go to Heaven!

So I decided to look at why when I sit down to read Heaven's Blogs I have so much resistance coming up, even though I find them very interesting, the ones I can understand and where I don't lose myself in word loops, I have tried talking to myself about it and reminding myself how much I enjoy them once I start reading, and yet, when I sit down, I fiddle, then I want to read the news first, then have a glass of water and spend 1 hour in the kitchen and some evenings I do so much that I manage to successfully forget to read them just to pile them up, with the anxiety that goes with 'being behind' to then have a marathon to bring myself up to date.

So what is it that I resist about Heaven's Blogs?

One point that I have seen clearly with Eqafe Material as well is that I resist anything that spells out that I am a robot and tries to explain the in depth mechanics of how we function.

I find this news to be the hardest I had to swallow since joining Desteni, not because I have in any way a doubt that I am not, just because there is a part of this Creation story that I find horrifying, terrible, scary and if possible I don't want to know about it, I don't want the gory details of how machine-like we have become because I secretly treasure all my other beliefs about how 'special we are' and that we were created by a loving and benevolent God and the gap between my previous knowledge and this information is so wide that when I attempt to close it I fear to fall into the crack to just never come back.

I have done the traditional cracking at the beginning, the shock and the trauma and then I began to be scared of being traumatised again, not knowing how much more trauma can I take in one life about myself and who I am as looking at myself as a machine is Not Cool and doesn't make me feel good about myself, in fact it makes me feel like shit, even though I came to this path by logic in a way, having seen humanity on an automated path and patterns of self destruction, automated like in automaton such as robotic, without tools for Self correction that I only found trough Desteni.

So basically, I don't want to go to Heaven, because Hell as where I am and what I know seems better, seems safer, and because every time I read one of these blogs the first thoughts that come up is the utter cruelty of this creation and the utter disrespect for Humanity as I see the suffering that yes, may be self inflicted, but we did not come here with an instruction manual and so what I don't want to face in Heaven's blog is the anger that I feel, the desire to kick down walls and shake the Creators while I shout 'how the fuck comes you could not see where all this was leading, you omnipotent, omniscient God of my Ass?' and guess what? Back to square one and the Righteousness of the Atlanteans, still holding the fucking grudge for having ended up here at the bottle neck of creation, the ''I' of the Needle to just have to walk back the whole Creation up to point Zero and face the truth, Creator, Creation and Created as One and Equal.

Tomorrow I Will walk my self forgiveness for the existential rage and the desire to not face the point that we are walking the consequences of what we set in motion while we were not self responsible Creators from the starting point of Oneness and Equality as What is Best for All.

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Day 142: I'll name My Price All Right!

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that only the things I don't enjoy doing should be paid, because if I am enjoying myself I am not Really working and I should not be paid for what I do

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that working must be a nuisance that we pretend to do as I have associate my grandma taking naps when she was working at home in the afternoon and asking me to 'lie about it' if her boss should call during nap time, with 'working' and what working is as something we should  default and rather take a nap, on the preference list of things to do

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to, since I had negative judgements about napping because I was always forced in kindergarten and elementary school to take a nap, and even when I said "I don't want to", "I am not tired", I would be asked to lie down close my eyes and 'rest' and therefore turned napping into the ultimate waste of time and life, to then when I associated napping to being better than working, perceive work as something that I must dislike MORE than napping and therefore every time I enjoyed what did I could not  call it working and I should in fact, not be paid for it

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think that it was awkward that my mum would want to pay me for doing things I would have done for free, like swapping winter and summer closets at the end of the seasons because I had a neat and organized mind to carry out such works and enjoyed doing it, while she was attempting to teach me that what we do must be paid for, because this is how we sustain ourselves in this Money based world and yet every time I enjoyed what I was doing, I felt awkward to be paid for it

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe I am strange because I actually enjoy everything I do once I start doing it, even caring for a home or cleaning but because I always had to justify why people paid me to do what I did, I started to pretend that working was hard and all consuming like it seemed for everyone else around me who talked and nagged about it

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel guilty when I enjoy something I am doing and I am paid for, because I believe that 'to be honest' I should not enjoy what I am doing since this is the reason why people are paying me and others for, to do what we don't enjoy doing, and that it is dishonest to in fact enjoy myself when I am paid to NOT enjoy myself because this is what work is

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that when I am asked to 'Name my Price' I have to be careful to not ask too much because I could end up not doing what I enjoy doing, which is more or less everything and I have to be careful to not ask too much in case people resent my request and don't allow me to do what I enjoy doing for money

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to associate 'name your price' to prostitution, because this was the first mention on "women selling themselves" that I heard, which I have associated to everything I do for money that I would happily do for free but I can't because I need the money to live now, and so I have to reconcile with this work/money point because is a limitation that I am imposing on myself just because of a few oddities I have picked up along the way that I can let go to realign myself to be an effective human being within the system to do what is best for me as best for All as in overcoming my self imposed limitations

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to, since I associated women on sale to being a bad thing as in prostitution, to not want and resist 'selling myself' for a job, instead of seeing and realizing that it was me judging and defining working as 'selling myself' and not as putting my labor in the system for money for now and then I will do the same for What is Best for All when the New System will allow it

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge prostitution as 'bad' because I picked up on the raised eyebrows, judgements and resistance of people around me talking about it, instead of seeing that prostitution is in fact a very honest job, since it's the only job in which someone sells what they really own that has not been manufactured through slave/children labour or other abusive means and that the only thing that makes it unfortunate is that it is not a choice job as it is not chosen but is the last resort of women who have been left at the fringe of society without entry to the Money system that sell their body, because honestly, who would like to sell their body if one would have enough to live and provide for their family?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist "selling myself" in an attempt to not prostitute myself to this system of abuse, failing to see that at the moment we are all prostituting ourselves to live, because we have made this planet into a living Hell where Life is for Sale and no Life is for Free at the moment, not even the Elite's because they are enslaved to this system of Fear just as much as we are, as We Fear for our own survival and they Fear to lose what they have and have to Fear for their own survival

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to not have to 'name my price' but instead to have my price named for me, even though, due to my desire to NOT take responsibility for myself I had to face many times the point that no one can put my interest before theirs in a system of survival and that I myself do not put their interest before mine when I refuse to Name my price, I am just hoping that they will name a price High Enough for Me to be happy with so I won't have to face the point of 'naming my price' and how I experience myself within this point

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel disappointed when people 'named my price' and the price was too low and I felt devalued by their low offer for the price of me, because I have accepted and allowed myself to associate my worth to the amount of Money I can make/ earn as a 'living' in separation from myself as Self Worth, instead of seeing the simple point of giving a service/work I get paid for that has nothing to do with my worth or my value

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that 'living' means making money, because if I have to 'earn a living' than my living is equal and one to the amount of money I earn, instead of seeing and realizing no one can make a 'living' because we are already Alive, we are just going out to get the money we need to function within this system because it's practical and it's part of the self support we owe to ourselves in this Money based system that we now have to walk as the consequences of all the other stupid decision we made through eons of time that led us here

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to imprint myself with all the 'make a living' bullshit that my family passed on to me, as a point of value I should seek for myself, instead of seeing and realizing that they were just passing on their fears that if I were not to become effective within the system I would not be able to live because we have turned this world into a Live or Let Die place, where Life is for Sale but we never want to just spell that point out right, because we fear to have to face what we created of this world so much, that we pass on the 7th generations fears to the children to teach them to fear the system and not being able to live without 'making a living', as none of these Fears have been resolved and transcended by the children caretakers themselves but just passed on through words of 'parental add-vice'

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to, when asked to name my price, feel a tightening in my solar plexus, stop breathing as my mind jumps into all directions while I try to compare myself to what is available on the market, to who is asking, how much they can pay and how I should ask for it, instead of breathing and just stating my price that I believe to be fair for the excellent work that I know I can do, stopping seeking justifications through comparison to why I should be paid so much, because when I do I start the fault finding game to prove to myself that I am better/superior/more than others and that is why I deserve MORE than them

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to justify how much I think is a fair price and the price I want for the work/service I give instead of seeing and realizing that if I have to justify myself is because I have doubts about deserving that amount for what I do, and that I always then FEAR that, since I cannot even justify to myself why I should earn more than another, because I went into the comparison game looking for reasons as to why the price I want to ask is right, and within that discovered many are paid much less and so somehow instead of seeing and realizing that is because we are all playing this game to the bottom trying to secure a job for ourselves out of fear of survival, that we have reduced the market place to a place where we are happy to take on slave jobs for nothing as we believe we have 'outsmarted' the competition by asking less, instead of all of us being Value Worth conscious as Self Value and Self Worth and holding our ground for what we are worth, which would have given birth to a complete different working game and not the slavery game we are now facing as the consequence of outsmarting each other in a race to the bottom

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I cannot 'name my price', and that I must be ashamed of the price I want to ask and who do I think I am wanting to be paid more than another, and yet if I did not compare myself to another and just asked what I saw as fair for what I do as a work or a service, I would not go through shame or guilt as I would be doing my own thing as what is best for All, because is certainly NOT best for All to race each other to the bottom, but would be best for All to see that we are worthy of good wages and a job we enjoy doing, otherwise we are becoming by our own doing the slave force of this capitalistic System, without even realizing we got where we got through our own fears and our own doing

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to, when I am asked to 'name my price', move into fear, that godonlyknows, what if I name the 'wrongprice' as if there is such a thing as a wrong price and not just a price I have set, which is not wrong or right, and it doesn't become wrong even when someone refuses my request, it's just not a match to the budget they had for the position they wished to cover

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resent men who were paid more than me, double than me and for secretly backchatting them to diminish them in my eyes, so I would not have to feel the experience of diminishment and of being worthless by comparison, instead of seeing and realizing that I never resented others but just myself for having 'named my price' so cheap just because I had hang ups about naming a Fair Price for what I do as work or services

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that if I don't get the price I want, I am worthless because, since I associated my worth and value with the money I can generate as a 'living' when my price is not met it means I do not have that worth and value any longer and now I have to go and seek value for myself somewhere else, which is one of the reasons why I dislike naming my price, instead of seeing and realizing that meeting my price has many factors attached to it that have nothing to do with me or my self worth and value, unless I give it up and invest my worth and value into an 'idea of Worth and value that is translated into a money number' that when is not met leaves me feeling worthless

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that my work is priceless, which is in fact what happens when I am asked to name my price 'I am Price-less' as I believe my work is superior in every possible way due to the way my mind processes information and the work flow of operations in sequences of priorities that are unmatched by the people I have worked with so far, and yet wanting to be Price-less leaves me without a price to name when I am asked to name a price, which then leaves me feeling Worth-less as I tumble down from the Priceless Podium on which I had built myself within comparison and competition to the worthlessness of being Price-Less as Worth-Less

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see that in a World where everything has a Price, being Price-Less is associated in my Mind with being Worth-Less, as I lack the Price tag to define me and place me where the system believes and insists I belong according to my Price Tag, which I am the Only One to name, and so as I accepted and allowed myself to believe it was the system allocating me, this was not true, it was me through my acceptance and allowance of my Worth as Price, which is why I resisted to 'name My price' in Fear that once I named it I was fucked into some system layers from which I would never be able to escape, failing to see I was the one doing the whole Role Playing as I sought for my worth and value outside of myself in separation from myself as the Price tag I did not want to name just out of FEAR

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to FEAR naming my Price, in Fear of my own definition of Myself and what I believed and though 'I was really Worth', instead of seeing and realizing I feared naming my price because I feared seeing that I had misplaced my Value and Worth onto a price Tag that I did not want to Name to Not see what is the worth and Value of me, according to ME

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that unless I am Price-Less, I am Worth-Less and yet the conundrum is quite clear, do I have a price for my work and services or not? Because if I am Price-Less then I Have to Work for Free, and yet I see realize and understand that this is NOT possible within this physical reality at the moment in the way things are set up, so I better pull myself together, stop being Price-Less so I can 'Name My Price' and be content with it when I engage in a new job or in giving a service/work for which I have clearly within myself set a Price for

When and as I see myself being asked to Name My Price and I feel the tightening in the solar plexus, I stop, breathe, remind myself that if I had not anticipated being asked and if I don't know what is offered and required of me it is acceptable to ask what would my services/work entail and then decide what price I am content with that I see as fair for myself, stopping to worry about If They will see it as fair as they will have their own responsibility to see what they can afford for what they are asking for and I have to see what I am willing to do for what price and without comparison to anything else, state My price

When and as I see myself trying to move into the Mind to find reasons why what I ask is fair, which is the step before I move into Comparison and Competition and attempt to bring everyone down to justify my higher worth and value, I stop, breathe, remind myself I no longer want to participate in comparison and competition and that My Price is not dependent on Comparison and Competition but on what I am willing to do for what price, without on the spot or later go comparing myself to other wages just to feel diminished if I discover someone earns more than me as in 'they are more valuable than me'

When and as I see myself desiring to compare 'values and worth' with others in the same business or in the same company, hoping to come out the winner, I stop, breathe, remind myself what a losing game comparison and competition is and I keep walking my self directive decision in self responsibility for the choices I made and the Price I myself named for my work and services

I commit myself to stop the comparison and competition game regarding the point of 'naming my price' as it is ME naming My price and so there is none else responsible for what I name as my Price once I am offered a job or required a service

I commit myself to assess what a job or a service entails before I Name my Price, so that a clear communication is exchanged about my potential role and the Money I ask for it, to avoid further misunderstanding or tensions down the line once I make a decision

I commit myself to walk my decision in self honesty and self responsibility, stopping the blame of others for having what I did not have the guts to ask for, and instead ask for what I want to have that I see as the fair price for the services and job I have been requested or offered

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