Day 306: Capitalism is NOT the Best System We Have

Anyone familiar with system or systematization understands that when engineering a system that is meant to manage something, the system MUST take into account all its parts.

If I design an engine and I only care about fuel management I may have a reduction in performance, if I only care about performance I may have an unreasonable increase in fuel consumption, if I only care about design I may overlook the best functionality I could access if I did not and on it goes.

The only place where we have blatantly failed is the system we have 'chosen' to manage our Lives, the Earth resources, the Planet, our relationship to each others and to all living beings sharing this planet with us.

This has gotten worse over time, maybe we can understand this problem better if we look at the Medical Field, when I was a kid I had a family doctor, she understood everything, when in doubt she would first give me something to purge, no heavy duty medicines, no special exams, she knew what kids get and do and how to deal with it, if I overate she told me to stop doing that, she would not give me tablets to digest, she was too holistic to be fooled and not specialized enough to be mislead.

Now that I have grown up I hear more and more often of people going on pilgrimages to doctors, they are bounced from one specialist to another, a simple bump on a hand is transformed into a national issue for which special costly exams must be done at the cost of taxpayers who end up footing the bill for our split skills and abilities to see the whole picture, basically, as we have become accustomed to, those at the bottom keep paying for the mistakes of those at the top.

Becoming overspecialized is just another form of separation,, we have lost the ability to see the big picture, to see all the parts of a picture, now we have Economists, Financiers, Wall Streeters, Bankers, Big Corporations, each piece is just playing their own music, as if it didn't affect anyone else, the prompt word is PROFIT at all Costs, and as such we fail to see that those Costs are Real, that someone is paying for them even though it may not be us.

When we use Food as a Commodity, as a mean to move Money at the Top, we overlook those at the bottom that will pay the price to go without, when we privatize water implying that those who don't have money can''t drink or have sanitation, we overlook our humanity, we miss out on the potential of considering that if Water is Vital, no one can own it because it belongs to All.

This problem started with the ownership of Land,  stating to be opposed to this will most certainly cause an uproar and yet there has been a time when the land belonged to all and so did the water, when we understood what could be own-ed and what could not, there was a chance to live for all. With time we created better and better ways to restrict those rights, basic living rights, the process has been so consistent and overall reaching that we came to believe that the abnormality of how we handle the world, its resources and the living right of all, is the new Normality.

Insane is the new normal.

We prove this for example every time we say something like 'Capitalism is The Best System we have got', oh yeah? For whom?

Amazingly, to this we should answer just a bunch of people and yet we all live the delusion that we would crash without it, terrible things would befall us if we attempted to change, like what? The sky would open up and swallow us? All hell would break loose? Incidentally for the latter it's way too late, All Hell has already broken loose, we have just not noticed yet.

We have polluted the air we breathe, our water resources, our food, our medical system, we breed crazy sciences like Psychology to manage the outflows of our accepted new crazy, or Economics, a spastic field that is unable to consider the effective management of a system of distribution that would benefit all.

But even though we insist that there is No Choice, we have a choice in fact, we can make a slow return to sanity by acknowledging we made a mistake, no one can manage a whole system within broken and conflicting ideologies, we are attempting the impossible.

We need to return to an whole-istic view of ourselves and the Planet, to consider that no system is perfect unless it consider all of its parts and what would be best for each one, we are not accustomed to think this way or see the world this way, this doesn't make it impossible. Who thought we could go on the moon before we did it?

We could start with getting to the root problem of how and why do we justify the idea that some must die so this system may live on, this is not negative propaganda, the dying people are real, desperation is a fact unlike the make belief props we use to exchange Life for Money and from there see if we can cross the divide that exists in our mind between our reasoning that excuse My Life as Worthier than another and re-think the whole system, We Can include all its parts, it will take us some time to redefine a worthy existence for all but it will be worth the effort to get over our limiting belief that 'this is the best we have' in the face of close to 3 billion living below the poverty line, because THAT is truly mad and not even close to the best we can do when we step up to acknowledge the Same Equal Value to All Living Beings.

A new wystem is being redesigned for this purpose, get involved, cast your vote, spread the news, we don't have to live this way, we are making a choice, albeit manipulated, we can make another One to realign to Life and what is Best for All.

Equal Money, to return Value to Life on Earth for All Living Beings.

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Day 305: Life - A Title on the Stock Market

It is hard to imagine Lives getting better for All.

We resist the idea of a system that would support everyone Equally, regardless of their gender, culture, education or starting personal wealth. It is unheard of in fact.

This is why my mum perceived herself somehow as unwillingly dragged into the idea of Equal Money, not because she would not like everyone's lives getting better, she just fears hers getting worse. 

It is the logical consequence of having accepted a system of winners and losers, we hears the sayings 'some win some lose', we know that 'you can't always win', that 'winner takes all', we under-stand the idea that not everyone can have it good, we have become this idea in the flesh.

So, the winners, those who somehow managed to get access to a dignified life, including those who barely made it there, fear that having everyone's life improve would mean that something 'has got to give', that We might have to give something up of what we managed to store away through a life of sacrifices within a model of  Mutually Agreed Abuse.

In a way, as sad as it is to bcome aware of it, we don't want others out of the Rat Race, we want to stay Equally Rats or Slaves, even when a chance to buy back our freedom by granting to all others a dignified life presents itself, we have to battle with our internal psycopath that states that 'since I had it hard to earn what I have, now I am worth More than those who didn't', we fail to see that what we are actually doing is to glorify the abuse we had to endure to justify why we accepted and allowed it to just then pass it on.

One interesting discussion took place with my mum, as she stood for her right to a dignified life, she found logical to insist that those who did not endure what she had to endure to earn her same dignified life and, for example, wasted their wealth at the beach -that would be me on my Law of Attraction delusional trips by the way- should not be granted her same rights, it was interesting to see how we go about manipulating the words we use to make them sound right(eous), common sensical, because it's OBVIOUS that those that have not slaved should not be granted a Life, as not have access to Money, which has become the entrance key to the Pantry of the Earth resources such as food and water, electricity as heating, healthcare as being able to take care of one's body -is in fact a condemnation to Death, a real Death Sentence, we have Mind Dichotomies in which some can't imagine Abortion or Death Penalty but we can gingerly go about saying that not everyone has the same right to Live, to Life because granting that to all would diminish Me, my efforts, my precious accepted Slavery and this is not conceivable or computable and therefore we will not take a chance to see the possibilities of a New World, we won't allow ourselves to consider being diminished or belittled in this Casino of an Existence, we are treating Life like a Title on the Stock market, the more Titles are put on the market, the less value MY 'dignified life' has and as such, I rather have some starve and die than give up my exclusivity, not forgetting that 'I earned what I have', meaning I did accept my Economic Slavery and By God, you'll accept Yours, you won't get away with it!

SO, let's ask each other this simple question 'do we think that there is anyone in the world that doesn't deserve the right to live?', then a blip of 'cannot compute' goes off, because no one in their right mind would want to be the kind of person that says such a thing and in that moment we become aware at some level that we are holding conflicting beliefs about what is The Right to Life in a world that can't guarantee a job for all and refuses to give a basic income to live to all, just because we don't want to push beyond our imaginary Mind limitations and expand ourselves and, with that, all others to a new way to live together in Harmony and Peace.

Maybe something that can help us walk through this point is the recognition of our Slavery, yes it sucks to see how we have fooled ourselves about being Free, if we could see for real how we are all indebted to ourselves, to each other and then to this system, we would consider solutions to break free, we would consider that those that are not in a position to access the money system have not all been on the beach like me for some time, some have slaved without a pay, some don't even know that there could be another way to live and so this task falls on those who have the ability to see that there is no reason to chain others to the same chains we endured, we can All Break Free Together, redesign a system that works for all, that considers that nothing can be excluded from Life as that would exclude us from it and push ourselves to learn what it would mean to give to others what we would like for ourselves vs forcing others within the same slave system we endured and sacrificed for.

A lot of for-giveness is thus required, to for-give to everyone, including ourselves, to for-give back to ourselves our sorry lives and as we forgive what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to live, others won't have to live it too and yes, some who find themselves at the end of their Life cycle might resist the idea because there may be no chance that we will see this new system through, but if we want change just so we can benefit from it, it's not the Change that is required. The required Change is to will in place a Global change for all regardless of how 'I' may benefit from it and that will be the key to Life, as we grant to others Life, so we shall be Life too and our pasts will be for-given and on their ruins we will build a New World to be done with Slavery forever to never, ever, look back.

EqualMoney: the Life we said we dreamed about, available to All, no one excluded.

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Day 280: We Baptize Apples now, so They Won't go to Hell.

We are facing a new trend in Italy. We are naming Apples.

I am not sure about how this takes place, if they have daddy apple and mummy apple present when the naming takes place, I have not heard of Apple gatherings after Baptism where all Apples get together to eat and drink and be merry.

What I know for sure is that not All Apples are born Equals.

The 'Melindas' are more expensive than the 'Melasi'', 'Melasis' are born with some defects by the same manufacturer, but they don't satisfy our eye, so they have less value, 'Marlenes' are BIO, so they got a name for themselves, we couldn't let one producer take the market by storm by having a name just for themselves, so now soon, all our apples will have names, their names will tell us where they come from, who they are, their past, present and future, their name is their destiny. Why is that?

Just so, someone said they had a certain value, built a value for them and we believed them, so now to be chic, we will no longer buy vulgar nameless apples, we want to know their progeny and we want to pay More to get the baptized apples, because if we can afford to pay More for something, we have More Value, we buy our Value/Worth now on the street stalls just like everywhere else, but putting value on food through a name is quite a recent trend.

Are we showing something to ourselves?

What is it that is preventing us from seeing that All Apples were born Equal before we decided that they were not, oh wait, we do that with people too, we use names and other traits to define the value of some vs the value of others, and then we go and believe it. And force on the ones less worth (y) a specific predictable destiny, normally one we would not like for ourselves, but that is the price to pay to be born in a world where everything has a price, where Life has a price we must pay and is NOT given for free to All.

There is no reason to put a price tag on everything that exists if not because we have become worthless.

If we were clear about our value and worth as Life, we would never allow Life to be monetized, we would see no sense in doing such thing as putting a price on what was born price-less.

We live in a system that doesn't care for Life, we are this system and we don't care about Life, if we did we would tend to all Life expressions Equally because it would be clear to us, that there is no other value above Life and that everything that is here in and as support is given for free, for us to share with each other, we could be the keepers of each other and create a world that works for all, a Price-less world.

We see this as a possibility, although remote at the moment, there is a chance that we may wake up to the point of what is really valuable, we may even wake up and see we must have come to this point with some help, it's fathomable to imagine that someone led us here while we were sleeping and hoping to not have to take self responsibility for Our Creation, and in the process we have been monetized too, our lives have a price and is really cheap, we justify what we do in this world as a system that we were born into and can't be changed, it's cool to give up now and tell ourselves we are just transiting, what if we are due back here again until we sort this out?

Will we then enjoy the world that we left behind, a world of poverty and famine, of neglect and violence, of war and abuses, a world where we are deliberately making choices that do not include others, where if you are called Jose' you are worth less than Elizabeth, was our naming enough for us to not deliver us to Hell?

Apparently not, we have created Hell in our separation and now we believe Hell is the best we can do, when in fact we are just potential waiting to be molded, will we mold ourselves Pro Life or Pro profit?

We decide.

At Equal Money, we realize that everyone has the same Worth and we recognize that our Equal Value as Life must drive our choices, as Children of the same Earth.

Nothing stops us from being our Brothers Keepers but Us, We can Change and take the World as Us with us into a New Paradigm as Heaven on Earth for All. Join us.

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Day 209: 2012 Ascension - Can the Poor Ascend too?

The "Spiritual Movement' of Ascension denies any link with Money.

It is believable in a way, those with a Lot of Money don't want to go anywhere, Earth is the best place to be if you have loads of Money.

These are the things you can have with plenty Money:

Cool Abode

Great Meals

Servants

Champagne Sunday brunches

Holiday in Exotic destinations - with Servants

Travel first class or Private jets - Best Service

Coolest cars - with Drivers

Coolest gadgets to entertain yourself with

Access to Cult-ure - theatres, cinemas, eating out

Good looking women/ Toy Boys for pleasurable moments

Fake friends - plenty of these - does it matter they are fake, no because you are fake too.

Things you can access with limited Money:

Average Shelter 

Mediocre food

Mediocre education

Public transport

No servants 

A life of struggles 

AND ASCENSION TOOLS !

That is a One Way Ticket out of here, obviously you are NOT in the first list if you wish to ascend, if you are self honest you won't say 'you don't care about money' because with a little investigation you can see you care so much that you rather remove yourself from this experience than live a life of longing for all the 'Earthly Experiences' you don't have access to.

Did you know Ascension Island is a Place near St. Helena where Napoleon Bonaparte was exiled? 

NO, maybe you didn't, I didn't, that's the kind of education only people in the first list get while they learn to play piano/violin and speak 6 languages, mere mortal don't need to know where it is we are here 'on a need to know basis' only, we only need to know how to fit into the mold designed for us to keep the workings of the system functioning without questions.

Here some Trivia about it

Ascension Island is an isolated volcanic island in the equatorial waters of the South Atlantic Ocean, around 1,600 kilometres (1,000 mi) from the coast of Africa and 2,250 kilometres (1,400 mi) from the coast of South America, which is roughly midway between the horn of South America and Africa. It is governed as part of the British Overseas Territory of Saint Helena, Ascension and Tristan da Cunha,^[1] of which the main island, Saint Helena, is around 1,300 kilometres (800 mi) to the southeast. The territory also includes the "remotest populated archipelago" on earth, the sparsely populated Tristan da Cunha archipelago, some thirty degrees farther south and about half the way to the Antarctic Circle.

You won't be surprised to know it has all the amenities an Ascension-ist may desire, including a Pyramid Point and a Unicorn Point. Sure that Ascension is not just a trip into further confinement, ON THIS PLANET?

Things you Cannot access without Money:

Food, Water, Shelter, Education, Peace of Mind, Loving Feelings, Happiness, Ascension Tools!

because when you are dirt poor, you don't have a computer and most of the times you can't even read, so there is No way on Earth you can learn how many times you have to spin and twirl to raise your vibration, or breathing techniques, yoga poses, DNA activation, sacred geometry, sacred chanting, mantras, or that 'it's enough that you have good thoughts' which are apparently FREE but when you are hungry and homeless they may just be out of reach, don't you think?

So, the answer is NO, the Poor will not ascend, they lack the Tools, they will be left behind but not to worry, the Acsension-ists are so enlightened that have an explanation for that, they KNOW the Poor are in some Karmic payback Earthly experience, they deserved what they got, THEY, what about those that did not get to access everything the Rich have access to?

Who says they are NOT in a Karmic pay back experience, a mediocre one and not a full blown in your face dirt poor one, and if they are, how do they know they are scheduled for Ascension FOR SURE? 

One has to wonder....

We are 2 weeks away from "A" day, could be Ascension, could be Armageddon, could be neither.

We might wake up on the 22nd December and find out we are All Still Here. What then?

Then we'll have to consider to give this up, there won't be an Ascension, there won't be Armageddon, Earth has committed to stick through this process for our awakening to our responsibility. When all else fails, can we consider THAT, or will we come up with New dates, push the envelope further just so to make sure we won't have to, we won't have to LOOK at this world in Horror and recognize that we are Here and as such, we are All responsible for it, if we were not we would be somewhere else, in the 4th dimension, the 5th, the 22nd and not stuck together on an ailing living planet that has so patiently waited out the moment when all excuses would fail and we would be left with the Truth.

The Truth is that We are the Problem Here, yes, and as such we must become the Solution.

Stop All Mind delusions to return to Earth and Face with us what we have done.

A new system is being proposed to stop all abuses and suffering, it's Here, if we come back Here too we may be able to see it, face the Shame of our own existence and get down to fixing this Mess we find ourselves as and in. The Mirror can't change until We Change.

Investigate Equal Money to give Life to All Equally, so no one will want to leave the Planet anymore and we can bring Heaven to Earth for All, as One, as Equal.

Find support for Self Change to overcome our nature of self interest and greed at Desteni, anyone who sees their responsibility to Change is welcome on the Forums.

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Day 149: I Don't Want To Go to Heaven

As we write our Journey to Life Blogs, Creation, Earth and Heaven are writing their as well.

How do I experience myself within reading those Blogs?

When I read Earth's Journey to Life blogs, I just see common sense, sometimes I react, mainly when I want to say things like 'come on, this is not important, with the kind of mess we are in, this is menial' but I can work those feelings and emotion out and go back to the Blog consistently as I have seen how supportive it has been to open up Characters for myself.

When I read Creation's Journey to Life, I have ups and downs, basically like when I read Earth's but more accentuated, and I experience myself as on a continuous ride as what I believed I had grasped the day before I have to question again today in relation to another point, so I would say destabilizing but again, like when I get a painful massage, that kind of sour pain that I know 'it's good for me'

Then comes Heaven, I definitely don't want to go to Heaven!

So I decided to look at why when I sit down to read Heaven's Blogs I have so much resistance coming up, even though I find them very interesting, the ones I can understand and where I don't lose myself in word loops, I have tried talking to myself about it and reminding myself how much I enjoy them once I start reading, and yet, when I sit down, I fiddle, then I want to read the news first, then have a glass of water and spend 1 hour in the kitchen and some evenings I do so much that I manage to successfully forget to read them just to pile them up, with the anxiety that goes with 'being behind' to then have a marathon to bring myself up to date.

So what is it that I resist about Heaven's Blogs?

One point that I have seen clearly with Eqafe Material as well is that I resist anything that spells out that I am a robot and tries to explain the in depth mechanics of how we function.

I find this news to be the hardest I had to swallow since joining Desteni, not because I have in any way a doubt that I am not, just because there is a part of this Creation story that I find horrifying, terrible, scary and if possible I don't want to know about it, I don't want the gory details of how machine-like we have become because I secretly treasure all my other beliefs about how 'special we are' and that we were created by a loving and benevolent God and the gap between my previous knowledge and this information is so wide that when I attempt to close it I fear to fall into the crack to just never come back.

I have done the traditional cracking at the beginning, the shock and the trauma and then I began to be scared of being traumatised again, not knowing how much more trauma can I take in one life about myself and who I am as looking at myself as a machine is Not Cool and doesn't make me feel good about myself, in fact it makes me feel like shit, even though I came to this path by logic in a way, having seen humanity on an automated path and patterns of self destruction, automated like in automaton such as robotic, without tools for Self correction that I only found trough Desteni.

So basically, I don't want to go to Heaven, because Hell as where I am and what I know seems better, seems safer, and because every time I read one of these blogs the first thoughts that come up is the utter cruelty of this creation and the utter disrespect for Humanity as I see the suffering that yes, may be self inflicted, but we did not come here with an instruction manual and so what I don't want to face in Heaven's blog is the anger that I feel, the desire to kick down walls and shake the Creators while I shout 'how the fuck comes you could not see where all this was leading, you omnipotent, omniscient God of my Ass?' and guess what? Back to square one and the Righteousness of the Atlanteans, still holding the fucking grudge for having ended up here at the bottle neck of creation, the ''I' of the Needle to just have to walk back the whole Creation up to point Zero and face the truth, Creator, Creation and Created as One and Equal.

Tomorrow I Will walk my self forgiveness for the existential rage and the desire to not face the point that we are walking the consequences of what we set in motion while we were not self responsible Creators from the starting point of Oneness and Equality as What is Best for All.

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Day 144: Deleting the Hatchet Consultant/Director

Deleting:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create a Character that wants to get rid of inept people at work because they stand in the way of the Company performance

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge people as The Money System, as in profitable or not profitable and for desiring to trash all the non profitable ones

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that the value of a being at work is related to how he performs and that when he under-performs or when I have an opinion about his/her lazy attitude they should be trashed because they are of no use to the system as efficient cogs in the machine, instead of seeing that we All have Equal value as Life and no one should be trashed out of their lifeline because they have not aligned to 'system requirements'

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that people must perform 'well' at work to be of any value because the ones that did not were discarded and I feared being discarded and trashed and experiencing myself as devalued

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that some people who are incompetent and arrogant should just be kicked out of a company, instead of seeing and realizing they have become arrogant because they are incompetent and they fear to lose their jobs and their right to live as a job within this system means the ability to make money and buy one's place within the system

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear being labeled as arrogant and incompetent, especially if the two are paired together

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make up my mind about people and how they work and once I have made up my mind about their ineptitude I just look for proofs that they are inept beyond repair and they have to be disposed, because I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that a good manager gets rid of the dead weight inside a company to gain the respect of other employees who are carrying some of the dead weight's workload

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I don't care to be hated at work, when in fact I desire to be loved and one way I go about it is to trash and throw out of the company the people that I see have become a source of discontent, because it would require more time for me to help and support them to correct themselves within a working environment for which I perceive I am responsible and because I believe that people 'just don't change'

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to, once I step into the Hatchet Consultant Character, just no longer see any common sense, such as, can this guy/lady make a living out of here or should we keep him/her because he can't make a living and help and support him/her to find a way to give his best even within a tedious routine oriented environment, because this is what we are working with at the moment and unless he/she aligns with it he/she will have to leave, if not through me, through someone above me

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel irritated once I have made up my mind as the Hatchet Character about somebody and the time for 'off with the head' has come, if someone at the last moment steps in in their defence, and to perceive this movement as a betrayal as in something personal against me and my authority "what do you mean, I am doing this FOR YOU as well, why are YOU doing this to me?"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel uneasy about thinking to throw someone out of the company and for seeing that I could just step into my Hatchet Director Character where all guilt goes away, because I am just doing my job and there is nobody that can save such a dumbass from himself/herself if at his/her age he has not yet understood how to toe the line and carry his share of the shitload

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resent the ones that resist leaving the company once I have decided they should no longer be there, because come on, you know what YOU are doing, and NOT doing that is creating this situation, so why are you resisting the inevitable, instead of just packing your things and leaving and maybe start afresh in a new job, ah yes, you are resisting because this job is your only chance to live, too bad, you created this for yourself, move along, we have work to do here

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire that once I have identified someone to be hatched when I move into a company, that they too should agree with me, making my job less unpleasant, because I don't like getting rid of people who need a job to live and who have a family, and so I have to force myself to not think about these points or the difficulties he/she may encounter once out of the company, because I am just doing my job

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create a Hatchet Consultant Character, as I saw that people's jobs were not guaranteed and there was nothing safe in this world, and it was better to cross the line and move among the ones that do the Hatching than be among the ones Hatched, so basically I created this Character out of Fear of one day losing my job

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become possessed by the Hatchet Character, in which times I cannot hear any reason or have no Self Will to stop myself to consider the other person because I have launched myself into a mission, Hatching, and whatever follows afterward is of no relevance to me because I have made up my mind, meaning I am in full possession as the Hatchet Consultant/Director

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that, if I do the Hatching of the dead weights once I step into the Company, I will get respect and will promote a fearful situation where people will fear to lose their job around me if they under-perform or are just lazy bums and everything will run more smoothly for everybody

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that promoting Fear among the People who need a job to 'make a living' is an act of cruelty and that if I am in a position of leadership I should promote a Fear Free environment as what is best for All, as in no one is left behind as the assurance that everyone's job is in fact guaranteed, and help and support the ones who are slower or less efficient to catch up so that they won't lose their jobs by my hand or by someone above me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that having respect in the workplace is important and that whatever I need to do to get that respect is acceptable, because one needs "respect" to manage other people and since 'respect' is a working tool I am justified in what I have to do to get unconditional respect as a tool to operate smoothly within the company

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that Respect is best and most easily obtained through Fear, because my mother used Fear to get my respect and I actually did not respected her but hated her quietly and suppressed everything inside pretending respect to stay out of trouble

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to repeat my family's behaviour and opinions and delusions about 'respect' and how to get it and for dreading not having it from the people I was supposed to manage, because how can I manage without respect?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that we need 'respect' for management, which basically is an admission of inferiority that I try to balance out while I stand in the company hierarchy as above/superior and so demanding by the Right of the Hierarchy to be respected as More and Above and not One and Equal to all the workers within the company

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that leadership means being MORE and Above others, because one leads from the front and who is in front is first, the winner and the others are just the losers who have to tag along on the road that I design for them to walk on

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge people as more or less according to how much money they make and what position they cover within a company's hierarchical chart

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see everyone as an Equal because I bought into the idea that some people are more important than others within a company according to how much money they make and the position they cover, because we are not all born equals and we are not equals anywhere and a Boss is more than an employee, it's obvious or he/she would not be The Boss

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to tell my staff 'don't call me Boss' playing out a fake Equality which was clearly never there, because the Hatchet Character believes she has the right of life and death over people and their jobs and their right to 'make a living/surviving in the system'

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to secretly enjoy when my staff called me Boss and to enjoy as well telling them to not call me Boss as an Act of Grandeur, as I gave up -apparently-my right to superiority and power for fake Equality as a point of Value

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to live in fear of losing a job, since I was once fired when I was 17 and run away to Ireland and they offered me a job in a Fish and Chips shop, and I stole chocolate because I believed they paid me shit and I was entitled to at least have access to the chocolate bars as a compensation, and when it fell from my pockets as I was going out and I faced that moment of utter shame, I decided I was never going to feel that way again and I would do anything in my power to grow to the other side of the power line to never ever be in a position to be laid off and experience myself the same way again

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to, since I suppressed this memory as far as possible to never relive the shame and guilt I felt, not remember or see that whenever I would do this to another I would in fact subject them to the same guilt and shame, and yet I did not care because the point was always that I should never experience myself that way, the others, if by their age have not managed to catch up and work out the system, they could fuck off

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to live one and equal to the shame and guilt of that moment in which I was found out for stealing chocolate bars, not because I stole, but because I became exposed and could not deny that I did steal the chocolate bars or explain why I got to the point of feeling entitled because I was overworked and paid peanuts in a shitty job and so I was left with my shame and guilt I chocked back all the way until I got back home

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make up stories about why I was right and they were wrong to lay me off, because they should have seen that I deserved more money or chocolate bars in the lieu of money, instead they kept pulling the rope until it broke, instead of owning up to the fact that I should have asked for what I thought I deserved and not bottle up just to come to a point of entitlement in my own mind in which there was no reasonable doubt that I in fact was not stealing but squaring the books, except when the owner of the fish and chip shop looked at the fallen chocolate bars and then at me like 'what the fuck were you thinking?'

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that when something proves me wrong, I have to make up a story to prove me right, instead of seeing and realizing how it was that I drove myself to the point of entitlement, which is a pattern I have lived out again and again that even though I did not play out in the same way, left me feeling the same, frustrated, overworked and underpaid, until I would leave my jobs , no mater what they offered me to stay because I always took the point that 'they did not give me what I deserved' as Their fault and Not my responsibility to state my price clearly and not rely on others to read my Mind or to guesstimate what value I have in Mind that would make me feel justly paid, that I don't wish to communicate

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to do to others what I did not enjoy done onto me, stepping into a company just to revamp it and redesigning logistics and responsibilities and within this believing that it was my duty to get rid of the dead weight, while I kept playing out the reversal of my moment of shame and guilt, trying to get even with the world so I would no longer be the only one carrying such shame and guilt, all done through a Character, the Hatchet, because if I would stop and see the consequences into other people lives I would have made different decisions both about the words I spoke and about the stand I took to reduce the useless and inept staff

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that what I did showed my strength as a woman, that they should not fuck with us since we had more balls than all the men within a company that wanted, wished some staff fired but did not have the balls to do it, but I did, failing to see that maybe the men for whom their identity is so invested in their careers, just did not want to do to others what was unbearable for them which made me in fact the only one wanting people out of companies into the street, so I could even out the book from when I perceived myself as bad, to now perceiving myself as good as in having the kind of power that makes or break someone's present and future.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to carry my Hatching deeds or prospect Hatching deeds as a badge of honour that proved I was one not to fuck with at work, instead of seeing and realizing I had just slipped into Corporatism and Capitalism up to my neck, believing and accepting that Money is more important and above Life, because around me my Life was never respected, but when I had money in my pocket All games changed and so Money was obviously More Powerful/Important than Life, because without Money you die, oops, even without Life you Die, in fact when you no longer have a physical body that is when you are really dead and Gone, I just did not see it that way at the time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that some people that I have pushed out of a company or just compensated and asked them to leave, just asked for it, deserved it, just because they were slow and did not get how it is to become efficient in the system so your job is secured, and for never developing the mercy to see that in a system where Job=Money and Money=Life, it would have been my responsibility to stand in and as support instead of in and as the hand that severed their lifeline to the system

I commit myself to delete the Hatchet Consultant Character because it doesn't support Life or What is best for All

I commit myself to, if I should ever cover such a position of Power again, investigate all ways through which I can support and help someone to grow enough to hold his place effectively within the system, not by doing their jobs and creating credits for myself inside of me, but by helping them to see how we work on timelines and priorities regarding production and organization, to share my knowledge regarding office efficiency without reserve and unconditionally until the other person can walk the point effectively by themselves

I commit myself to support All Life, within and without the working environment, by walking my Path of Self Correction to realign to Oneness and Equality and What is best for All

I commit myself to, if I should see that this Character still exists and My Mind offers me to step into it in full gear, to stop, Breathe, remind myself that as this Character I have nothing of value or worth to share or give or Breathe into existence, so I keep my mouth shut and Breathe myself back into the Physical and I commit myself to not speak until I am sure I have no reactions or links to this Character and if need be, to reopen this File until this Character is forever deleted, for myself as Life and All of Existence, Equal and One.

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