Day 279: I Can't Hear You because I insist on Being Me

I have experienced resistance and stress at the idea of seeing the lady that comes to me for massage.

She has mental problems and is on medication and when she comes she loops into the same questions over and over until I reach the irritation point.

The 'put yourself in her shoes' has not worked so far because I have put MySelf in her shoes and tried to address her questions as Me, which was impossible, the answer that would trigger me to a realization were only sending her deeper into depression and then, when I felt responsible for her and her depression due to how poorly I was handling this communication, I blamed her and the resistance to seeing her started to build up.

Then I had a chat with a friend and I saw what he was saying to me so clearly that I felt ashamed for how I had gone about this point.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think that if I could be triggered into a self realization by some specific words or sentences, so should others, just because they would have worked for me instead of stopping myself from looking for ways to 'trigger' me to self realize something and the extend it to another but just bring myself Here so I can effectively Hear what is going on with this being AS me and address it as me

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think that she 'didn't want to get it' because I feared I was unable to communicate with her effectively and instead of taking self responsibility I rather blamed her for not getting my answer vs me not getting her questions

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think that if someone comes to me for support and I judge my support as not effective enough to help them to sort their mind out, I am being ineffective instead of seeing realizing and understanding I can't change another nor it is my job to but to stand in stability without going into reactions about why they are not changing to what I see would be most beneficial for them and their health

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that when I insist on being me, fishing through my life experiences for support in a moment when I allow myself to drift into my Mind for solutions, I can't hear what is being said to me because I am not Here but in my Mind filtering everything that is spoken through my own filters, judgements and past experiences

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand the difference between putting myself in someone's shoes vs being Here as them which is not the same thing, as when I put Me in their shoes I'm still Me and if I am Me I am separate and unable to hear what is going on Here that I need to address to what is best for all

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to insist on shaking this lady out of her comfort zone in the belief that this is what she needed, because that is what I would have needed, and when I saw the sign of extreme distress to blame it on her as someone who doesn't want to change instead of seeing my responsibility for what I was attempting to do that was causing distress in another for absolutely no good reason

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to move myself into resistance at the idea of seeing this lady again because I made her responsible for how I perceived myself as ineffective and unsuccessful in helping her sort out herself in and as her mind, instead of seeing and realizing that I can only stand as an example of someone who is not battered and victimized by my own mind for her to see solutions to herself, if she is seeking for them and wants to make the decision to change and hence I was resisting having to face that I do not stand as an example because I was allowing myself to react to the point that she is not changing and for reacting to the fact that she is not changing out of her depression, I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to feel ashamed when the penny dropped and I saw that I have in fact been abusing her for my own personal desire to be one that can 'change people' as a healer vs just being Here to Hear what another says beyond my personalities, desires and expectations

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear the point that she tries to make people around her responsible for her health without seeing, realizing and understanding she can't make me responsible for her unless I take on the responsibility in wanting to be more than I am for my own personal self aggrandisement which has nothing to do with what she is doing at any moment in time but with what I am allowing to boost myself and my Ego, which is then followed by a fall when my secret desires for her improvement as a testimony that I am effective and good at what I do, fail to show up

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I am not good at sorting her and her depression out, she will go and badmouth me and I may lose my chance to build up a good reputation for me and within this for taking on the responsibility to sort her out to hold on to a good reputation and then resenting her and blaming her for having given me the responsibility of herself vs me having taken on this responsibility for self interest and fear for my future

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to spend hours in my mind thinking up all the speeches I could give her to make sure she understands that she is not my responsibility, when in fact it is me that didn't understand that she is not my responsibility due to my self interest in having her sorted out as a good reference for future clients and that when that became threatened and I feared she may be not pleased with what she received from me, to move into a defensive stance from which I could no longer Hear her as I was too busy trying to cover all my bases, and for this, I forgive myself

When and as I see myself faced with the point of interacting with another within a frame of a service that I give in exchange for money and I see I am moving or about to move into some fear, I stop, breathe, see realize and understand that I have to give a service at the best of my ability as a stance of who I am and not for any return of energy as positive feedback or good emotional return and when I see that I am moving into that expecting space, I stop, breathe, and bring myself back Here in and as Breath

When and as I see myself trying to read in between the words of another, in between the lines, looking for the fine print, I stop, breathe, see that I am in fact not Here because all those activities happen in and as me as the Mind, so I stop as the decision to stop and return myself Here to participate with what is real and not what I am making up or attempting to make up in and as me as the Mind

When and as I see myself wanting to have a specific outcome from a situation in the hope that I will feel good about myself and satisfied, I stop, breathe, remind myself that any expectation I set up for a future outcome sets me up for a disappointment, instead I practice being Here more consistently in and as Breath to face the moment for what it is and address it for an outcome that is best for All

I commit myself to catch myself when I try to be 'Me' as support for another so that I may STOP my Me-ness which is a point of separation and not a point of support for myself or others so, use breathing to earth myself so that I may expand myself beyond my Me boundaries and embrace what is Here in every moment of Breath

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Day 277: Putting an End to Scaring Others

This is a follow up to my Post of Day 274 - Scare tactics are Not Acceptable

The first reason why I want to change this point about me is because I see that when I step into this Character, I am not Here, I am not present, I busy myself with digging out the weaknesses of others to make my attacks more effective, for the results I am aiming for, which is to manipulate them to do what I want, even if I justify this point as 'I did it for their own good', because in fact when I push to move someone into Fear, no good can come of that, as they will be just Fearful and unable to Hear a potential solution that I could speak as myself, simply sharing honestly how I overcame a specific point, if I did, and if I didn't just keep my mouth shut because I have nothing of value to share that I have lived through and not just made up an opinion or an idea about.

So, taking up the points from my previous blog

Fear Dimension

'We wanted to talk to you' or 'I wanted to talk to you', spoken either by my mother or my grandparents, this was usually anticipating a long convoluted chat, during which I would be indoctrinated in what I was supposed to Fear, usually fears would relate to Future events, to consequences of me NOT doing what they "saw" was best for me, those words spoken in a specific 'calming' fashion would scare me shitless. 

First because since they had been 'so nice', in theory, there was no reason for me to fear what they were about to say when in fact at some level I knew I was about to sit for a Mind Control session against my will, second because I accepted and allowed myself to believe that I was not in charge of my emotional experience and hence I had to sit and be battered by emotions and feelings as they saw fit to stir, until I would surrender in the grips of an anxiety attack.

My grandparents parading for me the worst possible future outcomes for my life and then saying 'we are saying this for your own good, trust us'

A memory of preparing to sit on the couch for 'one of our talks', fearing the talk, fearing not pleasing them because they were the strongest Money point in my family line, fearing to lose everything of my future if I didn't make myself endure 'that moment' with enough grace

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to connect the words 'I want to talk to you about something' to Fear in anticipation of what will be said that might trigger me into some personality/characters, instead of taking self responsibility for who I am in every moment of breath without moving into anticipating possible outcomes so I can set up a possible defense line, which means I expect to be attacked/harmed

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear people who I gave up my power to having conversations with me because I fear how I could experience myself as a result of our interaction, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding, I am in charge of my experience and I can decide if I jump into or not whatever is offered for my participation

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear sitting through conversations that I have made up an opinion about. anticipating an attempt to manipulate me or to make me responsible for someone else's feelings and emotions, instead of seeing and realizing I am the only one that can manipulate myself into a specific experience of feelings and/or emotions

Thought/Memory Dimension

The aftermath of my mother shouting and screaming coming to seek peace and harmony by saying 'please see I say this for your own good'

A memory of myself back in my room angry and anxious and my mother calmed down walking in to explain WHY she behaved that way and how she always had 'my good' at heart, I must remember this

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to resent my mother for trying to patch things up after she blew a fuse using the sentence 'please see that I am saying/doing this for your own good'

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear my family based on memories of events in which I perceived I had been manipulated into specific feelings and emotions instead of realizing it was always me giving in to creating an emotional experience out of thoughts I accepted and allowed within me, as me

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to hold on to memories of myself angry at my mother for good reasons, because I blamed her for how I experienced myself after she blew a fuse instead of realizing it was nothing personal and that taking her outbursts personally was my deliberate decision so I could blame her and I would not have to be responsible for the way I experienced myself

Imagination Dimension

One day I will go away from Italy and I won't have to sit through this crap anymore.

Imagining how free I would feel away from Italy, all the things I could do without this constant brainwashing about fake morality of people who preached well and did not apply it

Imagining how soon the chat will end, skipping to the end and what I should say to pretend I was in agreement so they would leave me alone

Imagining not feeling this way anymore when I would be finally freed from the control of my family

Imagining that I would not have to worry about any of those things because my grandparents would die and I would inherit enough to live as they kept telling me -so- why are we even talking about my future.

My future is guaranteed, I have nothing to worry about

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to imagine that one day I would go away from Italy, making Italy the origin of my problems and of my experience of myself, diverting on a country my own responsibility, victimizing myself to the point of seeing the solution to myself only away from here, which led to the consequence of resenting coming back here as I saw, realized and understood, I was back to where I left and I would have to deal with the experience of me AND the blame for this country which was never in fact responsible for how I perceived myself as a loser in a world where I did not have access to the 'Best Lives' available but had to make do with the left overs

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to see all my problems solved once I would leave Italy as I believed I could leave behind the fake morality I was taught just by going away instead of seeing and realizing I had become the fake morality I accepted and allowed myself to be imprinted with and that I would have to correct myself to free myself no matter where I lived

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself, when in conversation with my family, to imagine in my mind when it would be over, blaming them for how I was experiencing myself as powerless and with no choice having to sit through the brainwashing, instead of seeing and realizing I sat willingly through the brainwashing hoping to secure the loot for my future so I could trade fears, trading the one to be brainwashed for the one about my future, which was bigger, which I perceived as unsorted and uncertain and out of my power to direct

Internal conversations, backchats, voices in the head

Do I have to sit through this crap AGAIN?

What do I have to say to make you stop?

They are doing it for my own good

They know what is best for me

They don't know what is best for me

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to listen to voices in my head as if they were me, powering them with emotions and feelings with regards to my family, convincing myself that I believed in their good intentions in the hope to stay in their good books and have my future assured, when in fact I did not believe anything they said

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to lose myself in my mind in a spiteful commentary, so I could make myself powerful and not acknowledge how powerless I felt for having to sit through useless conversation with my family just as an investment in my future

Reaction Dimensions

Feeling of Impotence - I have to sit through this

Feeling of being cheated into sitting nicely for brainwashing, Anger

Fearing the talk

Anger at myself for saying I did understand why they were doing that for 'my own good', when in fact I couldn't understand how would anyone scare people for their own good - how does that work?

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to react to conversations with my family in which FEAR played a major role, with a sense of powerlessness, of being brainwashed, of anger, when in fact I was deliberately reacting to cover up my fear of being manipulated placing on others the burden of my experience as I didn't want to take responsibility for myself and how I experienced myself at all times, because I didn't have the tools to do so

Behavior Dimensions

Tightening of the chest

Stomach cramps

Grinding of teeth

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to create Physical consequences for myself such as tightening of the chest, stomach cramps, grinding of teeth and for stressing and harming my physical body while participating in and as the Mind I forgive myself

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that it was acceptable for me to do unto others what was done to me as manipulating through FEAR, because I decided that it was effective, I decided that I had in fact effectively been manipulated through Fear and that the outcome of me was not my responsibility but my family's, and for blaming my family and making them responsible for who I am today, I forgive myself

Looking at How did I replicate this Character for myself and when and how do I activate it to manipulate others

Scaring my partners that I will leave them as a consequence of Their behavior/potential behaviour

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to scare my partners telling them/hinting to them, implying that I would leave unless they complied to what I wanted which I saw as due to me and their responsibility so I could feel good about myself instead of making it my responsibility to take care of myself at all levels

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to, even when I saw how distressing this was to my ex husband the first time I told him I was leaving and he locked himself in the bathroom and cried his eyes out, to not stop myself, to not change and stop making others scared to make them do what I wanted them to do to please some of my characters and personalities, and for the shame that I feel about this point as I write, I forgive myself
 

Scaring children I was looking after to make them do what I wanted - told myself this was cool because I did not use the very scary thing some of my family used to scare me with (FOXES) , hence I was better than my family

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to scare children that were entrusted to me, either physically or verbally to make them do what I wanted them to do instead of taking the time to talk common sensically to them as equals and find together what would be best for all, and for not teaching the children I have come in touch with how to come to common agreements as Equals, but exerting my authority just because I could, I forgive myself
 

Scaring friends by projecting for them a future they would not like so they would do what I saw was best for them now

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to scare my friends regarding a possible, potential future of Doom and Gloom, so I could feel important about myself as a mind reader, psychic, someone in the Know, and for justifying myself regarding scaring my friends with stories about how I did it for them when in fact I did it for me, to feel more and find extra value for myself, I forgive myself 

Scaring someone I don't know by saying I will call the police as a consequence of their behavior

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to scare someone I don't know in person by threatening them to call 'the police' or any other authority figure, to make sure they would step back in line, and for using and supporting the same tactics the system is using with all of us in the face of how disempowered I accepted and allowed them to make me feel, and for attempting to  disempower another so I could feel better about myself, I forgive myself
 

Writing scary letters exposing all the "nasty truth" about someone so they will come to their senses for their own good

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to write scary letters to people I know, pointing out all their faults, all their wrong doings in an attempt to make them fear-full and of diminishing them so I could feel more and better about myself, and for filing faults for future use in one of my scary tactics attacks I forgive myself

I commit myself to, when and as I see myself moving or about to move into the desire to scare another for whatever reason, to stop, breathe, see what I have accepted and allowed myself to be scared about that triggered me to move into this character, do not accept myself to step into my old behavior and breathe through the fear until its energy dissipates

I commit myself to no longer scare others to make myself feel safer, better, more powerful, less frightened and to walk myself consistently through breath and corrective application out of this Character, to stand as a point of giving as I would like to receive, for myself and all of existence, Equal and One.

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Day 273: Scaring Others for "Their Own Good" - Character

A few days ago something happened in which I moved deliberately to 'scare another for their own good'. It was he result of a reaction and as such for sure a Character, for a while I justified myself that I had good reasons to do that because I was doing it 'for their own good when in Fact, when is it ever a good reason to scare someone to make them do something that I have concluded and judged to be for their own good?

During one of our chats, when someone asked, 'what should I tell my mother about death?', the answer was 'tell her to not be afraid of death', in which a quiet backchat went 'why, shouldn't we scare EVERYONE with Death so They Change? - I am scared myself!'. Frightening.

Isn't this what we have done to each other so far, using Death to manipulate the lives of the apparent living ones, using Fear to move and motivate.

I am ashamed of myself.

Obviously being ourselves the product of people who used specific triggers to get us to 'do something' that they deemed to be 'best for us', we cannot but predictably have picked up on the tools they have used.

Where else would we learn how to maneuver this world to our advantage?


The Problem

The problem with this specific trait is that I keep spreading this sickening Fear that has turned the world into what it is today, as the documentary "Human resource - Engineering Humans for the 21st century" states 'The driving force of this world is Not Love, it's FEAR", and I participate in keeping it alive in others, even wishing that we would use it as a group weapon 'scare them to death', fuck, that's sad, we are already doing that, we have to do something else for this world as myself to change.

The Solution

The solution is to go and dig inside myself to see how I have accepted and allowed myself to be programmed to be moved by Fear and in turn to use it a tool against others, because I could and because I could always justify it with the same lines that were given to me "I'm doing this for your own good, DEAR', when in fact I am doing it for my own good, to make sure that people align to either one of my expectation/desire/opinion whatever it is that I want to achieve. So I have to dig out of myself the original microchips and delete them and replace them with a new script that I can walk whenever I find myself faced again with the 'about to scare Youuuuu' program.

The Reward

I can stand as a point that no longer spreads Fear into others for my own personal wants and needs

I can create more compassionate relationships as I would have liked others to have with me

I will be able to not experience shame for what I see and realize that I am doing as I step into this automated behavior

I won't need to come up with improbable excuses and justifications about why, really, I was doing it for their own good, because that is just crap and totally self dishonest

I won't have to experience regret for having done again that thing I do for the 'good of another'

I can change, this trait of myself is not what is best for All and it has no reason to exist or myself exist one and equal to it.

Tomorrow I will follow up with Self Forgiveness walking this Character in detail

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Day 248: Moving Beyond Duality - Imagination vs Reality - Fear vs Desteni

I can talk from real life experience here.

My very first post on the Desteni website was 'are you aware guys of how much fear are you spreading?'. It's odd to look back now because I almost can't relate to that post anymore, I remember writing it, I remember even where I was when I did, sitting on my couch on a tropical island high on pot, still trying to imagine how Positive I was and how My Positivity and staying focused on the Positive was going to change the World.

The Positive Movement is Not a Proof of Our Intelligence in any way whatsoever, many of us followers or ex followers of such Movements did not even have the excuse that we did not understand the intrinsic Dualistic Nature of Reality, and yet, we I'm-Agined that we could focus/create the positive alone and overcome the negative, not that we would be creating both and then desperately try and stick to the Positive only while pushing the Negative under the carpet, disowning it, turning the other Cheek and pointing fingers at the Negative that would pop up in the World to show us what we were doing, Nope, THAT was Not Our Creation, we were the ones creating the Positive, sure thing, then Someone Else out there was sitting down in meditation just Like Us, and thinking up negative stuff, yes, that was it, Creation 101. Thanks God for ME!

On this point I had an encounter on my last trip to one of Matrix Energetics classes, one gentleman was distressed about a whole bunch of people playing with 'the Field', his concern was that if the Field was Finite and we were taking out all the goodies from it, what would happen to those who couldn't do so, and basically, what right did we have to take out all the goodies for ourselves and leave the bad, the shit, the nasty karma for others to live out, who said we were more entitled to the "good" of this world than others?

At the time being the Positive Cheerleader I was, I told him his worries were just imaginary, this was a good benevolent existence and everyone would get their share of goods, they would just have to 'focus on it', imagine it and not let negativity run their lives -obviously I was not considering the sick, the starving, the ones born on the outskirts of this Money system, but when anything else failed there was always Abraham's teaching -coming out a bit short on this one in the face of Existential Questions by the way-, we all chose the lives we live, don't worry, we are just having a ride, it's all cool.

In a way it's even true -bar the it's all cool part-, but how come we can't see how we are held captive to contracts that were signed through con-sciousness, if this was a ride, why can't we remember How We got Here and Why? Would that make the starving, the violence, the abuse and conflict any way more FUN?

I want to underline that at the time I was the kind of person who would run the tap water unnecessarily without closing it while doing other things in the kitchen, always eliciting irritation in my ex husband, to which I responded 'I don't believe in scarcity, I support abundance', this didn't help my passing on my 'positive opinions and MindSet' within my Reality based family as something Sane, as not believing in the scarcity of Finite Resources is a sign of a Mental health issues resulting from Imagining Life and the Universe vs Landing into it and checking against reality if what I make up/Imagine has any foundation in the Real Physical One Reality we all share beyond Opinions -unless we superimpose them on it, just like I showed I used to do- or if it's just my own Disney Movie in the Hollywood production of my Mind.

When I met Desteni I was already in the process of questioning the True Nature of Creation and of ourselves. As much as I would have liked to blame it all on God/ the Universe/ or the randomness of what brought us here, Here WE were, a pitiful example of what Humanity is vs what we Imagined it to be, insisted in fact on wanting to Imagine it to be, kind -as in HumanKind- good hearted, wanting each other's best,  and basically being inherently Good.

I had mental problem as well, we could call them mental dis-orders if we wouldn't be so scared to call things what they are, I had started to have flashes of images in my Mind, to explain it in computer terms, I had a full loaded Memory of which I was no longer in charge, imagine a computer virus that while you are working will just shut down the programs you are using and run its own, to say the least I was scared shitless.

What especially scared me was that even though I had been an avid reader all my life, I never came across Mind-disorders described as mine, these image flashing of which I was not in control, repetitive Thought Patterns as images and obviously each Image had a story attached to it, so I would spend my days running from one story in my Mind to the next, all based on my Imagination, not that I imagined pigs flying, no, I just imagined past stories and experienced them in strings that seemed sequentially meaningless, like randomly burping up reel thoughts, having a movie in my head that I could no longer stop that was made of bits and pieces of my life, mostly the shitty ones, the ones where I saw I could have done better, be different, act differently, speak differently and yet I had not and now I was condemned to the Playback of my Life while I only had the power to sit and watch in dismay. 

Of course my Pot use increased as the images in my mind became more random to try and push them back wherever they came from, and as I increased my Pot use the images gained power and finally I felt beaten, I resigned to this excuse of a life in which nothing was new anymore, where when walking anywhere, even to my bathroom everything had a meaning and a story attached to it already, for example my toothbrush, no longer a toothbrush but the memory of when my ex husband would squeeze the toothpaste on it for me as he did for himself, and this happened for every object in my life, the most meaningless menial object had a story and then a commentary to show me what I had lost, what I had missed out on, what I failed, my life had a whole new MEANing and it was not cool at all.

It took me 1 year to go back to Desteni, I could never dismiss their message in self honesty, it was so clear, consistent, and yes, absolutely totally frightening.

The Demons part was the center piece of my Fears, that too was based in my Imagination of what the demonic was and how I better run from it with all my power, interestingly once I overcame my fears it was one of my favorite parts, one of the most straightforward about Human Nature and why Demons ended up losing respect for us, the wimps of existence, not a pretty picture of ourselves but very informative, not to discount that if Demons could walk out of this duality crap, so can we, so it had an inspiring unexpected twist to it too.

Before taking the plunge and trying out the Desteni Tools, who were given to me for Free and that I chose to use and was in no way coerced or convinced or prompted or brainwashed to do so,  I wandered for 1 year trying to Not go back to it, I wished I could find something else to sort myself out, a miracle, a Holy Water, someone that agreed with me that they were loonies -found them too!- and yet they became my backchat, the point of no return that I feared getting close to and above all I feared what I would lose and miss out on, it took having nothing left to miss out on for me to move and approach them again.

"Do you know how much fear are you spreading around guys?", what I meant was 'do you know how much you scare me, do you know how much I would like you to say you were joking, that I don't have to give it all up -the delusion of me- that I can keep some bits and pieces, the ones I like -hard to pick by then-, do you know I scared I am that I will be laughed at, ridiculed for being part of a Cult, do you know they are telling damning stories about you and why on earth they didn't manage to con-vince me so I could dismiss You and Your message, that I have lived a life of Self Interest and in this I have separated myself from the whole and now I am left with a Hole as my existence that I can't fill with anything, food or pot, sex or mushrooms, nothing works anymore' and yet I hate that I came to Desteni at the end of the rope, I wish I had the common sense to Self Direct myself there but I didn't, because the Fear was too great and only when the Fear of my Life became greater than  the Fear of Desteni, they became a viable choice, the only choice left for me in fact.

It's been more than 1 year now since I started this process, many things have changed for me, I am building myself up into a stronger core, into trusting myself more, at least I trust that if not immediately I will be self honest about what is going on with me eventually and through self honesty I will be able to start to work out how I can correct myself, my Self, as each Self is called to Self correct to change this world that is nothing else but the sum of all the Selves for which we have refused so far to take responsibility for.

What I discovered by pushing through my fears is that Fear is my creation, it is through I'm-agining Life vs living Life that we build ourselves into Fear and then from Fear we built this world, as we fear who we are and then have internal conflicts between all our Imaginary Parts -talk about Mental dis-eases- we express into the world this very essence of ourselves, Conflicts and Fear, you don't have to look too far to see this, we have embraced a culture of War, a Gun culture, a conflict culture and then we disguise it all with diplomacy or with Liberal speeches like President Obama shows us, all talk about how good we are and how well we are doing and that is Our Imagination at work, we are Imagining to be those people we would like to be, the Warriors of Evil, Freedom Fighters, Democracy Bringers, in truth we are what the world is showing us, Conflict and Fear plagued creatures, seeking the Positive because we were born into the Negative experience of ourselves (how else would we seek the positive and find it even appealing if we were Positively charged when coming into this World? Think electricity and opposing charges attracting each other...) too scared to say that this is what we are and look for solutions to change ourselves.

If you are seeking for a way out of your I'm-agination of yourself because you have realized who you would like to be and beLieve yourself to be is not even close to who you really are and are ready to start to walk in and as Self Correction to realign yourself to Oneness and Equality of the Physical Here, join Desteni Lite, it's free, someone will assist to lay out the foundation for you to write yourself to freedom, out of your Mind, into the Reality that is One and we all share Equally, it's Here where we'll find the Solutions to ourselves and this World as Us and not up there in Imagination-Land as we try every trick of the trade to not Land and face who we  accepted and allowed ourselves to become just to find out that Nothing Works, until we become Self Honest and admit that we have screwed up and set out to make right what we know it's not right and that is each and every Self on this planet until we'll go back beyond the Imaginary Separation we created to Oneness and Equality as the Truth of Ourselves and All of Existence as Life, One and Equal.

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• Day 268: Trust and the Laws of Physics