Day 344: Is the Freedom We Seek Someone Else's Enslavement?

When I was a kid my mum told me that 'My Freedom ends where others freedom begins'.

It is very difficult to put the 'idea' of Freedom in writing unless I look at it from the perspective of what Is Not Freedom.

A particular point of my perception of lack of freedom rose up in the past few days, it went all the way into physical manifestation of discomfort, of constriction.

For a few days I resisted looking at this point because I could find good reasons why I was in fact really constricted and why really my freedom was under attack by unwelcome schedules and repetitions.

Of course complaining about it felt petty, since people who have in their belt 24 years of jail like Nelson Mandela told of how he managed to feel like a free man, proving that our perceived enslavement when we are not physically restricted in any way, and even when we are, is just a fabrication of our Mind.

Although one may note that there is a form on enslavement going on on our planet that goes way beyond the economic enslavement we have manifested, we are Prisoners of Our Own Minds, we are jailed within Ideas and Beliefs and Opinions about Others and the World, we are jailed by our own definitions of words such as 'Freedom' and what that meant to me until someone pushed for me the point of constriction until the bubble burst into memories as the blueprint of my feelings of constriction/encagement aka engagement to my own Mind.

I am a kid, forced into summer camp, usually an only, lonely child suddenly thrown into group dynamics, into kids as results of all sorts of households, little bullies who couldn't care less about Jesus and being good because they had already learnt that while good people go to heaven, the bad ones go everywhere, get everything and they were molding themselves to become successful world abusers.

So I withdrew into myself and waited for the time to go home.

Another memory, I am a kid, my mum left me with my cousins, they were all friends bar me, I was the last arrival, their mother always taking their side -my mother always taking other kids side, when is my fucking turn-, spent days sitting on the stairway to the road gate wishing my mother to walk through it, uplifting myself from the whole experience, creating a sort of waiting room inside myself where I am queuing up to go home, I know I will go home, it's just a matter of time, so I go through the motion, polite but to myself, mingle but never to the point of possible conflict, I am just doing time, until I will be Free again.

Another memory, rolling over in the big bed with my mum, I am about 13, she asks what's wrong and I say 'I want to be free', she asks me to define freedom - I realize I have no clue, I know I can't miss the chance to get My Freedom, she is willing to show me that I am Free and I am willing to show her I am not. I say 'I want to go for a walk', she said 'go', it was 10 in the evening, summertime, I get dressed and walk downstairs to the courtyard and then out of the gate, I'm out, but not free, because now I am worried about the limits of this Freedom, my mum didn't give me a curfew but it was in the air, there was an expectation that my walk should happen within a 'Reasonable' amount of time, so now I have 2 words undefined 'Freedom' and 'Reasonable', I walk fast, Not Feeling Free at all, feeling in fact tormented about how long can I stay out, what is the limit I am not supposed to cross because the limit was there, unspoken. I meet a friend of a friend and we start talking and walking together, by the time I return home my mother is in her pajamas out of the gate looking for me, my heart races, this is the end of my Freedom, the poor guy doesn't understand he says -'why are you so worried, I will explain everything' yeah, right, we get to the gate, he has a silly smile on his face and says 'don't worry ma'am, she was with me :)'...'and who the fuck are you??? Better move along boy' he stopped smiling and left, I instead crossed all the courtyard kicked in my ass by my mother, so long for Freedom...

So, there you go, enslaved to memories about perceived Lack of Freedom, a Slave of My Mind, so logically my best definition of Freedom is isolation, it's where nothing hijacks my mind, where I am in control and there aren't people pressing triggers here and there uninvited, like they were welcome to do so when they are Not, has been a hassle this life to keep it all together, I could have ended up crazy like my mother and if I didn't is because I didn't allow people to walk all over the minefield that I have become, their Freedom to do so end with my Freedom to not be done so and yet I missed the simplicity of sorting out my triggers as The Road to Freedom, because no one has power over us unless we accept it and allow it by NOT sorting ourselves out, which make us Enslaved and not Free, we are Never Free if we take thing personally or if we can be 'moved' by emotions and feelings to do or not do something.

We walk our lives not seeing this point and so others who have realized our big 'Freedom' chip-on-our-shoulders go to any length to Sell it to us, we have Freedom and Democracy, we have Freedom from Pain, Freedom Fighters, Freedom clothes, lifestyles, the Freedom of Choice, All those Freedoms are Lies because they are costing someone else their Freedom, their Lives and so it should have become obvious that That is not the Freedom we seek when we look for breakthroughs -from what?- or evasion -from where?-, it's ironic that we are willing to buy what we could give to ourselves for Free - but we don't.

Then How do we believe that the Freedom we are not willing to Grant to Ourselves for FREE, can be given to Us by those who Own the World and are not into the predicament to give it away for Free anytime soon, since it's a sellout product, and use ever imaginative ways to prove to us that we are Free and that we Can Buy More Freedom if we just Invest in It, or else that we are at risk to lose our Freedom, the one we fear to lose but that we know We Never Had, just to have someone go to jail for 24 years come out  and tell you that he was the Freest man he met, because he freed himself from his own fears, hatred, pettiness, spitefulness and stood up for a World that Would Work for All - but it didn't come True because the Freedom he hoped to teach others and give to All, can't be given, can't be bought, it's a Free Gift, you just must be willing for-giving it to Yourself and All Equally.
And that is the Only Enslavement-Free Freedom that Really Exists.

Day 72: Tolle Teachings, Cashing in on Good Feelings and Acceptance

A simple but radical spiritual practice is to accept whatever arises in the Now — within & without. ~E. Tolle

There is plenty of evidence going around that is spelling that what is in fact 'arising in the Now' is NOT What is Best for All, and Not even What is Best for the people who are giving in to committing such crimes.

We know too little about Consciousness, What it is and How it Works to Trust that everything that arises from it is in fact Good and Acceptable.

Yesterday there was a news about a

Russian mother of 30 who threw her hids from the 15th floor because she just had enough of them.

These are Today's News

A man brutally attacked a grandmother with a Machete in her home

Chases neighbour before strangling and eating his dog

Gunman gave a sarcastic laugh after pulling the trigger and killing Indian Student at Close Range

A former police detective battered his partner senseless with a baseball bat in front of their two children and then stabbed her in the throat

An eight-month-old baby is recovering in hospital after having both her hands chopped by grandmother who then attempted suicide

Our Mind are Mine Fields that we have set up for and as ourselves that are going to show us, Who Is Boss, unless We become the Boss of ourselves by becoming Self responsible Human being, realigning what we have weaved into a Spider Web of Energetic relationship, back into Equality and Oneness and What is Best for All.

At the moment we are in No Way Able to stand and Trust ourselves as The Mind, not even for making the conscious choice for example to NOT be racist, as racism exist at other levels of ourselves that may be not conscious and of which we may be not conscious about.

Racism is hardwired into the Human Brain and people can be prejudiced without knowing it

We are hardwired for separation, it will have to be through our own Self Will and Self Directive principle to Stand Up and Stop.

The above are just examples of individuals losing it, but as within, so without, everything seems to have lost some marbles (or all of them), the Corporates are geared for Profit above What is Best for All and What would be supportive for Life, Politics has been swallowed by the Money system and so has Democracy, of which the World has never seen not even a pale example, the Money System has taken a Life of its own, from which we have separated ourselves and we have made ourselves in no way able to tackle this Monster that is now swallowing Life and lives as it moves unchecked through the World and every single World System, from education, to healthcare, to science, bending them to the service of The Profit Making Law Ruling the World.

And so for Mr. Tolle and the others who are Tolling around, cashing in on the good feelings that they sell, please STOP, you are doing a great disservice to yourself and to Life, Life is NOT about feeling good and Living the Dream, as that is just a consumer sales pitch, Life is about considering All Equally and giving what we would like to receive, and becoming aware that what in fact arises within and without is becoming every day more inhumane and we cannot accept this as 'The Way Things Are' because in this we become the very Demons the World is filled with and is mirroring back to Us, instead it is Time to Stop our Demonic Race to nowhere, having  accepted and allowed to separate ourselves from everythng that exists to the point that we are no longer aware that all that is arising within and without is Self, One and Equal, and each one of us has the responsibility to fix themselves and re-fit into the puzzle as worthy self responsible Human Beings, then a World that is Worth living in will be born for Life and What is best for All.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react to images of the violence and the Demonic side of Humanity, desiring to separate myself from what is going on in the world because I don't want to be a part of it as I rather be apart from it, instead of realizing that the World is mirroring me as Self and what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become and that Hell won't stop until I stop my existence as a Devourer of Life, seeking for Experiences and Following Desires that I call Life but that are not Life as Life exists only Here in and as Breath, One and Equal for All

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I am better than the people that are in the news displaying in full force their Demonic Side, as the de-manned side of themselves, showing the extent of possession we can go to if giving in to Consciousness as The Mind, and that just because I engaged in the polarity of Good and Feeling Good I am in no way associated with the Ones who have been left with the polarity of Bad and Feeling Bad, that led them through acts of Evil, Equal and One to my own participation in the 'Good End of the Stick' as the Mind Consciousness System

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel bad when looking at the Demonic news of what is going on in the world, because feeling bad allows me to think and believe that I am good, because I feel bad, instead of seeing that whatever I feel I am charging the Mind Consciousness System with Energy that I mine out of my own physical substance and so I am as much an Abuser of Life as anyone else on the Planet

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself in the past to seek for those 'feel good' crap teachings because I desired to NOT look at the world and the state it is in, because even when I perceived I paid my due and felt bad about it, I was always left with the sense that maybe possibly we should do something about it but did not know what as I had judged myself as useless and hopeless within this system to Change anything, failing to see that this Change has to start with and as Me

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Fear what is ahead of us and the manifested consequences we are going to face for what we have done to ourselves and each other as One, while we lived our careless Lifes of Desires and Experiences believing that it was the Life we were supposed to live and strive for

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fail to notice that if I had this extensive desire to Feel Good it was because I was never Fine with this world and the way things are, and that Feeling Good was my escape from the Reality of existence as Our Manifested Consequences, because I accepted and allowed myself to believe that I only had 2 choices, to feel bad or to feel good, failing to see that I was imprinted with the Desire to feel Good as the basis for me to accept the Consumerism System that would then SELL me the Feeling Good experiences that I could buy by selling myself out and keeping quiet about this world and the state of existence

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to watch my mum struggle with Life, trying to make sense of it as she was a miss-fit like me and for willingly embracing the system as me in fear that I would end up like her, from one psichosis to depression, while if I jumped on the bandwagon of the system, the system would take care of me and provide for me like it promised to all who toed the line

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear turning out like my mum in her dis-ease for Life as it is, that I made myself look for excuses and reasons to make sense of this senseless existence by seeking and  joining all the Soothsayers of the World that talked about Love and Hope and why it All In Fact Made sense even though evidence was everywhere that IT DID NOT but I chose to close my eyes and NOT look or I would have to question this existence and myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to despise myself for seeking peace in a world at war, where my own wars and conflict I kept suppressed and hidden because I did not want to face the point that I was existing in and as conflict within myself and I did not know how to self correct myself as existence without the tools that I have been given by Desteni, and so I just did nothing and sought my own peace, making myself a piece of the problem and not a part of the Solution

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel guilty when I agree with my mum when she tellls me that we have to look for the good in the world otherwise this existence wouldn't make sense, because I feared not agreeing and being the cause of her breakdown instead of the support that I believed I was by agreeing that there is GOOD in this world, even though all the good was self interest in action and investments to be collected at a later date

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel guilty and ashamed for agreeing with my mum in fear that she may lose it again and as she said 'throw herself off the balcony' unless she could make sense and justify this existence, and so I suppress myself when she tells me she doesn't want to watch movies like 'The Millionaire' in which the background of Misery runs in the background as the Truth of this world, and this would make her Feel Bad, and instead I support the sharing of the Feel Good Movies that tell stories of redemption and how Life does in fact make sense, because I rather not rock the boat at home to a point where I fear I won't be able to give proper support

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel guilty because I second my mum because within this system if she cracked again there is noone able to offer proper support, because everything has been turned into a Money making practice, including psychological support to people that suffer from Mind Imbalances, and I fear introducing Self Forgiveness because she has already mocked me for it and failed to see the point, believing that what we do is atonement and she has done enough of it, instead of seeing Self Forgiveness is Not Atonement and is Not Self Blame, it is the crossing over from irresponsible Mind Controlled Machines into Self Response-Ability, it's the building up and correction of oneself to realign to Oneness and Equality and What is Best for All

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear sharing the practice of self Forgiveness, in fear of being labelled as a Member of a Cult, instead of seeing I have lived a life as a member of a Cult, the Cult of Culture, the Cult of Capitalism, the Cult of the religion of Self and Freedom of Choice and I am just now walking out of all Cults, so I can become Me as Life, Here in and as Breath, no longer supporting the Cult-ish existence of this World to the Money God and restoring Self Trust to myself by walking in and as the correction for myself and All of Existence Equal and One.

I commit myself to show that what we believed was valuable as in 'Feeling Good' in fear of 'Feeling Bad' IS NOT real, that our Imagined Freedom of Choice is a Trap that polarizes and divides us, making it impossible to Stand together as One for our Self as Life and the World, and that it is necessary to STOP our existence as what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become to Stand in and as Self Correction for ourselves and the World, for Life and What is Best for All, Equal and One.